Nov. 6, 2025

Finding Love After 40 : A Lost Cause or a New Beginning (Recorded Live On 11-5-25)

Finding Love After 40 : A Lost Cause or a New Beginning (Recorded Live On 11-5-25)
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Welcome to The This Might Hurt Podcast, where comfort zones come to die and real talk gets loud. Big Corleone is joined by Lady G, T.G. Love & Dubs Tha Don to break down the brutal, beautiful truth about finding love after 40. Is it a comeback story or a cautionary tale? The crew dives headfirst into dating fatigue, healing from old scars, and learning to love without the filters, games, or timelines. It’s raw. It’s uncut. It’s grown folks’ talk with zero sugarcoating because around here, real life ain’t always romantic because at some point This Might Hurt!

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Yeah, Hey, what's up everybody? How's everybody doing tonight? This

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is big Coleon hopes that this might her podcast coming

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to you live from you know how we do it here?

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Where the fuck you want to be live from? So good,

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I'm gonna bring in my lovely co host, p G Love.

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Let's bring her in right now? PG Love?

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What's up?

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How are you.

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Chilling?

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You're chilling? You're good?

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Yeah? I had a cat?

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Yeah yeah, I saw it off off line. That's how

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the catch is fucking with chie. How is your week?

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Uh, it's TOMP day, but it feels like it's been

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over over weeks already, So.

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Okay, all right, yeah that's cool.

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So just to you know, let everybody know, this week's

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primary topic is finding love after forty? Is it a

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lost cause or a new beginning for some for most?

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Whatever the case may be, how it is you want

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to look at it? And I mean, what happens after

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after forty? You know what I mean? What are the

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changes that people go through at that point in their lives?

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What do you think?

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I thank a lot, I mean, but it really depends

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on the person, because we all go through faces in

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our life at different ages, you know, like, twenties is

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definitely different, very different than the thirties, thirties or different

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than the forties, and you know, like our bodies are changing,

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the world around us is changing. So it's like all

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those things come into play with all of that. And

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also the big thing, I think if he's in your

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forties and you're and you still haven't like gone through

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some type of therapy for your trauma or your like

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issues whatever, like, if you're not working on that, then

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you know that's going to make it hard to be

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in a relationship or or like find love if you're

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not being real with yourself, right.

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So that that take that brings me to the first

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the first thing here, So actually knowing who you are

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is important. That's That's pretty much that's the gist of it,

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because in your twenties, love is often about finding yourself

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through someone else. Right by your by your forties, you've

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already done You've already done the work. You know your values,

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your boundaries, and what kind of energy you want and

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what you won't tolerate.

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You should anyway, right, you at least.

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That you should at least do that. So I think

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the bottom line of that is you're not chasing completion.

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You're looking more for connection, you know, because I think

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if you if you're looking to complete yourself, you're you're

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already you're already fucking your you're fucking your ship up.

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Because I think personally, you should be looking to build connections,

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not finding someone to complete you. You should already be

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not complete, but you should already be at a point

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in your life where experience and knowledge of self is vital,

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you know what I mean?

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Yeah, So I think like you just as a whole,

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like complete me. I think how I understanding feeling like

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someone would complete me is like they're going missing puzzle

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peace to the like that I want. So like, I

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don't think it has to be necessarily like they're going

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to take over parts of your life or weaknesses of

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yours or something like. It's more about like and it's

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just different, Like it's different for everybody, right, What are

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you looking for? Are you looking for something because you're rolling?

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Are you looking for something because you want a partnership,

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because you want a family, because you want uh, you know,

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a partner in crime, or you want to travel buddy,

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Like it all falls in line. I feel like I

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can't read any comments so.

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I'll I'll put it up on the on the screen.

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The yeah, like a Vieja coming up to the screen.

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Learning self love and self worth was definitely a big

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step of my forties. Yes, it's unfortunate for a lot

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of people it takes to your forties. I don't feel

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like it should take to your forties to recognize what

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your worst. But if we're talking about as jen xers,

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I feel like, yes, Unfortunately for a lot of us,

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it took this long because we for a lot of

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us only recently learned what trauma is and that we

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have been through it or have dealt with things that

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we're not okay in the past, and just realizing that

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how that affects you as a person, how that affects

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the way you do things, how you trust people, if

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you're loyal, Like these are I think all things that

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stem from you your past, you know, and and I

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feel like people should and we've talked about this a

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million times, like communicate those things. What are your expectations? Like,

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I don't think it's wrong to point, like state your expectations.

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Maybe our expectations are crazy, who knows, But if that

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person is just like yeah, no, I can't do that.

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I would rather know that because I would ideally want

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someone who could do those things.

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You know.

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Yeah, but I think what I understand that we understand

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what you're saying. I think also at at that age,

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at our age.

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I can't say at our age, at our age, I

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don't want to.

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I don't want to age you we're in I think

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we're in the same like you know, when it's like

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forty five to fifty four, like we're.

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In that bracket now. Unfortunately we're hitting in that bracket

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the free pre a RP subscription age you know who

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are right around there.

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Yeah, that's crazy, right, Yeah, And then I think it's

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a lot you want less drama and more peace in

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your life.

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You know, at this stage more people who love drama,

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So I don't some people they have is drama in

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their lives. That's the problem.

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I yes, it should, it should be less drama like

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as we say, grown being grown folk. But like for real,

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like I think, yes, in your forties, by that time,

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you should know like what the hell you want? I'm

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in that what the bracket? Yeah, yes, most chet exers

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are in that bracket unfortunately.

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I mean also a lot of the ship too, is

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that you don't have the time andergy for games, ghosting, bullshit, confusion.

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You want you want to know exactly where you are

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and and where you want to be at this point

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because they a lot of people, a lot of people

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seem to think that you need to have it all

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figured out at this age and that I agree, it's

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not true. You know, you you want to trade chaos

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for clarity, you know what I mean? And to be

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honest with you, if you want to trade chaos for clarity,

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I think that's that's pretty dope, you know what I'm saying,

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Because wanting clarity in your life and wanting to know

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where you're headed at that point in time of your

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life is very important.

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Yeah, you know what I.

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Mean, because it's it's not knowing I mean, at least

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not I'm gonna say it. Not knowing where you're headed

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at this point is not is not really good.

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Because well, in what way? Relationship wise? Okay? Because like

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life wise, I feel like like career wise and other

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things like that, that's that's ever changing and can be

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because of where we live. So we can have the

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opportunity to continually like try to do different things career wise,

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or feel like, Okay, this is not what I want

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to be doing. And then there are people I've seen

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that like finish their like bachelor's or something in their

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eighties like this, it doesn't matter. That doesn't matter, right,

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But going into relationships when you're at this age, I agree,

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like you kind of should know and be in a

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place where you can be distinct in what you're acting

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for or LifeWise, sometimes we have no control like those

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so many curve balls. It does, and like I keep

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seeing like this meme and it's not getting political or

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anything like that, but like it's not benefits and all

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this stuff going around with it. You know, nobody like

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wants to be on these benefits, Like it's not enough,

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like if you have a family, Like things happen to

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people sometimes shit happens. And if we're going to be real,

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like people aren't getting paid enough because there are a

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lot of people working who qualify for food tifts and

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that says something like so it's like I just these

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things frustrate me. But like life changes so quickly. Sometimes

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you can get into an accident, like an auto accident,

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and you're like to change completely for all you know,

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like you can work, and some peoples on you or

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you fall or you know what I'm saying, like or

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like just so many things can happen, so like we

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shouldn't judge people like when they're down on their luck

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or struggling, because no, not everyone can have it together

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one hundred percent all the fucking time. Like not all

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of us were born into wealth and have mommy and

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daddy to come and bail us out every single time.

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A lot of people don't have.

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That right And like you said it, you said it earlier,

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like you know, the emotional the emotional baggage thing. I

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think both. I think for both men and women. You know,

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we carry scars, you know what I'm saying, Divorce, long

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term breakups, heartbreak, betrayal and all that altogether. The history

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of all that shit, you know, really shapes how you

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love and how you trust, you know what I mean.

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I think also for men, you know, we often struggle

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to express our emotional wounds, you know, things that have

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hurt us. We're masking pain behind smiles and all this

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other shit, you know. And and I can't I really

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can't speak much for women, but I think for for

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some women, they tend to be more aware of their

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emotional triggers, you know what I mean. And I think

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it carries on and and shows itself and and in

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wanting to love but not trusting that love because of

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all the heartache and the hurt that they've suffer ridden

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the doors throughout their lives. So I think I think

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it's I think the challenge is learning to unpack the baggage,

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but not unload the baggage, you know what I mean. Yes,

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being open about your past but not letting it define

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your future and who you are. So that's a big

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that's a big thing.

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Yes, And to hit on how you said, Okay, So

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like for men, there's a lot of men tend to

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shut down and keep to themselves and not saying anything

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and just to be in their heads. And that is

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more of a cultural and societal thing that men are

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taught to do. That not to open up to someone,

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not to go to someone for help, because you're you're

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not going to burden someone with your problems. You're not

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going to burden someone with your sadness or whatever. And

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that's the mentality. This is what we're taught. And women

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too like to an extent, but women just tend to

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be more vocal and emotional creatures, and you know, like

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a lot of times that was then determined as crazy

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or like she's too much. No, she isn't. She's just

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fucking able to put it out there of what she

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wants and needs in her life. And like, yeah, that

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could be scary sometimes, but like that's the whole thing

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you guys hold on to. Shit, that's scary too. And

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if you don't talk it out with someone and you

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don't open up, then you're hiding. And it's like you're

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lying in a way because you're not being real with

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me about what's going on. And if we're in a

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relationship and we're like best friends and you can't come

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talk to me, I'm going to take that personally because

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I'm trying to understand why you wouldn't be able to

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come talk to me. Because the worst thing they could

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be is in our own heads, that's not who we

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should we shouldn't be. We over We are creatures that

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over think. We're creatures who tend to like read into

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things or take things personally whatever. Like we've had it before.

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When when we get those questions about those relationships and

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it's a lot one sided or so men need to

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open up, they need to tell us what's going on.

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We are our worst enemies. We say that the nastiest,

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ugliest things to ourselves. The things that we say to ourselves,

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we would never say to our children. We would never

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say that to our best friend. We would never say

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that to someone we love, we wouldn't. And the fact

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that we say these things, and that's why, like a

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lot of the work is unlearning the way we were

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we cope because a lot of a lot of us

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don't cope in healthy ways, like, and that's all part

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of that cycle that people get stuck in. And you know,

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you either want to stop the cycle and do better

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or you want to continue. And that kind of feeds

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into that whole shit of what we're saying in your

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forties and being grown, Like if you are going to

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continue in the bullshit that you ain't ready to be

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with somebody, and then you shouldn't be seeking for that

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because you need to make yourself better, yourself more whole.

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Right, Yeah, you're you're right, You're absolutely correct, you know,

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and we all know you know, right, So I think

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I also feel I feel like damn talking about you know,

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baggage it's it's it's wild because nobody's a blank slate.

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We know that, you know what I mean, You're not

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you're not meeting uh, you're not meeting new love. You know,

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you're meeting someone's if if Chris was here, if she

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would have laughed at this one. But you're meeting someone's

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seasoned history, you know what I'm saying. And you know,

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there their expouses, their ex you know, exp you know,

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anything that has do to next you're dealing with that

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you're dealing with, especially if you have someone who you're

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dealing with, someone who has kids, co parenting, their therapy journeys.

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You know, maybe maybe joint legal custody of a dog

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or some shit. You know what I'm saying. Like, it's

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always something that you're dealing with, you know. So I

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think you're not really dating a person, you're dating a

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lifetime of experiences, you know what I mean.

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Yeah, we break, we're breaking. Our perspective comes from our experiences.

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So that's what we're bringing into the people. Yes, I

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am a is over thinker. Also, I mean we're we're

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probably past all the comments, like at this point of

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our conversation, So I have no idea like what people

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were saying, but it's fine, Uh.

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Yeah, just pick this one out.

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When we as women ask the man what's wrong and

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they say nothing, we already know it's something, and by

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not telling us what it is, usually we usually overthink

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it is so much we start to believe it. Yes

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and no, because sometimes when a man says nothing, he

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really means it's nothing. And sometimes that's just like a

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way to decompress for the day, Like I know, and

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most people deal with work and bullshit or whatever, and

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then when you when you come home, you're decompressing from

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that day. You're decompressing from all the bullshit, the stress

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or whatever you had to deal with in that day

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and now walk in the home door and leave that

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shit behind so that you can be present. And sometimes

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some people can't be present, but it's hard. You can't

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just assume them when somebody says, say, we know, when

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a woman says nothing, it's definitely something. But a man,

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if he says it's nothing, then I'm not sure. It

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really just all depends, but I think it's stead of internalizing,

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internalizing it and taking it personally, what one should do

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instead is, oh my god, my brain is blanked while

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I'm talking because I'm Thursday. I think, hold on, thanks,

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let him know that your support and safe space. That's

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when you just remind someone like listen, all right, if

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it's nothing, it's nothing. But if it isn't, I'm here.

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If you want to talk about it, if you need

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to talk shit, if you need to vent about work

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or whatever, you can do that, you know. But it's

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just that's how we should show support. It's just by

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reminding people, Hey, I'm here. I meant that.

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Yeah, I mean I completely agree.

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I feel like what it looks like a paragraph of

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a comment.

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Yeah, but you read that one already.

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Oh okay, yeah.

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Yah yeah yeah. So back to what we were saying,

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I think also as far as as as as the

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dating pool goes, it's smaller and more complicated at this

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point in life. You know what I'm saying. I mean,

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by your forties, many potential partners are taken or just

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not compatible with your long term goals.

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Yeah. I think it's more of the not compatible because

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I think there's more women than men. I think it's

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fifty one percent women, right, yeah, on population wise, so

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there's more women.

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Where you're getting your information.

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What do you mean that is.

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Yes, that that that's statistics.

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That's what it is. I don't know. I didn't write

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it down from from something.

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You said fifty one percent, you're pretty much you're like,

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like fifty.

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One yeah, because I read it somewhere that is said

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the population is fifty one percent women.

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Jeez, what's going on here?

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And and remember there are less women having.

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Babies, well men aren't having fucking.

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Well yeah, yeah, yeah they are.

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But all right, let's go dubb dub dubs this year.

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Hold on one second, what's up, dubs?

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What's up?

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All right?

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So we were like, the topic at hand is finding

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a level of forty Is it a lost cause or

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a new beginning? So t TG was was saying that

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it's fifty one percent populating population of women.

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And yeah, oh.

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We were saying, like, uh, what issues I guess are

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that's going on out there? Right? So we were talking

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basically about out baggage and how people have baggage and

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bringing it into relationships what they're doing. So we kind

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of just like talk about the fact that like it

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really depends like if you're in your forties, hopefully you

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are have figured your shit out. But there are people

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who haven't, so but to go into a relationship. Basically,

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we're just saying, like, you got to have your shit

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together if you.

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Is that some people out there are still healing.

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Well yeah, but there's a way to do that and

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and still like communicate, right, because we also talked about

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how men like to shut down and not say anything,

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and how women tend to be more vocal and emotional

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creatures and that's why they tend to like be more

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upfront and the difference between a man's sing nothing and

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a woman.

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Right, yeah, but yeah, you know what, yeah, look, you

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know what the thing is though, right, because I'll be

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the first one to say I kind of got that problem.

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Like it's not that you.

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Know what I'm saying, I don't want to say something.

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Is that I want to figure it out first. So

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that's the reason why I shut down. And then I'll

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tell you all right, yo, you know what, in a

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calm man, I'm like, yeah, you know what, this is,

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what it is, and this that and the third right however,

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you know, like it's hard to swallow my pride and

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admit you know what I'm saying. I was feeling a

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certain type of way, right, It's hard to set you

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know what I'm saying, But I learned.

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To do that, like all right, you know what, All right, listen,

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I feel this way.

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But then again, I was feeling like I was being selfish,

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you know what I'm saying, Like like I wu was

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tell my partner that, hey, listen, I was being selfish

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because I felt this way, you know what I'm saying

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and admitting that, all right, you know what. But at

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the same time, though, it was like, how can I say,

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like that's why I shut down, you know what I say,

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That's the reason why I shut down for a minute,

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because like I don't want to like say something right

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then and there and then come out looking.

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Like an asshole, you know what I'm saying.

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So like, yeah, like all right, yo.

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You know what I felt this, I felt this type

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of way.

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But I can admit to you because I admitted to

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myself that I was being selfish and why that's the

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reason why I was quiet. And now I'm going to

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tell you you know, so you know stuff like that.

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But there's a difference between processing like keep you to

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yourself and processing things and shutting down and not being

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vocal about certain things. And we were just talking about

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how you are your own worst critic, So you talking

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to yourself through things is not the best idea because

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we tend to say horrible things to ourselves or put

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ourselves down more. And so that's why we said that

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it is better to be vocal and maybe if you're

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not ready, that's okay not to be ready, but hopefully

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your partner is supportive and lets you know that they're

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there for you when you need them.

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Not no, but you know what, even that's kind of

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hard to find nowadays, you know, like something like you know,

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some of us get lucky, some of us don't.

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Yeah, but this is this is all the But this

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is the process that people should be going through when

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entering a relationship, because why am I going to be

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with somebody who when shit gets tough and I'm struggling,

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You're not going to be there or what you know, Like,

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this is why it's important to be upfront about things

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about yourself if you're going to go into something serious

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with somebody, like it's important to them.

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No, absolutely, I agree, one hundred percent.

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But like at the same time though, it was like

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it's like, look, you know what, I can't speak for

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for everybody, but I could speak on me, right, you know,

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like like you know what, Like back then, you know

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what I'm saying, Like I was like and cold, uncle,

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tell you you know what I'm saying, like girls after

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girls after girls. But at the same time, though, the

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only reason why I did that, because now you know

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what I'm saying, hodsight is twenty twenty is I was

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afraid to be alone, you know, so like if one

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thing was feeling, I had a backup plan.

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Afraid to be alone.

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Right, And when I decided that, you know what I'm saying, Like,

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I was like, you know what, I'm gonna be alone.

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Yeah, I was scared about it.

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But then the promst I started liking it too much,

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you know, And then like you know what I'm saying,

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I started realizing, you know what, you're the problem. You

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know what I'm saying, Like I was looking at myself

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in the mirror, like you know what, you're the problem?

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You know nobody you know what I'm saying, like like yeah,

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you know what, yeah, this, that and the third.

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But you are who you are tracked you know energy,

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you know what I'm saying.

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The energy you put out there is what you're going

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on a track, right, So you know, like you know

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what I'm saying, I took a sabbatical, you know, like

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you know, relationship wise, and then you know, like all

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the pieces, you know, all my life.

