Jan. 15, 2026

Truth Over Feelings (Some of Y'all Ain't Ready) (Recorded Live On 1-14-26)

Truth Over Feelings (Some of Y'all Ain't Ready) (Recorded Live On 1-14-26)
Spotify podcast player badge
Apple Podcasts podcast player badge
iHeartRadio podcast player badge
Amazon Music podcast player badge
Spreaker podcast player badge
RSS Feed podcast player badge
Spotify podcast player icon Apple Podcasts podcast player icon iHeartRadio podcast player icon Amazon Music podcast player icon Spreaker podcast player icon RSS Feed podcast player icon

On this episode of the This Might Hurt Podcast, Big Corleone sets the tone and doesn’t let up. Joined by Lady G, TG Love, and Simon Phoenix, the crew dives headfirst into raw, unfiltered conversations about accountability, honesty, and why protecting feelings has become more important than telling the truth. No sugarcoating, no walking on eggshells just real talk about life, relationships, and the consequences we avoid owning. If you’re looking for comfort, this ain’t it. If you’re looking for truth… lean in, because at some point This Might Hurt!!

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/this-might-hurt-podcast--3239767/support.

WEBVTT

1
00:00:13.359 --> 00:01:31.519
Sings says, what's up everybody, This big colon of this

2
00:01:31.680 --> 00:01:34.439
my HERD podcast coming to you live.

3
00:01:35.319 --> 00:01:37.400
You know you know how we do it. I'm going

4
00:01:37.480 --> 00:01:41.280
to bring in my lovely co hosts. We're gonna start

5
00:01:41.319 --> 00:01:48.599
off with TG love, how you doing? How's everything good?

6
00:01:48.799 --> 00:01:51.239
I got my hair done? Did finally?

7
00:01:52.120 --> 00:01:56.079
Ah? Alright? Alright, alright, all right, let me bring in

8
00:01:56.159 --> 00:01:58.560
the lovely lady G. How you doing?

9
00:02:01.159 --> 00:02:02.079
Can you guys hear me?

10
00:02:02.879 --> 00:02:03.079
Yes?

11
00:02:03.879 --> 00:02:06.480
You?

12
00:02:06.519 --> 00:02:23.520
No? Uh? Oh, difficulties. I don't know you heard you?

13
00:02:23.479 --> 00:02:26.759
Will listen? You could hear me before right now? She

14
00:02:26.759 --> 00:02:27.280
can't hear me?

15
00:02:28.000 --> 00:02:28.240
Oh?

16
00:02:29.960 --> 00:02:33.680
I think she could hear you before.

17
00:02:34.000 --> 00:02:39.520
Yes, she could, but not now can you can you?

18
00:02:39.560 --> 00:02:40.319
Can you hear her?

19
00:02:41.800 --> 00:02:42.520
Can you hear me?

20
00:02:43.599 --> 00:02:43.800
Ok?

21
00:02:47.639 --> 00:02:51.240
All right, maybe go out and come back in?

22
00:02:52.039 --> 00:02:58.439
That works, all right, We'll bring her back in a second. Oh,

23
00:02:58.560 --> 00:02:59.560
let's try this again.

24
00:03:01.240 --> 00:03:01.759
It's like that.

25
00:03:02.240 --> 00:03:04.360
She she locked out, she'll locked back in.

26
00:03:05.360 --> 00:03:07.280
It's like plug and unplug.

27
00:03:08.039 --> 00:03:11.039
Yes, yeah, just just just like with the Wi Fi.

28
00:03:13.960 --> 00:03:16.680
You gotta unplug it and plug it back in. It's

29
00:03:16.680 --> 00:03:21.639
fucking crazy WiFi shout out. But anyway, which she comes back.

30
00:03:21.680 --> 00:03:28.560
But in the meantime, Happy New Year. Everybody, all right,

31
00:03:28.840 --> 00:03:35.400
cooking with what happened? Okay, how do I can't? I

32
00:03:35.520 --> 00:03:36.120
hardly hear you.

33
00:03:36.759 --> 00:03:38.280
I said, we're cooking with gas.

34
00:03:39.520 --> 00:03:45.039
Yeah, cooking with gas. So like I said, Happy New

35
00:03:45.159 --> 00:03:48.000
Year everybody. I know it's been a while since you've

36
00:03:48.000 --> 00:03:52.800
been on holidays past. How how was your Christmas in

37
00:03:52.840 --> 00:03:55.400
your New Years? Let's start off with Lady G.

38
00:03:57.319 --> 00:04:03.439
I would say they were pretty pretty good. Uh h Christmas.

39
00:04:04.039 --> 00:04:06.400
Spent it home with my daughter, we played yazzi.

40
00:04:07.680 --> 00:04:07.960
Uh.

41
00:04:08.479 --> 00:04:10.039
In New Year's I spent in.

42
00:04:10.080 --> 00:04:19.000
Church all right, you know, no complaints, no complaints at all.

43
00:04:19.759 --> 00:04:21.079
Time. Spent with family.

44
00:04:21.800 --> 00:04:22.360
That's nice.

45
00:04:22.759 --> 00:04:23.759
So small.

46
00:04:25.959 --> 00:04:29.279
All right, that's nice. And how about you TG.

47
00:04:30.600 --> 00:04:33.319
Yeah it was good. It was nice. I got some

48
00:04:33.319 --> 00:04:39.279
some nice gifts and uh you got dance I did.

49
00:04:40.040 --> 00:04:43.839
My favorite is my shot my new shower handheld shower

50
00:04:43.920 --> 00:04:48.240
head because it's like has actual water pressure, unlike my shower.

51
00:04:48.920 --> 00:04:52.600
So I'm like, I love it. I actually feel clean

52
00:04:52.800 --> 00:04:58.560
when I get around, just like that's important. Yeah, what

53
00:04:58.639 --> 00:05:03.079
was I doing before? But but yeah, it makes a difference.

54
00:05:03.199 --> 00:05:04.519
Well done, Thank you.

55
00:05:08.959 --> 00:05:11.959
That's funny. That's funny. That's funny. As far as far

56
00:05:11.959 --> 00:05:15.560
as as far as I'm concerned. My Christmas was was spent,

57
00:05:16.600 --> 00:05:17.879
you know, it was it was, it was, it was.

58
00:05:18.240 --> 00:05:22.759
It was all right, not too bad. New Year's was good,

59
00:05:23.519 --> 00:05:29.040
had a nice time. But the Hollies, the Holies went well,

60
00:05:30.000 --> 00:05:33.079
went went on out of hitch. You know, kids are good.

61
00:05:33.399 --> 00:05:36.560
It's it good. Everybody's good. That's what's important, right, you

62
00:05:36.560 --> 00:05:39.600
know what I'm saying. So do you guys have any

63
00:05:39.680 --> 00:05:43.560
resolutions or anything like that, like not like that New Year,

64
00:05:43.720 --> 00:05:45.240
New Me ship. You know what I'm saying.

65
00:05:45.399 --> 00:05:47.639
I was already doing the New Me, so I don't

66
00:05:47.680 --> 00:05:48.240
have to wait.

67
00:05:48.160 --> 00:05:51.199
For a New Years.

68
00:05:51.319 --> 00:05:53.319
It's that season. So you know, you.

69
00:05:53.319 --> 00:05:56.439
Gotta let me tell you. The first couple of weeks

70
00:05:57.279 --> 00:06:02.560
the gym was act. Of course, I'm like, here comes

71
00:06:02.639 --> 00:06:03.399
the Newes.

72
00:06:04.800 --> 00:06:07.160
Yeah, that's what it is. That's what it is. Once

73
00:06:07.199 --> 00:06:10.600
the New Year starts, everybody's in there like that. Come February,

74
00:06:10.920 --> 00:06:15.439
second week of February, everybody's yeah, back to apple pies

75
00:06:15.480 --> 00:06:16.279
and cases.

76
00:06:16.680 --> 00:06:21.720
Because resolutions don't work, because people don't make things realistic

77
00:06:21.920 --> 00:06:28.279
or something that's actually attainable. So oh a bit. Sorry,

78
00:06:28.360 --> 00:06:32.759
I was the cat trying to crawl up me. But

79
00:06:32.839 --> 00:06:35.040
I was gonna say, like I don't do resolutions. I

80
00:06:35.160 --> 00:06:39.920
just like to have certain goals for this year, and

81
00:06:39.959 --> 00:06:44.040
then those are the things that I focus on and

82
00:06:44.120 --> 00:06:47.000
try to make happen. And they have to be like

83
00:06:48.199 --> 00:06:55.519
attainable goals and realistic and something that that I can

84
00:06:55.600 --> 00:06:56.240
actually do.

85
00:06:57.480 --> 00:06:57.680
Right.

86
00:06:58.800 --> 00:07:01.480
Okay, that makes that makes a lot of sense because

87
00:07:01.480 --> 00:07:03.160
a lot of people sometimes they say I'm going to

88
00:07:03.160 --> 00:07:07.759
the gym, I'm a poak smash and ship like that

89
00:07:07.800 --> 00:07:10.720
and everything. It just doesn't work out that way, you know.

90
00:07:10.680 --> 00:07:11.120
What I mean.

91
00:07:12.120 --> 00:07:16.120
Yeah, everybody's obsessed with losing weight. It's always the thing

92
00:07:16.360 --> 00:07:19.040
for especially for the new year, all the diets start

93
00:07:20.000 --> 00:07:24.439
and now GLP ones are like a huge thing and

94
00:07:24.519 --> 00:07:29.680
they're being pushed, just like uh, gatric bypass surgery was

95
00:07:29.720 --> 00:07:34.079
pushed when it came out. So I don't know. I

96
00:07:34.399 --> 00:07:37.519
don't get why people like jump to things so quick

97
00:07:37.639 --> 00:07:42.839
without there being enough research and studies to see like

98
00:07:44.199 --> 00:07:46.839
what these drugs do to your body.

99
00:07:48.480 --> 00:07:52.800
I think because of society as a whole creates this

100
00:07:53.040 --> 00:07:57.959
need of having to look a certain way.

101
00:07:58.439 --> 00:08:03.120
Yes, thin equals help in the eyes of society, and unfortunately,

102
00:08:03.160 --> 00:08:05.399
you can't look at people until they're healthy.

103
00:08:05.680 --> 00:08:09.399
So exactly, because even I've been hearing a lot of

104
00:08:09.439 --> 00:08:14.839
the people taking the ones are having a lot of

105
00:08:14.959 --> 00:08:19.560
issues as far healthiness because they're not maintaining the correct

106
00:08:19.959 --> 00:08:25.519
diet which includes protein and fiber and minerals. You know,

107
00:08:25.680 --> 00:08:29.360
they're just so happy with the weight change they're not

108
00:08:29.439 --> 00:08:31.879
even worrying about maintaining the healthy.

109
00:08:31.519 --> 00:08:35.799
Part, right. I mean, nobody really knows what that looks

110
00:08:35.840 --> 00:08:39.559
like because so many people out there are trying to

111
00:08:39.879 --> 00:08:44.120
like shove down everybody's throat what healthy is what you

112
00:08:44.159 --> 00:08:47.000
should be eating. And it doesn't help either with the

113
00:08:47.039 --> 00:08:51.120
new FDA guidelines that they made the pyramid again and

114
00:08:51.159 --> 00:08:55.759
it's basically an upside down pyramid, making carbs the enemy again.

115
00:08:56.360 --> 00:08:59.840
And it's really stupid because you can't have a diet

116
00:09:00.120 --> 00:09:05.279
that are high and fat and high in meat because

117
00:09:05.320 --> 00:09:11.039
those things actually cause cardiac issues. So there has to

118
00:09:11.080 --> 00:09:14.200
be a balance. And that's what it's really about. This

119
00:09:14.279 --> 00:09:17.799
whole like protein kick is so stupid. They do this

120
00:09:17.960 --> 00:09:20.960
every year with something. It's an ingredient that comes out

121
00:09:21.000 --> 00:09:23.919
and everybody's like, oh, did you you know now we're

122
00:09:23.919 --> 00:09:28.519
doing this. So now it's like all protein protein drinks

123
00:09:28.519 --> 00:09:31.480
at Starbucks protein drinks are duncan. I'm just like this

124
00:09:31.600 --> 00:09:35.480
is so fucking stupid, Like the issue is that people

125
00:09:35.559 --> 00:09:39.200
aren't getting enough protein, people don't get enough fiber. The

126
00:09:39.279 --> 00:09:42.399
majority of people do not get enough fiber. We need

127
00:09:42.440 --> 00:09:43.559
to worry about that.

128
00:09:45.159 --> 00:09:48.559
Happy New Year from Myra, she said, Happy New Year,

129
00:09:50.799 --> 00:09:58.440
hoax smash from Susannah, and then Melissa says, instant gratification

130
00:09:58.519 --> 00:10:00.120
instead of putting in the work.

131
00:10:01.720 --> 00:10:04.720
I mean, it's not about where I think. I think

132
00:10:04.799 --> 00:10:09.279
it's I get the idea of instant gratification. A lot

133
00:10:09.279 --> 00:10:13.799
of us have that we want something quick, like even

134
00:10:14.000 --> 00:10:17.480
like you know, even when your internet is slow or

135
00:10:17.559 --> 00:10:21.080
something right, like you're just like, no, not today, bro,

136
00:10:21.240 --> 00:10:28.039
because we're so used to things working and working quickly

137
00:10:28.519 --> 00:10:31.159
and getting a response quick and getting an answer quick

138
00:10:31.200 --> 00:10:32.679
and finding an answer.

139
00:10:32.440 --> 00:10:36.559
Quick that well you ain't getting none of that.

140
00:10:36.879 --> 00:10:37.879
No, I believe that.

141
00:10:38.519 --> 00:10:43.240
But and it literally took half an hour for sandwich.

142
00:10:44.399 --> 00:10:45.919
Oh my god, that's crazy.

143
00:10:46.519 --> 00:10:49.639
I'm like, what are you guys doing, Like are you

144
00:10:49.919 --> 00:10:51.159
killing the am?

145
00:10:51.919 --> 00:10:54.159
They're making it all freshy up, just for you.

146
00:10:55.159 --> 00:10:57.279
Right from the farm to my table.

147
00:10:57.960 --> 00:11:01.720
I wish that's definitely not the case at all.

148
00:11:03.440 --> 00:11:07.080
So all right, go ahead, I'm sorry.

149
00:11:08.120 --> 00:11:13.960
One kid working by himself but he was literally moving

150
00:11:14.240 --> 00:11:14.919
at the right.

151
00:11:18.039 --> 00:11:18.759
Yeah, that's wild.

152
00:11:19.159 --> 00:11:22.200
Like, I know that most people here are retired. However,

153
00:11:22.600 --> 00:11:25.559
I'm not even closed, and I have a nineteen year

154
00:11:25.559 --> 00:11:30.080
old here who is starting to do you not see

155
00:11:30.120 --> 00:11:33.679
her amazing eating up a little bit?

156
00:11:37.240 --> 00:11:41.519
So so I have before we get into the thick

157
00:11:41.559 --> 00:11:45.200
of things there. I got an email. All right, you

158
00:11:45.240 --> 00:11:48.639
know how you know how emails? Yeah, we got an email.

159
00:11:50.039 --> 00:11:55.840
This guy's name is AirTag guy. That's how he tagged

160
00:11:55.840 --> 00:11:57.320
his email. AirTag guy.

161
00:11:57.759 --> 00:11:59.879
Okay, air tag guy.

162
00:12:00.080 --> 00:12:05.000
Yeah, hold on, Happy New Year. Question for you, Cole,

163
00:12:05.559 --> 00:12:09.200
does the host? Did the host get their shirts yet?

164
00:12:11.200 --> 00:12:12.559
No?

165
00:12:13.399 --> 00:12:16.039
No, that's not true because lady got hers.

166
00:12:17.000 --> 00:12:18.879
Well that's not horrible hosts.

167
00:12:19.879 --> 00:12:24.200
Yeah, I have to get to yours.

168
00:12:21.559 --> 00:12:21.759
Let me.

169
00:12:24.960 --> 00:12:26.440
I'm good. You could send it with.

170
00:12:27.919 --> 00:12:33.000
I will definitely do that, all right. So that was funny,

171
00:12:33.120 --> 00:12:37.480
all right. During during Christmas, my wife gave me an

172
00:12:37.519 --> 00:12:41.720
air tag and suggested I use it so she can

173
00:12:41.799 --> 00:12:44.639
know where I am when I don't respond to messages.

174
00:12:45.759 --> 00:12:49.960
It's important. It's important to clarify that are that I

175
00:12:50.039 --> 00:12:55.080
already communicate constantly, sharing where I am when I arrive,

176
00:12:55.759 --> 00:12:59.559
when I leave work or classes, returning calls as soon

177
00:12:59.600 --> 00:13:04.399
as poss and checking in daily. Every night. We talk

178
00:13:04.480 --> 00:13:09.120
about our day, where we've been, who we've spoken with,

179
00:13:10.200 --> 00:13:14.759
and this open communication has been the foundation of our trust.