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You know what's funny. You know what's funny now now

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that I'm thinking about it, this topic fits dubs pretty

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good because he's over forty.

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He's he's yo, yes my age.

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Yeah you said you're over forty's and.

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Your your your life is what's going on with you,

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and everything that's happened is like a new beginning for

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you because you have you have all these circumstances that

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have been positives for you over forty you know what

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I mean, Like you're you're in a good place.

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You know what you you don't.

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Here's the thing though, right you know, like see I

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was gonna say something joking around, but no, I ain't

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gonna go all that, you know.

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Mess up the mood and stuff. See. Here's the thing though, right,

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you know, Like.

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Like when when you know, like after my last relationship,

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I was like, you know what I'm gonna you know,

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like I'm just gonna be alone. So I fell back

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started being alone, you know, at first, like I was

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scared about it. Because it's like, oh, you know, I'm

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you know what I'm saying, like I want what other

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people wanted right like by at the same time though,

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I was looking for someone else to validate me. M

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you know, like you know what it's bad when when

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you would do more for the person you're with than

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you would do it for yourself. And most women see that.

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And I never noticed that, but most women see that.

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That all you know, he don't even love himself, so

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how could he love me?

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Right? You know?

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I think so so like you know what, like I said,

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you know what, I had to like hold myself to

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the Maryland and talk to myself in that myth, like, yo,

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you know what, you're the problem. You know what I'm saying, Hey,

475
00:32:12.519 --> 00:32:15.440
you don't love me yourself enough? These women see that be

476
00:32:15.640 --> 00:32:20.599
you toxic as hell, you know, see you know like

477
00:32:20.599 --> 00:32:22.920
like you know, like you gas like so much that

478
00:32:23.000 --> 00:32:26.079
you know, like you can start a forest fire right

479
00:32:27.279 --> 00:32:32.000
like everything that every yo, everything that these red pill

480
00:32:32.079 --> 00:32:35.640
dudes are. Yeah, that was kind of me, you know,

481
00:32:35.759 --> 00:32:38.240
like I had like you know, like and like I

482
00:32:38.240 --> 00:32:40.559
have to I have to accept that responsibility, Like yo,

483
00:32:40.599 --> 00:32:43.240
you know what you keep instead of shooting yourself in

484
00:32:43.279 --> 00:32:47.119
the foot. You're shooting yourself in the mouth. You know,

485
00:32:47.279 --> 00:32:48.920
I have to, like, you know what I'm saying, take

486
00:32:48.960 --> 00:32:53.720
that responsibility in what I did. Right, I started like

487
00:32:53.759 --> 00:32:57.119
you know, like you know what I'm saying, owning up

488
00:32:57.160 --> 00:32:59.319
to my you know what I'm saying, my flaws because

489
00:32:59.319 --> 00:33:02.240
I kept on running away from it, you know everything

490
00:33:02.279 --> 00:33:07.880
about it? Yeah, and then you know, like everything just

491
00:33:09.279 --> 00:33:13.640
it's just you know what I'm saying, Like everything that's

492
00:33:13.799 --> 00:33:15.880
you know, like it's just weird how everything just happened.

493
00:33:15.880 --> 00:33:18.440
But it happened, and you want to know what's crazy about?

494
00:33:18.440 --> 00:33:18.480
What?

495
00:33:18.599 --> 00:33:23.680
What what's happening? Is that at this age? Also, I

496
00:33:23.720 --> 00:33:29.480
think chemistry hits differently. You know what I mean. You've lived,

497
00:33:29.480 --> 00:33:35.640
you've learned, you've loved, Right, so intimacy, intimacy is deeper,

498
00:33:36.440 --> 00:33:43.519
your confidence should be stronger, and connections are more intentional,

499
00:33:43.680 --> 00:33:46.200
become you become more knowledgeable.

500
00:33:46.279 --> 00:33:46.519
Right.

501
00:33:47.759 --> 00:33:50.079
But but I think I think behold up, behold behold up.

502
00:33:51.599 --> 00:33:56.839
I also think that it's more about it's it's not

503
00:33:56.960 --> 00:34:07.119
about performance or perfect right, It's more about presence, being there,

504
00:34:07.480 --> 00:34:12.519
being you know, self aware, you know what I mean?

505
00:34:13.000 --> 00:34:17.000
Absolutely, and and and not only not only self aware.

506
00:34:18.039 --> 00:34:18.880
It's more about you know.

507
00:34:18.840 --> 00:34:22.679
What I'm saying, like you know what I'm saying, Like

508
00:34:22.679 --> 00:34:24.400
like yo, you know what you you know what I'm saying,

509
00:34:24.400 --> 00:34:27.199
Like the experiences that you had that you don't want,

510
00:34:28.079 --> 00:34:29.840
you know what I'm saying. You try to like you

511
00:34:29.880 --> 00:34:32.920
know what I'm saying. Like for instance, right, i still

512
00:34:32.960 --> 00:34:36.280
have a bad temper, you know what I'm saying. I

513
00:34:36.320 --> 00:34:37.639
still have a you know what I'm saying. I still

514
00:34:37.679 --> 00:34:41.360
have a very slick mouth. It's knowing when to say

515
00:34:41.360 --> 00:34:45.199
when you know, like I'm not epileptic, but yo, I

516
00:34:45.239 --> 00:34:48.800
buy my tongue now, you know, like I have to

517
00:34:48.800 --> 00:34:51.119
buy you know what I'm saying because like because like yo,

518
00:34:51.159 --> 00:34:54.000
you know what, I'm aware that my you know what

519
00:34:54.000 --> 00:34:57.440
I'm saying, especially my words, you know, and the way

520
00:34:57.440 --> 00:34:59.679
I put it out there, my words, could you know

521
00:34:59.679 --> 00:35:00.000
what I'm saying?

522
00:35:00.079 --> 00:35:05.000
And to kill a soul? You know? So I'm aware

523
00:35:05.000 --> 00:35:05.280
of that.

524
00:35:05.320 --> 00:35:08.599
So like like you know, like it's it's a it's

525
00:35:08.639 --> 00:35:09.800
a lot of like you know what I'm saying, it's

526
00:35:09.840 --> 00:35:12.000
a lot of like you know, pulling yourself back, you

527
00:35:12.039 --> 00:35:15.199
know what I'm saying. It's a lot of it's a

528
00:35:15.239 --> 00:35:18.039
lot of like you know what I'm saying, like open

529
00:35:18.159 --> 00:35:18.840
your ears.

530
00:35:18.599 --> 00:35:22.800
Up more less it's less reactive.

531
00:35:23.679 --> 00:35:25.920
Yep, this reaction and more and more you know what

532
00:35:25.960 --> 00:35:30.280
I'm saying, and more auditory and more like you know,

533
00:35:30.400 --> 00:35:32.920
like all right, you know what the standard third? You know,

534
00:35:33.000 --> 00:35:35.199
like because yo, you know what, I'm gonna be honest

535
00:35:35.199 --> 00:35:36.760
with you. I'm in a good place. Bro you know

536
00:35:36.760 --> 00:35:41.199
what I'm saying, Like financially, I may be broke, but

537
00:35:41.280 --> 00:35:44.119
I'm rich. No, I'm serious, you know I'm saying because

538
00:35:44.800 --> 00:35:45.239
I get it.

539
00:35:45.280 --> 00:35:45.800
I get it.

540
00:35:46.559 --> 00:35:47.679
I think we're all broke.

541
00:35:47.800 --> 00:35:52.000
But you know, like you know, like like like yo, look,

542
00:35:52.039 --> 00:35:55.360
you know what Like in the wallet, I may not

543
00:35:55.440 --> 00:35:56.039
you know what I'm saying.

544
00:35:56.719 --> 00:35:59.159
I may be broken, you know what I'm saying, But

545
00:36:02.000 --> 00:36:04.000
when I go to Yilton, when I go to my.

546
00:36:03.960 --> 00:36:05.760
House, you know what I'm saying, As small as it is,

547
00:36:05.760 --> 00:36:08.360
that's my castle, that's my kingdom.

548
00:36:08.400 --> 00:36:12.079
You know, that's my safe haven. M you know, like.

549
00:36:13.880 --> 00:36:15.719
You know, you know what's something when you could be

550
00:36:15.800 --> 00:36:17.320
bored with somebody and you love it.

551
00:36:19.199 --> 00:36:21.719
You know what I'm saying, the fact that I like being.

552
00:36:21.519 --> 00:36:26.199
Bored at home with my partner and a toddler running

553
00:36:26.239 --> 00:36:28.159
around terror You know what I'm saying, terrorizing a cat

554
00:36:28.239 --> 00:36:28.639
and dog.

555
00:36:29.039 --> 00:36:29.639
You know what I'm saying.

556
00:36:31.159 --> 00:36:34.880
You know, I love it, you know, like it's it's

557
00:36:35.360 --> 00:36:37.920
it's something that you know what I'm saying, Like I

558
00:36:37.960 --> 00:36:40.760
didn't ask for it, but I'm grateful for it, you know,

559
00:36:40.880 --> 00:36:42.800
because God gave me another chance to you know, be

560
00:36:42.840 --> 00:36:46.760
a father again. You know God, Yo, God felt like

561
00:36:46.760 --> 00:36:49.719
you know what I'm saying, m you're gonna calm down

562
00:36:49.719 --> 00:36:51.320
one way or anohing.

563
00:36:51.440 --> 00:36:55.079
Oh here, by the way, here's your third chance. Don't

564
00:36:55.079 --> 00:36:55.760
mess this one up.

565
00:36:58.400 --> 00:37:06.519
Yeah, I think, I think, yeah, you know and.

566
00:37:06.639 --> 00:37:08.639
And and you know you know what, and and I'm

567
00:37:08.639 --> 00:37:09.960
thankful for it. Yeah.

568
00:37:10.119 --> 00:37:11.840
You know what, I may come out here joke around,

569
00:37:11.840 --> 00:37:13.719
but that's all I do is joke around, Like you know,

570
00:37:13.800 --> 00:37:16.079
half the things I say don't even mean you know,

571
00:37:16.119 --> 00:37:18.320
half the things I say is the old me, you know,

572
00:37:18.400 --> 00:37:22.039
like the old meat comes out every now right, Yeah, absolutely,

573
00:37:23.079 --> 00:37:25.880
But you know, like, yo, you know what it's like,

574
00:37:26.119 --> 00:37:27.559
you know what I'm saying, Like when I come on here,

575
00:37:27.599 --> 00:37:30.559
it's like, you know, it's like a warmonger preacher more

576
00:37:31.320 --> 00:37:32.960
than when he gets off the podium. It'll be like

577
00:37:32.960 --> 00:37:36.880
all right, peace, love, you guys, you see what I'm saying.

578
00:37:37.480 --> 00:37:42.239
Yeah, what do you what do you think? What do

579
00:37:42.280 --> 00:37:46.199
you think? Like, I think a lot of people at

580
00:37:46.199 --> 00:37:50.760
this point also you know they they've built careers, they've

581
00:37:50.760 --> 00:37:55.280
built you know, they've raised families. You know, they've handled heartbreak,

582
00:37:57.239 --> 00:37:59.199
they survived. I mean, the three of look at the

583
00:37:59.199 --> 00:38:01.880
three of us. We've survived a lot of a lot

584
00:38:01.920 --> 00:38:05.639
of the plot twists that were thrown at us throughout life.

585
00:38:05.920 --> 00:38:08.639
You know what I'm saying. I think a lot of

586
00:38:08.639 --> 00:38:18.400
the resilience is is more emotionally grounding and makes us

587
00:38:18.559 --> 00:38:24.280
empathetic towards a lot of different things. I think I

588
00:38:24.280 --> 00:38:25.960
think the biggest thing is being grounded.

589
00:38:27.519 --> 00:38:31.280
You actually actually yes, that's true. You know what I'm saying.

590
00:38:31.280 --> 00:38:32.920
One thing is for sure, two things for certain. The

591
00:38:32.960 --> 00:38:35.079
second thing is like getting you know what I'm saying,

592
00:38:35.159 --> 00:38:37.440
like getting really know yourself and they know who you

593
00:38:37.480 --> 00:38:41.360
are today, not who you was like like twenty years ago.

594
00:38:42.360 --> 00:38:44.920
You know, because like because you know what the PROMI

595
00:38:45.000 --> 00:38:47.440
is a lot of people our age still carry that.

596
00:38:47.559 --> 00:38:49.119
You know what I'm saying, I was like this twenty

597
00:38:49.159 --> 00:38:53.119
years ago. Fam, It's not twenty years ago no more.

598
00:38:53.239 --> 00:38:54.679
You know what I'm saying, right, because you know that

599
00:38:56.199 --> 00:38:58.000
when you do that, you stay suspended in time.

600
00:38:58.360 --> 00:39:01.480
You're like enough time, because you're not You're not building

601
00:39:02.159 --> 00:39:06.079
a life at forty forty five fifty years old from scratch.

602
00:39:06.360 --> 00:39:07.679
You're building from experience.

603
00:39:08.519 --> 00:39:13.559
No, absolutely, you know, oh like like like like another

604
00:39:13.599 --> 00:39:14.800
thing too, you know.

605
00:39:15.920 --> 00:39:16.679
And it's like.

606
00:39:18.800 --> 00:39:20.400
And I'm guilty of it, you know what I'm saying, Like,

607
00:39:20.719 --> 00:39:22.480
and I'm pretty sure a lot of people could relate

608
00:39:22.519 --> 00:39:30.000
a lot you know that that we were simultaneous like

609
00:39:30.079 --> 00:39:32.239
you know, like you know what me back then, I

610
00:39:32.280 --> 00:39:36.440
was simultaneously chasing something and also running away from something

611
00:39:36.480 --> 00:39:37.199
at the same time.

612
00:39:38.599 --> 00:39:39.239
You know what I'm saying.

613
00:39:39.760 --> 00:39:43.119
It's like I was running away from who you know

614
00:39:43.159 --> 00:39:48.360
what I'm saying, from my flaws and chasing validation from

615
00:39:48.360 --> 00:39:53.760
another person, you know, because like I wanted that person.

616
00:39:53.440 --> 00:39:53.960
A lie to me.

617
00:39:55.840 --> 00:39:58.800
A lot of you about what who I was not

618
00:40:00.039 --> 00:40:02.880
and who I was like the flaws. You know what

619
00:40:02.880 --> 00:40:08.440
I'm saying. All right, Well, I know you you.

620
00:40:07.920 --> 00:40:11.079
Know, like like you know like but yet you know

621
00:40:11.519 --> 00:40:14.119
I wasn't never giving myself no type of validation whatsoever,

622
00:40:15.280 --> 00:40:19.440
you know, So like women see that they feel that,

623
00:40:19.639 --> 00:40:21.719
you know, like, Yo, listen, if you don't love yourself,

624
00:40:21.760 --> 00:40:23.840
they know they know.

625
00:40:24.960 --> 00:40:28.760
You know, so security and other things.

626
00:40:29.719 --> 00:40:34.400
So like when you're there talking about, Yo, I love people,

627
00:40:34.440 --> 00:40:35.199
that I love myself.

628
00:40:35.199 --> 00:40:35.760
I'll do anything.

629
00:40:36.079 --> 00:40:38.400
You just stand the third blah blah blah blah blah. Yo,

630
00:40:38.480 --> 00:40:39.760
they know you know what I'm saying. They're like, Yo,

631
00:40:39.800 --> 00:40:42.760
how you love me more than you love yourself? That's

632
00:40:42.760 --> 00:40:49.840
a red flag. That's a huge red flag because because

633
00:40:49.880 --> 00:40:52.960
I think I think Yo, I didn't understand that back then,

634
00:40:53.119 --> 00:40:56.760
but that it makes sense now. You know what I'm saying,

635
00:40:56.920 --> 00:40:58.760
Because Yo, you don't love yourself, how can you love

636
00:40:58.760 --> 00:40:59.239
someone else?

637
00:41:00.159 --> 00:41:02.559
Yeah? Well, because at this point, at this point in

638
00:41:02.639 --> 00:41:07.320
your life, love should hit you. Love should hit you harder.

639
00:41:08.280 --> 00:41:09.679
You know what I'm saying at this point.

640
00:41:10.679 --> 00:41:12.440
Because you know what, you have an understanding. You know

641
00:41:12.440 --> 00:41:14.880
what I'm saying, Like like, yo, you know what you have.

642
00:41:15.199 --> 00:41:17.920
You have a sixty percent more understanding than what you did.

643
00:41:17.960 --> 00:41:21.760
You know what I'm saying ten years ago?

644
00:41:22.039 --> 00:41:22.360
You know what?

645
00:41:22.360 --> 00:41:23.280
You know? What?

646
00:41:23.719 --> 00:41:23.880
Now?

647
00:41:23.880 --> 00:41:27.239
What do you go ahead? Go ahead? Yeah? So what

648
00:41:27.320 --> 00:41:27.840
do you think?

649
00:41:28.599 --> 00:41:29.039
What's up?

650
00:41:29.760 --> 00:41:32.320
You think love?

651
00:41:33.360 --> 00:41:33.519
Well?

652
00:41:33.599 --> 00:41:37.960
I think I personally think love nowadays should be built

653
00:41:38.000 --> 00:41:47.920
more on purpose. No, it should be built more on

654
00:41:48.039 --> 00:41:50.719
purpose than it is pressure. You know what I mean?

655
00:41:51.519 --> 00:41:51.840
You know what?

656
00:41:51.920 --> 00:41:54.639
First of that, there should be there should be purpose

657
00:41:54.719 --> 00:41:57.519
behind your love. Not you shouldn't be. You shouldn't be

658
00:41:57.559 --> 00:42:01.719
putting pressure on people love you, you know and feel

659
00:42:01.719 --> 00:42:06.199
for you. But hold up. But if you if you build,

660
00:42:06.239 --> 00:42:10.519
if you build, if you build, a foundation of purpose,

661
00:42:11.320 --> 00:42:13.280
you know what I'm saying, Like you, your your your your,

662
00:42:13.840 --> 00:42:16.880
You want to date with purpose, You want to fall

663
00:42:16.920 --> 00:42:20.480
in love with purpose. You want to build this kingdom

664
00:42:20.719 --> 00:42:25.880
with purpose. You don't want anything pressured or anyone pressured

665
00:42:25.920 --> 00:42:29.039
into building this with you. You want that person to

666
00:42:29.079 --> 00:42:31.159
be able to to look at you and say, our

667
00:42:31.199 --> 00:42:36.760
goals and our wants coincide. You know what I'm saying.