180
00:13:16.440 --> 00:13:22.480
I've always valued independence and privacy, and while I understand

181
00:13:22.679 --> 00:13:27.480
checking in for safety, I'm uncomfortable with being tracked. Twenty

182
00:13:27.480 --> 00:13:33.679
four to seven, I told you, Yeah, he's married, all right,

183
00:13:33.799 --> 00:13:38.159
So I'm uncomfortable with being tracked. Twenty four to seven.

184
00:13:39.000 --> 00:13:42.679
I told her I didn't want to use the air tag,

185
00:13:43.159 --> 00:13:47.679
not because I'm hiding anything, but because constant GPS tracking

186
00:13:47.720 --> 00:13:51.399
feels like a breach of privacy to me. Since then,

187
00:13:52.399 --> 00:13:57.799
we've had repeated arguments. She says, my refusal to use

188
00:13:57.840 --> 00:14:01.200
the air tag means that she has lost trust in me,

189
00:14:02.279 --> 00:14:05.240
even though I trust her without needing to track her.

190
00:14:05.840 --> 00:14:10.200
I feel hurt and confused that setting this boundary is

191
00:14:10.240 --> 00:14:15.399
being is being seen as lack of transparency, and I

192
00:14:15.519 --> 00:14:19.399
don't know what this means for our marriage. Any advice

193
00:14:19.480 --> 00:14:21.480
you gave would be greatly appreciated.

194
00:14:21.679 --> 00:14:25.879
AirTag Guy, Air tag Guy.

195
00:14:26.840 --> 00:14:32.159
So this is all right? Before we start hold on now,

196
00:14:32.200 --> 00:14:34.519
before I turned it over to everybody, this is what

197
00:14:34.559 --> 00:14:37.879
I'm thinking. First thing, I'm thinking is is he giving

198
00:14:38.000 --> 00:14:42.879
us the whole story? That's that's one thing, right, second

199
00:14:42.919 --> 00:14:48.720
thing is what what is the real reason behind her

200
00:14:48.799 --> 00:14:54.240
wanting to track him? Yeah, what's the motivation behind that?

201
00:14:54.919 --> 00:15:01.320
And then is his communication and transparency with her? What

202
00:15:01.360 --> 00:15:03.919
it is? Is it really that you know what I'm saying, Like,

203
00:15:03.960 --> 00:15:06.600
what is it that's really going on? But this is

204
00:15:06.639 --> 00:15:10.840
all he said? So you know, what do you girls think?

205
00:15:13.240 --> 00:15:15.480
That was my first question I wrote down? Is the

206
00:15:16.000 --> 00:15:18.360
question that he needs to be asking is why does

207
00:15:18.399 --> 00:15:20.440
she need to know where he is twenty four to seven?

208
00:15:23.000 --> 00:15:25.759
Why do you need that in order to trust somebody?

209
00:15:26.279 --> 00:15:29.679
That to me says more about you and your trust

210
00:15:29.720 --> 00:15:34.559
issues than anything else. So that also makes me wonder,

211
00:15:34.600 --> 00:15:36.720
like you just brought up, is he telling us everything

212
00:15:36.720 --> 00:15:39.480
because what led to this now all of a sudden?

213
00:15:40.120 --> 00:15:44.639
Or is it just her insecurities and things like that

214
00:15:44.639 --> 00:15:49.840
that are digging up trust issues or whatever? But my

215
00:15:49.960 --> 00:15:52.879
advice really would be to go talk to a counselor

216
00:15:53.000 --> 00:15:57.159
or something like do therapy together to figure out what happened,

217
00:15:57.200 --> 00:16:00.960
because I don't feel like we have enough information to

218
00:16:01.080 --> 00:16:01.919
really give.

219
00:16:02.399 --> 00:16:09.200
But I think if if they're sharing everything already, I.

220
00:16:09.200 --> 00:16:11.639
Think that's why I say, I call bullshit because if

221
00:16:11.679 --> 00:16:15.519
you're sharing everything already and having open communication, I'm not

222
00:16:15.600 --> 00:16:18.480
going to turn around and be like, oh, I got

223
00:16:18.559 --> 00:16:20.360
you an air tag so I know where you are

224
00:16:20.480 --> 00:16:23.639
all the time. Like, first of all, that's crazy creepy

225
00:16:23.759 --> 00:16:26.799
to me, Like if somebody got me something so they

226
00:16:26.879 --> 00:16:31.519
know where I'm at all the time. Now, if if

227
00:16:31.600 --> 00:16:37.360
I worked in something where safety is an issue and

228
00:16:37.519 --> 00:16:40.039
they got me that, Like you know what I'm trying

229
00:16:40.080 --> 00:16:42.639
to say, Like if the air tag was bought as

230
00:16:42.759 --> 00:16:46.600
like a safety issue, that I can understand, But if

231
00:16:46.639 --> 00:16:52.399
it's being given to track down somebody, that to me

232
00:16:53.000 --> 00:16:55.919
is weird. Like you should be doing that with your kids, right,

233
00:16:56.360 --> 00:16:58.320
you don't do that with your husband. You do that

234
00:16:58.399 --> 00:17:02.519
with your kids. Like the need to want that kind

235
00:17:02.600 --> 00:17:08.480
of makes me feel like there's issues because it's just weird.

236
00:17:08.599 --> 00:17:13.319
How do you have open, honest communication? But she wants

237
00:17:13.359 --> 00:17:16.920
to know where you are and he's already been checking

238
00:17:16.960 --> 00:17:20.000
in he said in the thing that he's already checking

239
00:17:20.079 --> 00:17:22.680
in with her all the time. So it's kind of

240
00:17:22.759 --> 00:17:25.559
like damn. Like when you read that, I was like, damn,

241
00:17:25.680 --> 00:17:29.720
but why we gotta be I got to work, Okay,

242
00:17:30.200 --> 00:17:34.319
I'm leaving work. Okay, I'm going to like damn.

243
00:17:35.119 --> 00:17:42.160
Right, Susannah said, some past history or maybe know some

244
00:17:42.359 --> 00:17:44.160
history or maybe past trauma there.

245
00:17:44.720 --> 00:17:49.559
But possibly. I mean we all like shit comes out. Yes,

246
00:17:49.839 --> 00:17:54.039
it's it's usually something from the past, but like, why

247
00:17:54.400 --> 00:17:57.039
why is that coming up now? Is the real question?

248
00:17:57.839 --> 00:17:58.039
Why?

249
00:17:58.319 --> 00:17:58.519
Why?

250
00:17:58.680 --> 00:17:58.880
Now?

251
00:17:59.319 --> 00:18:03.359
Is it like this where like does she expect him

252
00:18:03.400 --> 00:18:06.079
to have it on and also check in? Because that's

253
00:18:06.160 --> 00:18:06.920
freaking crazy.

254
00:18:07.519 --> 00:18:10.839
Yeah, that's a little bit, that's really excessive. All right,

255
00:18:10.920 --> 00:18:13.400
let's see what Let's see what Jennifer says. Jennifer says,

256
00:18:13.920 --> 00:18:15.839
is she trying to track him because she doesn't want

257
00:18:15.920 --> 00:18:19.440
him to track her. Maybe she's got something to hide.

258
00:18:19.880 --> 00:18:24.240
Who knows, you know, this could go This could go

259
00:18:24.400 --> 00:18:25.039
many a way.

260
00:18:25.640 --> 00:18:28.519
Maybe she she she's sliding and she's let me make

261
00:18:28.559 --> 00:18:29.720
sure this is where he's at.

262
00:18:29.920 --> 00:18:32.079
So I guess, you know, I don't know.

263
00:18:33.839 --> 00:18:34.359
I don't know.

264
00:18:35.160 --> 00:18:37.799
I literally just watched a video like that, a reel

265
00:18:37.960 --> 00:18:40.759
where you know, there's a lot of reels out there

266
00:18:40.839 --> 00:18:43.400
that people will share a thing and give their opinion

267
00:18:43.519 --> 00:18:45.640
or whatever. But I just watched some of it and

268
00:18:45.720 --> 00:18:49.039
this woman was just like blatantly just putting out her business.

269
00:18:49.839 --> 00:18:52.920
About how she was in a marriage basically where her

270
00:18:53.000 --> 00:18:56.160
husband took care of her and she could do whatever

271
00:18:56.359 --> 00:18:59.880
she wanted and she got bored, so she hadn't a

272
00:19:00.119 --> 00:19:04.720
fair And I'm thinking to myself, like what the fuck?

273
00:19:05.400 --> 00:19:07.240
Like he said he said the wrong name at the

274
00:19:07.319 --> 00:19:13.799
Altar Friends reference, I.

275
00:19:14.000 --> 00:19:15.720
Take you Rachel, I did.

276
00:19:20.440 --> 00:19:20.480
So.

277
00:19:21.000 --> 00:19:24.200
Yeah, So when I saw that, I was like, wait what.

278
00:19:24.480 --> 00:19:27.680
And she's like bragging about like telling this story about

279
00:19:28.000 --> 00:19:30.119
and then getting a divorce like all this stuff, and

280
00:19:30.200 --> 00:19:32.759
I'm just like, she kicked this man out of her house.

281
00:19:32.839 --> 00:19:36.160
He caught her cheating, she kicked him out of the house.

282
00:19:36.839 --> 00:19:41.039
And I'm just like, wait what. And this man provided

283
00:19:41.119 --> 00:19:42.480
for you and your son.

284
00:19:43.240 --> 00:19:46.000
And he what what is the.

285
00:19:48.039 --> 00:19:48.400
I don't know.

286
00:19:50.920 --> 00:19:53.400
Yeah, that's so I think I think we're kind of

287
00:19:53.440 --> 00:19:56.200
a little bit more information on that email, but that's

288
00:19:56.240 --> 00:20:00.599
all that was sent. So like I can't if you

289
00:20:00.680 --> 00:20:03.480
are in the chat room, let us know what's up.

290
00:20:04.480 --> 00:20:06.480
You know what I'm saying, and we'll we'll figure it

291
00:20:06.559 --> 00:20:13.480
out for you. But so now the core core question

292
00:20:14.119 --> 00:20:18.400
would be we're gonna talk a little bit about well,

293
00:20:18.519 --> 00:20:22.720
my camera's getting bloody. Hold up? All right, there, we

294
00:20:22.839 --> 00:20:26.200
go back back back to normal. All right, We're gonna

295
00:20:26.200 --> 00:20:29.720
talk a little bit about you know, the being accountable,

296
00:20:30.599 --> 00:20:34.160
you know what I'm saying, transparency, maybe a little bit

297
00:20:34.200 --> 00:20:39.519
of you know, worrying about other people's feelings. Would you

298
00:20:39.640 --> 00:20:42.680
rather would you rather tell the truth or would you

299
00:20:42.799 --> 00:20:46.960
rather lie to protect someone's feelings? Doves just showed up.

300
00:20:47.039 --> 00:20:56.720
Hold on one second, you're yo, You're right, you look,

301
00:20:56.799 --> 00:21:01.720
you look a little I'm exhausted, brough all right, so

302
00:21:02.160 --> 00:21:05.200
just just hold up. So the question, the question is,

303
00:21:08.319 --> 00:21:13.920
the question is when did protecting people's feelings start taking

304
00:21:14.000 --> 00:21:19.279
priority over telling the truth and who's actually benefiting from it?

305
00:21:22.880 --> 00:21:28.759
So that, yeah, you're tired.

306
00:21:30.000 --> 00:21:31.680
It's like I got a question.

307
00:21:33.079 --> 00:21:36.240
Yeah, yeah, Like I was about to yell. I was like, yo,

308
00:21:36.680 --> 00:21:38.319
let me get settled in first, and I mean, like.

309
00:21:39.119 --> 00:21:43.079
Hold on, hold on, hold up. Myra says there is

310
00:21:43.160 --> 00:21:46.039
definitely trust issues in the marriage or someone is doing

311
00:21:46.160 --> 00:21:47.000
something sneaky.

312
00:21:48.319 --> 00:21:51.799
Yeah, that's the consensus basically on that other things.

313
00:21:51.880 --> 00:21:52.119
With this.

314
00:21:53.640 --> 00:21:57.359
Story, I'm real quick, not to sound rude or nothing,

315
00:21:57.799 --> 00:22:00.519
but I want to give a resc of peace our

316
00:22:00.599 --> 00:22:04.960
people's you know who lost the husband's past Saturday, you know,

317
00:22:05.680 --> 00:22:07.240
rest in peace, you know, and.

318
00:22:08.920 --> 00:22:10.119
You know it's ironic.

319
00:22:09.799 --> 00:22:13.559
Because my granddaughter was born this past Saturday, So like

320
00:22:13.640 --> 00:22:18.200
it's it's everything, you know, So I mean, congraduates to

321
00:22:18.279 --> 00:22:21.319
my son and rested peace, you know to a homeboy.

322
00:22:21.559 --> 00:22:23.880
Then you know that's why a lot to say.

323
00:22:25.359 --> 00:22:30.039
Mm hm and sorry for your ross and congratulations in

324
00:22:30.160 --> 00:22:30.839
the same.

325
00:22:33.079 --> 00:22:36.920
Yeah life, like you know what you know what?

326
00:22:38.279 --> 00:22:40.839
Yeah exactly, you know, like it's just you know, like

327
00:22:41.200 --> 00:22:44.559
I'm celebrating a life and our peoples this morning on

328
00:22:44.720 --> 00:22:45.400
the same day.

329
00:22:45.960 --> 00:22:53.240
Yeah, so it was like life, yeah, crazy, you want

330
00:22:53.279 --> 00:22:54.400
you want to tackle this first?

331
00:22:55.319 --> 00:22:55.519
Sure?

332
00:22:55.960 --> 00:22:59.519
Everybody last track because I couldn't cackle the bears so

333
00:23:00.559 --> 00:23:01.880
not even.

334
00:23:03.640 --> 00:23:05.519
This is why I don't even watch anymore.

335
00:23:08.680 --> 00:23:16.599
All right, So when did protecting people's feelings start taking

336
00:23:16.680 --> 00:23:20.519
priority over telling the truth? Who is who actually benefits

337
00:23:20.559 --> 00:23:22.720
from that? Okay we'll start with you.

338
00:23:23.160 --> 00:23:27.119
Okay, So protecting people's feelings, I think that's on each individual.

339
00:23:27.400 --> 00:23:31.720
Like I'm not for that. I think there's certain things,

340
00:23:32.400 --> 00:23:36.240
Maybe there's ways to word things, to not be so

341
00:23:37.240 --> 00:23:39.960
straight up or abrupt with somebody, to make them feel

342
00:23:40.079 --> 00:23:43.680
some kind of way, because messaging is important, right, So

343
00:23:43.880 --> 00:23:48.240
you don't want to just blurt out whatever. But taking

344
00:23:48.319 --> 00:23:53.000
into account people's feelings when telling them the truth about

345
00:23:53.079 --> 00:23:57.240
something I'm not I don't believe in that bullsh are, Like, oh,

346
00:23:57.400 --> 00:23:59.799
I didn't say anything because I didn't want to hurt

347
00:23:59.799 --> 00:24:03.759
their feelings. But honestly, I'd rather my feelings be hurt

348
00:24:03.960 --> 00:24:08.599
and me like deal with it and process and figure

349
00:24:08.640 --> 00:24:11.880
out from there whatever the case may be, and move on,

350
00:24:12.240 --> 00:24:15.680
because like, if not, I feel like it's kind of

351
00:24:15.720 --> 00:24:19.240
like talking behind somebody's back or you know, like you're

352
00:24:19.359 --> 00:24:23.640
not they're not privy to something going on, You're being

353
00:24:23.759 --> 00:24:27.720
sneaky at the end of the day, Like just real, Yeah,

354
00:24:28.200 --> 00:24:32.279
to me, it's more betrayal. You're benefiting yourself at the

355
00:24:32.400 --> 00:24:34.799
end of the day because you don't want to deal

356
00:24:34.920 --> 00:24:40.440
with the consequences that are coming. That's accountability. Accountability is

357
00:24:40.519 --> 00:24:46.000
showing up and owning the bullshit and saying I fucked

358
00:24:46.079 --> 00:24:48.599
up if that is the case, and I'm sorry and

359
00:24:48.759 --> 00:24:52.039
this happened, but like not saying anything.

360
00:24:53.759 --> 00:24:54.400
Like there was.

361
00:24:56.400 --> 00:25:01.160
A show I watched recently. I'm not gonna say the

362
00:25:01.240 --> 00:25:03.000
name of the show, so I won't spoil anything, but

363
00:25:03.880 --> 00:25:09.920
towards the end, it turned out that the brother or

364
00:25:10.039 --> 00:25:14.799
whatever of this child, like the woman winds up killing him.