668
00:42:36.840 --> 00:42:39.079
You don't you? You know if you don't want to

669
00:42:39.119 --> 00:42:44.119
go bump heads with a twenty something year old and

670
00:42:44.199 --> 00:42:50.719
think that that kid has the same thoughts, experiences, wants

671
00:42:50.840 --> 00:42:54.320
and and and and and is looking to build that

672
00:42:54.360 --> 00:42:58.719
type of foundation with you, that that's not what it is.

673
00:42:59.119 --> 00:43:01.119
You know what I'm saying. They not on the same level.

674
00:43:01.280 --> 00:43:01.920
No, they can't.

675
00:43:01.920 --> 00:43:02.920
They absolutely can't.

676
00:43:03.519 --> 00:43:05.199
Another thing too, they also has to be like a

677
00:43:05.960 --> 00:43:07.960
like an understanding. You know what I'm saying that it

678
00:43:08.000 --> 00:43:10.559
has to be a huge understanding, you.

679
00:43:10.519 --> 00:43:13.840
Know, like like you know, like example, when my girl's

680
00:43:13.880 --> 00:43:16.280
going through it, you know what I'm saying, I understand.

681
00:43:16.880 --> 00:43:18.199
So I'm the one that you know what I'm saying.

682
00:43:19.519 --> 00:43:21.280
I'm the one that's like, yo, you know what, let

683
00:43:21.280 --> 00:43:22.400
me know. You know what it is. You know what

684
00:43:22.400 --> 00:43:25.320
I'm saying. Whatever you feel like talking and that's your event.

685
00:43:25.400 --> 00:43:26.960
You know what I'm saying. Ten times it is about

686
00:43:26.960 --> 00:43:32.039
her job, right? But sure, vent you know I.

687
00:43:32.079 --> 00:43:34.360
Understand, like you know, like like I become a heir,

688
00:43:34.440 --> 00:43:36.320
like you know, like like like yo, you know what

689
00:43:36.519 --> 00:43:38.719
if you're not if your girl needs your best friend,

690
00:43:39.000 --> 00:43:40.079
there's a problem.

691
00:43:40.360 --> 00:43:43.679
I got a question for you, do a very good

692
00:43:43.800 --> 00:43:44.920
question for you.

693
00:43:45.320 --> 00:43:46.679
Maybe I can give you a very good answer.

694
00:43:47.000 --> 00:43:52.519
All right? Do you feel you might not? You might?

695
00:43:52.559 --> 00:43:52.880
All right?

696
00:43:52.920 --> 00:43:53.079
Yeah?

697
00:43:54.199 --> 00:43:59.079
Do you do you? Did you ever feel like you

698
00:43:59.199 --> 00:44:06.960
were pressured into this life once you started, Once you

699
00:44:07.039 --> 00:44:10.639
started to feel like you were independent from everything, you

700
00:44:10.719 --> 00:44:14.159
were living the life you wanted to live, and then

701
00:44:14.239 --> 00:44:17.599
all of this happened to you all at one time.

702
00:44:17.639 --> 00:44:20.360
Do you feel like you were pressured into giving up

703
00:44:20.360 --> 00:44:24.280
your independence and living this life or do.

704
00:44:24.280 --> 00:44:28.519
You Yes, At first I didn't, and I'm gonna tell

705
00:44:28.559 --> 00:44:32.519
you the reason why. Because I was scared, you know

706
00:44:32.559 --> 00:44:35.519
what I'm saying, Not that she was gonna do me dirty.

707
00:44:36.280 --> 00:44:37.960
I was scared I was gonna do her dirty.

708
00:44:38.239 --> 00:44:39.039
You see what I'm saying.

709
00:44:39.920 --> 00:44:43.039
I got scared because you know what, Like you know,

710
00:44:44.119 --> 00:44:45.239
I was scared that you know what I'm saying, like

711
00:44:45.239 --> 00:44:47.119
everything was gonna play out again because yo, you know

712
00:44:47.159 --> 00:44:50.960
what this time around, knowing that you know, like like beforehand,

713
00:44:51.000 --> 00:44:52.559
I used to like, you know what I'm saying, cast

714
00:44:52.559 --> 00:44:55.199
blame on others, you know what I'm saying, and not

715
00:44:55.360 --> 00:44:57.599
really take you know what I'm saying, like like I'll

716
00:44:57.639 --> 00:44:59.559
take part of the blame and not really full blame

717
00:44:59.639 --> 00:45:02.800
or whatever, you know, like you know, and then like

718
00:45:02.840 --> 00:45:04.840
you know, like my boys, you know what I'm saying, Like, yeah, yo,

719
00:45:04.880 --> 00:45:06.760
you know what I'm saying, Like they how I feel

720
00:45:07.679 --> 00:45:10.039
knowing you know what I'm saying. I mean, I mean, yo,

721
00:45:10.039 --> 00:45:12.639
you know I love my boys at all, But knowing that, yo,

722
00:45:12.679 --> 00:45:15.280
you know what, You're the problem too, you know what

723
00:45:15.280 --> 00:45:16.559
I'm saying, Like you have.

724
00:45:16.519 --> 00:45:17.559
A bigger problem.

725
00:45:17.599 --> 00:45:19.400
You the problem. I ain't ship.

726
00:45:19.519 --> 00:45:21.480
Oh no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. You

727
00:45:21.519 --> 00:45:22.039
know what I'm saying.

728
00:45:22.159 --> 00:45:23.679
I'm talking about you know what I'm saying me, You

729
00:45:23.679 --> 00:45:24.920
know what I'm saying, Like pointing out of the America,

730
00:45:25.039 --> 00:45:26.639
knowing that I'm like I.

731
00:45:26.599 --> 00:45:31.880
Was gonna say, because I never do that, I don't know, yes, man, no, no,

732
00:45:31.920 --> 00:45:32.360
of course not.

733
00:45:32.400 --> 00:45:34.599
You know what I'm saying, Like like knowing that I

734
00:45:34.599 --> 00:45:37.199
had a bigger hand. I had a bigger hand than

735
00:45:37.199 --> 00:45:42.639
that problem, you know, so so like it wasn't pressure,

736
00:45:42.639 --> 00:45:43.480
it was more fear.

737
00:45:43.719 --> 00:45:44.840
But that you know what I'm saying, I was you

738
00:45:45.000 --> 00:45:46.440
know what I'm saying, Like I was like, you know

739
00:45:46.440 --> 00:45:46.800
what I'm.

740
00:45:46.639 --> 00:45:48.880
Saying, thinks about the change, blah blah blah blah, but

741
00:45:49.119 --> 00:45:51.199
I was scared, you know what I'm saying, Not because

742
00:45:51.239 --> 00:45:55.159
of her, but because of me. Right, so I have

743
00:45:55.239 --> 00:45:56.280
to work you know what I'm saying. I have to

744
00:45:56.320 --> 00:45:57.800
work around that. And I told her that, you know

745
00:45:57.800 --> 00:45:59.519
what I'm saying, Like I was very open about it.

746
00:45:59.840 --> 00:46:02.280
You know, oh you know this times there we're gonna

747
00:46:02.280 --> 00:46:04.840
play it how it goes, because you know what I'm saying.

748
00:46:04.840 --> 00:46:07.400
Like when I when I say player it how it goes,

749
00:46:07.440 --> 00:46:09.840
It's like, yo, you know what I need. You know

750
00:46:09.840 --> 00:46:12.440
what I'm saying, I need some time because like, yo,

751
00:46:12.480 --> 00:46:15.440
you know what, like my heart's involved and I don't

752
00:46:15.480 --> 00:46:17.000
know how to say that, and I don't know how

753
00:46:17.000 --> 00:46:18.679
to react because I'm scared I'm going to get hurt.

754
00:46:19.159 --> 00:46:21.280
You see what I'm saying, Like my heart was there,

755
00:46:21.280 --> 00:46:23.519
but I just didn't know how to say it, you know,

756
00:46:23.599 --> 00:46:25.880
because I'm because I was scared I was gonna get hurt,

757
00:46:26.079 --> 00:46:31.360
you know. So you know, like like there was nice

758
00:46:31.400 --> 00:46:32.639
time we at the peers and you know what I'm

759
00:46:32.639 --> 00:46:35.920
saying by myself right listen to the music, I'm like,

760
00:46:37.360 --> 00:46:38.599
what did I give myself into?

761
00:46:40.599 --> 00:46:44.320
You know? Yeah? Like you know, but like.

762
00:46:44.280 --> 00:46:48.480
It's key, It's it's really key to be you know,

763
00:46:48.840 --> 00:46:51.559
up front early. You know what I'm saying, what's what's

764
00:46:51.599 --> 00:46:52.320
going on over there?

765
00:46:53.360 --> 00:46:56.599
Use me as a device to get somewhere else? You like,

766
00:46:56.719 --> 00:46:58.400
dig this claws into my back?

767
00:46:59.199 --> 00:46:59.800
Who the cat?

768
00:47:00.440 --> 00:47:06.800
Yeah, yo, I don't know what so weird?

769
00:47:07.079 --> 00:47:12.039
Yeah, I think I think being upfront about what you're

770
00:47:12.039 --> 00:47:15.079
looking for and what you want early, no games, just

771
00:47:15.239 --> 00:47:20.000
straight honesty and clarity, you know, because is if you

772
00:47:20.119 --> 00:47:25.519
keep everything you know flowing, keep it honest, keep it straight.

773
00:47:27.039 --> 00:47:29.760
Well, here's the thing though, like not out ten times right,

774
00:47:30.519 --> 00:47:33.079
you know, it always starts with a hangout, you know,

775
00:47:33.480 --> 00:47:35.480
and then like you know, at least other things right,

776
00:47:36.079 --> 00:47:37.880
and then like you know, the question is there is like.

777
00:47:38.079 --> 00:47:41.639
All right, you know what I'm saying, I just want

778
00:47:41.639 --> 00:47:43.880
to you know what I'm saying, Let's play let's let's

779
00:47:43.880 --> 00:47:44.440
play how it.

780
00:47:44.400 --> 00:47:46.320
Goes, you know, let's you know, let's you know what

781
00:47:46.519 --> 00:47:48.519
that's not you've asked, let's keep going with it, going

782
00:47:48.559 --> 00:47:51.280
with it, right, and.

783
00:47:52.719 --> 00:47:56.400
You come to find out that yo, you know what, yoh,

784
00:47:56.440 --> 00:47:57.000
you know what I'm saying.

785
00:47:57.239 --> 00:48:00.519
You're catching you know what I'm saying, a little attachment here, right,

786
00:48:01.440 --> 00:48:02.920
But at the same time, you don't want to admit

787
00:48:03.000 --> 00:48:05.480
that because you know what I'm saying, like you don't

788
00:48:05.480 --> 00:48:07.199
want to be the first one to say so it's

789
00:48:07.199 --> 00:48:09.000
always gonna be that, yeah, we wanna play it our goals,

790
00:48:09.000 --> 00:48:12.760
we won't play it our goals. And next thing, you

791
00:48:12.840 --> 00:48:17.119
know it, you know, next thing, you know it, you

792
00:48:17.119 --> 00:48:18.519
know what I'm saying, Like you're.

793
00:48:18.400 --> 00:48:20.360
Looking for an autograph.

794
00:48:21.039 --> 00:48:24.280
Nah oh, look at the pussy, look at.

795
00:48:24.119 --> 00:48:32.000
The pussy, yo, yo, yo yo.

796
00:48:32.280 --> 00:48:33.719
That remind me of that movie.

797
00:48:34.800 --> 00:48:37.800
Fare of a black hat where they got it's at

798
00:48:37.800 --> 00:48:38.679
the parody movie.

799
00:48:39.039 --> 00:48:42.559
Oh you never seen that well, like.

800
00:48:42.119 --> 00:48:43.480
Like like it was like back in the night. It's

801
00:48:43.519 --> 00:48:44.320
a parody movie.

802
00:48:44.360 --> 00:48:46.719
Like you know what I'm saying about n w A,

803
00:48:47.559 --> 00:48:52.079
Like niggas were hats n w H right, so like

804
00:48:52.079 --> 00:48:54.199
they all broke off. They all broke off in like

805
00:48:54.239 --> 00:48:59.119
the main dude became see see music Factory right instead

806
00:48:59.159 --> 00:49:01.280
of like you know what I'm saying, And like it

807
00:49:01.360 --> 00:49:04.400
has some Asian chicks singing comment pet up puss, you

808
00:49:04.480 --> 00:49:05.920
know what I'm saying, Like he's trying to break down that.

809
00:49:06.079 --> 00:49:07.960
He's trying to break down the meaning. He's like, pussy

810
00:49:08.039 --> 00:49:11.159
means positive under you know what I'm saying, like an acronym. Right,

811
00:49:11.800 --> 00:49:13.480
He's like yeah, so you know like we gotta pet

812
00:49:13.519 --> 00:49:15.199
the pussy. You know what I'm saying. I'm like, Yo,

813
00:49:15.320 --> 00:49:16.079
this movie is wow.

814
00:49:16.119 --> 00:49:17.840
Bro, I don't think.

815
00:49:19.320 --> 00:49:23.719
Technically, I think what what I what what I What

816
00:49:23.760 --> 00:49:28.159
I wanted to say was there's also a big fear

817
00:49:29.000 --> 00:49:33.079
within within men. I think with women too, about vulnerability.

818
00:49:33.360 --> 00:49:33.960
You know what I mean?

819
00:49:37.360 --> 00:49:37.760
You know what?

820
00:49:37.800 --> 00:49:40.400
You know what and all I think that you know

821
00:49:40.440 --> 00:49:42.239
what I'm saying, Like it's bigger with men because like

822
00:49:42.760 --> 00:49:44.360
because like yo, you know what, with women, they know

823
00:49:44.400 --> 00:49:47.960
how to deal Oh she she said, she said, you

824
00:49:48.000 --> 00:49:50.039
know what I'm saying, Like it's you know what I'm saying,

825
00:49:50.199 --> 00:49:55.039
it's it's kind of you know, it's kind of hard

826
00:49:55.039 --> 00:49:56.880
to deal with emotion, you know what I'm saying, because

827
00:49:56.880 --> 00:49:58.960
like we don't know how to express it. You know,

828
00:49:59.320 --> 00:50:01.960
women know how to express their emotions, you know what

829
00:50:01.960 --> 00:50:03.960
I'm saying, and they do it very well. You know,

830
00:50:04.119 --> 00:50:09.480
us men like we have like you know, like like

831
00:50:09.719 --> 00:50:13.280
what's you calling with? The way I look at it

832
00:50:13.280 --> 00:50:15.519
is like this, right, whenever us men get hurt, you

833
00:50:15.519 --> 00:50:17.360
know what I'm saying, it's not only the heart that breaks,

834
00:50:17.440 --> 00:50:19.199
is the pride ego that goes with it, because they're

835
00:50:19.199 --> 00:50:20.159
all aligned with each other.

836
00:50:20.880 --> 00:50:21.199
Right.

837
00:50:21.400 --> 00:50:24.800
You know, women know how to separate pride, ego and hard.

838
00:50:26.000 --> 00:50:27.719
We don't because you know what I'm saying, everything's all

839
00:50:27.679 --> 00:50:31.880
on the line softer. So you know, when they break up,

840
00:50:31.880 --> 00:50:33.440
you know what I'm saying, they cry that first week

841
00:50:33.599 --> 00:50:35.599
and we're like yeah, yeah yeah.

842
00:50:36.599 --> 00:50:37.880
During that month they're recovering.

843
00:50:38.039 --> 00:50:39.519
You know what I'm saying, We all here, you know

844
00:50:39.519 --> 00:50:40.800
what I'm saying, trying to put it on the front,

845
00:50:40.840 --> 00:50:43.280
like we don't missing three months later, you know what

846
00:50:43.280 --> 00:50:45.960
I'm saying, Like she's doing her and we're here crying.

847
00:50:47.079 --> 00:50:47.519
So you.

848
00:50:49.760 --> 00:50:53.000
Hold on in it, brother, that's right.

849
00:50:54.800 --> 00:50:56.840
So I gotta I got a question for you, TG.

850
00:50:58.199 --> 00:51:02.840
Do you think women over analyze small red flags protect

851
00:51:02.880 --> 00:51:05.000
themselves before the connection even happens.

852
00:51:06.760 --> 00:51:07.880
Some doing, some don't.

853
00:51:08.679 --> 00:51:09.000
Mm hm.

854
00:51:09.760 --> 00:51:13.760
It really depends on the persons. Like some people, uh,

855
00:51:16.079 --> 00:51:22.519
I can overlook red flags because something may be fulfilling

856
00:51:22.679 --> 00:51:28.639
that need or whatever that they have. And then there's

857
00:51:29.440 --> 00:51:32.360
a sorry watching the cats, I have something over there,

858
00:51:32.400 --> 00:51:34.599
and I'm hoping he's not trying to take my bag

859
00:51:34.679 --> 00:51:39.920
and eat my chicks a lift.

860
00:51:41.920 --> 00:51:47.119
Yo, I'm pretty sure. I'm pretty sure. I'm pretty sure.

861
00:51:47.039 --> 00:51:54.840
You cast out like this right meoww yepy dead ass y.

862
00:51:55.199 --> 00:51:56.039
It sounds like a baby.

863
00:51:56.960 --> 00:51:59.920
I imagine cat's doing that. You know what I'm saying, saying?

864
00:52:00.320 --> 00:52:06.880
Yeah, yeah, I say yeah yeah.

865
00:52:06.920 --> 00:52:11.199
So red flags So basically, yes, there are supplements who

866
00:52:11.239 --> 00:52:15.320
will overlook them. It could be just being naives. It

867
00:52:15.360 --> 00:52:19.719
could be just being too trusting, or like I said,

868
00:52:19.920 --> 00:52:23.639
I need is being fulfilled. So things are being overlooked

869
00:52:25.599 --> 00:52:29.760
and then there are women who and I see it

870
00:52:29.840 --> 00:52:36.800
because I'm in the groups for women about like letting

871
00:52:36.800 --> 00:52:40.119
other women if they're dating and stuff like that, like

872
00:52:40.719 --> 00:52:44.480
to protect women. But I do see women, you know,

873
00:52:44.559 --> 00:52:47.079
being like, you know, this is what's going on or

874
00:52:47.199 --> 00:52:50.840
these red flags. For some of them, it's like I

875
00:52:50.880 --> 00:52:54.199
can't believe you're even asking, like yes, that's a red BLUs.

876
00:52:54.480 --> 00:53:01.199
But with others it's it's different, you know, And some

877
00:53:01.239 --> 00:53:05.679
people could be like too extra, too like, but the

878
00:53:06.119 --> 00:53:10.039
reality isn't. What I'm seeing a lot of is that

879
00:53:10.039 --> 00:53:13.000
people just aren't being honest. Like even in our sport,

880
00:53:13.199 --> 00:53:16.440
if there are people out there who men who still

881
00:53:16.440 --> 00:53:20.119
want to be buck boys and but yet lie and

882
00:53:20.280 --> 00:53:22.440
say they want something but.

883
00:53:22.679 --> 00:53:28.280
They don't so seem there's a term for dudes like that,

884
00:53:29.320 --> 00:53:31.960
it's cold that dudes. It's called like, you know what

885
00:53:32.000 --> 00:53:40.000
I'm saying, entering their second childhood, you know that, you

886
00:53:40.480 --> 00:53:40.679
know what?

887
00:53:40.719 --> 00:53:42.119
It's sad, you know what I'm saying, like like you

888
00:53:42.320 --> 00:53:43.320
know what, Like you.

889
00:53:43.239 --> 00:53:47.880
Know, but look, I'm not against someone just like not

890
00:53:48.039 --> 00:53:51.559
ready for a relationship. I prefer you know that that

891
00:53:51.679 --> 00:53:56.199
you're not ready for something committed, that you're not looking

892
00:53:56.320 --> 00:54:00.719
for something like that, that's fine, but don't come like,

893
00:54:00.920 --> 00:54:04.679
don't be saying that to get people like women in

894
00:54:05.519 --> 00:54:09.280
so that they will be interested. And then you, on

895
00:54:09.360 --> 00:54:13.199
the other hand, don't really have it together to really

896
00:54:13.280 --> 00:54:19.400
give into the relationship and do something so people, you.

897
00:54:19.440 --> 00:54:23.320
Know, hold on, hold up. That's why a lot of

898
00:54:23.360 --> 00:54:29.199
men and women don't want to even how do you say,

899
00:54:30.000 --> 00:54:30.800
deal with each other.

900
00:54:31.840 --> 00:54:34.199
They don't want let.

901
00:54:34.079 --> 00:54:38.920
Their vulnerability comes with trust, Like you're not going to

902
00:54:38.960 --> 00:54:41.960
be allowed women or a man are not going to

903
00:54:41.960 --> 00:54:46.039
be allowed themselves to be vulnerable with anybody if they

904
00:54:46.079 --> 00:54:49.199
don't trust that person. There has to be a level

905
00:54:49.239 --> 00:54:54.280
of trust to let your guard down like that. And

906
00:54:55.440 --> 00:54:58.000
like sometimes we make a mistake, we let our guard

907
00:54:58.079 --> 00:55:04.079
down with the wrong people. But like unless you don't,

908
00:55:04.239 --> 00:55:06.840
if you don't do that, you won't know, Like you

909
00:55:06.880 --> 00:55:08.880
know what I'm saying, Like you sometimes you do have

910
00:55:08.920 --> 00:55:11.719
to take a chance. But since we're talking about dating

911
00:55:11.719 --> 00:55:15.760
in our forties, like it's a little frustrating that is

912
00:55:16.360 --> 00:55:18.599
this difficult in your forties?

913
00:55:18.760 --> 00:55:21.119
Like you know what, I was listening to the dating

914
00:55:21.119 --> 00:55:24.280
pool that that you're describing, right, and I kind of

915
00:55:24.280 --> 00:55:26.039
want to add on to it though quick.

916
00:55:26.360 --> 00:55:28.920
Right, what do you mean the dating pool.

917
00:55:29.000 --> 00:55:31.920
Yeah, yeah, so like the dating pool. You know what

918
00:55:31.920 --> 00:55:34.519
I'm saying, For people our age, we're going to get

919
00:55:34.519 --> 00:55:35.159
to scrun through.

920
00:55:35.280 --> 00:55:35.880
You know what I'm saying.

921
00:55:36.000 --> 00:55:41.679
Expouses right who've been cheated on? Its either that or

922
00:55:43.880 --> 00:55:47.320
those that are those that are those that want that

923
00:55:47.559 --> 00:55:50.519
are in their second childhood, you know, those that you

924
00:55:50.559 --> 00:55:52.519
know what I'm saying that still you know what I'm saying,

925
00:55:52.559 --> 00:55:55.000
Like narcissists still think they got it, Like you know,

926
00:55:55.559 --> 00:55:56.719
they're in you know what I'm saying, They're in the

927
00:55:56.760 --> 00:56:02.360
freaking lounge with their thirty year old daughter, right, you

928
00:56:02.400 --> 00:56:05.320
know that, like you know like like like yo, you

929
00:56:05.320 --> 00:56:07.199
know what your grandma, but you and the line with

930
00:56:07.239 --> 00:56:10.679
a thirty year old Gorden right Still, you know what

931
00:56:10.679 --> 00:56:12.559
I'm saying, Still trying to be a cougar and whatever.

932
00:56:12.719 --> 00:56:15.360
When the milk's gone bad, reason ain't working.

933
00:56:15.480 --> 00:56:18.760
You know what I'm saying, Like you know, like experience,

934
00:56:18.840 --> 00:56:19.360
you know what I'm.

935
00:56:19.199 --> 00:56:25.039
Saying, that aren't growing? These are like these are the

936
00:56:25.039 --> 00:56:27.119
people we're talking about, those too, that you have to

937
00:56:27.159 --> 00:56:28.159
be weary of.

938
00:56:29.000 --> 00:56:29.880
But it.

939
00:56:32.000 --> 00:56:35.599
Seems like there's too many. Like it's just and I

940
00:56:35.639 --> 00:56:38.360
think I get it though. For some people because it's

941
00:56:38.400 --> 00:56:42.400
like you want to live your life like for everyone,

942
00:56:42.960 --> 00:56:48.079
Like marriage and relationships are viewed on differently now than

943
00:56:48.119 --> 00:56:52.840
they were back in the day. So the expectation was

944
00:56:53.599 --> 00:56:58.840
your life was fulfilled and good if you got married

945
00:56:59.000 --> 00:57:02.639
and had children. Like that was what was pushed on

946
00:57:02.800 --> 00:57:07.199
us generation after generation. Is like you're supposed to have kids.

947
00:57:07.239 --> 00:57:10.320
You're supposed to find the one, get married and have kids.

948
00:57:11.079 --> 00:57:16.000
See, most end, Most marriages end because like the person

949
00:57:16.039 --> 00:57:18.480
ain't married, that person to marry their representative and the

950
00:57:18.519 --> 00:57:20.360
thought of what the person can be.

951
00:57:20.440 --> 00:57:23.519
A lot of people did because there is that expectation

952
00:57:23.719 --> 00:57:26.760
that was set on people. Like absolutely this is the

953
00:57:26.800 --> 00:57:30.679
bigger issue. But the people that get out I applaud them.

954
00:57:30.760 --> 00:57:34.320
And you know what, there's nothing wrong with having another chance.

955
00:57:34.400 --> 00:57:37.800
Everyone does. There are second chances, but you just have

956
00:57:37.960 --> 00:57:41.280
to be your thirst for fifth. It doesn't matter. The

957
00:57:41.440 --> 00:57:47.079
point is like, just don't get involved with someone unless

958
00:57:47.239 --> 00:57:50.760
you're on the same page, like right, because.

959
00:57:50.719 --> 00:57:54.519
I think at this point you should be done playing

960
00:57:54.559 --> 00:58:01.280
fucking games. But with that being said, it also means

961
00:58:01.760 --> 00:58:08.280
less compromise. I feel. That's my opinion. You have you

962
00:58:08.280 --> 00:58:09.880
have to you have to know, you have to know

963
00:58:09.920 --> 00:58:12.280
what the deal breakers are. You have to know what

964
00:58:12.280 --> 00:58:14.800
the boundaries are, and you have to you have to

965
00:58:14.880 --> 00:58:16.559
also know what you won't tolerate.

966
00:58:17.719 --> 00:58:22.239
Yes, you know what I mean, the deal breakers. Yeah,

967
00:58:22.360 --> 00:58:25.360
that thing you know for sure, the ship.

968
00:58:25.199 --> 00:58:29.599
Is The ship is too? Is that dating? Dating at

969
00:58:29.599 --> 00:58:35.360
this age can feel like less less of a less

970
00:58:35.400 --> 00:58:43.519
discovery and more like dealing with two Jewish lawyers battling

971
00:58:43.519 --> 00:58:45.079
over how much you're going to get at the end

972
00:58:45.079 --> 00:58:47.719
of your your case. You know what I mean, Like

973
00:58:48.199 --> 00:58:53.960
just battling, just battling.

974
00:58:55.320 --> 00:58:57.840
Why they have to be two Jewish lawyers like they am?

975
00:59:01.920 --> 00:59:04.119
No, not not Now hold up now you know what I'm.

976
00:59:04.000 --> 00:59:07.159
Saying, Good boy, get you the money.

977
00:59:07.679 --> 00:59:10.320
Hey, or or they'll get you out of jail. Now

978
00:59:10.360 --> 00:59:11.960
hold up now you know what I'm saying. They don't know.

979
00:59:12.480 --> 00:59:13.840
I mean, they don't they.

980
00:59:15.800 --> 00:59:19.119
Know how to Hey, I'm one right now. You know

981
00:59:19.159 --> 00:59:19.599
what I'm saying.

982
00:59:20.199 --> 00:59:23.079
I'm one, you know, like like like you know what you.

983
00:59:23.039 --> 00:59:23.559
Know what company?

984
00:59:23.599 --> 00:59:26.039
You know what your two decades ago? You know what

985
00:59:26.039 --> 00:59:27.960
I'm saying. I call it like a real servious charge.

986
00:59:27.960 --> 00:59:29.039
And this dude got me off.

987
00:59:29.639 --> 00:59:30.239
You know what I'm saying.

988
00:59:30.559 --> 00:59:32.239
This dude, you know I'm seeing this dude got off

989
00:59:32.239 --> 00:59:33.559
with a slap on the wrist when I should have

990
00:59:33.599 --> 00:59:35.039
been facing like seven years in jail.

991
00:59:36.840 --> 00:59:40.760
Now, I apologize, Bobby. No, it wasn't my first defense.

992
00:59:41.159 --> 00:59:42.039
Forget it. You're a bust.

993
00:59:42.840 --> 00:59:44.719
You know what I'm saying. Yo, Yo, it wasn't my

994
00:59:44.719 --> 00:59:45.320
first defense.

995
00:59:45.360 --> 00:59:48.159
But like, hey, you know what they listen, you know

996
00:59:48.199 --> 00:59:49.719
what I'm saying that that was a good analogy.

997
00:59:50.360 --> 00:59:52.679
That was a great analogy because you know what, I

998
00:59:52.800 --> 00:59:58.079
attested that. But but you know.

999
00:59:57.800 --> 00:59:59.920
But but but but yo, But you the thing is,

1000
01:00:00.559 --> 01:00:02.960
it's like it's like, yo, you know what like.

1001
01:00:04.320 --> 01:00:06.639
People you know people are is that's in the dating scenes.

1002
01:00:06.800 --> 01:00:07.360
You know what I'm saying.

1003
01:00:07.440 --> 01:00:10.440
She don't want to brag about being toxic neither or

1004
01:00:10.480 --> 01:00:13.519
being petty, Like, yo, you know what, don't you know

1005
01:00:13.559 --> 01:00:15.079
what I'm saying, if you want to do that, you

1006
01:00:15.119 --> 01:00:15.880
know what I'm saying.

1007
01:00:15.639 --> 01:00:18.880
Like like stop, yo, you know what I'm saying.

1008
01:00:18.880 --> 01:00:20.719
I don't think people brag about it. I think they

1009
01:00:20.719 --> 01:00:24.800
don't even recognize that in themselves because because.

1010
01:00:24.559 --> 01:00:26.719
You know what, because you know what that you know what,

1011
01:00:26.920 --> 01:00:29.960
that became them and you know what I'm saying, like

1012
01:00:30.000 --> 01:00:32.400
it became you know what I'm saying, like they that

1013
01:00:32.480 --> 01:00:35.000
became it became their personality.

1014
01:00:35.599 --> 01:00:38.320
But artististic liars.

1015
01:00:38.840 --> 01:00:40.159
But but.

1016
01:00:42.000 --> 01:00:45.559
I mean, I mean, you know, I personally think I

1017
01:00:46.119 --> 01:00:49.840
look no further than Washington, d C. Right, I personally

1018
01:00:49.920 --> 01:00:56.760
think the dating pool is geared towards like women who

1019
01:00:57.679 --> 01:01:01.639
who really know what they want. You know what I'm saying,

1020
01:01:01.679 --> 01:01:02.119
I mean you.

1021
01:01:02.119 --> 01:01:05.840
Have to hopefully yes, I mean in our age group, Yes,

1022
01:01:06.159 --> 01:01:09.039
I would think so that there's more of that because

1023
01:01:09.079 --> 01:01:12.400
I feel like I to see, like a lot of

1024
01:01:12.440 --> 01:01:18.280
the the things I'm seeing are younger women. I could

1025
01:01:18.360 --> 01:01:21.280
like there's a difference between when younger women are talking

1026
01:01:21.320 --> 01:01:27.000
about something where their focus goes with the relationship, whereas

1027
01:01:27.039 --> 01:01:30.800
someone who is older and where that would go. But again,

1028
01:01:30.880 --> 01:01:35.800
it also depends on the level of emotional maturity that

1029
01:01:35.840 --> 01:01:43.880
person has. Emotional intelligence, fucking just self awareness and uh

1030
01:01:43.920 --> 01:01:46.760
the ability to call yourself out on your ship really

1031
01:01:46.960 --> 01:01:49.119
because we all.

1032
01:01:48.159 --> 01:01:56.519
Know myself all the top got what's wild too.

1033
01:01:56.840 --> 01:01:59.920
What's wild about it too is that trying to find

1034
01:02:01.000 --> 01:02:03.480
it's like trying to find needle in the haystack. It's

1035
01:02:03.519 --> 01:02:11.960
like trying to find someone who is genuinely available emotionally.

1036
01:02:12.920 --> 01:02:15.519
You know what I'm saying and finding.

1037
01:02:15.280 --> 01:02:18.119
Somebody, I'm just playing.

1038
01:02:18.119 --> 01:02:22.880
Well, yeah, but I think I think I think I

1039
01:02:22.920 --> 01:02:30.239
think it's just like just women. I don't know. I

1040
01:02:30.360 --> 01:02:33.519
I just think I just think that it's it's it's

1041
01:02:33.559 --> 01:02:38.119
sad that at this age, it's so hard for some

1042
01:02:39.519 --> 01:02:41.079
to get to where they want to be when it

1043
01:02:41.079 --> 01:02:45.760
comes to relationships.

1044
01:02:44.360 --> 01:02:47.039
Out of age, it's out of age, like like, yo,

1045
01:02:47.079 --> 01:02:49.000
you know what you like? All right?

1046
01:02:49.159 --> 01:02:50.880
You know what, Let's just say I was single, right,

1047
01:02:51.360 --> 01:02:54.800
I mean, someone my age, you have to expect you

1048
01:02:54.800 --> 01:02:58.000
know what I'm saying, that they're carrying baggage and it's

1049
01:02:58.000 --> 01:03:00.079
going to be some type of traumatic baggage because and

1050
01:03:00.119 --> 01:03:01.239
what they got if.

1051
01:03:01.039 --> 01:03:02.840
They want through a divorce, that's traumatic.

1052
01:03:03.400 --> 01:03:03.880
You know what I'm saying.

1053
01:03:03.920 --> 01:03:07.159
Regardless of what you know what I'm saying, right, So,

1054
01:03:07.159 --> 01:03:08.800
so you know what I'm saying, you have to have

1055
01:03:08.920 --> 01:03:13.559
like that, like you know what I'm saying, if you're

1056
01:03:13.559 --> 01:03:15.239
feeling that person, you know what I'm saying, Like, if

1057
01:03:15.239 --> 01:03:19.480
you're really really feeling this person whatever whatever she throws out.

1058
01:03:19.360 --> 01:03:19.880
You know what I'm saying.

1059
01:03:19.920 --> 01:03:22.679
You have to be understandable and somewhat you gotta be

1060
01:03:22.679 --> 01:03:24.280
a buffer somehow you know what I'm saying.

1061
01:03:25.360 --> 01:03:27.280
Yeah, you have to be somehow, you know what I'm saying.

1062
01:03:27.280 --> 01:03:29.559
But but but like yo, you know what, But for yo,

1063
01:03:29.599 --> 01:03:31.599
you know what, she also has to understand that, Yo,

1064
01:03:31.679 --> 01:03:33.960
you went through some ship too, you know what I'm saying.

1065
01:03:34.000 --> 01:03:35.559
There has to be an understanding.

1066
01:03:37.000 --> 01:03:39.800
That's that's where that comes in. You know, the the

1067
01:03:40.480 --> 01:03:45.440
the baggage you wanna, you wanna you know, let let

1068
01:03:46.000 --> 01:03:47.840
open up the baggage. But you don't want to fucking

1069
01:03:47.880 --> 01:03:50.840
completely unload it on someone, you know what I'm saying.

1070
01:03:50.840 --> 01:03:53.719
You want to go you want to deal with what

1071
01:03:55.280 --> 01:03:58.280
little by little, Yeah, a little by little.

1072
01:03:58.760 --> 01:04:01.880
But when you when you overwhelm someone by unloading completely,

1073
01:04:02.440 --> 01:04:07.000
that that that that can scare someone away. So you

1074
01:04:07.039 --> 01:04:09.280
have to really you have to really know what it

1075
01:04:09.360 --> 01:04:11.440
is you're getting yourself into. And I'm not one of

1076
01:04:11.440 --> 01:04:13.320
the biggest one of the biggest hold up. One of

1077
01:04:13.400 --> 01:04:16.920
the biggest things too about a lot of relationships nowadays

1078
01:04:17.480 --> 01:04:25.920
is that mhm, women, I'm not saying all women. Some women.

1079
01:04:28.559 --> 01:04:31.199
I'm not gonna say this without getting yelled at.

1080
01:04:32.880 --> 01:04:39.320
Just say, hey, just say you know what I'm saying,

1081
01:04:39.360 --> 01:04:41.480
because commun.

1082
01:04:42.880 --> 01:04:48.719
Uncommunicated expectations, right right, You can't. You have to have

1083
01:04:48.880 --> 01:04:52.400
You have to communicate your expectations in the relationship. If

1084
01:04:52.440 --> 01:04:55.599
you go ahead and and and and think that you

1085
01:04:55.760 --> 01:05:00.679
can pussy foot through this relationship without person what you're

1086
01:05:00.920 --> 01:05:03.760
what your wants and your needs are, it's not gonna

1087
01:05:03.760 --> 01:05:07.000
happen because if your partner doesn't know what you're thinking,

1088
01:05:07.239 --> 01:05:11.400
what you're feeling, and what it is you're you're you're

1089
01:05:11.440 --> 01:05:14.239
expecting in this relationship, it's never gonna work.