365
00:25:15.279 --> 00:25:19.799
She doesn't know that is her actual son, her biological son.

366
00:25:20.680 --> 00:25:26.200
She winds up killing this kid. Okay, the husband finds

367
00:25:26.240 --> 00:25:31.759
out that this happens as a daughter, and the daughter's like,

368
00:25:31.759 --> 00:25:34.880
we gotta tell mom, and he's like no, he's like,

369
00:25:34.960 --> 00:25:39.119
we can't tell her this. So it's like, I'm wondering,

370
00:25:41.160 --> 00:25:43.559
because what would that do to you if you found

371
00:25:43.599 --> 00:25:47.160
out that you killed someone like to protect your daughter

372
00:25:47.400 --> 00:25:49.640
and it turned out that that was your also your son.

373
00:25:52.799 --> 00:25:55.880
So so like, let's use this scenario because it's a

374
00:25:56.039 --> 00:26:01.079
fucked up scenario. Now, would you spare the mother's feelings

375
00:26:02.160 --> 00:26:03.079
and not telling her?

376
00:26:03.160 --> 00:26:08.200
So here's my question to that the father is also

377
00:26:08.319 --> 00:26:08.759
his son?

378
00:26:09.279 --> 00:26:11.680
No, I don't know.

379
00:26:12.680 --> 00:26:16.319
So the back quick background was basically she she was

380
00:26:16.359 --> 00:26:21.359
taken into a cult and was impregnated. They they when

381
00:26:21.440 --> 00:26:24.880
they gave birth, they told them that the babies were

382
00:26:24.920 --> 00:26:28.960
still born, but they stole the babies and then took

383
00:26:29.000 --> 00:26:32.599
them to other families. That's what happened. So she thought

384
00:26:32.680 --> 00:26:33.720
her son was dead.

385
00:26:34.680 --> 00:26:35.720
Yeah, what kind of show is this?

386
00:26:35.839 --> 00:26:36.200
What kind of.

387
00:26:40.319 --> 00:26:42.039
It's not afflix and it's a British show.

388
00:26:42.279 --> 00:26:49.039
This is why, of course it's British they're this, but yeah, like.

389
00:26:50.200 --> 00:26:55.119
So so, yeah, that's crazy, Like do you do you

390
00:26:55.319 --> 00:26:57.920
spare her knowing?

391
00:26:58.079 --> 00:26:58.119
No?

392
00:27:00.119 --> 00:27:05.599
Hell no, hell no, I ain't sparing ship for what

393
00:27:06.839 --> 00:27:10.160
so you would definitely tell of course? Why not?

394
00:27:11.640 --> 00:27:15.680
Oh boy, I don't know the truth.

395
00:27:15.720 --> 00:27:16.640
I don't want to talk about it.

396
00:27:19.279 --> 00:27:24.720
That means they were still born? Okay, And then this

397
00:27:24.880 --> 00:27:30.960
one says a good one show. I guess no, not

398
00:27:31.039 --> 00:27:31.759
that I don't think it's.

399
00:27:32.319 --> 00:27:33.519
That means they were still born.

400
00:27:33.880 --> 00:27:39.920
I got it, I got it now, I got it.

401
00:27:40.000 --> 00:27:40.119
Now.

402
00:27:40.240 --> 00:27:44.799
Yeah, that means they were still born. You said, Tuppy,

403
00:27:44.839 --> 00:27:47.079
you know what, that's the reason why you listened to

404
00:27:47.119 --> 00:27:47.400
the show.

405
00:27:51.640 --> 00:27:53.440
So what do you so so so does? What do

406
00:27:53.519 --> 00:27:53.799
you think?

407
00:27:54.640 --> 00:27:58.119
Man? I'm telling man like like like.

408
00:27:58.240 --> 00:27:59.359
Look, you know what you know?

409
00:27:59.559 --> 00:28:01.759
Like I think that you know what I'm saying.

410
00:28:01.799 --> 00:28:02.920
We passed the age of like you know what I'm

411
00:28:02.920 --> 00:28:06.640
saying common in people's feelings, man, we passed that, you know,

412
00:28:06.799 --> 00:28:09.480
Like what, like what am I supposed to like?

413
00:28:09.599 --> 00:28:11.119
No, you know what I'm saying. I mean, I'm gonna

414
00:28:11.119 --> 00:28:12.200
tell you the truth, you know what I'm saying.

415
00:28:12.200 --> 00:28:14.359
But I'm gonna find ways to like, you know what

416
00:28:14.400 --> 00:28:16.640
I'm saying like yeah, you know what, it's gonna be truthful, but.

417
00:28:16.759 --> 00:28:18.359
You know I'm not gonna sugar coat it back to

418
00:28:18.359 --> 00:28:20.759
say thing it's you know what it's. It's it's very.

419
00:28:22.400 --> 00:28:24.440
It's almost like your fence sitting but you're not you

420
00:28:24.440 --> 00:28:28.480
know what I'm saying, like like you know, like I

421
00:28:28.559 --> 00:28:30.039
feel like you know what I'm saying, like like sometimes

422
00:28:30.039 --> 00:28:31.480
you know what I'm saying, like like with you know

423
00:28:31.480 --> 00:28:32.960
what I'm saying, Like with certain people, like I always

424
00:28:32.960 --> 00:28:34.240
felt like I have to like toe the line of

425
00:28:34.279 --> 00:28:36.119
how I'm going to say things. But it just got

426
00:28:36.119 --> 00:28:37.440
to the point where I'm just gonna tell you how

427
00:28:37.480 --> 00:28:38.079
it is and that's it.

428
00:28:38.440 --> 00:28:41.240
Like yeah, I mean you know like like.

429
00:28:41.640 --> 00:28:43.519
Like like you know, like like it's it's a waste

430
00:28:43.559 --> 00:28:45.839
you know what. It's a waste of energy for me

431
00:28:45.920 --> 00:28:49.079
to be like, well, let me see how I'm gonna say. No, man,

432
00:28:49.200 --> 00:28:50.880
just gonna say, Man, I'm tired. You know what I'm saying, Like,

433
00:28:50.920 --> 00:28:52.480
I'm just gonna say what it is. When yo be

434
00:28:52.599 --> 00:28:55.559
fucked up, that's it, right, you know that you know

435
00:28:56.319 --> 00:28:59.240
there's no other way. You know there's no other way,

436
00:28:59.319 --> 00:29:00.440
Like you know I could be you know what I'm saying.

437
00:29:00.480 --> 00:29:02.119
I could be more rude about it, but I'm not.

438
00:29:03.079 --> 00:29:05.319
You know, Like right, I'm gonna trying to tell you

439
00:29:05.400 --> 00:29:07.119
like straight line as you know what I'm saying, like

440
00:29:07.799 --> 00:29:10.480
as as straight as it could be, because I expect

441
00:29:10.519 --> 00:29:11.799
people to tell me the same thing too.

442
00:29:12.559 --> 00:29:14.519
Don't show the cold nothing, you know what I'm saying.

443
00:29:15.279 --> 00:29:17.759
You know, like like like as a matter of fact, anybody,

444
00:29:18.160 --> 00:29:21.279
anybody you know, like you know, dancing around, you know,

445
00:29:21.359 --> 00:29:24.000
dancing with words and whatever. You know, you might as

446
00:29:24.000 --> 00:29:25.519
well just tell them the biggest lie ever, you know

447
00:29:25.559 --> 00:29:28.119
what I'm saying. You know, like you might as well

448
00:29:28.160 --> 00:29:30.039
be like, nah, you don't mess up, No, you messed up,

449
00:29:31.240 --> 00:29:32.960
you know, like you might as well just tell them that,

450
00:29:33.079 --> 00:29:33.240
you know.

451
00:29:33.279 --> 00:29:33.680
I mean, like.

452
00:29:35.279 --> 00:29:37.960
I would never understand, you know, but nowadays I would

453
00:29:37.960 --> 00:29:40.599
never understand. Like how like you know, people need to like,

454
00:29:40.680 --> 00:29:45.319
you know, like coddle people's feelings. Man Like that's like

455
00:29:45.440 --> 00:29:47.960
you know, like for that, you know, you for that,

456
00:29:48.000 --> 00:29:49.160
you know what I'm saying, you get a yes man

457
00:29:49.200 --> 00:29:51.559
around you, you know, mm hmm yeah.

458
00:29:51.960 --> 00:29:53.680
What about what about you? Rady? Do you what do

459
00:29:53.720 --> 00:29:54.039
you think?

460
00:29:55.839 --> 00:29:59.000
Oh? Kind of because you know, I'm the type of

461
00:29:59.079 --> 00:30:03.119
person I mean in the middle, nothingness is black and white.

462
00:30:03.519 --> 00:30:07.359
You know, I personally prefer the truth because I can

463
00:30:07.440 --> 00:30:12.880
heal from the truth. I can't heal from a continuous line. However,

464
00:30:12.960 --> 00:30:17.119
there is a way to express things to peoples in

465
00:30:17.200 --> 00:30:17.720
a way not.

466
00:30:17.839 --> 00:30:18.880
To express those to me.

467
00:30:19.559 --> 00:30:24.799
We don't have to be hurtful or vindictive in order

468
00:30:24.839 --> 00:30:27.559
to let somebody know the truth. You can do it

469
00:30:27.680 --> 00:30:31.519
in a loving way, in a supportive way, by saying,

470
00:30:31.599 --> 00:30:34.599
you know, we can agree to disagree. However, this is

471
00:30:34.680 --> 00:30:37.359
how I'm experiencing this, This is what I see, this

472
00:30:37.559 --> 00:30:41.200
is how I feel, because we can only take responsibility

473
00:30:41.279 --> 00:30:45.279
for our own thoughts, feelings, behaviors, actors, and we really

474
00:30:45.359 --> 00:30:49.720
don't have a right to put that on somebody else. However, Yeah,

475
00:30:49.759 --> 00:30:52.160
if you don't tell somebody there's an issue, how are

476
00:30:52.200 --> 00:30:55.839
they supposed to fix it or change it? I mean,

477
00:30:56.039 --> 00:31:00.720
ultimately it's up to them. Yeah, being respectful while still

478
00:31:00.799 --> 00:31:04.160
telling the truth. Because even out there there are people saying, well,

479
00:31:04.200 --> 00:31:06.519
this is just how I am, this is who I am.

480
00:31:07.039 --> 00:31:10.839
I just tell it like it is. I'm a real one. Yeah,

481
00:31:11.000 --> 00:31:14.200
but you're using that as an excuse to be nancy

482
00:31:15.160 --> 00:31:21.400
and to be hurtful, and there is no reason to

483
00:31:22.000 --> 00:31:24.759
purposefully be hurtful. You want to be helpful to somebody

484
00:31:24.839 --> 00:31:28.480
by letting them know what the truth is or at

485
00:31:28.559 --> 00:31:33.119
least how you're experiencing the truth or how you're experiencing

486
00:31:33.240 --> 00:31:37.880
what they're doing saying. But you know, there's just there's

487
00:31:37.920 --> 00:31:40.839
a way to do it without being asked, right.

488
00:31:40.799 --> 00:31:45.640
Yeah, absolutely, And as far as I'm concerned, there's nothing,

489
00:31:45.920 --> 00:31:49.319
nothing but nothing but the truth. And if you can't

490
00:31:49.400 --> 00:31:53.759
handle the truth, then that's you know that that it

491
00:31:53.920 --> 00:31:57.200
is that that's not my fault, but doing it respect.

492
00:31:57.079 --> 00:31:59.680
My daughter says, it sounds like the new problem and not.

493
00:32:00.960 --> 00:32:02.079
Yeah I.

494
00:32:03.680 --> 00:32:04.680
Liked problem.

495
00:32:05.200 --> 00:32:07.920
Yeah, you know what Myra like myral hold up, Like

496
00:32:08.000 --> 00:32:10.839
Myra said, you need to be respectful about it. Don't

497
00:32:10.880 --> 00:32:13.920
sit there and be a fucking dick and be like, well, listen,

498
00:32:14.400 --> 00:32:16.599
this is what you know what I'm saying, try to

499
00:32:17.759 --> 00:32:20.240
he's the he's the blow. You know what I'm saying.

500
00:32:20.319 --> 00:32:22.880
I mean, if you know what's gonna hurt, and you

501
00:32:23.079 --> 00:32:27.680
know that everything that that that you say can either

502
00:32:27.759 --> 00:32:30.920
hurt somebody's feelings or make them feel like ship, then

503
00:32:31.079 --> 00:32:33.200
you have to find a way to be like, all right, look,

504
00:32:33.960 --> 00:32:36.960
this is, this is what happened, this is what's going on.

505
00:32:37.200 --> 00:32:41.000
This is let's let's I apologize. I'm sorry, but this

506
00:32:41.200 --> 00:32:43.880
is what it is. But do it in a respectful manner.

507
00:32:43.920 --> 00:32:45.119
You don't have to be like, well, you know what,

508
00:32:45.920 --> 00:32:48.960
I don't give a fuck, but this is what happened.

509
00:32:48.960 --> 00:32:57.160
I wasn't like that. You know what I'm saying? Well, right,

510
00:32:57.200 --> 00:32:59.279
you kind of did how yo?

511
00:32:59.400 --> 00:32:59.720
Yo? Yo?

512
00:32:59.759 --> 00:33:01.680
You know how My answer came out and I'm like, yo,

513
00:33:01.720 --> 00:33:03.039
you know what, I'm gonna see the truth?

514
00:33:03.200 --> 00:33:05.200
You know what I'm saying, Like, look, you know what

515
00:33:05.279 --> 00:33:06.839
I was gonna be like, you know what I'm saning, Like,

516
00:33:06.920 --> 00:33:08.920
I'm not disrespectful, but I'm like, yo, listen, you know what.

517
00:33:09.480 --> 00:33:12.279
It's gonna sound harsh. I'm gonna tell you. You know

518
00:33:12.319 --> 00:33:13.680
what I'm saying like I always start off like that

519
00:33:13.759 --> 00:33:14.160
because like.

520
00:33:14.559 --> 00:33:21.000
It's the truth is always harsh, though, no it's not. Okay,

521
00:33:21.119 --> 00:33:24.960
So I have a great example. Okay, all right, while

522
00:33:25.000 --> 00:33:29.000
I'm here, I have somebody who's been in my life.

523
00:33:29.440 --> 00:33:33.200
Oh and it's kind of like my grandfather, Well he

524
00:33:33.319 --> 00:33:34.240
has a sponsors.

525
00:33:35.039 --> 00:33:36.880
So what.

526
00:33:39.640 --> 00:33:41.680
I don't know, like, like you sound far.

527
00:33:43.920 --> 00:33:48.839
Okay, I'm closer can you hear me now? Yes, yes,

528
00:33:49.519 --> 00:33:55.240
I don't want to be nowhere near nowhere. So okay,

529
00:33:55.599 --> 00:33:59.519
So it's like my grandfather. Actually I caught him all well,

530
00:33:59.759 --> 00:34:03.519
so he is my grandfather and he right now he's

531
00:34:03.960 --> 00:34:06.519
not in a good place and he doesn't have other

532
00:34:06.680 --> 00:34:11.360
family to help care for him. So we went into

533
00:34:11.719 --> 00:34:16.400
his apartment where he stand and I'm telling you, from

534
00:34:16.440 --> 00:34:19.880
the moment you walk in, all you smell is urine

535
00:34:20.760 --> 00:34:26.639
and stuff like that. Right, So another member of my

536
00:34:26.800 --> 00:34:30.760
family basically just says, you know, like was telling him

537
00:34:30.920 --> 00:34:33.960
like it is, and I just I couldn't believe that

538
00:34:34.039 --> 00:34:37.760
he could be so cold where I understood what you're

539
00:34:37.760 --> 00:34:40.639
saying about, you know, being honest and telling him you

540
00:34:40.760 --> 00:34:43.400
know how it is and the truth and not sugar

541
00:34:43.480 --> 00:34:47.079
coating it. However, he didn't necessarily need to say it

542
00:34:47.159 --> 00:34:49.519
the way of the set. So we go in and

543
00:34:49.880 --> 00:34:52.480
there's this situation and even me and my daughter were

544
00:34:52.519 --> 00:34:56.239
having difficulty given more thing. But at the same token,

545
00:34:56.360 --> 00:34:58.760
you see that you know he's got this difficulty with

546
00:34:58.800 --> 00:35:02.360
the Alzheimer's, he doesn't, it's not totally his fault, and

547
00:35:02.519 --> 00:35:06.800
nobody is and nobody's assisting him. So nobody's reminding him

548
00:35:06.880 --> 00:35:10.039
to bathe nobody's reminding him to go, you know, take

549
00:35:10.079 --> 00:35:12.519
care of business and all this kind of stuff. So anyway,

550
00:35:12.559 --> 00:35:14.280
we go in there because it's like we've made a

551
00:35:14.360 --> 00:35:18.159
decision now we want to step in because apparently nobody

552
00:35:18.280 --> 00:35:20.440
is going to so we decide we're going to step

553
00:35:20.519 --> 00:35:24.440
into help. But in doing that, we go we get

554
00:35:24.519 --> 00:35:27.519
him new clothes, and this other member in my family

555
00:35:27.679 --> 00:35:30.119
gives him the clothes and basically says to him, now,

556
00:35:30.119 --> 00:35:35.159
I'm going to give you these clothes and before we

557
00:35:35.280 --> 00:35:37.960
come to get you tomorrow, you better make sure you

558
00:35:38.079 --> 00:35:40.800
shower because I am not taking you out smelling off,

559
00:35:40.920 --> 00:35:44.760
skissy and like, you know, garbage, and you're not getting

560
00:35:44.760 --> 00:35:48.800
in my car, you know, being He did it in Spanish.

561
00:35:48.480 --> 00:35:49.199
Words, so.

562
00:35:53.440 --> 00:35:55.119
So it's like I don't want to I don't want

563
00:35:55.159 --> 00:35:57.880
to translate those words that you want because that's not

564
00:35:58.079 --> 00:36:05.760
my personality. But as a person I felt so yes,

565
00:36:05.920 --> 00:36:08.920
honesty is the best policies. But again, you can present

566
00:36:09.079 --> 00:36:12.280
honesty in a love and supportive way. So it's letting

567
00:36:12.360 --> 00:36:14.760
him know, Okay, a widow, we need to take a shower,

568
00:36:14.920 --> 00:36:17.360
a widow, you need to put these clothes on. You

569
00:36:17.519 --> 00:36:20.800
cannot wear these clothes every day all day. These are

570
00:36:20.880 --> 00:36:24.519
only going out clothes. Then you know, let's do a

571
00:36:24.679 --> 00:36:28.039
sign to remind you, you know, let's take a shower

572
00:36:28.119 --> 00:36:31.519
every day. You know, like because it's not totally his fault.

573
00:36:31.639 --> 00:36:33.119
But when you come up to him and you just

574
00:36:33.199 --> 00:36:36.079
say to him, because I'm not taking you out smelling

575
00:36:36.199 --> 00:36:38.519
like his or shit or you know, any of that

576
00:36:38.599 --> 00:36:41.920
kind of stuff. Yeah, but it's like, do you think

577
00:36:42.000 --> 00:36:44.880
this person, I mean, he's not really aware. But at

578
00:36:44.920 --> 00:36:47.360
the same time, do you think this person is not

579
00:36:47.960 --> 00:36:52.519
keenly aware that he can smell it too. He's just helpless.

580
00:36:53.000 --> 00:36:55.679
He has no way of getting these things done. So

581
00:36:55.719 --> 00:36:57.599
if we're gonna step in, why are we going to

582
00:36:57.679 --> 00:37:01.480
step in with the world of love and then make

583
00:37:01.559 --> 00:37:08.239
them feel less thence by saying certain things like that

584
00:37:08.559 --> 00:37:10.719
doesn't make sense to me as a person, as a

585
00:37:10.840 --> 00:37:13.360
human being. I'm not gonna come and tell you, I'm

586
00:37:13.400 --> 00:37:16.119
gonna help you, I'm gonna care for you, I'm gonna

587
00:37:16.159 --> 00:37:20.920
support you, and then sit there and call you stupid, idiotic, lazy.

588
00:37:22.719 --> 00:37:25.760
You know that you smell, you know, like shit and

589
00:37:26.199 --> 00:37:28.760
stuff like that, Like I'm gonna let them know you

590
00:37:28.840 --> 00:37:32.719
don't smell you know, clean, you know, do you need

591
00:37:32.880 --> 00:37:35.360
asking them? Do you need help taking a shop? Do

592
00:37:35.440 --> 00:37:37.440
you need help rushing your tea? Do you even know

593
00:37:37.559 --> 00:37:40.760
how to do that? You know, like find out what

594
00:37:40.880 --> 00:37:43.440
it is they do know. Don't make assumptions you know

595
00:37:43.920 --> 00:37:47.480
you can, Like I think I'm a pretty transparent type person.

596
00:37:47.920 --> 00:37:50.760
When there's a problem. You can't fix a problem unless

597
00:37:50.800 --> 00:37:52.559
I let you know. So I'm gonna let you know,

598
00:37:53.000 --> 00:37:55.239
and I'm not gonna do it in front of other people.

599
00:37:57.920 --> 00:38:00.360
Maybe the other people know who knows, But if I'm

600
00:38:00.400 --> 00:38:04.119
coming to to help you out and say, listen, you know,

601
00:38:04.920 --> 00:38:07.119
I you know, this is the way things are. I

602
00:38:07.599 --> 00:38:10.920
watched his post twice today. It's like went to laundro

603
00:38:11.000 --> 00:38:13.719
Matt and did heavy duty through everything in it. And

604
00:38:13.920 --> 00:38:19.119
even after that, it's still like it's if you almost

605
00:38:19.159 --> 00:38:22.920
want to throw this stuff away. But I imagine, especially

606
00:38:22.960 --> 00:38:25.920
for an older person that's already got to feel pretty

607
00:38:26.039 --> 00:38:31.599
crap to know that you're losing your faculties. Yeah, it's

608
00:38:31.679 --> 00:38:34.559
it's it's how you're honestly with the information.

609
00:38:36.320 --> 00:38:37.320
Excuse me, I have a question.

610
00:38:37.440 --> 00:38:41.119
So, but your family member knowing that you know, he's

611
00:38:41.639 --> 00:38:47.920
you know, like Alzheimer's, I mean, yeah, but he knew,

612
00:38:48.039 --> 00:38:52.679
he knows what's going on because because about it, Like I.

613
00:38:52.719 --> 00:38:55.599
Told you, I can and that's Florida. I'm from New Jersey.

614
00:38:55.679 --> 00:39:00.400
Everybody else lives here, so they already know this doing this.

615
00:39:00.599 --> 00:39:04.000
And I'm just gonna say something because I have experience

616
00:39:04.159 --> 00:39:09.360
with this, and I'm gonna say this, but people who

617
00:39:09.400 --> 00:39:12.960
are close to family members who have Alzheimer's are in

618
00:39:13.119 --> 00:39:17.400
huge denial. Oh yes, and they have a very hard

619
00:39:17.519 --> 00:39:23.079
time understanding and processing what is going on. When a

620
00:39:23.159 --> 00:39:27.599
person has Alzheimer's, they are not knowing what the fuck

621
00:39:27.800 --> 00:39:31.559
is going on half the time exactly. They need someone

622
00:39:31.719 --> 00:39:34.840
there to guide them. You can't just leave a note

623
00:39:35.039 --> 00:39:38.079
and expect them. You can't leave clothes and expect them

624
00:39:38.119 --> 00:39:41.760
to know. You can't just tell them and expect them

625
00:39:41.800 --> 00:39:44.639
to know. No, you have to do it, like that's the.

626
00:39:45.719 --> 00:39:51.559
Daily participation in their routine, because but they don't remember

627
00:39:51.639 --> 00:39:58.880
from one second to the next. It's any repeating to them.

628
00:39:59.360 --> 00:40:02.440
I mean, and tell you how many times my grandmother

629
00:40:03.360 --> 00:40:06.559
sat at the table and asked me who I was

630
00:40:08.280 --> 00:40:12.559
and and and again. It's like I just keep repeating

631
00:40:12.599 --> 00:40:15.880
it because I know that that's what she needs. Yes, saying,

632
00:40:16.119 --> 00:40:18.679
is that your daughter? I'm like, yes, that's my daughter,

633
00:40:18.960 --> 00:40:21.199
and she asked five minutes later, is that your sister?

634
00:40:21.760 --> 00:40:21.880
You know?

635
00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:25.960
Because but that's just the disease, right. People get so

636
00:40:26.280 --> 00:40:31.079
frustrated with that they make assumptions that, oh no, that's

637
00:40:31.199 --> 00:40:33.280
just who they are, that's where they've been their whole lives.

638
00:40:34.599 --> 00:40:39.559
It may be therefore, but this disease takes their lives

639
00:40:39.800 --> 00:40:44.039
and shreds it and millions of pieces. They don't know

640
00:40:44.119 --> 00:40:47.679
if they're coming or going. And I literally saw my

641
00:40:47.760 --> 00:40:51.360
grandfather look at my family member today because he was

642
00:40:51.480 --> 00:40:55.960
being asked questions by a business and in order to

643
00:40:56.119 --> 00:40:58.719
do the business, he has to be the one that

644
00:40:58.800 --> 00:41:03.199
answers the questions. Oh God, however, he doesn't have those answers.

645
00:41:03.519 --> 00:41:07.760
He can't remember his last name, leting known some of

646
00:41:07.840 --> 00:41:11.000
his other information, and so he's looking at my other

647
00:41:11.079 --> 00:41:14.360
family members like what is the answer? He looked so

648
00:41:15.320 --> 00:41:20.039
hopeless and so helpless. I wanted to cry. In the business,

649
00:41:20.360 --> 00:41:22.119
I was like, I can't believe this.

650
00:41:22.960 --> 00:41:25.480
Does somebody have power of attorney in that situation?

651
00:41:26.719 --> 00:41:29.840
Huh? That's part of the issue that all these people

652
00:41:29.840 --> 00:41:32.519
who aren't doing anything for him don't want power over

653
00:41:32.679 --> 00:41:38.800
his resources. And for me, that is a very scary thought.

654
00:41:39.960 --> 00:41:43.119
And I'm trying to stop myself from doing what I do,

655
00:41:43.719 --> 00:41:49.360
which is taking over taking responsibility, but knowing, oh well

656
00:41:49.440 --> 00:41:52.840
that I live in a whole nother state and I

657
00:41:52.960 --> 00:41:56.239
don't want to put anyone in a situation where I

658
00:41:56.400 --> 00:41:57.199
can't be able to.

659
00:41:57.280 --> 00:42:02.199
Follow through it right right, completely understand, And I'll tell you,

660
00:42:02.480 --> 00:42:06.039
I tell you right, I don't. I don't know that.

661
00:42:06.199 --> 00:42:12.199
That's rough because power of attorney, taking over power of

662
00:42:12.239 --> 00:42:14.960
attorney and then trying to to be in one state

663
00:42:15.039 --> 00:42:16.000
when you have when you're.

664
00:42:15.880 --> 00:42:21.440
Completely that's a that's.

665
00:42:20.960 --> 00:42:23.199
A there's a tough situation.

666
00:42:23.360 --> 00:42:28.079
So long so I have the power of attorney, she

667
00:42:28.840 --> 00:42:34.639
basically does he have a will? Yeah, so this becomes

668
00:42:34.679 --> 00:42:43.039
a bigger issue. He doesn't have mental capacity, so the

669
00:42:43.599 --> 00:42:49.920
state might appoint the state as his power of attorney.

670
00:42:50.239 --> 00:42:53.039
And that becomes a big problem and that that's.

671
00:42:52.880 --> 00:42:55.920
Going to really suck. But like what other options is

672
00:42:56.039 --> 00:42:58.199
that This is why you got to take care of ship,

673
00:42:58.840 --> 00:43:02.679
like when you can and when everything is up there

674
00:43:02.760 --> 00:43:07.360
and good, because once things go bad, they're not going

675
00:43:07.440 --> 00:43:10.760
to let you sign anything or anything like that because

676
00:43:10.800 --> 00:43:17.039
they're basically going to say, like this person is in common. Yeah,

677
00:43:17.239 --> 00:43:20.400
so yeah, that's a crazy situation.

678
00:43:20.679 --> 00:43:24.039
You're a crazy situation. Creaty, that is a crazy situation.

679
00:43:24.280 --> 00:43:29.880
So all right, So the next question is is being

680
00:43:30.039 --> 00:43:34.760
honest still possible today without being labeled toxic? Or is

681
00:43:34.840 --> 00:43:39.480
it honesty only or is honesty only acceptable when it's convenient?

682
00:43:41.159 --> 00:43:47.280
I agree with with both. Actually, it is possible. It

683
00:43:47.440 --> 00:43:50.760
is totally possible to still be honest in this day age.

684
00:43:52.760 --> 00:43:58.400
But also when someone labels you toxic for expressing what

685
00:43:58.599 --> 00:44:02.960
you feel is honest, that's that's more about them and

686
00:44:03.159 --> 00:44:08.559
what where their mind is that it doesn't use.

687
00:44:10.480 --> 00:44:13.519
What we have like an explosion like like like like

688
00:44:13.679 --> 00:44:16.280
like an explosion, because what she says deserves that explosion

689
00:44:16.519 --> 00:44:17.119
that boom.

690
00:44:19.320 --> 00:44:22.800
No no, not not like you know, like the I

691
00:44:22.880 --> 00:44:30.679
don't have the like the congratulations well uh you know

692
00:44:30.719 --> 00:44:32.360
what we'll do for that one right now. But but

693
00:44:32.559 --> 00:44:34.719
but but you know what what she said, like you know,

694
00:44:34.840 --> 00:44:37.920
like that is the truth. You know, like there's no.

695
00:44:39.519 --> 00:44:42.000
Yeah, you know, like you don't know what there's no other.

696
00:44:41.880 --> 00:44:43.880
Way, there's there's no other way to even you know

697
00:44:43.880 --> 00:44:45.199
what I'm saying respond after that?

698
00:44:45.880 --> 00:44:49.800
Yeah, because because all right, So like I said, like

699
00:44:49.960 --> 00:44:53.960
like she said, is it possible to be to to

700
00:44:54.199 --> 00:44:57.719
to be honest without being able toxic? Or is honesty

701
00:44:57.960 --> 00:45:00.719
only acceptable when it's convene people?

702
00:45:01.760 --> 00:45:03.480
That is totally true.

703
00:45:04.159 --> 00:45:07.320
Honesty is only acceptable and it's convenient to people.

704
00:45:07.559 --> 00:45:10.559
It's because people will talk about being honest all day long,

705
00:45:10.679 --> 00:45:13.079
but then when you're honest with them, they can dish it,

706
00:45:13.400 --> 00:45:14.119
cannot take.

707
00:45:14.000 --> 00:45:17.920
It right, especially when it's about them. Yeah, people have

708
00:45:18.079 --> 00:45:21.119
a hard time accepting or being self aware about their

709
00:45:21.119 --> 00:45:21.559
own shit.

710
00:45:23.079 --> 00:45:25.920
And I think that's the bigger issue, is self awareness,

711
00:45:26.480 --> 00:45:31.760
self awareness, own your stuff right, and honesty is the

712
00:45:31.800 --> 00:45:35.519
best policy. Again, when you're honest with somebody, things can

713
00:45:35.840 --> 00:45:39.960
move forward. Okay, So there's an honest communication, I either

714
00:45:40.039 --> 00:45:43.800
decide to fix it not fix it. There's an honest communication.

715
00:45:44.280 --> 00:45:47.400
I can heal from that. I can heal from honesty.

716
00:45:47.599 --> 00:45:50.880
I can heal from the momentary pain. But if you

717
00:45:51.000 --> 00:45:54.960
continuously lie to someone, they're living in a false reality.

718
00:45:55.960 --> 00:45:58.239
So because go ahead, all right.

719
00:45:58.360 --> 00:46:02.239
So when it comes to brutal honesty, like when something

720
00:46:02.360 --> 00:46:05.599
is so serious that you have to be brutally honest

721
00:46:05.639 --> 00:46:10.880
with somebody, is it more a necessity or fear of

722
00:46:10.920 --> 00:46:12.320
an uncomfortable conversation.

723
00:46:13.679 --> 00:46:18.480
Oh, I think people really are afraid of honest, uncomfortable conversations.

724
00:46:19.239 --> 00:46:22.679
That's part of our issue as a society, in relationships,

725
00:46:23.079 --> 00:46:27.840
in families, in work, it's because people are too afraid

726
00:46:27.960 --> 00:46:32.800
to have the hard conversations because nobody wants to feel. Again,

727
00:46:32.880 --> 00:46:36.880
and COVID came at this time, and people were left

728
00:46:36.960 --> 00:46:41.119
and right losing their stuff because COVID forced people by

729
00:46:41.199 --> 00:46:43.719
shutting the world down. It forced people to deal with

730
00:46:43.840 --> 00:46:46.760
the realities and the truths that they have been running

731
00:46:46.840 --> 00:46:54.679
from for very long time. So they were ultimately terrified

732
00:46:55.159 --> 00:46:59.800
of having the real conversation of what really is going on.