1090
01:05:16.320 --> 01:05:21.119
And another thing too, and another thing too. Right, that's

1091
01:05:21.880 --> 01:05:23.599
what the team see. One problem.

1092
01:05:23.679 --> 01:05:25.119
You know what I'm saying, and there, yo, you know what,

1093
01:05:25.639 --> 01:05:30.360
Like I truly believe it's ninety nine point nine percent

1094
01:05:30.440 --> 01:05:32.639
women do this ship, right.

1095
01:05:33.239 --> 01:05:35.000
Okay, get them?

1096
01:05:35.440 --> 01:05:37.639
What Why do you guys? You know what I'm saying?

1097
01:05:37.679 --> 01:05:38.639
Think what mind reader is?

1098
01:05:38.719 --> 01:05:38.800
Like?

1099
01:05:39.159 --> 01:05:43.760
Like, yo, are we bemusings? You think with professor? You

1100
01:05:43.760 --> 01:05:44.840
know what I'm saying? Like like like.

1101
01:05:45.880 --> 01:05:48.119
Like like, yo, you know what you know what I'm saying.

1102
01:05:48.519 --> 01:05:52.679
And I'm gonna be petty on this one. Right today,

1103
01:05:53.079 --> 01:05:59.280
I'll come upstairs right oh after after I was outside

1104
01:05:59.400 --> 01:06:03.559
in the store, right, you know, you could have called

1105
01:06:04.079 --> 01:06:05.039
and be like, oh, yeah, you.

1106
01:06:04.960 --> 01:06:05.519
Know what I'm saying.

1107
01:06:05.920 --> 01:06:13.800
But listen this right, I'll come upstairs. Oh, I forgot

1108
01:06:13.840 --> 01:06:18.320
to tell you we need to paper and the baby

1109
01:06:18.360 --> 01:06:23.760
news pipers. And I'm like, well, I thought you knew, Yo,

1110
01:06:24.880 --> 01:06:25.599
I'm outside.

1111
01:06:25.760 --> 01:06:27.239
You know what I'm saying. You could you know what

1112
01:06:27.239 --> 01:06:30.760
I'm saying, Like you want the house? You know what

1113
01:06:30.800 --> 01:06:35.000
I'm saying. You have more access than I do. You know,

1114
01:06:35.119 --> 01:06:38.079
like I thought you knew. See, yeah, I gotta stop

1115
01:06:38.119 --> 01:06:40.800
doing that. Man. You know what I mean. Stop So

1116
01:06:40.880 --> 01:06:42.760
stop it. Expedition stop.

1117
01:06:42.960 --> 01:06:44.800
That is edication.

1118
01:06:45.360 --> 01:06:48.400
That's all that because I'm not yop yo. You know

1119
01:06:48.440 --> 01:06:51.360
what you know what I'm saying is my name Charles Xavier.

1120
01:06:51.480 --> 01:06:52.880
Am I in a wheelchair? You know what I'm saying?

1121
01:06:52.920 --> 01:06:53.440
Can I do this?

1122
01:06:54.440 --> 01:06:56.920
You know what I'm saying? Like no, I'm like no,

1123
01:06:56.960 --> 01:06:59.119
you know, I look more like slap cops with the

1124
01:06:59.119 --> 01:06:59.639
glasses on.

1125
01:07:00.800 --> 01:07:04.079
So I'm just playing but but but but yeah, but yo,

1126
01:07:04.119 --> 01:07:06.079
you know it's petty. You know what I'm saying, it's

1127
01:07:06.119 --> 01:07:09.039
petty mad but like you know what, but you know

1128
01:07:09.039 --> 01:07:11.519
how I resulted because I just parked my car and

1129
01:07:11.519 --> 01:07:13.719
park parking t G.

1130
01:07:13.840 --> 01:07:15.400
You know when north Bergen is like the parking here

1131
01:07:15.480 --> 01:07:18.159
is ridiculous, right, yes, you know what I'm saying. You see,

1132
01:07:18.559 --> 01:07:19.960
thank God. You know what I'm saying.

1133
01:07:20.280 --> 01:07:22.280
I left five blocks away from Dollar General and I

1134
01:07:22.360 --> 01:07:24.039
left five blocks away from you know what I'm saying,

1135
01:07:24.119 --> 01:07:26.559
shop right and everything else because I walked my you

1136
01:07:26.559 --> 01:07:27.559
know what I'm saying. I was like, you know what,

1137
01:07:27.679 --> 01:07:29.559
I'll just take a walk. I walked them right the

1138
01:07:29.599 --> 01:07:31.599
Dog General. You know what I'm saying, got the thing

1139
01:07:32.079 --> 01:07:34.599
came back. You know what I'm saying, problem solve. But

1140
01:07:34.800 --> 01:07:36.239
that's not the point though, you know what I'm saying. I'm

1141
01:07:36.239 --> 01:07:38.639
out on the road man. You know, come on, man, I.

1142
01:07:38.599 --> 01:07:39.960
Was on the phone with you too. That's what makes

1143
01:07:40.039 --> 01:07:42.719
the words. Tell me. She just got me mad. Yo,

1144
01:07:42.880 --> 01:07:47.039
just thinking about playing really quick.

1145
01:07:54.440 --> 01:07:57.719
I want to I want to say something real quick. Uh.

1146
01:07:57.760 --> 01:08:01.159
The chat room is popping right, so what I yeah,

1147
01:08:01.239 --> 01:08:03.639
I want to what. I want to know if there's

1148
01:08:03.679 --> 01:08:08.360
a brave soul out there in the chat room who

1149
01:08:08.440 --> 01:08:12.239
would love to come up and say something about something

1150
01:08:12.400 --> 01:08:14.800
and discuss whatever they want to discuss with us, as

1151
01:08:14.800 --> 01:08:17.439
far as it has to do with finding love after

1152
01:08:17.479 --> 01:08:24.000
forty let me know. I'll get you on and we'll

1153
01:08:24.119 --> 01:08:25.159
we'll we'll, we'll.

1154
01:08:25.239 --> 01:08:28.359
Me doing that you're not people. We get so crazy

1155
01:08:28.439 --> 01:08:28.920
up in here.

1156
01:08:30.600 --> 01:08:32.000
Let's get let's get crazy.

1157
01:08:32.640 --> 01:08:37.960
Yep, yea, but hold on, excuse me. Ken's I was

1158
01:08:38.079 --> 01:08:40.640
on the phone with her. You know what I'm saying, yo, Yo,

1159
01:08:40.680 --> 01:08:42.520
hold on, I'm gonna answer this real quick. I was

1160
01:08:42.560 --> 01:08:44.079
on the phone where we were talking.

1161
01:08:44.239 --> 01:08:45.520
You know what I'm saying. I'm like, Yo, you know what,

1162
01:08:46.600 --> 01:08:48.319
You're not gonna cook today? I got someone.

1163
01:08:48.359 --> 01:08:49.640
You know what I'm saying. I got somebody I'm you

1164
01:08:49.680 --> 01:08:51.439
know what I'm saying, like, I'm gonna go get this

1165
01:08:51.520 --> 01:08:53.319
and whatever. I'm gonna bring it home up. I'm gonna

1166
01:08:53.359 --> 01:08:54.840
cook you. You know what I'm saying, because you got a

1167
01:08:54.880 --> 01:08:57.119
long that a work. Yes, I do cook, all right,

1168
01:08:57.279 --> 01:09:03.920
I do? So you know you yoah yo, you know what.

1169
01:09:04.079 --> 01:09:05.680
I have a problem making Rice. You know what I'm

1170
01:09:05.680 --> 01:09:07.840
saying till this day. You know what I'm saying. Rights

1171
01:09:07.880 --> 01:09:10.960
be coming up, yo, yo yo yo, My rights be

1172
01:09:11.000 --> 01:09:13.119
looking like you know what I'm saying, like Claster, like

1173
01:09:13.119 --> 01:09:15.079
you could literally claster the wall. And you know what

1174
01:09:15.119 --> 01:09:19.119
I'm saying, horrible, You know you know what I'm saying,

1175
01:09:19.199 --> 01:09:25.079
Like right yo, you know what y yo yo, Listen

1176
01:09:25.119 --> 01:09:27.159
when it comes to rights. I'm handicapped on just to

1177
01:09:27.159 --> 01:09:30.359
took it. You know what I'm saying, who any who?

1178
01:09:30.720 --> 01:09:33.720
You know? So I go upstairs and she's like, we

1179
01:09:33.760 --> 01:09:36.640
need to other people. And the thing that the was,

1180
01:09:36.640 --> 01:09:38.359
I was like, I was just outside on the phone

1181
01:09:38.359 --> 01:09:39.760
with you. I was on the phone with you're.

1182
01:09:39.680 --> 01:09:43.560
Talking as someone suggested that maybe you should have asked

1183
01:09:43.600 --> 01:09:45.920
before you came home if there was anything.

1184
01:09:46.960 --> 01:09:48.000
That's the thing.

1185
01:09:49.800 --> 01:09:53.039
Great part? What do you want to take you care of?

1186
01:09:53.159 --> 01:09:53.319
Yo?

1187
01:09:53.399 --> 01:09:55.720
You know what y'all? You know what? First off, you

1188
01:09:55.720 --> 01:09:57.119
know what I'm saying. First off, you know what I'm saying.

1189
01:09:57.399 --> 01:09:59.359
And now I'm saying like this next time she does that,

1190
01:10:00.960 --> 01:10:02.239
because yo, I understand something.

1191
01:10:02.279 --> 01:10:04.000
I'm I'm the man of the house. I found my

1192
01:10:04.119 --> 01:10:04.840
control over her.

1193
01:10:04.920 --> 01:10:06.920
She'll be like, shut the funk up, I'll be quiet,

1194
01:10:06.920 --> 01:10:09.039
But once she's I'm talking again, because yo, you gotta

1195
01:10:09.079 --> 01:10:10.479
let this woman think her in control.

1196
01:10:10.600 --> 01:10:12.640
When you're in control, that's my control.

1197
01:10:12.680 --> 01:10:19.880
That's how you're somebody, not just play.

1198
01:10:21.920 --> 01:10:23.880
Not now.

1199
01:10:23.880 --> 01:10:25.359
But you know what, though I handled that though. You

1200
01:10:25.399 --> 01:10:26.800
know what I'm saying, like like you know what, I

1201
01:10:26.840 --> 01:10:28.720
took the walk. You know what I'm saying, like because

1202
01:10:28.880 --> 01:10:30.159
because YO, at the end of the day. You know

1203
01:10:30.199 --> 01:10:33.079
what I mean, Like, I do understand that, my lady.

1204
01:10:33.159 --> 01:10:34.319
You know what I'm saying, deals with a lot of

1205
01:10:35.199 --> 01:10:37.960
most of that job. You know what I'm saying, So like,

1206
01:10:38.279 --> 01:10:39.079
why what.

1207
01:10:39.119 --> 01:10:40.760
Am I going to add on to the extra bullshit

1208
01:10:40.800 --> 01:10:41.079
at home?

1209
01:10:43.119 --> 01:10:46.119
You know what I'm saying, like like and and and Yo.

1210
01:10:46.199 --> 01:10:47.800
You know what, It's true what they say. You know

1211
01:10:47.840 --> 01:10:52.199
what I'm saying, happy wife, happy life. It's true what

1212
01:10:52.199 --> 01:10:53.319
they say, because yo, you know.

1213
01:10:53.279 --> 01:10:55.399
What happy I realized.

1214
01:10:56.279 --> 01:10:59.239
Yo. You know what I realized, Yo, you know what

1215
01:10:59.319 --> 01:10:59.920
I realized.

1216
01:11:00.039 --> 01:11:05.840
Not Yo, listen all right, you know what to happy,

1217
01:11:05.960 --> 01:11:09.520
happy spouse, happy house means that she comes there. And

1218
01:11:09.560 --> 01:11:14.000
I was like, anyways, I'm just playing, just playing. It's

1219
01:11:14.000 --> 01:11:20.119
just playing to take a joke out there, just watching, yo.

1220
01:11:20.279 --> 01:11:21.640
You know what I'm joking.

1221
01:11:21.640 --> 01:11:25.239
I'm joking right now?

1222
01:11:25.680 --> 01:11:26.720
Oh is that so?

1223
01:11:27.880 --> 01:11:28.039
Yeah?

1224
01:11:28.600 --> 01:11:31.640
Yeah, you know what I'm saying.

1225
01:11:31.800 --> 01:11:35.520
Never mind, the backhand is the frying pan, right.

1226
01:11:36.239 --> 01:11:37.560
Yo, the frying pan or whatever?

1227
01:11:37.680 --> 01:11:37.880
Right?

1228
01:11:38.239 --> 01:11:40.520
So so so you know I handled that, you know

1229
01:11:40.520 --> 01:11:41.800
what I'm saying, because like, yo, at the end of

1230
01:11:41.840 --> 01:11:44.039
the day, you know what I'm saying, Like, like, look,

1231
01:11:44.039 --> 01:11:46.039
you know what without the queen the whole Kington Falls.

1232
01:11:46.119 --> 01:11:49.279
I never understood that. So I got older. So I'm

1233
01:11:49.319 --> 01:11:51.279
in it right now. You know what I'm saying.

1234
01:11:51.479 --> 01:11:53.760
And that's because I allow myself to understand.

1235
01:11:53.319 --> 01:11:55.159
That, you know what I'm saying, Like I wasn't trying

1236
01:11:55.199 --> 01:11:58.479
to be all chovnistick of Mato no more easily. You know,

1237
01:11:58.880 --> 01:12:01.800
I may jump around, I'm I'm gonna joke around, but like, yo,

1238
01:12:01.880 --> 01:12:03.279
you know what upstairs?

1239
01:12:03.359 --> 01:12:05.920
Upstairs is fifty fifty. You know what I'm saying. And

1240
01:12:05.960 --> 01:12:06.640
what took me so.

1241
01:12:06.720 --> 01:12:09.359
Long is because I was giving my daughter a bath,

1242
01:12:09.439 --> 01:12:11.720
right and you know what I'm saying. She did not

1243
01:12:11.800 --> 01:12:13.520
want to come out, and she starts yelling at me.

1244
01:12:15.760 --> 01:12:16.199
You know what I'm saying.

1245
01:12:16.199 --> 01:12:20.000
Where her gibberish? And I'm like, excuse you, excuse you.

1246
01:12:20.439 --> 01:12:22.199
I was like, oh no, no, no, no, no, knowing

1247
01:12:22.239 --> 01:12:24.199
you've been yelling at me all day today, I ain't

1248
01:12:24.239 --> 01:12:27.199
gonna have that, you know. So she thinks she's the

1249
01:12:27.239 --> 01:12:27.720
boss of me.

1250
01:12:28.119 --> 01:12:28.680
She is? Is?

1251
01:12:29.640 --> 01:12:30.600
I got I got a question?

1252
01:12:31.000 --> 01:12:36.680
Is she is? Is? What's the question? Do you not

1253
01:12:37.079 --> 01:12:40.479
change the baby or take a ship? Do you not

1254
01:12:40.840 --> 01:12:44.840
know the items were needed? I mean, yeah, you're not

1255
01:12:45.640 --> 01:12:46.000
you can't.

1256
01:12:46.479 --> 01:12:48.079
Well you know what I'm not. You know you know

1257
01:12:48.119 --> 01:12:50.079
what that No? Not all right, you know what. Now

1258
01:12:50.119 --> 01:12:51.119
here's the thing. Here's the thing.

1259
01:12:51.399 --> 01:12:57.800
Twenty twenty. I have had soil, toil and paper in security.

1260
01:12:58.520 --> 01:13:01.840
Yo, you know what, no alto subside, right, you know

1261
01:13:01.840 --> 01:13:06.720
what I'm saying. No, no, no, no, you know what. No,

1262
01:13:06.880 --> 01:13:08.439
you know what I'm trying to answer. You know, I'm

1263
01:13:08.439 --> 01:13:11.920
trying to answer a question real quick. See, I was attit.

1264
01:13:12.000 --> 01:13:14.840
You know what I'm saying. I was outside, right, I

1265
01:13:14.920 --> 01:13:16.680
was outside, you know, like like I went outside to

1266
01:13:16.680 --> 01:13:18.079
go get the food. And that's the only thing I

1267
01:13:18.119 --> 01:13:20.399
started thinking about. It's like, all right, yo, you know what,

1268
01:13:20.840 --> 01:13:21.479
I'm gonna get this?

1269
01:13:21.520 --> 01:13:22.039
That and the third.

1270
01:13:22.039 --> 01:13:23.560
You know what I'm saying, Like I kind of you

1271
01:13:23.560 --> 01:13:25.359
know what I'm saying, I like I kind of figured

1272
01:13:25.359 --> 01:13:26.920
out that, you know what I mean, Like you have

1273
01:13:27.039 --> 01:13:29.520
to go get that. You know what I'm saying. But

1274
01:13:29.920 --> 01:13:31.199
I was like, yo, you know what we have. You

1275
01:13:31.239 --> 01:13:35.359
know what I'm saying, I could do that tomorrow. Look,

1276
01:13:35.359 --> 01:13:35.920
you know what I'm saying.

1277
01:13:36.920 --> 01:13:45.920
You can't be pretty things off. That's that mappened, Okay.

1278
01:13:45.720 --> 01:13:47.920
No, hell no, no, no, no, not you know it

1279
01:13:47.920 --> 01:13:48.760
has to be fifty.

1280
01:13:48.800 --> 01:13:50.680
You all know why. You know what I'm saying because

1281
01:13:50.720 --> 01:13:53.920
like because like, yo, you know what, but I I get,

1282
01:13:54.000 --> 01:13:57.039
I get I can't do yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,

1283
01:13:57.039 --> 01:13:57.319
you know what.

1284
01:13:57.359 --> 01:14:00.000
You keep taking one hundred because I feel like.

1285
01:14:00.000 --> 01:14:02.119
You know what I get. You know, it got to

1286
01:14:02.119 --> 01:14:03.760
be one hundred. It got to be a hundred, like

1287
01:14:03.920 --> 01:14:05.680
like you keep it a hundred, she keep it a hundred,

1288
01:14:06.159 --> 01:14:09.520
you know, like all the way I understand that good

1289
01:14:09.520 --> 01:14:09.920
one going.