733
00:47:00.840 --> 00:47:04.719
And again, as society, we have placed this stigma on

734
00:47:05.360 --> 00:47:11.039
needing help, having moments of weakness, being vulnerable. And so

735
00:47:11.199 --> 00:47:13.480
because we've moved away from that, we've come to the

736
00:47:13.639 --> 00:47:15.880
society where it's all or nothing. You know, I'm going

737
00:47:15.960 --> 00:47:18.559
to tell you like it is my way and be

738
00:47:18.840 --> 00:47:21.679
nasty is all get out, or I'm just going to

739
00:47:21.800 --> 00:47:25.320
hide the truth from you and sugarcoat it and not

740
00:47:25.559 --> 00:47:28.760
really let you know what the issue is because people

741
00:47:28.880 --> 00:47:31.360
don't want to feel, you know what.

742
00:47:32.199 --> 00:47:34.079
On top of that, you know, like the way don't

743
00:47:34.119 --> 00:47:35.960
see the way things are is like this, right, there's

744
00:47:36.000 --> 00:47:36.440
always a.

745
00:47:37.960 --> 00:47:39.199
Like lies, lies.

746
00:47:39.239 --> 00:47:41.719
They're always well dressed, but they're always being chased by

747
00:47:41.719 --> 00:47:43.400
the naked truth, if you know what I mean.

748
00:47:43.920 --> 00:47:45.519
You know, like people don't like the naked truth. You know,

749
00:47:45.559 --> 00:47:47.119
they like they love a well dressed line.

750
00:47:47.280 --> 00:47:49.000
A lot of people don't like the naked truth, bro.

751
00:47:49.360 --> 00:47:51.239
They just love they just love a well dressed line.

752
00:47:51.719 --> 00:47:54.440
Right, and let me tell you my naked truth is

753
00:47:54.800 --> 00:47:57.679
the truth all day long. It hangs its SAgs, but

754
00:47:57.800 --> 00:47:58.519
it's mine.

755
00:47:59.239 --> 00:48:05.039
Fear of quessions, of the honest conversation. Yeah.

756
00:48:06.280 --> 00:48:08.920
And and another thing too, is like you know, like

757
00:48:09.000 --> 00:48:11.119
you said before, you know, like during COVID, like you know,

758
00:48:11.199 --> 00:48:12.599
it forced us a lot of things, you know, like

759
00:48:13.159 --> 00:48:15.400
like you know what it also forced you know, like

760
00:48:15.599 --> 00:48:18.639
it forced a lot of people you know, probably didn't

761
00:48:18.679 --> 00:48:22.119
realize it, but we're either chasing something or running away

762
00:48:22.119 --> 00:48:26.440
from something, you know. So it's like, you know, COVID

763
00:48:26.519 --> 00:48:28.719
like put everything to a stop. So whatever we were

764
00:48:28.760 --> 00:48:30.480
running away from caught up.

765
00:48:32.039 --> 00:48:38.960
You know. So yeah, you know, like that's when you know,

766
00:48:39.039 --> 00:48:40.960
like you have to like face the truth about a

767
00:48:41.000 --> 00:48:41.480
lot of things.

768
00:48:42.199 --> 00:48:44.039
Yeah, you find out a lot about yourself when you're

769
00:48:44.039 --> 00:48:47.320
in isolation, you know, things that you didn't want to

770
00:48:47.360 --> 00:48:51.880
know about yourself, you know, like and that's why, like

771
00:48:51.960 --> 00:48:57.559
you know, liquor stores are open because I mean, like,

772
00:48:58.039 --> 00:48:59.880
like you know what me personally during that time, like

773
00:49:01.079 --> 00:49:02.480
like there was a lot of things I saw about

774
00:49:02.480 --> 00:49:05.599
myself I didn't I didn't like, So I mean, thank

775
00:49:05.639 --> 00:49:07.199
God for the liquor stores, you know, like because I

776
00:49:07.280 --> 00:49:10.920
wasn't ready to accept accept you know what it was

777
00:49:11.039 --> 00:49:15.639
at the time. So you know, I drank my way

778
00:49:15.639 --> 00:49:19.559
out of it. And then turn you know, during that

779
00:49:19.599 --> 00:49:25.000
whole time, well exactly, you know what, you know what,

780
00:49:26.239 --> 00:49:27.440
I delayed the inevitable.

781
00:49:28.239 --> 00:49:31.599
In Myra got a big point. She said, COVID might

782
00:49:31.719 --> 00:49:34.760
put a stop. She got it in caps to a

783
00:49:34.800 --> 00:49:38.239
lot of things. And I know I know exactly what

784
00:49:38.400 --> 00:49:38.840
that means.

785
00:49:39.880 --> 00:49:42.360
You know, it sure did, and like and like, you

786
00:49:42.440 --> 00:49:46.320
know what, like I delayed the inevitable, right, you know,

787
00:49:46.440 --> 00:49:49.480
like like it forced like during that time, it forced

788
00:49:49.519 --> 00:49:51.840
a lot of people to you know, look in the mirror,

789
00:49:52.199 --> 00:49:54.119
look in the mirror when when even when they didn't

790
00:49:54.119 --> 00:49:57.159
want to, you know, so like that, so you know what,

791
00:49:57.280 --> 00:49:59.679
if you asked me my opinion, that's the reason why

792
00:49:59.679 --> 00:50:03.559
I that, you know, the you know, like the mental

793
00:50:03.599 --> 00:50:05.559
health you know, the mental health hotline must have been

794
00:50:05.639 --> 00:50:06.920
ringing off the hook because you know what, a lot

795
00:50:06.960 --> 00:50:10.199
of people started realizing things about themselves. I'm not exempting,

796
00:50:10.519 --> 00:50:12.400
I'm talking about myself, but I'm pretty sure a lot

797
00:50:12.440 --> 00:50:13.920
of people you know went through the same thing too.

798
00:50:14.599 --> 00:50:17.679
Yeah. But the thing is, the thing is too. The

799
00:50:17.760 --> 00:50:20.760
thing is too is that at what at what point

800
00:50:20.880 --> 00:50:26.280
did accountability become a threat instead of a tool for growth?

801
00:50:27.159 --> 00:50:27.960
You know what I'm saying, Like.

802
00:50:30.480 --> 00:50:37.920
People feel guilty exactly when people realize that there's a

803
00:50:38.000 --> 00:50:43.159
consequence to our behaviors, right, nobody, See, everybody wants to

804
00:50:43.599 --> 00:50:47.519
talk about keeping it real, but nobody actually wants to

805
00:50:47.599 --> 00:50:51.000
deal with the consequences of keeping it real. Because see,

806
00:50:51.039 --> 00:50:54.039
when you ask for something, people don't understand when you

807
00:50:54.159 --> 00:50:56.880
ask for something and then you receive it, why are

808
00:50:56.920 --> 00:51:00.280
you not ready to receive everything that comes with it? Right?

809
00:51:00.440 --> 00:51:02.920
So you want a real one, You want to ride

810
00:51:03.039 --> 00:51:05.440
or die, you want all of these things, but you

811
00:51:05.519 --> 00:51:14.079
know what comes with that, responsibility, expectations, truth, Honestly, the

812
00:51:14.239 --> 00:51:18.119
ugly you know, the ugly hair and rollers when you're

813
00:51:18.199 --> 00:51:21.760
not outside, you know, like when you're asking for something

814
00:51:21.760 --> 00:51:24.960
to be ready to take what comes with that. People

815
00:51:25.079 --> 00:51:28.239
want strong strong women, strong men. Well you know what

816
00:51:28.320 --> 00:51:30.559
comes with that, an attitude.

817
00:51:31.760 --> 00:51:34.920
In other words, when you pray for rain. Yeah yeah, yeah,

818
00:51:35.000 --> 00:51:36.320
basically a lot of people be praying.

819
00:51:38.519 --> 00:51:40.320
Yeah you know, not only that, you know what I'm saying,

820
00:51:41.000 --> 00:51:44.159
a lot of people pray for rain, right and all

821
00:51:44.239 --> 00:51:45.599
they see is like all the flowers that go to

822
00:51:45.679 --> 00:51:47.199
bloom and this that and the third like you know,

823
00:51:47.360 --> 00:51:50.199
but they're but you know what I'm saying, they forget

824
00:51:50.280 --> 00:51:51.639
that there's mud behind.

825
00:51:51.400 --> 00:51:56.960
That right now exactly, you know what I'm saying.

826
00:51:57.360 --> 00:51:58.840
So in other words, you know what I'm saying, you

827
00:51:58.920 --> 00:52:00.599
pray for rain, you got to deal with the mud too.

828
00:52:01.360 --> 00:52:03.760
Yeah, you know, And like I was.

829
00:52:06.679 --> 00:52:10.280
Listen, man, you know what, I became a grandfather and

830
00:52:10.400 --> 00:52:14.800
you growing up, and I've always been grown like like

831
00:52:15.199 --> 00:52:16.360
like look, you know what, I come over here to

832
00:52:16.400 --> 00:52:18.559
run my mouth. I'll come here to run my mouth, right,

833
00:52:18.760 --> 00:52:20.039
you know what I'm saying. But like I do this,

834
00:52:20.239 --> 00:52:22.400
you know what I'm saying. I just I just put

835
00:52:22.440 --> 00:52:24.400
on the show. But but like in all reality, like

836
00:52:24.880 --> 00:52:26.599
like you know, like I look at things like so

837
00:52:26.840 --> 00:52:28.320
you know, like I always looked at things a lot

838
00:52:28.400 --> 00:52:31.239
differently now, especially like you know, like I had to

839
00:52:31.480 --> 00:52:33.960
I had to go through it to grow through it,

840
00:52:34.039 --> 00:52:35.639
you know, like I had to like you know, like.

841
00:52:35.719 --> 00:52:40.840
Go through it to grow through it. Yeah, well done.

842
00:52:43.559 --> 00:52:46.840
But but but but specifically though like like you know, like.

843
00:52:48.480 --> 00:52:50.239
Like like like a lot of people out here they

844
00:52:50.320 --> 00:52:52.239
still praying for rain, expect them flowers, but like they

845
00:52:52.360 --> 00:52:53.320
never want to deal with the month.

846
00:52:53.360 --> 00:52:57.119
They don't want to get dirty, you know, like you know,

847
00:52:57.199 --> 00:53:00.280
like you don't have to get dirty, so do so?

848
00:53:00.480 --> 00:53:03.679
Do we avoid the truth because we care or because

849
00:53:03.719 --> 00:53:06.679
we don't want to deal with the consequences because we

850
00:53:06.760 --> 00:53:07.360
don't want.

851
00:53:07.199 --> 00:53:12.079
To deal with the consequence. We don't want to. They

852
00:53:12.119 --> 00:53:14.000
don't want the feelings that come along.

853
00:53:16.760 --> 00:53:24.119
Remember, you can't handle That's why that's why you said you.

854
00:53:26.079 --> 00:53:28.400
Yep, yeah, listen, you know what. You know what I'm saying,

855
00:53:28.440 --> 00:53:30.320
Like everybody always be like yo, the truth and truth

856
00:53:30.400 --> 00:53:32.519
is a good place to start. But can you handle that?

857
00:53:32.840 --> 00:53:33.360
You know what I'm saying?

858
00:53:33.440 --> 00:53:34.880
Right? Yeah?

859
00:53:35.280 --> 00:53:37.559
Something, you know what, there's there's some truths about.

860
00:53:37.360 --> 00:53:40.480
Me that I can't handle me speaking right now, you

861
00:53:40.559 --> 00:53:43.360
know what I'm saying because I'm not ready to handle.

862
00:53:43.199 --> 00:53:46.920
That yet you see what I'm saying, Like, like I

863
00:53:47.800 --> 00:53:50.199
switch yourself exactly. You know what I'm saying. Do I

864
00:53:50.239 --> 00:53:50.960
admit that it's there?

865
00:53:51.079 --> 00:53:51.280
Yes?

866
00:53:51.519 --> 00:53:52.119
You know what I'm saying.

867
00:53:52.239 --> 00:53:53.960
Am I ready to accept that as a truth? I'm

868
00:53:54.039 --> 00:53:56.760
somewhat ready for it. But you know what I'm saying, Like,

869
00:53:57.679 --> 00:53:58.599
am I prepared for it?

870
00:54:00.159 --> 00:54:00.480
Not yet?

871
00:54:00.960 --> 00:54:04.400
But it's getting there, you know, like it's getting there.

872
00:54:04.440 --> 00:54:06.719
But other than that, I mean like a lot of

873
00:54:06.760 --> 00:54:09.519
people like you know, like like you know what, like

874
00:54:10.360 --> 00:54:11.440
they're they're all on this.

875
00:54:11.599 --> 00:54:11.719
Yo.

876
00:54:11.920 --> 00:54:14.400
You know, I'm a real one. I'll keep it, you know,

877
00:54:14.440 --> 00:54:16.679
I keep it real. Man, You better keep you know

878
00:54:16.719 --> 00:54:19.679
what I'm saying. Yeah, you barely keep it realistic to yourself.

879
00:54:19.800 --> 00:54:20.960
So how are you gonna keep it real with me?

880
00:54:22.280 --> 00:54:24.199
You can't be real with yourself? How you how you

881
00:54:24.320 --> 00:54:29.119
expect to be real with anybody else? So, you know what,

882
00:54:29.239 --> 00:54:31.440
it's so easy to call out someone's flaws and whatever,

883
00:54:32.880 --> 00:54:35.280
and you know what I'm saying, because like you're calling there,

884
00:54:35.360 --> 00:54:37.239
you know, you're calling out their nonsense, but you can't

885
00:54:37.239 --> 00:54:40.039
even call out yours. So like like, come on, man,

886
00:54:40.280 --> 00:54:42.440
you know what I'm saying, Like it's it's it's like,

887
00:54:42.480 --> 00:54:45.079
you know, like it's an oxy morron at that right,

888
00:54:45.760 --> 00:54:46.320
So and so.

889
00:54:46.440 --> 00:54:50.280
In relationships, is it worse to hurt someone with the

890
00:54:50.360 --> 00:54:55.360
truth or protect them with a lie? In relationships, you

891
00:54:55.519 --> 00:54:56.639
hurt me with the truth?

892
00:54:56.880 --> 00:55:00.400
All yeah, hell yeah, So I can tell you to

893
00:55:00.440 --> 00:55:03.199
get this step in now instead of killing you and

894
00:55:03.320 --> 00:55:04.559
catching the case leader.

895
00:55:05.760 --> 00:55:11.360
Said, clap yourself for that. One mm are we talking.

896
00:55:11.239 --> 00:55:12.079
Homicide here.

897
00:55:16.360 --> 00:55:16.920
On the grounds?

898
00:55:16.960 --> 00:55:28.119
And yo court? How you one two three four?

899
00:55:31.639 --> 00:55:34.400
So Myra says, protect with the lie hurts more?

900
00:55:37.199 --> 00:55:40.440
Yeah, again, because if you, even though you are trying

901
00:55:40.480 --> 00:55:44.360
to protect someone, when you tell them the lie, they

902
00:55:44.599 --> 00:55:49.840
continue a life of false security. They don't know that

903
00:55:49.960 --> 00:55:52.559
this thing is going on, or that this is happening,

904
00:55:52.800 --> 00:55:56.920
or that this thing about them. So you're actually hurting

905
00:55:57.000 --> 00:55:59.360
them in the long run because they're going to continue

906
00:55:59.480 --> 00:56:02.599
to live in this way thinking that this whatever it

907
00:56:02.800 --> 00:56:06.960
is is okay. So you're gonna hurt them even more

908
00:56:07.079 --> 00:56:10.599
in the long run if you don't so.

909
00:56:11.039 --> 00:56:15.239
Right now with the truth, absolutely, especially if you find

910
00:56:15.400 --> 00:56:22.760
out instead of being told yes that's what that's worse.

911
00:56:23.559 --> 00:56:26.880
But can real growth happen without this comfort or do

912
00:56:27.000 --> 00:56:28.760
you have to or miss.

913
00:56:28.760 --> 00:56:31.760
Or or have people people have to be able to

914
00:56:32.840 --> 00:56:36.679
accept it. They have to be able to accept that

915
00:56:36.880 --> 00:56:40.119
this is going to hurt for manual or.

916
00:56:40.639 --> 00:56:43.480
Or or has or has peace been mistaken for avoidance?

917
00:56:44.440 --> 00:56:44.559
Oh?

918
00:56:44.639 --> 00:56:50.320
Yes? People think these comes from not having any kind

919
00:56:50.400 --> 00:56:55.360
of uh like pushback, right, you know. They think peace

920
00:56:55.480 --> 00:56:58.679
means we don't fight at all, we don't disagree at all.