1290
01:14:10.000 --> 01:14:14.520
That's different keeping it one hundred versus so right, but

1291
01:14:16.199 --> 01:14:19.439
we're over your story already. Okay, we get it. You

1292
01:14:19.479 --> 01:14:23.079
don't obviously pay attention to having enough toilet paper for

1293
01:14:23.199 --> 01:14:28.239
when you ship, which is a problem, and you the mar.

1294
01:14:31.119 --> 01:14:32.680
Excuse me, you know what?

1295
01:14:33.279 --> 01:14:39.119
Wait wait, hold on, hold on, hold on though, hold on,

1296
01:14:40.319 --> 01:14:45.760
hold on something of my defense. You know, you know,

1297
01:14:45.960 --> 01:14:47.520
due to my injury, I don't work, so I'm with

1298
01:14:47.560 --> 01:14:49.079
the baby all day. I'm the housewife.

1299
01:14:49.119 --> 01:14:50.359
Actually, oh.

1300
01:14:55.600 --> 01:14:58.960
Hold on, but but yo, you know what I'm cleaning

1301
01:14:59.000 --> 01:15:00.880
up after the baby. You what I'm saying, I'm in

1302
01:15:01.000 --> 01:15:03.000
pain sometimes, yo, Yo, you know what. I'm in pain

1303
01:15:03.079 --> 01:15:04.640
sometimes because you know what I'm saying, Like I gotta

1304
01:15:04.680 --> 01:15:06.279
be like like running.

1305
01:15:05.960 --> 01:15:07.159
Around chasing this child.

1306
01:15:07.399 --> 01:15:09.119
Just you just dug your own grave.

1307
01:15:09.359 --> 01:15:16.039
No, I don't care though, bro, even be you know

1308
01:15:16.079 --> 01:15:20.560
what yo? Listen, yeah, yeah, listen. You know what. Listen.

1309
01:15:20.600 --> 01:15:22.119
You know what I'm my age. You know I'm saying,

1310
01:15:22.199 --> 01:15:23.159
chasing a two year old.

1311
01:15:23.680 --> 01:15:25.760
I don't want to like, I don't want to hear it.

1312
01:15:29.199 --> 01:15:29.359
Yo.

1313
01:15:29.439 --> 01:15:31.279
You know what, we get to toil. The paper.

1314
01:15:34.279 --> 01:15:36.319
On my back hurts like yo, you know what, it's

1315
01:15:36.359 --> 01:15:37.039
gonna ring later.

1316
01:15:37.119 --> 01:15:40.119
I feel that ship they have like delivery and ship

1317
01:15:40.279 --> 01:15:46.840
like that. Yo, Oh my god, I can How important?

1318
01:15:47.760 --> 01:15:49.239
Yeah, dug myself. I don't care.

1319
01:15:49.399 --> 01:15:51.399
I'm still gonna blame her anyways. Want the why because

1320
01:15:51.399 --> 01:15:54.640
it always hurt fall. You know what's apple? That's you

1321
01:15:54.640 --> 01:15:56.680
know what I'm saying. It's hurtful. You know what I'm saying.

1322
01:15:57.720 --> 01:16:00.239
They don't have his piece, they have her piece. It's

1323
01:16:00.319 --> 01:16:07.319
her fault anyway. How important?

1324
01:16:11.079 --> 01:16:11.399
All right?

1325
01:16:11.439 --> 01:16:13.640
All right, all right? Take it.

1326
01:16:14.239 --> 01:16:17.199
Take a deep breath. Hold on a second, Hold on

1327
01:16:17.199 --> 01:16:28.560
one second, Hold on me? How I How important MHM

1328
01:16:29.319 --> 01:16:38.680
is affection, compassion, and intimacy in a relationships that started

1329
01:16:38.680 --> 01:16:43.119
at starting off building towards the ultimate goal, which is,

1330
01:16:44.119 --> 01:16:47.279
you know whatever, the ultimate goal is that you have?

1331
01:16:48.159 --> 01:16:52.640
But how important is the booty slaps? How important is

1332
01:16:53.279 --> 01:16:57.119
the making out? How important is the sex? How important

1333
01:16:57.239 --> 01:17:02.439
is all of that stuff combined? How do you look

1334
01:17:02.479 --> 01:17:09.479
at that as as how do you say how important? No,

1335
01:17:09.520 --> 01:17:12.760
not a deal break, but how important is it and

1336
01:17:12.800 --> 01:17:14.920
how much of how much of them?

1337
01:17:15.039 --> 01:17:16.039
Yeah? Yeah, yeah.

1338
01:17:18.760 --> 01:17:19.760
For myself.

1339
01:17:21.279 --> 01:17:23.600
That's why, That's why I asked the question, because everyone

1340
01:17:23.680 --> 01:17:26.279
is different, right I it is.

1341
01:17:26.359 --> 01:17:32.680
Very important for me affection, intacy, being on the same

1342
01:17:32.720 --> 01:17:40.159
page sexually, having chemistry, uh, being able to be content,

1343
01:17:40.640 --> 01:17:43.479
being bored, all that stuff.

1344
01:17:44.920 --> 01:17:46.279
Yeah, you know what at the end of the day,

1345
01:17:46.319 --> 01:17:50.439
like with me and know what I'm saying, the relationship, it's.

1346
01:17:50.399 --> 01:17:54.600
Part part of it, Like I don't feel unless the

1347
01:17:55.319 --> 01:17:59.199
unless you're both asexual or something like, I don't think

1348
01:17:59.560 --> 01:18:07.840
like a relationship in being a romantic and fulfilling relationship

1349
01:18:07.960 --> 01:18:10.000
if there isn't levels.

1350
01:18:10.000 --> 01:18:16.920
And how important is it to How is it is?

1351
01:18:17.000 --> 01:18:21.880
How is it to a person? How is it? How god?

1352
01:18:24.199 --> 01:18:26.319
How is it right?

1353
01:18:26.359 --> 01:18:33.119
I'm trying to how important is it? And how often

1354
01:18:33.680 --> 01:18:40.640
should a person looking for love? How should a person

1355
01:18:40.840 --> 01:18:44.640
go about making those kinds of adjustments to their life?

1356
01:18:46.600 --> 01:18:52.119
As far as sex, intimacy and compassion is concerned over

1357
01:18:52.239 --> 01:18:56.399
forty because sometimes things don't work for some women and

1358
01:18:56.520 --> 01:18:56.920
some men.

1359
01:18:57.319 --> 01:19:00.680
But that's why again you have you conversing shas and

1360
01:19:00.800 --> 01:19:03.960
again that's why it's important to know these things. But

1361
01:19:04.000 --> 01:19:07.960
there's remedies, right for all things, if there's remedies for

1362
01:19:08.000 --> 01:19:11.279
her and there's remedies for him, if that's what people

1363
01:19:11.399 --> 01:19:17.159
need in the relationship. But intimacy isn't just sex. So like,

1364
01:19:18.319 --> 01:19:23.079
but I think in a romantic relationship, a committed relationship,

1365
01:19:23.800 --> 01:19:28.159
you need intimacy, like because then you're just you're with

1366
01:19:28.359 --> 01:19:33.359
a roommates. That's a friendship. So if you're in a

1367
01:19:33.399 --> 01:19:36.760
real relationship, then there needs to be a real level

1368
01:19:36.760 --> 01:19:40.359
of intimacy there or again you're just friend.

1369
01:19:41.640 --> 01:19:42.079
You know what.

1370
01:19:43.439 --> 01:19:45.600
Now see like like seeing Now here's the thing, right,

1371
01:19:46.439 --> 01:19:48.399
you know, Like I have a problem. You know what

1372
01:19:48.399 --> 01:19:50.359
I'm saying, Well, look for love, because like if you

1373
01:19:50.359 --> 01:19:51.640
look for it's not gonna you know, say, you're not

1374
01:19:51.640 --> 01:19:52.199
gonna find it.

1375
01:19:52.399 --> 01:19:54.640
That shit just happens, I'm saying.

1376
01:19:56.079 --> 01:20:01.159
But I mean there's intentionally dating, and that's talking about

1377
01:20:01.239 --> 01:20:09.960
and two people out there. Okay, you and your experience

1378
01:20:10.439 --> 01:20:12.920
about you were one of those guys that wasn't looking

1379
01:20:12.960 --> 01:20:17.840
for and that happened. Okay, we get it, it happened,

1380
01:20:19.279 --> 01:20:23.279
but that's not really like that's not everyone's story. There

1381
01:20:23.279 --> 01:20:25.720
are more people out there who are trying to find

1382
01:20:25.800 --> 01:20:31.239
someone than not for that intense like there. That's why

1383
01:20:31.279 --> 01:20:34.720
these dating apps exists, or for people to find each other.

1384
01:20:36.640 --> 01:20:38.079
Yeah, you know what dating app?

1385
01:20:38.159 --> 01:20:41.279
I think I think they need to do more like uh,

1386
01:20:42.079 --> 01:20:45.720
those speed dating events and ship like that, Like I

1387
01:20:45.720 --> 01:20:48.199
feel like that should be a bigger market and a

1388
01:20:48.239 --> 01:20:53.159
bigger thing because especially now, like it makes a difference

1389
01:20:53.199 --> 01:20:57.000
when you meet someone in person and when it's like

1390
01:20:57.199 --> 01:20:59.800
it feels like a game that way, and it's kind

1391
01:20:59.800 --> 01:21:04.199
of like more chill. It's not like spectations. Just get

1392
01:21:04.239 --> 01:21:05.479
to know somebody real quick.

1393
01:21:05.520 --> 01:21:07.079
You got you got a minute. So what would I say?

1394
01:21:07.079 --> 01:21:09.800
I would say wu tang and she says who next?

1395
01:21:14.079 --> 01:21:18.720
The response should be that will say is forever? And

1396
01:21:18.880 --> 01:21:19.800
that's how you know.

1397
01:21:20.279 --> 01:21:27.119
That's or when you say wu tang.

1398
01:21:29.720 --> 01:21:38.560
Either or so get it? So yes, that's the whole thing.

1399
01:21:38.720 --> 01:21:42.119
Like you usually get like three or five minutes to

1400
01:21:42.239 --> 01:21:45.560
talk to somebody, and in that time, obviously you should

1401
01:21:45.600 --> 01:21:48.520
be asking this ship that matters to you like obviously

1402
01:21:48.560 --> 01:21:49.399
everybody does like.

1403
01:21:49.920 --> 01:21:50.560
You did this before?

1404
01:21:52.119 --> 01:21:53.000
You know what?

1405
01:21:53.000 --> 01:21:57.239
What do you hold on? You did this before spreading?

1406
01:21:59.159 --> 01:22:03.840
I've watched like easy things like I watched I watched

1407
01:22:03.840 --> 01:22:09.800
that show crime Cash. Oh yeah, that's cream.

1408
01:22:10.319 --> 01:22:13.039
That might be a red flag. Hold on really quick,

1409
01:22:13.520 --> 01:22:14.840
that might be a red flag. There?

1410
01:22:15.439 --> 01:22:17.159
What you.

1411
01:22:18.760 --> 01:22:19.640
Everything around me?

1412
01:22:23.760 --> 01:22:23.840
Like?

1413
01:22:25.399 --> 01:22:25.800
Answer?

1414
01:22:26.239 --> 01:22:28.159
It was like with three out kids?

1415
01:22:28.640 --> 01:22:30.159
You picked the ball? What?

1416
01:22:32.680 --> 01:22:33.640
Yo?

1417
01:22:33.720 --> 01:22:37.920
You know what if you say hold on, hold on,

1418
01:22:38.079 --> 01:22:42.079
you say wool sang and she starts saying, well aboutomatonically

1419
01:22:42.399 --> 01:22:47.600
faculty philosophy is that's when you know, yo, yo yo yo.

1420
01:22:47.640 --> 01:22:49.600
You know what if she starts spitting bars from time,

1421
01:22:50.079 --> 01:22:52.560
then you know, then you know you got.

1422
01:22:52.359 --> 01:22:55.760
To keep her bro you know what I'm saying. Then

1423
01:22:55.800 --> 01:22:56.960
you know you got to keep it. You know what

1424
01:22:56.960 --> 01:22:57.600
I'm saying that?

1425
01:22:57.840 --> 01:22:59.520
Then you you know what if she starts doing the

1426
01:23:00.159 --> 01:23:01.880
I'm telling you she got to yo, you know what

1427
01:23:01.960 --> 01:23:03.520
she got the girls shoes and that she got some

1428
01:23:03.520 --> 01:23:04.520
timberlands on the bottom.

1429
01:23:04.920 --> 01:23:05.640
You know what I'm saying that.

1430
01:23:05.920 --> 01:23:07.960
I got a question. I got a question, not a question,

1431
01:23:08.560 --> 01:23:11.600
I guess it is a question for TG. So why

1432
01:23:11.640 --> 01:23:13.399
why is it all right? So check this out? This

1433
01:23:13.439 --> 01:23:15.840
is this is the difference between men and women, I

1434
01:23:15.880 --> 01:23:20.199
think in some things. Right, So why is it when

1435
01:23:20.239 --> 01:23:23.760
a group of guys get together, right that a group

1436
01:23:23.760 --> 01:23:26.000
of dudes get together with chilling. We're hanging out and

1437
01:23:26.159 --> 01:23:30.680
I say, for instance, I say, yeah I met I

1438
01:23:30.720 --> 01:23:34.800
met this girl. You know with chilling, you know, we're

1439
01:23:34.800 --> 01:23:37.720
building something. The first thing that comes out of one

1440
01:23:37.760 --> 01:23:42.119
of my boys mouths is yo, she pretty, Yo, she bangs,

1441
01:23:42.159 --> 01:23:43.680
she got a nice ad, Like what's up? You know

1442
01:23:43.680 --> 01:23:45.760
what I'm saying, Like, what's going on? But when you

1443
01:23:45.800 --> 01:23:48.680
talk to women, the first thing that comes out of

1444
01:23:48.680 --> 01:23:50.439
their mouth is what does he do for a living?

1445
01:23:51.520 --> 01:23:52.239
Why is that?

1446
01:23:56.199 --> 01:24:00.640
Honestly, I think that's a societal thing. Uh like a

1447
01:24:01.720 --> 01:24:04.359
just because I mean, I'm trying to think right now.

1448
01:24:04.399 --> 01:24:08.079
Like in my own experience, if anybody's been like, oh,

1449
01:24:08.279 --> 01:24:14.359
usually it's like how old they are, how they met them? Yes,

1450
01:24:14.640 --> 01:24:18.920
like they do this, Uh they they have kids or

1451
01:24:18.960 --> 01:24:22.119
they don't have kids, or they were married or they're not,

1452
01:24:22.199 --> 01:24:24.760
you know, like shit like that. Yeah, you bring up

1453
01:24:24.800 --> 01:24:28.840
just like the fucking coins. That's what it is. And

1454
01:24:28.880 --> 01:24:31.560
like you just said, men just go sexual So that's

1455
01:24:31.600 --> 01:24:36.760
fucking worse. Like you like I would prefer to know

1456
01:24:36.880 --> 01:24:41.359
my friends like person and more about them than the

1457
01:24:41.359 --> 01:24:43.319
way they look. I think gets too sious what they

1458
01:24:43.359 --> 01:24:47.720
look like, because what matters is that they're attracted to

1459
01:24:47.800 --> 01:24:51.640
them and they're happy with them. Like I shouldn't be

1460
01:24:51.680 --> 01:24:54.880
attracted to your person. Me asking that is a fucking

1461
01:24:54.880 --> 01:24:57.119
red flag. Okay, so you need to be looking at

1462
01:24:57.159 --> 01:25:01.520
your boys. Yeah, I'm saying, I why are you asking that?

1463
01:25:01.680 --> 01:25:04.399
They wouldn't ask me that, because they'll they'll sit there

1464
01:25:04.439 --> 01:25:06.159
and they'll know they'll be like, yeah, I'm not going

1465
01:25:06.239 --> 01:25:15.279
to say that's a little because you know.

1466
01:25:11.560 --> 01:25:15.199
It does, but there may be people who do. That's

1467
01:25:15.279 --> 01:25:21.119
kind of shitty. Yes, Jock, nobody's going to do with

1468
01:25:21.239 --> 01:25:24.479
that now you just point it out. That's so stupid. Okay.

1469
01:25:24.560 --> 01:25:33.079
Women expect men to be providers and men are visual creatures.

1470
01:25:34.479 --> 01:25:37.319
I mean, like I said the side of wise, Yes,

1471
01:25:37.760 --> 01:25:40.640
this has always been a thing about the provider, But

1472
01:25:40.680 --> 01:25:42.880
I think a man should care about what a woman

1473
01:25:42.960 --> 01:25:47.039
does too, Like if you're not asking her what she's doing,

1474
01:25:47.640 --> 01:25:49.640
I mean she could be having an only fans for all.

1475
01:25:49.680 --> 01:25:49.880
You know.

1476
01:25:52.960 --> 01:25:57.199
You can have little little feet page, right.

1477
01:25:56.920 --> 01:26:03.880
Yeah, like a fetish page who apparently apparently a big market.

1478
01:26:04.119 --> 01:26:10.680
I heard about this big market. But still like, yeah,

1479
01:26:10.880 --> 01:26:14.439
you know, everybody's like this is the thing again. People

1480
01:26:14.479 --> 01:26:17.640
are different, people are looking for different things the case.

1481
01:26:17.760 --> 01:26:21.159
Just assume that everybody out there. But from the consensus

1482
01:26:21.159 --> 01:26:24.560
of what I'm seeing out here in PA anyway, is

1483
01:26:24.640 --> 01:26:29.199
that you know, a lot of people are on their line.

1484
01:26:29.920 --> 01:26:33.880
And that's country though, no.

1485
01:26:34.079 --> 01:26:39.760
There's no I lived near Harrisburg, like Lancaster County, is

1486
01:26:40.079 --> 01:26:45.199
Amish County more, even though they're sporadically all over the place.

1487
01:26:45.319 --> 01:26:47.560
But I heard you. I heard you was hanging out

1488
01:26:47.560 --> 01:26:48.880
with turning button.

1489
01:26:50.279 --> 01:26:57.640
I was that boy can turn butter. So the that's

1490
01:26:57.800 --> 01:26:59.119
my favorite. Yeah.

1491
01:26:59.239 --> 01:27:02.720
So the the thing is this all right, let's let's

1492
01:27:02.800 --> 01:27:04.840
let's talk about it. Let's let's put this out there.

1493
01:27:07.720 --> 01:27:13.279
I think when you approach like like say, for instance,

1494
01:27:13.680 --> 01:27:20.159
you're on the dating app, right and you're swiping, you know,

1495
01:27:20.279 --> 01:27:29.680
you're going through the profiles or whatever, and you come

1496
01:27:29.680 --> 01:27:30.920
across someone.