921
00:56:58.960 --> 00:57:03.480
No, that is you know what you said something before

922
00:57:03.559 --> 00:57:06.800
about you know, like something about like you know, like

923
00:57:07.159 --> 00:57:11.360
cold because something I think could could growth be avoided

924
00:57:11.400 --> 00:57:12.440
without pain something like that.

925
00:57:12.599 --> 00:57:17.519
Right, that's what you said before? Who you yeah, like

926
00:57:17.639 --> 00:57:21.920
right before you know the peace part like that point right?

927
00:57:22.440 --> 00:57:22.639
Yeah?

928
00:57:22.800 --> 00:57:25.400
All right, all right, you know what you know what

929
00:57:27.559 --> 00:57:30.679
I mean, like the football players get good without practicing

930
00:57:31.159 --> 00:57:33.760
and going you know, going through going through you know,

931
00:57:33.880 --> 00:57:38.480
like you know, like them two days you know, doing

932
00:57:38.559 --> 00:57:42.719
Oklahoma drills, right, you know, like did did a sniper

933
00:57:42.800 --> 00:57:44.320
get good just by you know what I'm saying, Hey,

934
00:57:44.360 --> 00:57:45.639
I got a gun, I'm just gonna be in the

935
00:57:45.679 --> 00:57:48.360
tree and just shoot off. No, you know what I'm saying, Yo, Yo,

936
00:57:48.440 --> 00:57:51.480
you know what everything everything was practiced, everything was pain

937
00:57:51.960 --> 00:57:54.440
all right, So people, I would rather be pain like

938
00:57:54.519 --> 00:57:57.440
that came before that you know like bodybuildings, you know what,

939
00:57:57.599 --> 00:57:59.400
like if I want to go you know, like like

940
00:57:59.639 --> 00:58:01.840
you know, like tone up, you know, I go hit

941
00:58:01.880 --> 00:58:03.000
the gym. You know what I'm saying, Like I'm not

942
00:58:03.079 --> 00:58:04.400
expecting to do it. You know what I'm saying, like

943
00:58:04.840 --> 00:58:07.239
like right there without without no type of pain everything.

944
00:58:07.280 --> 00:58:09.199
You know what, There's always gonna be pain of bold.

945
00:58:09.880 --> 00:58:11.440
You know what I'm saying, There's always gonna be pain

946
00:58:11.519 --> 00:58:13.320
of boll for something that you want, like you know,

947
00:58:13.440 --> 00:58:16.719
like you gotta go through it. No, you gotta run

948
00:58:16.760 --> 00:58:17.960
through the golden you know what I'm saying, Like you

949
00:58:18.079 --> 00:58:19.920
just can't. You just can't be like, yeah, I'm just

950
00:58:19.960 --> 00:58:22.199
gonna tiptoe around my way. No, man, you gotta run

951
00:58:22.239 --> 00:58:22.480
through that.

952
00:58:23.280 --> 00:58:26.559
So you know, at every which way right, Absolutely, You're

953
00:58:26.559 --> 00:58:29.400
absolutely right, Jennifer says, I'd rather be told the truth

954
00:58:29.519 --> 00:58:32.800
than made a mockery in front of others. Of course,

955
00:58:34.000 --> 00:58:39.400
since when or since when I'm in a relationship, the

956
00:58:39.519 --> 00:58:42.280
first thing I tell my partner is if you're gonna

957
00:58:42.320 --> 00:58:45.440
step out on me, tell me, because I don't want

958
00:58:45.519 --> 00:58:48.719
everybody else in the room knowing what I don't. That

959
00:58:48.880 --> 00:58:51.000
makes sense to me, making you a fool of your

960
00:58:51.039 --> 00:58:57.519
partner because they don't know the truth is very damaging truth.

961
00:58:57.559 --> 00:59:01.280
It's like everybody else knows and then laughing, yeah.

962
00:59:01.280 --> 00:59:02.280
Tak gonna laugh at you.

963
00:59:03.679 --> 00:59:06.079
My question is who has the energy to even do

964
00:59:06.199 --> 00:59:06.840
that nowadays?

965
00:59:07.280 --> 00:59:07.880
Don't believe me?

966
00:59:08.239 --> 00:59:11.719
A lot of people they like, look, you know what,

967
00:59:12.320 --> 00:59:14.639
you were young ones got back to like you weren't

968
00:59:14.679 --> 00:59:22.679
a fool nowadays, Like nowadays, all generations, the younger generations

969
00:59:22.719 --> 00:59:25.519
are gonna do the same shit. It's a constant thing

970
00:59:25.599 --> 00:59:28.599
that's always gonna happen. You're always gonna have people and

971
00:59:28.719 --> 00:59:32.039
regardless of age, there are just people who are fucking denial,

972
00:59:32.280 --> 00:59:34.960
like being that way, like you know, like there are

973
00:59:35.000 --> 00:59:37.199
people out there who you know what, like you don't

974
00:59:37.280 --> 00:59:38.800
care you know.

975
00:59:38.840 --> 00:59:42.679
What, look, you know what, like back when you know

976
00:59:42.719 --> 00:59:44.800
what I'm saying, like like let's just say, you know, twenty,

977
00:59:45.559 --> 00:59:48.039
let's push it even thirty years ago, right, you know,

978
00:59:48.199 --> 00:59:50.159
for us to even do that, we could have you know,

979
00:59:50.320 --> 00:59:52.199
we can like we got it off a lot, you

980
00:59:52.239 --> 00:59:53.599
know what I'm saying, A lot smooth if you want

981
00:59:53.599 --> 00:59:56.119
to why because none of this was no social media,

982
00:59:56.199 --> 01:00:00.480
no nothing, right you know now just like it's like

983
01:00:00.559 --> 01:00:03.360
you know, like nah man you know what I'm saying.

984
01:00:03.639 --> 01:00:05.559
All right, So so how much? So how much of

985
01:00:05.719 --> 01:00:10.719
the the healing culture is actually avoiding responsibility?

986
01:00:12.719 --> 01:00:14.360
I'd say, what do you mean.

987
01:00:15.760 --> 01:00:16.800
If you're healing, you're healing?

988
01:00:17.559 --> 01:00:21.480
Yeah, but a lot. So all right, So are we raising?

989
01:00:22.320 --> 01:00:25.280
Pretty much saying are we raising emotionally strong people or

990
01:00:25.360 --> 01:00:26.639
emotionally fragile ones?

991
01:00:27.199 --> 01:00:27.800
It depends.

992
01:00:32.480 --> 01:00:33.519
It depends not what there is.

993
01:00:33.599 --> 01:00:38.039
I mean, remember it cycles. Everything's a cycle if you're

994
01:00:38.079 --> 01:00:40.719
gonna break it. So if you're gonna teach your kids

995
01:00:40.760 --> 01:00:43.440
the same shit that you learn, then it's going to

996
01:00:43.519 --> 01:00:45.960
be a continual thing. So if you want people to

997
01:00:46.039 --> 01:00:48.880
be accountable and step up, then you have to teach that,

998
01:00:49.039 --> 01:00:51.480
you have to show that. But if you're gonna be

999
01:00:51.760 --> 01:00:54.639
in denial and not be accountable and just go with

1000
01:00:54.719 --> 01:00:58.480
the flow, then you know, And if you're gonna get

1001
01:00:58.559 --> 01:01:01.480
mad when people would try to put you in your

1002
01:01:01.519 --> 01:01:05.239
place or something like that, that's again that's a you problem,

1003
01:01:05.480 --> 01:01:09.400
because like you're you're the one that has the issue,

1004
01:01:10.239 --> 01:01:11.159
not the other way around.

1005
01:01:11.840 --> 01:01:14.800
Yes, some people choose avoidance to keep their peace. They

1006
01:01:14.880 --> 01:01:16.800
would rather not have a conversation.

1007
01:01:17.679 --> 01:01:21.480
Yeah, people don't like confrontation, and younger generations because of

1008
01:01:21.519 --> 01:01:26.280
the fucking phone and social media, face to face confrontation,

1009
01:01:26.280 --> 01:01:29.159
oh forget it. Like I don't know if you guys

1010
01:01:29.280 --> 01:01:31.559
go to stores and shit like that and see people,

1011
01:01:31.760 --> 01:01:35.000
but if you ever just sit back and just watch

1012
01:01:35.880 --> 01:01:40.239
how certain people, certain ages interact or do things, it's interesting.

1013
01:01:40.400 --> 01:01:41.000
It's just like.

1014
01:01:42.639 --> 01:01:45.400
I can't tell you how many times I've unfortunately gone

1015
01:01:45.400 --> 01:01:49.360
to the grocery store and like they don't know how

1016
01:01:49.400 --> 01:01:52.559
to do basic math, like if you give them more

1017
01:01:52.679 --> 01:01:56.519
change or whatever, if the computer doesn't tell them what

1018
01:01:56.679 --> 01:02:00.400
it is like And I'm just like, bro, like we

1019
01:02:00.519 --> 01:02:03.679
were never remember when they told us that we wouldn't

1020
01:02:03.679 --> 01:02:06.280
have calculators in our pockets and ship like that and

1021
01:02:06.360 --> 01:02:09.039
all this other stuff. But now we have the internet

1022
01:02:09.519 --> 01:02:11.280
and everything in our pocket.

1023
01:02:11.559 --> 01:02:14.159
Showing the showing our age. You know.

1024
01:02:14.400 --> 01:02:17.440
Yeah, you might as well say, hey, remember we used

1025
01:02:17.440 --> 01:02:23.400
to wheel in the TV with the vcry.

1026
01:02:25.000 --> 01:02:27.440
Remember when we were sitting at home watching TV. You

1027
01:02:27.519 --> 01:02:30.360
go upstairs, somebody broke into your house, like everything but

1028
01:02:30.519 --> 01:02:32.880
the TV. They couldn't lift it up.

1029
01:02:37.840 --> 01:02:39.719
Oh how about this one?

1030
01:02:39.800 --> 01:02:41.280
How about this one? Remember?

1031
01:02:41.320 --> 01:02:42.599
But it was like you know what I'm saying, like

1032
01:02:42.679 --> 01:02:44.960
six inches on the ground in that morning and your

1033
01:02:45.000 --> 01:02:47.360
parents still send you to school because the school and

1034
01:02:47.519 --> 01:02:54.280
oh yeah, because like you know what, by the time

1035
01:02:54.320 --> 01:02:56.719
you got out, it was it was like twelve inches

1036
01:02:56.760 --> 01:02:58.440
on the ground or whatever, and it was at twelve o'clock.

1037
01:02:58.960 --> 01:03:01.159
Yeah, you know after the rest of the school days.

1038
01:03:01.400 --> 01:03:04.400
Nowadays, you know, like snow days, they call out ahead

1039
01:03:04.400 --> 01:03:07.079
of time, yes, state of emergency everything.

1040
01:03:07.280 --> 01:03:09.440
No, now they just do sh it online. They don't.

1041
01:03:10.440 --> 01:03:11.679
They do it online school.

1042
01:03:12.199 --> 01:03:15.320
So so myras said, in this age, they are too sensitive.

1043
01:03:15.679 --> 01:03:19.239
Then she comes back and says, who still has an atari?

1044
01:03:20.119 --> 01:03:23.440
Oh my god, No, okay, now you really need.

1045
01:03:28.079 --> 01:03:34.639
What are we talking about? Twenty six hundred vision? How

1046
01:03:34.639 --> 01:03:35.199
about that one?

1047
01:03:35.840 --> 01:03:40.280
Yeah? All right, So now at this point, at this point,

1048
01:03:40.320 --> 01:03:42.519
what I want to do is I want to get

1049
01:03:43.639 --> 01:03:46.880
the people watching. I want to get them, and they've

1050
01:03:46.920 --> 01:03:49.320
been involved the whole time, but I want to pose

1051
01:03:49.360 --> 01:03:53.239
a question to them and see if if they're honest

1052
01:03:54.239 --> 01:03:57.119
about what was going on with them. So to the

1053
01:03:57.239 --> 01:04:00.920
fans listening and watching, if you want to answer this,

1054
01:04:01.079 --> 01:04:02.760
you can. If you don't, you don't have to, but

1055
01:04:02.960 --> 01:04:05.400
just tell us you're gonna you're gonna plead the fifth

1056
01:04:06.519 --> 01:04:11.159
But what yeah, don't do that what truth have you

1057
01:04:11.280 --> 01:04:17.840
avoided saying because you knew it would change everything? I'm

1058
01:04:17.840 --> 01:04:19.880
gonna start I'm gonna go around the room here, but

1059
01:04:20.079 --> 01:04:22.039
I want I want you guys in the chat room

1060
01:04:22.480 --> 01:04:25.800
to to answer as well. So I'm gonna start off

1061
01:04:25.880 --> 01:04:29.679
with doves, what truth have you avoided saying because you

1062
01:04:29.800 --> 01:04:33.639
knew it would change everything? What to me?

1063
01:04:34.119 --> 01:04:36.679
The truth about the truth about me, the truth.

1064
01:04:36.480 --> 01:04:38.719
About what any to someone, to anyone.

1065
01:04:38.840 --> 01:04:43.440
Yeah, you know, you know, I don't mind you know

1066
01:04:43.440 --> 01:04:45.239
what I'm saying, like putting anything out there, because I

1067
01:04:45.280 --> 01:04:47.159
really don't care what people think, right.

1068
01:04:47.480 --> 01:04:47.559
So.

1069
01:04:50.679 --> 01:04:51.679
You have a clearous throat.

1070
01:04:52.239 --> 01:04:53.280
Yeah, yeah, yeah, you know what?

1071
01:04:53.360 --> 01:04:55.800
It was my alcoholism, you know, like I thought, you know,

1072
01:04:55.920 --> 01:04:57.920
like you know, like I would joke around and be

1073
01:04:58.039 --> 01:05:01.719
like I'll be like, yeah, you know, you know what

1074
01:05:01.760 --> 01:05:04.199
I'm saying, Like I'm not I'm not an alcoholic, you

1075
01:05:04.239 --> 01:05:07.920
know what I'm saying, you know, like because like because

1076
01:05:07.960 --> 01:05:09.559
like I would lie to say I don't drink every day.

1077
01:05:09.599 --> 01:05:12.960
That's the definition of an alcoholic, right, I'll drink on

1078
01:05:13.000 --> 01:05:13.519
the weekends.

1079
01:05:14.079 --> 01:05:16.079
But the amount I used to drink on the weekends

1080
01:05:16.199 --> 01:05:19.079
was like for fourteen days, for like two weeks, like

1081
01:05:19.199 --> 01:05:21.679
it was bottles after bottles and coleon you see me,

1082
01:05:21.840 --> 01:05:23.639
like you know what I'm saying, like take down, you

1083
01:05:23.679 --> 01:05:26.280
know what I'm saying, fifth after fifth and be like, yo,

1084
01:05:26.320 --> 01:05:27.320
I want another one.

1085
01:05:27.559 --> 01:05:31.360
Right, you know, so like doctor and Tito's exactly and.

1086
01:05:32.360 --> 01:05:34.559
What and and yo, you know what and that open

1087
01:05:34.639 --> 01:05:36.800
doors to other things? You know what I'm saying, like

1088
01:05:37.119 --> 01:05:37.440
hold on.

1089
01:05:37.519 --> 01:05:42.400
Really and you know already says she's boun out of

1090
01:05:42.480 --> 01:05:42.920
this question.

1091
01:05:45.559 --> 01:05:47.840
I mean, you know, like.

1092
01:05:51.199 --> 01:05:53.079
Yo, you know it was me and my alcoholism and

1093
01:05:53.320 --> 01:05:55.119
you know what I'm saying, open doors and substance abuse.

1094
01:05:55.199 --> 01:05:57.480
And I didn't want to you know, I thought, you

1095
01:05:57.519 --> 01:05:58.880
know what I'm saying, like I'm like, I'm just gonna

1096
01:05:58.920 --> 01:06:00.440
party and this that and the third as if that

1097
01:06:00.519 --> 01:06:03.280
you know what I'm saying, like I didn't have a problem.

1098
01:06:03.360 --> 01:06:04.320
And then I have to look deeper.

1099
01:06:04.320 --> 01:06:06.199
I'm like, yo, you know what is your past trauma

1100
01:06:06.360 --> 01:06:09.000
is the reason why they can do this stuff too, right,

1101
01:06:09.079 --> 01:06:10.679
you know, so I have to dig deeper and deeper.

1102
01:06:10.679 --> 01:06:12.039
And you know, like it was like the truth.

1103
01:06:11.880 --> 01:06:18.880
About you know, unfinished business with my past that I

1104
01:06:18.960 --> 01:06:21.679
didn't want to deal with because like it was like

1105
01:06:21.800 --> 01:06:23.559
you know, like it was so traumatizing, you know. So

1106
01:06:25.639 --> 01:06:28.880
once you know, like I got to that part, then

1107
01:06:28.920 --> 01:06:31.039
I realized I was like, yo, you know what, I

1108
01:06:31.119 --> 01:06:34.119
got to heal somehow, some ways. So I mean, I

1109
01:06:34.159 --> 01:06:37.960
stopped drinking. I'm still healing still, you know what I'm saying,

1110
01:06:38.000 --> 01:06:40.440
because like you just don't be like, yeah, I'm healed

1111
01:06:40.440 --> 01:06:40.920
and that's good.