1497
01:27:32.439 --> 01:27:33.039
Who you.

1498
01:27:35.920 --> 01:27:41.399
Recognize, right, No, boy, you come across somebody you recognize

1499
01:27:41.760 --> 01:27:47.039
and you realize that it was all right. So I'm

1500
01:27:47.039 --> 01:27:50.960
gonna give you a situation. All right, So there was

1501
01:27:51.000 --> 01:27:59.560
this dude who who wasn't ready for a relationship, right,

1502
01:28:00.840 --> 01:28:06.319
He wasn't ready to And we and the dove knows

1503
01:28:06.319 --> 01:28:08.079
who he is, and I'm not gonna I'm not gonna

1504
01:28:08.079 --> 01:28:10.079
put his name out there. We talked about this a

1505
01:28:10.119 --> 01:28:14.600
couple of days ago. He he wasn't ready for a

1506
01:28:14.600 --> 01:28:18.800
relationship that when when he met this woman, right, he

1507
01:28:18.840 --> 01:28:21.600
met this He met this chick, wasn't ready at that

1508
01:28:21.680 --> 01:28:25.319
time for a relationship. All right, he's what is he like,

1509
01:28:25.399 --> 01:28:29.840
forty forty three, forty four now whatever, he's like whatever,

1510
01:28:29.880 --> 01:28:31.640
whatever it is, whatever it is.

1511
01:28:31.720 --> 01:28:32.880
He wasn't ready.

1512
01:28:33.600 --> 01:28:36.039
He wasn't ready. Yeah, that's irrelevant. That's irrelevant. But the

1513
01:28:36.039 --> 01:28:39.239
fact that we're doing ad after forty things he's over

1514
01:28:39.279 --> 01:28:39.960
for yeah.

1515
01:28:40.079 --> 01:28:42.520
Well, we get it. He wasn't ready for relationship, wasn't

1516
01:28:42.960 --> 01:28:44.000
he wasn't ready for relationship.

1517
01:28:44.000 --> 01:28:49.920
He meets us, he meets this girl, right, and they're

1518
01:28:50.600 --> 01:28:53.159
they're hitting it. They're hitting it on cylinders, you know,

1519
01:28:53.159 --> 01:28:54.800
a couple of cylinders that are being hit you know

1520
01:28:54.800 --> 01:28:57.880
what I'm saying. And they're getting along. Everything is cool.

1521
01:28:59.520 --> 01:29:04.600
But then he fades he fades it out because he's

1522
01:29:04.640 --> 01:29:08.039
not ready, you know what I mean, He wasn't prepared

1523
01:29:09.159 --> 01:29:12.760
for what was you know what, he really he really

1524
01:29:12.800 --> 01:29:15.199
wanted a relationship, but he wasn't prepared because he had

1525
01:29:15.239 --> 01:29:15.880
just gotten out.

1526
01:29:15.800 --> 01:29:18.800
Of something that was long term, right, so.

1527
01:29:18.800 --> 01:29:22.359
He wasn't ready for it. So he tells us that

1528
01:29:22.920 --> 01:29:28.199
he's swiping on this app and he sees that chick again.

1529
01:29:30.000 --> 01:29:37.600
This time he's ready, right, this time, he's prepared to

1530
01:29:37.720 --> 01:29:43.199
be in a committed relationship. Like he's emotionally ready, he's

1531
01:29:43.319 --> 01:29:47.439
physically like everything, he's ready to go. So he swipes

1532
01:29:47.479 --> 01:29:53.159
on this chick's picture, right, and he says, he says

1533
01:29:53.199 --> 01:29:57.680
that that you know, she replied to him, and now

1534
01:29:57.800 --> 01:30:02.319
they're talking and ship right, So he's what the why

1535
01:30:02.359 --> 01:30:03.119
a my ship blurry?

1536
01:30:03.199 --> 01:30:03.359
Yo?

1537
01:30:03.399 --> 01:30:11.319
What the fuck? I paid my WiFi bill? So, so

1538
01:30:11.640 --> 01:30:16.880
the thing is is that he comes, he comes across

1539
01:30:16.920 --> 01:30:19.119
this this this because they didn't get to see each

1540
01:30:19.119 --> 01:30:21.199
other face to face the first time. It was just

1541
01:30:21.399 --> 01:30:25.079
conversations through text, calls, whatever it is. So he told

1542
01:30:25.079 --> 01:30:28.439
me that he finally got to meet her face to face.

1543
01:30:28.520 --> 01:30:30.560
It was who was for a short amount of time,

1544
01:30:30.600 --> 01:30:35.439
but he got to see her, and he said he

1545
01:30:35.479 --> 01:30:41.199
hugged her and he just instantly felt like it was

1546
01:30:42.680 --> 01:30:45.039
like we did we stopped talking. We didn't speak to

1547
01:30:45.079 --> 01:30:48.560
each other for a few years. I find you again.

1548
01:30:49.720 --> 01:30:54.720
I'm hugging you. It feels right, And I didn't, he

1549
01:30:54.880 --> 01:30:56.800
said he didn't want to let it go. It was

1550
01:30:56.880 --> 01:31:01.399
just something about that hug and and how things perspire

1551
01:31:01.479 --> 01:31:07.159
between the not perspired, that's the wrong word, you know whatever.

1552
01:31:07.199 --> 01:31:09.560
You know what I'm trying to say, Yes, sweat, Yes,

1553
01:31:10.720 --> 01:31:15.800
the way right, the way things went down. He just

1554
01:31:15.840 --> 01:31:18.199
felt like it was right. It felt right at that

1555
01:31:18.319 --> 01:31:22.239
moment in time. Okay, So he asked me, he says,

1556
01:31:22.439 --> 01:31:27.960
what do you think I should I should say to her?

1557
01:31:28.000 --> 01:31:29.279
What do you think I should do? What do you

1558
01:31:29.319 --> 01:31:33.960
think I should? I told him, follow your heart, bro right,

1559
01:31:34.439 --> 01:31:38.479
follow your heart? Why is my ship blurry? Follow your

1560
01:31:38.479 --> 01:31:45.079
heart and don't ever ever hide what it is, your feeling,

1561
01:31:45.600 --> 01:31:51.439
what it is your thinking, Express yourself properly to be honest,

1562
01:31:52.039 --> 01:31:57.760
be straightforward, because if you can't do that, it's not

1563
01:31:57.760 --> 01:32:00.600
going to work out. Mm hm, you know what I'm saying.

1564
01:32:01.039 --> 01:32:06.279
So the moral of the story is for everyone out

1565
01:32:06.279 --> 01:32:13.560
there who's finding love after forty, it's it's not a

1566
01:32:13.560 --> 01:32:17.279
lost cause, right because love after forty can happen.

1567
01:32:17.840 --> 01:32:18.079
Yep.

1568
01:32:18.600 --> 01:32:21.640
And the thing about it is, and the thing about

1569
01:32:21.640 --> 01:32:26.800
it is it isn't new beginning. But you have to

1570
01:32:26.920 --> 01:32:30.000
understand that when you when you get involved with someone

1571
01:32:30.119 --> 01:32:34.119
at this age, they don't come with a clean slate,

1572
01:32:34.880 --> 01:32:38.319
right you know, you have to build with that person

1573
01:32:39.960 --> 01:32:46.720
through their experiences, through your experiences, and despite the fact

1574
01:32:46.720 --> 01:32:53.359
that your heart was broken at one point, despite the

1575
01:32:53.399 --> 01:32:58.560
fact that you've suffered through things in your life, there

1576
01:32:58.680 --> 01:33:04.840
is someone out there that can bring you in, hold

1577
01:33:04.920 --> 01:33:10.439
you and show you that there is love out there,

1578
01:33:12.239 --> 01:33:15.239
that there is a person out there for everyone. It

1579
01:33:15.319 --> 01:33:20.039
takes time, you know what I'm saying. It takes patience.

1580
01:33:21.199 --> 01:33:30.159
It takes patience, It takes time, and it takes honesty, loyalty, love, compassion, empathy.

1581
01:33:31.600 --> 01:33:37.079
But when you find that communication and transparency, all that

1582
01:33:37.239 --> 01:33:42.359
is key, you know. So don't ever think that because

1583
01:33:42.399 --> 01:33:45.600
you're at an age that you know the guys are

1584
01:33:45.640 --> 01:33:48.600
coming in, you know what I'm saying, And you know

1585
01:33:48.880 --> 01:33:53.199
you you're you're old. You're not old. You're you're just

1586
01:33:53.239 --> 01:34:00.319
getting better better. It's not over. So it's not a

1587
01:34:00.319 --> 01:34:02.960
lost cause it's definitely a new beginning. And you lease

1588
01:34:03.039 --> 01:34:05.760
on life when you find love at this age, because

1589
01:34:05.800 --> 01:34:08.319
you know what You don't want to fucking be forty

1590
01:34:08.640 --> 01:34:13.560
fifty sixty years old going to the club. You don't

1591
01:34:13.560 --> 01:34:15.960
want to go to the club. You know, these youngins

1592
01:34:16.000 --> 01:34:17.720
out there, they're not gonna be wanting the fuck around

1593
01:34:17.720 --> 01:34:19.840
with you. You know what I'm saying, They're gonna be

1594
01:34:19.840 --> 01:34:22.119
looking at your pocket. They're gonna be looking at you know,

1595
01:34:23.319 --> 01:34:28.640
especially especially for for dudes going to to clubs and

1596
01:34:28.720 --> 01:34:32.079
bars with all these young kids. What do you think

1597
01:34:32.119 --> 01:34:36.319
they're thinking. You're in the corner drinking your unk, drink

1598
01:34:37.560 --> 01:34:41.800
in your air and your air Force ones the dad's

1599
01:34:41.800 --> 01:34:42.680
shoe now they.

1600
01:34:42.560 --> 01:34:47.319
Call it yo yo yo, and you know what, And

1601
01:34:47.359 --> 01:34:51.840
then then to be like, yeah, where the holes at, nigger,

1602
01:34:51.880 --> 01:34:52.479
your daughter end up?

1603
01:34:53.960 --> 01:34:54.640
You know what I'm saying.

1604
01:34:54.680 --> 01:34:56.000
You know what I'm saying, like like, ye know what

1605
01:34:56.000 --> 01:34:57.279
the hot does that even make sense?

1606
01:34:57.720 --> 01:34:57.960
You know?

1607
01:34:58.479 --> 01:34:59.119
You know what I'm saying.

1608
01:34:59.640 --> 01:35:02.520
I'm not Look, I'm not saying. I'm not saying don't

1609
01:35:02.560 --> 01:35:04.239
go out and have a good time. Don't go to

1610
01:35:04.279 --> 01:35:07.960
the club, though, Yeah, you know what I'm saying, don't

1611
01:35:08.079 --> 01:35:09.960
you don't You don't need to go to the club, man,

1612
01:35:11.520 --> 01:35:13.720
at this at this point in your life, at this

1613
01:35:13.760 --> 01:35:18.560
stage of your life, find yourself somebody who who's gonna

1614
01:35:18.600 --> 01:35:22.239
love you for who you are, Because find somebody who's

1615
01:35:22.239 --> 01:35:26.239
gonna be honest with you. Find somebody who's gonna definitely

1616
01:35:26.600 --> 01:35:31.079
communicate with you. You know, it's if you If you

1617
01:35:31.199 --> 01:35:34.520
really want to find love, it's out there. You know

1618
01:35:34.520 --> 01:35:37.000
what I'm saying. You're not gonna find it at the club,

1619
01:35:37.640 --> 01:35:40.800
that's for goddamn sure. You know you might. You might.

1620
01:35:40.880 --> 01:35:42.359
You might find it on an app.

1621
01:35:42.399 --> 01:35:48.319
Who knows the most important thing though, what if you

1622
01:35:48.479 --> 01:35:50.279
want to find love, you gotta look in the mirror first,

1623
01:35:51.520 --> 01:35:53.319
what I'm saying, because once you start loving a person

1624
01:35:53.319 --> 01:35:57.840
in the marryland, everything else starts to change, right yeah,

1625
01:35:58.560 --> 01:36:02.239
because because that yell you what you know what I'm saying, Like,

1626
01:36:02.239 --> 01:36:04.840
like that's one thing I learned, you know, like I

1627
01:36:04.880 --> 01:36:06.760
have to look in the mirror and love myself even

1628
01:36:06.800 --> 01:36:08.880
for the flaws at all, you know what i mean? Right,

1629
01:36:08.920 --> 01:36:12.199
So like so so like you know what I'm saying,

1630
01:36:12.239 --> 01:36:13.359
Like you gotta look at you know what I'm saying.

1631
01:36:13.359 --> 01:36:14.640
You gotta look at the mirror first, you know what

1632
01:36:14.640 --> 01:36:17.600
I'm saying, and start loving you and the flaws that

1633
01:36:17.640 --> 01:36:18.680
you think is too much.

1634
01:36:19.000 --> 01:36:21.640
You gotta start working on that part. You know what

1635
01:36:21.640 --> 01:36:22.079
I'm saying.

1636
01:36:22.319 --> 01:36:24.560
The floors are always gonna be there. The flaws that

1637
01:36:24.600 --> 01:36:26.720
you think too much might not be too much to

1638
01:36:26.800 --> 01:36:27.439
somebody else.

1639
01:36:27.920 --> 01:36:30.840
Correct, absolutely, But you know what, your floors are always

1640
01:36:30.880 --> 01:36:32.600
going to be there. You know what I'm saying, It's

1641
01:36:32.640 --> 01:36:33.920
always gonna be there. You know what I'm saying, Just

1642
01:36:33.920 --> 01:36:36.640
accepted for what it is, because you're not perfect. Nobody's perfect.

1643
01:36:36.800 --> 01:36:37.960
You know what I'm saying. I mean, I am the

1644
01:36:38.000 --> 01:36:42.000
close think of perfection. But I mean that goes without saying. Here.

1645
01:36:42.159 --> 01:36:42.800
You know you.

1646
01:36:42.760 --> 01:36:46.640
Gotta you gotta love, you gotta you gotta love. I'll

1647
01:36:46.680 --> 01:36:49.800
be honest with you. I love some of me.

1648
01:36:50.680 --> 01:36:54.920
Oh yeah, I love. I love all love some of you.

1649
01:36:56.079 --> 01:36:58.159
You know what I'm saying, Like, I love I learn

1650
01:36:58.279 --> 01:37:00.399
some of me. You know what I'm saying.

1651
01:37:00.760 --> 01:37:06.039
Damn, you ain't got to say it like that. Holy shit, dah.

1652
01:37:06.119 --> 01:37:07.920
Why you know what I'm saying like I mean, choking

1653
01:37:07.960 --> 01:37:09.520
on my little face smoke. You know what I saying

1654
01:37:09.560 --> 01:37:11.159
like yo?

1655
01:37:11.319 --> 01:37:14.199
So but it's all right, So hold on real quick,

1656
01:37:14.520 --> 01:37:19.640
let's let's go. Let's go around the room. You know

1657
01:37:19.680 --> 01:37:25.800
what I'm saying, and what would be what would be

1658
01:37:26.359 --> 01:37:32.000
a piece of advice you would give yourself at twenty

1659
01:37:32.079 --> 01:37:37.119
years old, knowing what it is you've experienced in life,

1660
01:37:37.760 --> 01:37:39.439
what would you tell yourself you had to go back

1661
01:37:39.439 --> 01:37:41.680
in time and say something, What would be that message?

1662
01:37:41.960 --> 01:37:43.199
I'm gonna start with Dubbs.

1663
01:37:43.199 --> 01:37:47.640
First, stay off the drugs, Stay off the liquord. They're

1664
01:37:47.640 --> 01:37:50.199
not your front. You know what I'm saying. And whatever

1665
01:37:50.199 --> 01:37:50.880
you and you're.

1666
01:37:50.760 --> 01:37:52.960
Running away from something, you better handle that ship now,

1667
01:37:54.039 --> 01:37:57.600
you know, because if you don't handle it now, you

1668
01:37:57.600 --> 01:38:01.079
know what I mean? When it like the more the

1669
01:38:01.079 --> 01:38:04.239
more you let it fester, the more it's gonna become

1670
01:38:04.279 --> 01:38:09.399
a bigger problem. It's gonna affect you mentally, emotionally, spiritually,

1671
01:38:09.399 --> 01:38:10.760
is gonna affect you in every which way.

1672
01:38:11.760 --> 01:38:15.039
So handle that. I by the way, love yourself. Man.

1673
01:38:15.039 --> 01:38:16.279
You know what I'm saying because you aut here. You

1674
01:38:16.279 --> 01:38:17.840
know what I'm saying, trying to figure you know what

1675
01:38:17.840 --> 01:38:19.439
I'm saying. Drinking away the pain and you know what

1676
01:38:19.439 --> 01:38:21.439
I'm saying, smoking away the pain and gogles what else

1677
01:38:21.479 --> 01:38:23.199
you're doing? Because I know what I did, you know,

1678
01:38:23.319 --> 01:38:25.399
but I ain't gonna put it out there like that. Well,

1679
01:38:25.520 --> 01:38:28.159
sniffing away the pain all that stuff. You know what

1680
01:38:28.159 --> 01:38:30.720
I'm saying, You're running from pain that's eventually gonna catch up.

1681
01:38:30.720 --> 01:38:32.560
And when it cats up, it's gonna hit. It's gonna

1682
01:38:32.640 --> 01:38:34.800
it's gonna feel like a Mike types of punch out.

1683
01:38:35.279 --> 01:38:38.000
So handle that, you know.

1684
01:38:38.600 --> 01:38:41.600
Right, because and and and then I'll tell my Then

1685
01:38:41.600 --> 01:38:44.560
I'll tell myself because I love you, flaws and all.

1686
01:38:45.680 --> 01:38:48.199
You know what I'm saying, unconditioned, right, you know we

1687
01:38:48.279 --> 01:38:50.119
all make mistakes. Man, stop beating yourself.

1688
01:38:49.920 --> 01:38:54.560
Up, right, TG, What about you? What would you tell

1689
01:38:54.600 --> 01:38:55.640
your twenty year old self?

1690
01:38:56.840 --> 01:38:59.479
Suck them and go. That's what I should have done

1691
01:39:00.039 --> 01:39:03.720
as fucking and left. But that's not what happened.

1692
01:39:06.960 --> 01:39:09.239
I knew. I knew it was gonna be something. I

1693
01:39:09.319 --> 01:39:12.239
knew it was going to be some someone, some ship

1694
01:39:12.399 --> 01:39:12.680
like that.

1695
01:39:12.760 --> 01:39:12.960
You know what.

1696
01:39:12.960 --> 01:39:22.039
I like, my yo?