1112
01:06:41.039 --> 01:06:41.760
No, you know what I'm saying.

1113
01:06:41.920 --> 01:06:45.119
I stopped drinking. I'm still healed, and I'm an alcoholic.

1114
01:06:45.159 --> 01:06:46.400
I will always be an alcoholic.

1115
01:06:47.440 --> 01:06:47.599
You know.

1116
01:06:48.159 --> 01:06:50.280
I haven't drink it almost close to five years.

1117
01:06:50.360 --> 01:06:54.159
But still though, I treat myself that way because like

1118
01:06:55.440 --> 01:07:00.079
I don't want to take a sip and then and

1119
01:07:00.159 --> 01:07:02.679
then like something something in me be like yo, you

1120
01:07:02.760 --> 01:07:04.920
know what, Oh yo, it's.

1121
01:07:04.800 --> 01:07:07.599
Just Wine's good because that's how things start.

1122
01:07:08.599 --> 01:07:10.679
It's just wine. The next thing, you know, it's a beer.

1123
01:07:10.920 --> 01:07:13.320
The next thing you know it, I'm drinking the fifth

1124
01:07:13.360 --> 01:07:15.679
of Hennessy, you know what I'm saying. And the next thing,

1125
01:07:15.719 --> 01:07:17.960
you know, I'm doing something stupid. I'm gonna lose my family,

1126
01:07:18.000 --> 01:07:21.800
I'm gonna lose everything. So I'm like, you know what

1127
01:07:21.800 --> 01:07:24.199
I'm saying, Like it's that part I don't want to

1128
01:07:24.280 --> 01:07:27.199
lose nothing, no more, because I already lost a lot. Right,

1129
01:07:27.239 --> 01:07:29.760
what I'm saying do to me drinking, And I didn't

1130
01:07:29.800 --> 01:07:33.280
notice it until I look back right now, So I thought,

1131
01:07:33.280 --> 01:07:34.559
you know what I'm saying, I'm in a good spot.

1132
01:07:34.800 --> 01:07:35.760
Why should I mess it up?

1133
01:07:36.559 --> 01:07:36.719
Right?

1134
01:07:37.320 --> 01:07:37.639
You're right?

1135
01:07:37.719 --> 01:07:40.039
Yeah, that's that's that's not true.

1136
01:07:44.119 --> 01:07:46.840
I think what I would say is, I don't trust you.

1137
01:07:48.679 --> 01:07:53.119
I'm sorry what I don't trust you for me?

1138
01:07:54.039 --> 01:07:54.079
No?

1139
01:07:55.199 --> 01:08:01.920
Not you what true? What you avoid saying because you

1140
01:08:02.000 --> 01:08:03.159
knew it would change everything?

1141
01:08:04.559 --> 01:08:08.400
And so if I told someone that I don't trust them,

1142
01:08:09.639 --> 01:08:10.719
it would change everything.

1143
01:08:17.119 --> 01:08:19.399
Or or you know what if you know what, if

1144
01:08:19.399 --> 01:08:24.760
they're interested, if they're interested in you, right, they would

1145
01:08:24.760 --> 01:08:25.439
be like, all right.

1146
01:08:25.840 --> 01:08:26.600
Now I want.

1147
01:08:28.640 --> 01:08:30.479
There has nothing to do with that. Dogs, she's just

1148
01:08:31.279 --> 01:08:32.239
all right, all right, you know what?

1149
01:08:32.359 --> 01:08:33.399
You know what my fault, my fault.

1150
01:08:34.840 --> 01:08:40.039
Ain't nobody interested. And I'm okay with that, not that

1151
01:08:40.199 --> 01:08:43.920
you know. Well, if they don't tell me that, it

1152
01:08:44.000 --> 01:08:47.399
ain't worth it. All about the truth.

1153
01:08:48.840 --> 01:08:57.319
Dougs. We can't hear you now, m h dougs, we

1154
01:08:57.359 --> 01:08:58.359
can't hear you. Dogs.

1155
01:09:01.840 --> 01:09:03.800
Something happened. He mustn't knocked something out.

1156
01:09:10.840 --> 01:09:23.800
I don't know something happened, all right. I don't know

1157
01:09:23.800 --> 01:09:27.199
what happened up and something happened to your mic, all right,

1158
01:09:27.239 --> 01:09:28.720
so TG go ahead.

1159
01:09:29.880 --> 01:09:36.000
M the truth. If I told the truth about some

1160
01:09:36.119 --> 01:09:38.720
things that have happened to me that I think that

1161
01:09:38.880 --> 01:09:44.880
would change a lot for some people. So sharing my story,

1162
01:09:45.560 --> 01:09:47.520
but y'all ain't gonna get any of it. It'll be

1163
01:09:47.600 --> 01:09:49.800
in my book and you'll wait and you can read

1164
01:09:49.800 --> 01:09:50.119
about that.

1165
01:09:53.960 --> 01:09:54.760
Oh shit.

1166
01:09:55.880 --> 01:09:59.720
So I ain't given those spoilers. But if you're wanting out,

1167
01:10:02.399 --> 01:10:03.119
that's where it will be.

1168
01:10:04.279 --> 01:10:05.399
I can't hear nobody.

1169
01:10:07.119 --> 01:10:07.800
Hear you now.

1170
01:10:10.560 --> 01:10:12.840
Technical I'm telling.

1171
01:10:12.680 --> 01:10:15.720
You, hey, all right, here's what happened.

1172
01:10:15.800 --> 01:10:19.520
Right. What happened was car was on.

1173
01:10:20.640 --> 01:10:22.359
My car was on to shut off, right, and then

1174
01:10:22.439 --> 01:10:23.800
like you know the Bluetooth all that stuff, you know

1175
01:10:23.800 --> 01:10:27.800
how that Bluetooth stuff and yeah, you know, so like

1176
01:10:28.239 --> 01:10:31.600
I was trying to get back on my headphones and yeah,

1177
01:10:31.760 --> 01:10:34.079
whatever it is, it is, all right, So all right.

1178
01:10:34.000 --> 01:10:37.920
So my I guess it's my turn. Yeah, it's my turn.

1179
01:10:41.000 --> 01:10:45.840
The question was all right, So there are there are

1180
01:10:46.000 --> 01:10:55.000
things that if I, if I spoke out loud, would

1181
01:10:55.079 --> 01:11:07.960
definitely definitely change a shipload of ship. I mean, what.

1182
01:11:09.680 --> 01:11:11.880
I said secrets.

1183
01:11:12.840 --> 01:11:13.119
I have.

1184
01:11:14.279 --> 01:11:16.000
I'm gonna be. I'm gonna be. I'm gonna be straight

1185
01:11:16.079 --> 01:11:21.399
up like I have. I have bones in my closet,

1186
01:11:21.520 --> 01:11:22.279
you know what I'm saying.

1187
01:11:22.359 --> 01:11:27.600
And Jesus, I mean, you're past, aren't you.

1188
01:11:28.359 --> 01:11:31.560
Yeah, I'm definitely from the past. You know. I gotta

1189
01:11:32.119 --> 01:11:34.680
I got a fucking time machine in my bedroom. And Ship,

1190
01:11:34.840 --> 01:11:36.840
I go into the closet and I hit the buttons

1191
01:11:36.840 --> 01:11:38.640
and it sends me right back to where I'm from.

1192
01:11:39.800 --> 01:11:42.199
Sometimes I think I'm caught in the matrix and Ship,

1193
01:11:42.319 --> 01:11:44.399
I'm like, oh, my god, you know what I'm saying, Like,

1194
01:11:45.119 --> 01:11:51.760
where am I my? So I think I think if

1195
01:11:51.840 --> 01:11:56.720
I shared, depending on who I'm sharing with, you know,

1196
01:11:57.079 --> 01:12:00.680
it would it would sting, you know, because I'm worried

1197
01:12:00.680 --> 01:12:05.199
a lot about judgment. Mm hmmm, I worry a lot

1198
01:12:05.279 --> 01:12:12.079
about that, and it would it would hurt me. What

1199
01:12:12.279 --> 01:12:15.840
what what did Myra say? Maris said what Mara says,

1200
01:12:16.199 --> 01:12:20.239
spit it out? Oh, for some reason for something, you

1201
01:12:20.279 --> 01:12:22.239
want to hear something funny. You want to hear something funny.

1202
01:12:22.439 --> 01:12:25.039
I thought it said, spin on it.

1203
01:12:28.800 --> 01:12:29.439
I looked at it.

1204
01:12:29.520 --> 01:12:33.439
Really it out it just swallows.

1205
01:12:36.800 --> 01:12:41.760
You know what that was?

1206
01:12:44.479 --> 01:12:46.800
But but now. I looked at it real quick, and

1207
01:12:46.840 --> 01:12:48.119
I was like, what the fun does she say? And

1208
01:12:48.239 --> 01:12:58.119
it said, but yeah, so so anyway, anyway, so and

1209
01:12:58.279 --> 01:13:04.359
don't say but anyway, Like I was saying, like I'm afraid,

1210
01:13:04.399 --> 01:13:06.279
I'm afraid of judgment, you know what I'm saying, Like

1211
01:13:06.359 --> 01:13:08.680
that's the biggest thing with me, you know, you have

1212
01:13:09.039 --> 01:13:10.880
There's a lot of a lot of shit that I could.

1213
01:13:11.520 --> 01:13:14.760
I can really you know, lay on somebody and ship

1214
01:13:14.920 --> 01:13:19.840
and they would look at me and they'd either you know,

1215
01:13:21.000 --> 01:13:26.119
take what I said and stride and not be judgmental,

1216
01:13:27.039 --> 01:13:32.119
or or they or they can they can turn around

1217
01:13:32.199 --> 01:13:36.800
and be like, you know, fuck out of here. Get

1218
01:13:36.840 --> 01:13:38.760
the fuck is wrong with you? You know what I'm saying,

1219
01:13:38.880 --> 01:13:44.039
Like shit like that. So I try I avoid those

1220
01:13:44.119 --> 01:13:48.680
conversations about me and what I've done and what I've

1221
01:13:48.720 --> 01:13:54.039
been through and shit, because you know, they don't. I'm

1222
01:13:54.079 --> 01:13:57.279
afraid they won't understand, you know what I'm saying, Like

1223
01:13:57.359 --> 01:14:00.680
people understand and a lot of people won't, and but

1224
01:14:00.760 --> 01:14:04.479
there are people that would. But my biggest you miss.

1225
01:14:04.560 --> 01:14:09.960
Out on possibility, You miss out on knowing who's truly

1226
01:14:10.079 --> 01:14:13.800
there for you and who's not right when you hide that,

1227
01:14:14.359 --> 01:14:17.560
and you're not being real with yourself by you know,

1228
01:14:17.760 --> 01:14:22.119
not sharing with its somebody right now, because the truth is,

1229
01:14:22.239 --> 01:14:27.319
if somebody is gonna judge you or do whatever negative

1230
01:14:27.720 --> 01:14:29.840
because of what you have to share, and.

1231
01:14:29.920 --> 01:14:35.399
They're not for you in your life anyway, like you know,

1232
01:14:35.600 --> 01:14:39.560
like like you know how I am, you know, like

1233
01:14:39.680 --> 01:14:41.159
you especially you know how I am.

1234
01:14:41.560 --> 01:14:44.920
I say things without no regret no matter how bad

1235
01:14:44.960 --> 01:14:45.560
it makes me look.

1236
01:14:46.119 --> 01:14:48.199
I'm gonna say, you know what, if I could say

1237
01:14:48.239 --> 01:14:51.760
the truth about myself, you know, like you know, like

1238
01:14:52.000 --> 01:14:54.279
like you know, like like you know, like I don't

1239
01:14:54.279 --> 01:14:56.359
mind telling the truth about anybody else, you know what

1240
01:14:56.399 --> 01:14:59.239
I'm saying. And another thing too, another thing too, like

1241
01:15:00.439 --> 01:15:03.479
you also gotta look at it this way, right, who.

1242
01:15:03.359 --> 01:15:05.520
Are they to judge? You see?

1243
01:15:05.560 --> 01:15:07.399
I stopped caring about what people you know, thought about

1244
01:15:07.439 --> 01:15:09.920
me a long time ago, because you know what, like

1245
01:15:10.439 --> 01:15:12.520
you could walk that all I'm high and mighty stuff

1246
01:15:12.520 --> 01:15:14.560
in front of people. But you know what, just you

1247
01:15:14.640 --> 01:15:16.439
know what, you're just like me. You know what I'm saying,

1248
01:15:17.479 --> 01:15:18.680
just like me, you know what I'm saying, because that

1249
01:15:18.720 --> 01:15:23.079
you got flaws to everybody got flaws, you know, everybody.

1250
01:15:24.039 --> 01:15:27.920
People who did the houses stone.

1251
01:15:27.560 --> 01:15:29.199
Exactly, you know.

1252
01:15:29.399 --> 01:15:30.840
And if you're going to throw a stone, at least

1253
01:15:31.039 --> 01:15:32.520
at least show me what hand you through it with.

1254
01:15:33.640 --> 01:15:34.439
Don't hide your hand.

1255
01:15:37.359 --> 01:15:42.279
Yeah, yeah, judge you. Then they asked, so.

1256
01:15:42.359 --> 01:15:49.239
There, let me tell you something. I'm dope. Yeah, I

1257
01:15:49.279 --> 01:15:51.000
should not be. I should I should not be. Do

1258
01:15:51.880 --> 01:15:59.000
you listen to me? Listen to me. My nose has

1259
01:15:59.039 --> 01:16:02.680
not been running on like that stiff coke. Okay, that's

1260
01:16:02.720 --> 01:16:07.520
not it's allergies because you guys want to plant seeds

1261
01:16:07.880 --> 01:16:11.920
and grow flowers and now as fucking allergies. Okay, so

1262
01:16:12.079 --> 01:16:14.520
let's not fucking go there. It's not the coke. It's

1263
01:16:14.560 --> 01:16:17.319
not the coke. But anyway, but.

1264
01:16:17.800 --> 01:16:20.600
Your mustache is showing some white residues. I hope that's

1265
01:16:20.640 --> 01:16:21.000
great here.

1266
01:16:24.479 --> 01:16:27.800
Yeah, that's the salt and pepper. That's all my that's all.

1267
01:16:28.199 --> 01:16:29.279
That's all my wisdoms.

1268
01:16:30.680 --> 01:16:31.880
Not everybody can get that.

1269
01:16:32.720 --> 01:16:35.199
So so that's what we call it it now, salt.

1270
01:16:38.079 --> 01:16:39.560
That's that's a that's a new word for it, now,

1271
01:16:39.640 --> 01:16:40.119
salt what.

1272
01:16:41.960 --> 01:16:42.000
So?

1273
01:16:42.359 --> 01:16:47.159
Oh yeah, that's sugar anymore.

1274
01:16:47.279 --> 01:17:00.199
It's yeah, but you know, I I just I yes,

1275
01:17:00.319 --> 01:17:03.760
that's just my thing, you know, I am. That's that's

1276
01:17:03.800 --> 01:17:04.680
that's my biggest thing.

1277
01:17:05.039 --> 01:17:06.760
That's understandable, you know.

1278
01:17:06.960 --> 01:17:14.439
But now I'm starting, I'm starting to learn that you

1279
01:17:14.640 --> 01:17:18.880
can't have both honesty and comfort at the same time.

1280
01:17:20.840 --> 01:17:24.000
You know, you have to be able to to to

1281
01:17:24.159 --> 01:17:29.119
speak your truth and be uncomfortable. You know what I'm

1282
01:17:29.119 --> 01:17:40.000
saying for so long, right, it's not the coke people,

1283
01:17:40.039 --> 01:17:41.159
it's not the cold cold.

1284
01:17:42.000 --> 01:17:47.600
My lord, that's the whole, that's the This might hurt, yes,

1285
01:17:48.520 --> 01:17:50.000
this might hurt. The truth.

1286
01:17:53.920 --> 01:17:54.560
You know, and.

1287
01:17:56.159 --> 01:17:59.159
I guess, I guess this is this What what this

1288
01:17:59.359 --> 01:18:04.640
is donna do right now is you're gonna do around

1289
01:18:04.720 --> 01:18:09.960
around Robin real quick with with with the closing question, right.

1290
01:18:13.520 --> 01:18:13.560
What?