1697
01:39:22.520 --> 01:39:28.279
Come man, like yo? Can we be serious for once?

1698
01:39:29.039 --> 01:39:31.319
That's the thing.

1699
01:39:33.880 --> 01:39:36.479
I should have like had fun in my twenties. I

1700
01:39:36.479 --> 01:39:40.760
should have enjoyed myself. I should have worked on myself and.

1701
01:39:41.239 --> 01:39:41.520
Yeah, but.

1702
01:39:43.159 --> 01:39:48.560
Much I was worthy and that you know, just because

1703
01:39:48.600 --> 01:39:52.359
I'm fad doesn't mean I can't be loved. So there

1704
01:39:52.439 --> 01:39:56.279
are being little things like that that I would have

1705
01:39:56.520 --> 01:40:02.560
said to myself, like, yes, I think that I learned

1706
01:40:04.479 --> 01:40:08.479
to have a partner to take care of me. That's

1707
01:40:08.520 --> 01:40:10.800
what I was shown and that's what I was taught.

1708
01:40:11.479 --> 01:40:15.119
So yes, my message to myself would have been like

1709
01:40:15.279 --> 01:40:17.880
just fuck him and go, like, you don't need to

1710
01:40:17.920 --> 01:40:23.199
stay because someone's giving me that attention, affection whatever. You

1711
01:40:23.199 --> 01:40:26.520
know what I'm saying, like where it could have. You know,

1712
01:40:26.800 --> 01:40:30.039
I think we get into relationships when we're young for

1713
01:40:30.119 --> 01:40:36.079
the wrong reasons, and it is what it is. But

1714
01:40:37.119 --> 01:40:40.880
you know, I wish I could have enjoyed my twenties

1715
01:40:42.000 --> 01:40:47.640
more than I was able to because I was in

1716
01:40:47.680 --> 01:40:51.920
a relationship for ten years, not like you guys, and

1717
01:40:52.720 --> 01:40:57.560
so it was different and I think I didn't get

1718
01:40:57.640 --> 01:41:04.560
to experience. So I did it in my thirties and

1719
01:41:05.199 --> 01:41:08.760
I don't regret that actually, because I think I have

1720
01:41:08.880 --> 01:41:14.319
more fun in my thirties. But that was that twenty

1721
01:41:14.399 --> 01:41:20.560
year old behavior in my thirties. So yeah, okay.

1722
01:41:20.960 --> 01:41:22.479
Wait, hold on real quick. You know what I'm saying

1723
01:41:22.479 --> 01:41:25.000
to add on to that, like one more thing, one

1724
01:41:25.039 --> 01:41:25.399
more thing?

1725
01:41:25.479 --> 01:41:25.680
Right?

1726
01:41:26.039 --> 01:41:28.319
No, yeah, you said what you had.

1727
01:41:29.640 --> 01:41:30.239
I'm gonna say.

1728
01:41:30.159 --> 01:41:32.840
Anyways, because yell, you know what, because because because yell,

1729
01:41:32.880 --> 01:41:35.560
you know what that that reminds me of.

1730
01:41:35.479 --> 01:41:40.279
Something, right, one more thing, one more. No one want

1731
01:41:40.359 --> 01:41:42.479
to let one, No one wants to let go.

1732
01:41:42.600 --> 01:41:44.479
You know what I'm saying, Because like when I was

1733
01:41:44.479 --> 01:41:46.560
in my twenties, I was still trying to hold on

1734
01:41:47.319 --> 01:41:48.720
to a time that was no longer there.

1735
01:41:48.760 --> 01:41:50.199
Like I had two kids, you know what I'm saying.

1736
01:41:50.279 --> 01:41:52.239
Right after and I'm still trying to hold on to

1737
01:41:52.359 --> 01:41:55.159
a time that does not exist no more, right, you know,

1738
01:41:55.720 --> 01:41:58.479
like like you know, like like you know what, Like

1739
01:41:58.520 --> 01:42:00.600
I was like twenty years ago, I was twenty through

1740
01:42:00.640 --> 01:42:04.600
the math right, still wild and still wilding, like you

1741
01:42:04.600 --> 01:42:07.479
know what I'm saying, Like like I'm twenty one. But

1742
01:42:07.600 --> 01:42:10.399
times have changed and I didn't change, So I was

1743
01:42:10.399 --> 01:42:11.600
still doing the same ship.

1744
01:42:11.880 --> 01:42:12.439
You know what I'm saying.

1745
01:42:12.640 --> 01:42:15.079
The definition of a Saturday is doing the same thing,

1746
01:42:15.800 --> 01:42:18.680
hoping for different results when it was actually the same results.

1747
01:42:19.439 --> 01:42:22.920
You know, we're not analyzing your twenties. You're holding on

1748
01:42:23.000 --> 01:42:28.600
your No, you're done, You're.

1749
01:42:28.600 --> 01:42:30.239
No, I'm not done. No, I'm not done.

1750
01:42:30.359 --> 01:42:30.520
Yea.

1751
01:42:31.239 --> 01:42:33.960
It's holding it's holding on, you know, it's holding on.

1752
01:42:34.119 --> 01:42:37.880
You know what I'm saying. You can't go that's right.

1753
01:42:38.760 --> 01:42:40.279
I shouldn't let go. I should have let go.

1754
01:42:40.840 --> 01:42:42.600
You know what I'm saying, And and and yo and yo.

1755
01:42:42.640 --> 01:42:44.399
You know what, get some icy hot because you know

1756
01:42:44.439 --> 01:42:47.119
what I'm saying. For the needs, because tea bagging, because

1757
01:42:47.159 --> 01:42:47.760
tea bagging.

1758
01:42:47.880 --> 01:42:49.479
You know what I'm saying. Where's on the knees?

1759
01:42:55.560 --> 01:42:56.319
My god.

1760
01:42:58.760 --> 01:43:07.600
Lorda mercy? All right?

1761
01:43:07.680 --> 01:43:11.479
So what I would tell my my twenty year old self,

1762
01:43:12.640 --> 01:43:17.560
First off, for all of us here, all these all

1763
01:43:18.000 --> 01:43:23.720
us gen X, is we were born and raised in

1764
01:43:23.760 --> 01:43:27.319
the era of legend. The ship that we've been through,

1765
01:43:27.680 --> 01:43:29.760
the ship that we've done doone, the ship that we

1766
01:43:29.880 --> 01:43:33.880
done did who is legendary. You know what I'm saying.

1767
01:43:34.119 --> 01:43:37.800
None of these kids nowadays compare to what it is

1768
01:43:38.479 --> 01:43:41.760
we're dealing with and what it is we've done. So

1769
01:43:41.840 --> 01:43:44.239
with that BO said, you know what I'm saying. With

1770
01:43:44.279 --> 01:43:48.600
that being said, I would tell myself that don't give

1771
01:43:48.680 --> 01:43:54.279
up on anything you want to do with your life.

1772
01:43:55.319 --> 01:44:01.520
Set goals, work towards those goals, and don't ever be

1773
01:44:01.600 --> 01:44:06.840
afraid to fail. Forward, my twenty year old self will

1774
01:44:06.840 --> 01:44:09.119
look at me and say, what the fuck does that mean?

1775
01:44:09.239 --> 01:44:09.439
Bro?

1776
01:44:11.319 --> 01:44:13.960
And I would say to him, I would say, to him.

1777
01:44:14.399 --> 01:44:19.039
If you fail, that is not the end. Fail forward

1778
01:44:19.119 --> 01:44:23.439
means take what you learn from that failure, apply it,

1779
01:44:24.279 --> 01:44:29.000
and try again. Don't give up on your dreams, don't

1780
01:44:29.039 --> 01:44:32.720
give up on love, don't give up on family, don't

1781
01:44:32.720 --> 01:44:38.960
give up on anything that you've worked hard towards. Someone

1782
01:44:39.079 --> 01:44:43.960
is gonna love you, bro, You know, someone is gonna

1783
01:44:44.000 --> 01:44:49.720
love you. Once you love yourself enough that you're spewing

1784
01:44:49.760 --> 01:44:52.760
out fucking love, someone is gonna say I want that

1785
01:44:52.840 --> 01:44:56.359
shit and they're gonna love you. So don't give up

1786
01:44:56.399 --> 01:45:00.279
on that. So that's what I would tell my twenty

1787
01:45:00.359 --> 01:45:10.640
your old self, and yeah, it's a good one, you

1788
01:45:10.680 --> 01:45:11.159
know what I'm saying.

1789
01:45:11.479 --> 01:45:12.119
Stoke it.

1790
01:45:12.680 --> 01:45:16.920
So so now now with that, with that being said,

1791
01:45:18.560 --> 01:45:25.359
with that being said, it is it is time.

1792
01:45:26.159 --> 01:45:28.039
It is that way.

1793
01:45:28.840 --> 01:45:33.800
Hold on, hold on, hold on. You said that that stuff, right.

1794
01:45:34.039 --> 01:45:38.239
I just want to point out that there's no more

1795
01:45:38.319 --> 01:45:40.640
there's no more mischief night or Douglas night. We talked

1796
01:45:40.640 --> 01:45:44.279
about that, remember, we talked about that. You know, I'm like, yo,

1797
01:45:44.319 --> 01:45:46.840
you know what, that tradition is dead, you.

1798
01:45:46.880 --> 01:45:49.479
Know, like they still do it in some places.

1799
01:45:49.680 --> 01:45:53.560
Not not not around here, not around here, like like

1800
01:45:53.640 --> 01:45:56.520
you know what, it's dead because like, these kids are

1801
01:45:56.560 --> 01:45:58.159
not outside and you know what I'm saying, not outside

1802
01:45:58.239 --> 01:46:01.479
enough to begin with. I remember, Yo, I could recall

1803
01:46:01.960 --> 01:46:05.000
literally going to quick Check on Second and Second in

1804
01:46:05.119 --> 01:46:08.880
Washington when it was there, buying eggs and bringing it

1805
01:46:08.920 --> 01:46:10.600
to the roof and leaving it there for like a

1806
01:46:10.640 --> 01:46:14.560
month and a half. They've rotten, right and on the

1807
01:46:14.760 --> 01:46:17.520
and every October twenty ninth, I went to the roof,

1808
01:46:17.800 --> 01:46:21.439
picked up them eggs, right, and I left it there,

1809
01:46:21.439 --> 01:46:22.760
you know what I mean. And I carried it with

1810
01:46:22.920 --> 01:46:27.840
me in my jazz Port danceport when it was the ship, right, Pat,

1811
01:46:27.840 --> 01:46:29.600
you know what I'm saying, like either getting them masks,

1812
01:46:29.600 --> 01:46:32.560
you know what I'm saying, or painting my face black, right,

1813
01:46:33.159 --> 01:46:35.680
walking around with a hoodie and the dingiest clothes because

1814
01:46:35.720 --> 01:46:37.239
you know, you just gonna get hit and you're gonna

1815
01:46:37.239 --> 01:46:40.319
be hitting back, you know what I'm saying, Yo, going

1816
01:46:40.359 --> 01:46:42.359
to the pranks store getting some itching powdered, you know

1817
01:46:42.359 --> 01:46:45.199
what I'm saying, with some socks, like like yo, you

1818
01:46:45.199 --> 01:46:47.600
know what some some people, you know what I'm saying.

1819
01:46:47.800 --> 01:46:49.520
Some people, you know, I ain't gonna need no names,

1820
01:46:49.520 --> 01:46:51.600
but they will die. Vola they had the d batteries

1821
01:46:51.640 --> 01:46:52.760
and put them in the socks.

1822
01:46:53.079 --> 01:46:55.399
Yeah you know what I'm saying. They would die volaicle

1823
01:46:55.479 --> 01:46:58.000
with it, you know what I mean. But you know,

1824
01:46:58.039 --> 01:46:59.880
we did all that, you know what I mean. And

1825
01:47:00.760 --> 01:47:02.680
well we're egging people and all that stuff and that

1826
01:47:02.680 --> 01:47:03.039
that was.

1827
01:47:04.399 --> 01:47:09.159
Yeah, that's that's that's because our our generation was the

1828
01:47:09.239 --> 01:47:11.640
last generation before the internet.

1829
01:47:12.760 --> 01:47:12.960
Yep.

1830
01:47:13.319 --> 01:47:16.000
Yeah, yeah, we we know. We know what it's like.

1831
01:47:16.560 --> 01:47:16.720
Bro.

1832
01:47:16.800 --> 01:47:19.520
We were born in the seventies, raised in the eighties,

1833
01:47:19.840 --> 01:47:22.079
and rocked out in the fucking nineties.

1834
01:47:22.119 --> 01:47:22.279
Bro.

1835
01:47:22.720 --> 01:47:25.199
Like I said, legendary ship.

1836
01:47:24.960 --> 01:47:27.359
Bro yo, like like like yo, you know.

1837
01:47:28.000 --> 01:47:28.239
Yeah.

1838
01:47:28.319 --> 01:47:34.439
So we been to a lot, yeah, and a lot.

1839
01:47:34.640 --> 01:47:39.680
We've seen a lot. Yeah. So oh so.

1840
01:47:41.399 --> 01:47:46.640
I did really quick, really really quick. I did uh

1841
01:47:47.119 --> 01:47:49.000
an ancestry, d ns.

1842
01:47:49.119 --> 01:47:56.640
Dns na na.

1843
01:47:54.920 --> 01:47:56.960
It came it came back already, And I'm going to

1844
01:47:57.000 --> 01:48:02.199
tell you some some strange ship. Oh I have Irish

1845
01:48:02.239 --> 01:48:08.680
in my blood. You're a mcasshold, yeah, I have I

1846
01:48:08.720 --> 01:48:12.399
have I have some some Jewish in my blood.

1847
01:48:12.960 --> 01:48:14.119
Oh wow.

1848
01:48:15.720 --> 01:48:25.279
Yeah Canadians. Yeah yeah, it's really interesting. So anyway, so

1849
01:48:25.319 --> 01:48:29.359
all that all that being said, my party it's it's

1850
01:48:29.520 --> 01:48:35.000
you know, we're over, We're done. We're good, my party,

1851
01:48:35.119 --> 01:48:36.840
my my parting words for the night.

1852
01:48:37.640 --> 01:48:38.039
Mm hmm.

1853
01:48:38.439 --> 01:48:41.399
Once more, one more time. Go out there and find

1854
01:48:41.439 --> 01:48:47.319
yourself somebody. You know what I'm saying. Love yourself first, yourself.

1855
01:48:48.359 --> 01:48:51.840
Who's gonna add to your life in a positive way,

1856
01:48:52.720 --> 01:48:53.439
you know what I mean?

1857
01:48:54.159 --> 01:48:59.279
And not magic pos not magic, magic, not magic, just

1858
01:48:59.399 --> 01:49:01.079
a positive positive enough.

1859
01:49:01.159 --> 01:49:04.159
But someone whos gonna come into your life and add value.

1860
01:49:04.880 --> 01:49:07.640
You know what I'm saying. Somebody's gonna come into your life.

1861
01:49:08.359 --> 01:49:12.760
Look at you and say, motherfucker, I love you, right, motherfucker.

1862
01:49:12.760 --> 01:49:14.520
I love you, and I know you love it because

1863
01:49:14.720 --> 01:49:16.880
because I love, I love some of me. You know

1864
01:49:16.880 --> 01:49:20.359
what I'm saying, And I think I deserve, you know,

1865
01:49:20.479 --> 01:49:22.119
someone to look at me right there in my fucking

1866
01:49:22.119 --> 01:49:24.399
eye and say, you know what, I love.

1867
01:49:24.199 --> 01:49:29.880
You, brother love. Remember brother Love, I'm w w w w.

1868
01:49:31.600 --> 01:49:33.199
Love you.

1869
01:49:34.000 --> 01:49:36.399
Yeah, I'm gonna say. I thought you was gonna say

1870
01:49:36.399 --> 01:49:38.640
something slick like Broke Back Mountain and some ship.

1871
01:49:41.199 --> 01:49:42.760
You know what I'm saying. Why would I say that?

1872
01:49:44.119 --> 01:49:48.800
Is that what you think of me? My fans are heard.

1873
01:49:48.399 --> 01:49:50.920
I apologize expeditiously.

1874
01:49:52.079 --> 01:49:55.239
You know what I mean? Anyway?

1875
01:49:56.359 --> 01:49:57.119
I apologize.

1876
01:49:57.800 --> 01:50:04.199
No, I will not apologize anyway, apologized.

1877
01:50:06.079 --> 01:50:07.800
I want to listen to that song when we've done.

1878
01:50:08.279 --> 01:50:14.840
All right, So I'm big Cole. That's t G Love,

1879
01:50:15.319 --> 01:50:18.439
That's Dubbs is don a k A. Simon Phoenix. This

1880
01:50:18.560 --> 01:50:21.760
has been another episode of This My Her podcast. Tune

1881
01:50:21.760 --> 01:50:24.000
in next week for another episode where we're gonna wild

1882
01:50:24.000 --> 01:50:26.159
out and do some ill shit. Probably most likely we'll

1883
01:50:26.159 --> 01:50:31.039
see what happens with or No, but we'll see absolutely absolutely.

1884
01:50:31.560 --> 01:50:33.560
Thank you for coming in, Thank you for joining us

1885
01:50:33.560 --> 01:50:37.439
in the chat room, Get brave, come on the show.

1886
01:50:38.239 --> 01:50:41.279
Let's talk ship. I know, I know you're saying yeah,

1887
01:50:41.319 --> 01:50:43.439
but you know, I just gotta get to let the

1888
01:50:43.520 --> 01:50:47.760
fans you know, you know how it is anyway. Once again,

1889
01:50:48.920 --> 01:50:50.319
at some point.

1890
01:50:51.479 --> 01:51:01.039
This My Her the Spanish maish, my stuff is smart.

1891
01:51:00.119 --> 01:51:05.840
U l a man l a right, And that's how

1892
01:51:05.880 --> 01:51:11.279
you say that something like that. I mean, you know,

1893
01:51:11.439 --> 01:51:32.760
right yo, my Spanish store man. Yo. You know what Yo?

1894
01:51:33.000 --> 01:51:35.359
The only thing I know is Spanish is as one

1895
01:51:35.399 --> 01:51:36.319
like my father is a urst.

1896
01:51:36.359 --> 01:51:43.119
I mean Spanish. I could say, well the White city, see.

1897
01:51:49.439 --> 01:51:53.039
Yeah, all right, at some point this might hurt people.

1898
01:51:53.439 --> 01:51:57.640
Yeah, I love you, yeah that stopping by, Hey a

1899
01:51:57.720 --> 01:51:58.359
politic people

1900
01:51:58.960 --> 01:52:01.680
Yeah, one night, good night my