1291
01:18:13.840 --> 01:18:18.319
All right? So here we go. Let's let's focus for

1292
01:18:18.359 --> 01:18:21.920
a second. Everybody, get your thinking caps on, all right,

1293
01:18:23.640 --> 01:18:27.520
What's and this this goes out to the chat room. Also,

1294
01:18:29.560 --> 01:18:33.560
what's one truth you had to accept that hurt but

1295
01:18:33.840 --> 01:18:38.119
made you better. I'm gonna start off with Dubbs because

1296
01:18:38.159 --> 01:18:38.800
he's on a roll.

1297
01:18:40.600 --> 01:18:41.960
The one truth that I had to accept?

1298
01:18:42.359 --> 01:18:42.399
What?

1299
01:18:42.560 --> 01:18:42.600
What?

1300
01:18:42.800 --> 01:18:45.439
What one truth you had to accept that made you better?

1301
01:18:46.399 --> 01:18:48.880
That I'm the toxic one, that I'm that I'm the

1302
01:18:48.960 --> 01:18:50.279
expact of all my problems.

1303
01:18:51.279 --> 01:18:51.479
Wow.

1304
01:18:51.680 --> 01:18:54.479
Back then, that, you know what that you know, like

1305
01:18:55.680 --> 01:18:58.359
it's like that Spider Man meme, I'm here pointing at

1306
01:18:58.439 --> 01:19:01.079
him and him is that that's It's like Scooby Doo,

1307
01:19:01.119 --> 01:19:03.600
you know, like let's see who the monster is. You know,

1308
01:19:03.760 --> 01:19:05.960
like pulling off the mask has been me all along,

1309
01:19:07.560 --> 01:19:10.439
you know, So I had to accept that, you know,

1310
01:19:10.840 --> 01:19:12.279
you know what. I had to accept that, you know,

1311
01:19:12.439 --> 01:19:16.039
like I was more like you know, I had more

1312
01:19:16.079 --> 01:19:19.079
of a hand and why the relationship between my daughter's

1313
01:19:19.119 --> 01:19:20.119
mom and I is.

1314
01:19:20.199 --> 01:19:20.880
What it is now.

1315
01:19:21.800 --> 01:19:23.840
You know, I had to accept that. I had to accept,

1316
01:19:24.039 --> 01:19:25.600
you know, like I had to accept that, you know

1317
01:19:25.680 --> 01:19:30.399
what is my reaction that me being too prideful you know,

1318
01:19:30.640 --> 01:19:35.640
like shut down a lot of friendships and relationships, you know,

1319
01:19:35.720 --> 01:19:37.880
like like you know, like it was me, you know,

1320
01:19:38.039 --> 01:19:40.800
like it wasn't you know, well now you know they

1321
01:19:40.920 --> 01:19:42.600
did this, So I reacted to that, you know, like no,

1322
01:19:42.760 --> 01:19:44.760
you know what I had, like I have more control

1323
01:19:44.840 --> 01:19:48.359
over that situation, and yet you know, me being prideful,

1324
01:19:48.720 --> 01:19:51.720
you know, decided to you know, like you know, like

1325
01:19:51.800 --> 01:19:53.439
go to other route. I had to accept that I

1326
01:19:53.560 --> 01:19:57.439
was a toxic wort and everything, you know, you know,

1327
01:19:57.520 --> 01:19:59.800
like it's like doing algebra, the X is the answer.

1328
01:20:00.039 --> 01:20:04.600
The X was me, you know, so you drop the

1329
01:20:04.680 --> 01:20:05.439
mic on that one.

1330
01:20:05.520 --> 01:20:06.279
Good, you know, like you.

1331
01:20:08.399 --> 01:20:09.560
Know what I'm saying, like like like yo, you know

1332
01:20:09.600 --> 01:20:12.079
what I have to fall back and and like you know,

1333
01:20:12.720 --> 01:20:15.159
really re evaluate, you know, like you know what I'm

1334
01:20:15.159 --> 01:20:17.079
saying my position as a man and where I stand,

1335
01:20:17.920 --> 01:20:21.239
you know, and you know, like really like you know,

1336
01:20:21.439 --> 01:20:22.159
like like.

1337
01:20:23.680 --> 01:20:26.000
Try to rehabilitate my toxic ways.

1338
01:20:26.239 --> 01:20:28.399
I'm still you know, I'm still trying to rehabilitate it, man,

1339
01:20:28.439 --> 01:20:31.600
because like it just don't happen overnight, you know, like

1340
01:20:31.720 --> 01:20:33.199
it you know, like it's a you know, like you

1341
01:20:33.279 --> 01:20:36.359
gotta it's it's constant broke. Like you know what, there's

1342
01:20:36.399 --> 01:20:38.800
certain things about me that still come out, you know,

1343
01:20:38.880 --> 01:20:42.680
like my reaction to certain things. You know where I'm

1344
01:20:42.760 --> 01:20:43.880
where I have to be Like yo, you know what

1345
01:20:45.680 --> 01:20:50.840
now if I react this way, right, I know there's

1346
01:20:50.840 --> 01:20:52.600
gonna be a negative feedback. And I you know, am

1347
01:20:52.640 --> 01:20:54.560
I willing to deal with negativity at this point?

1348
01:20:55.279 --> 01:20:55.319
No?

1349
01:20:55.399 --> 01:20:59.479
I'm not, you know, So let me calm you know,

1350
01:20:59.560 --> 01:21:01.159
let me you know, like let me calm down and

1351
01:21:01.239 --> 01:21:04.760
go another route with you know, like it's been me

1352
01:21:04.840 --> 01:21:08.479
all along you know like that, you know, like like

1353
01:21:08.520 --> 01:21:10.359
you know what I can't. It's like pointing the finger

1354
01:21:10.359 --> 01:21:13.479
in the mirror. It's your fall when you're actually point

1355
01:21:13.520 --> 01:21:14.920
in the mirror. You know what I'm saying, the fingers,

1356
01:21:15.039 --> 01:21:16.119
the reflections.

1357
01:21:15.680 --> 01:21:16.199
Going back to you.

1358
01:21:17.520 --> 01:21:19.319
So it was me.

1359
01:21:20.119 --> 01:21:20.640
Did it hurt?

1360
01:21:20.840 --> 01:21:21.359
Yeah? It hurt?

1361
01:21:21.399 --> 01:21:22.920
You know what I'm saying, because I was responsible for

1362
01:21:22.960 --> 01:21:26.960
a lot of things, right, you know, like but you know,

1363
01:21:27.119 --> 01:21:30.640
like rather you know, like I see what it is

1364
01:21:30.760 --> 01:21:35.439
now then you know, like walking around with a block

1365
01:21:35.479 --> 01:21:38.159
fold like you know, like be Steven wonder to my situation.

1366
01:21:41.399 --> 01:21:45.920
Well yeah, all right, so myras says betrayal from my partner,

1367
01:21:46.600 --> 01:21:49.720
knowing I don't need to have a partner. Yes, it's

1368
01:21:49.760 --> 01:21:51.560
great to be with someone, but we don't need a

1369
01:21:51.640 --> 01:21:57.399
partner to be happy. She's right, you know, yep. And

1370
01:21:57.560 --> 01:22:02.960
then Jennifer says, it's the best example of accountability. I

1371
01:22:03.119 --> 01:22:09.239
think I've ever heard. That was I guess that was? Yeah? Yeah, absolutely,

1372
01:22:09.680 --> 01:22:11.920
lady g my doctor.

1373
01:22:13.319 --> 01:22:14.640
She's about to school us on something.

1374
01:22:15.000 --> 01:22:17.000
Yeah. I know, she's laughing.

1375
01:22:18.479 --> 01:22:21.760
Because because it feels like a question I don't want

1376
01:22:21.800 --> 01:22:24.359
to answer. But ask me that question again.

1377
01:22:24.800 --> 01:22:28.279
All right. The question is what's one truth you had

1378
01:22:28.359 --> 01:22:38.680
to accept that hurt but made you better. I don't

1379
01:22:38.880 --> 01:22:41.000
love me.

1380
01:22:42.880 --> 01:22:44.800
I won't let anybody else love me either.

1381
01:22:45.399 --> 01:22:50.800
Yeah. Wow, boom.

1382
01:22:52.199 --> 01:23:01.399
Dropping bombs. Huh that's real. Wow, that's real.

1383
01:23:05.039 --> 01:23:05.239
Right.

1384
01:23:06.199 --> 01:23:09.439
And Also, I think another truth that I think I

1385
01:23:09.520 --> 01:23:12.880
have found hard to accept is the person that I

1386
01:23:12.960 --> 01:23:19.960
am the person what I love about myself. Unfortunately, it's

1387
01:23:20.039 --> 01:23:30.319
what people need, not what they do. Damn, I attract

1388
01:23:30.359 --> 01:23:35.039
the wrong people because I am what I am what

1389
01:23:35.199 --> 01:23:35.640
they need.

1390
01:23:36.720 --> 01:23:38.239
You're a healer, not what they want.

1391
01:23:38.560 --> 01:23:46.479
And unfortunately people find in me comfort, security support, So

1392
01:23:46.600 --> 01:23:49.439
that's what they need in their life, not what they

1393
01:23:49.520 --> 01:23:51.880
want in their life. So I tend to attract the

1394
01:23:52.039 --> 01:23:57.479
broken and emotionally unavailable. You're a healer, yeah, because I'm

1395
01:23:57.520 --> 01:24:03.079
a healer. Yeah, you know, so the people that attract

1396
01:24:03.199 --> 01:24:07.920
me to be healed. The problem with that is I'm

1397
01:24:08.000 --> 01:24:14.359
already ohold. So that's why I am what other people need, right,

1398
01:24:14.720 --> 01:24:19.159
because I've done work on myself. So I mean the

1399
01:24:19.359 --> 01:24:20.279
likelihood that I.

1400
01:24:23.399 --> 01:24:24.439
Could or will.

1401
01:24:24.399 --> 01:24:30.199
Find what I need its slim but not impossible.

1402
01:24:32.880 --> 01:24:41.720
H So that's that's hard to accept, right, Accepting that

1403
01:24:41.840 --> 01:24:45.720
the person I was with was not the person he said,

1404
01:24:45.800 --> 01:24:49.600
he was allowed me to recognize that I deserve better

1405
01:24:50.159 --> 01:24:53.359
and now see how much better it is on the

1406
01:24:53.439 --> 01:24:57.760
other side of it. That's from Courtney h.

1407
01:25:03.279 --> 01:25:05.720
The judge'll always stuck to the other truth that it hurts,

1408
01:25:05.800 --> 01:25:06.520
but it's true.

1409
01:25:08.239 --> 01:25:08.600
Mm hmm.

1410
01:25:10.520 --> 01:25:14.640
Well I learned this at a young age, unfortunately. But

1411
01:25:16.159 --> 01:25:21.399
family isn't always there to support you and protect you

1412
01:25:21.720 --> 01:25:24.279
and be there for you. And just because you are blood,

1413
01:25:25.159 --> 01:25:28.039
it doesn't necessarily mean that they have the best interest

1414
01:25:28.159 --> 01:25:33.800
for you or respect you. So I learned young to

1415
01:25:33.920 --> 01:25:38.880
have boundaries, and as I got older, I said a

1416
01:25:38.960 --> 01:25:42.640
part in a way from certain people in the family

1417
01:25:42.760 --> 01:25:45.279
because they were toxic and I didn't want to deal

1418
01:25:45.359 --> 01:25:51.520
with that anymore. Unfortunately, that's like the majority of my family.

1419
01:25:51.640 --> 01:25:53.960
But this is what it is.

1420
01:25:54.520 --> 01:25:58.560
So, you know, I learned as a child to forgive

1421
01:26:01.119 --> 01:26:04.479
and to take a lot of things, and that then

1422
01:26:05.159 --> 01:26:08.560
it was always men were just forgiven. That was a

1423
01:26:08.640 --> 01:26:13.640
cultural thing, and so I think, you know, that followed

1424
01:26:13.720 --> 01:26:18.960
me into adulthood with my relationships, and so it wasn't

1425
01:26:19.039 --> 01:26:22.319
until I got therapy for myself and figured out my

1426
01:26:22.479 --> 01:26:29.720
peace and my self worth to really see that. Then. Unfortunately,

1427
01:26:30.319 --> 01:26:32.640
you know, I was born into a family that sucked,

1428
01:26:33.760 --> 01:26:37.880
and they were not there for me the way that

1429
01:26:38.000 --> 01:26:39.159
I needed them to be there for.

1430
01:26:39.279 --> 01:26:41.239
Me, so.

1431
01:26:44.600 --> 01:26:47.760
Damn. And you know what sucks that when it comes

1432
01:26:47.800 --> 01:26:48.800
from family, it's.

1433
01:26:48.720 --> 01:26:51.720
Like, oh, it hurts even more because they're they're your blood.

1434
01:26:51.760 --> 01:26:55.640
They're supposed to love you unconditionally, you know, like it

1435
01:26:55.840 --> 01:27:01.159
just an automatic thing and even you know, but that

1436
01:27:01.600 --> 01:27:05.239
isn't necessarily always the case. I mean, they're shitty people.

1437
01:27:05.399 --> 01:27:08.079
Some of them can be your family members, like like

1438
01:27:08.319 --> 01:27:11.279
that's just how it works out, you know, Like I

1439
01:27:11.359 --> 01:27:14.880
have narcissistic people in my family. I have, you know,

1440
01:27:15.319 --> 01:27:20.600
like abusers, I have, uh, just a bunch of people

1441
01:27:20.720 --> 01:27:25.800
who also don't want to you know, accept that they

1442
01:27:26.840 --> 01:27:33.640
they're wrong when they're wrong. Pride, Yeah, a lot of pride.

1443
01:27:35.359 --> 01:27:36.479
That's that Spanish ship.

1444
01:27:37.479 --> 01:27:43.239
Yeah wait line, very prideful. Very Yeah.

1445
01:27:44.119 --> 01:27:45.680
I'm sorry you went through that, man, Like.

1446
01:27:46.479 --> 01:27:48.800
Oh my god, this is why I said you'll wait

1447
01:27:49.000 --> 01:27:50.840
when you read the book, you'll you.

1448
01:27:53.239 --> 01:27:55.680
And we're all getting autographed copies by the way.

1449
01:27:56.159 --> 01:28:00.720
Writing a book, you guys will. Yes, I I've been

1450
01:28:00.800 --> 01:28:04.760
writing a book for years now, so we'll see how

1451
01:28:05.199 --> 01:28:08.800
it goes. But but yes, I'm just waiting for my

1452
01:28:10.039 --> 01:28:13.720
laptop and then I have some things already written. I'm

1453
01:28:13.800 --> 01:28:17.159
just getting some stuff together. But but yeah, I think

1454
01:28:17.199 --> 01:28:19.720
it's important for people to share their stories, especially if

1455
01:28:19.720 --> 01:28:22.640
you've been through some shit and you've survived, and you know,

1456
01:28:22.760 --> 01:28:27.479
I think it helps other people. I you know, I

1457
01:28:27.560 --> 01:28:29.760
know my story is relatable and I's going to help

1458
01:28:29.960 --> 01:28:33.960
other women out there. So you know, I just hope

1459
01:28:34.039 --> 01:28:39.840
that people like we all have something to share, like,

1460
01:28:40.399 --> 01:28:43.039
you know, like our experiences and stuff we all learn,

1461
01:28:43.920 --> 01:28:47.239
and it's good when you share those things with other

1462
01:28:47.279 --> 01:28:49.680
people because you never know, like who you might help.

1463
01:28:50.039 --> 01:28:53.479
There's a lot of people struggling out there, right, so

1464
01:28:54.279 --> 01:28:56.560
it's good for them to know, like, oh shit, yeah,

1465
01:28:56.640 --> 01:28:59.319
like I'm going through that now. Like you know, like

1466
01:29:00.239 --> 01:29:02.560
we and we've talked, we've talked about these things like

1467
01:29:02.720 --> 01:29:05.680
mental health issues and stuff like that, but like these

1468
01:29:05.760 --> 01:29:08.560
are pertinent things that we got to continually talk about

1469
01:29:08.640 --> 01:29:15.640
because the climate of life is difficult. It's expensive to live,

1470
01:29:16.159 --> 01:29:21.199
Insurance is going up, you know, people are fearing their

1471
01:29:21.319 --> 01:29:22.239
lives going out.

1472
01:29:22.760 --> 01:29:24.560
Like we still have.

1473
01:29:24.680 --> 01:29:27.840
Issues with school shootings and mass shootings in general. This

1474
01:29:28.039 --> 01:29:30.640
is not something that's going to go away. We have to,

1475
01:29:32.319 --> 01:29:37.359
you know, like it's just crazy, Like we're living in

1476
01:29:37.399 --> 01:29:41.760
a crazy time. I can completely understand the heighten of

1477
01:29:41.920 --> 01:29:47.720
mental illness and the heightenedness of like people struggling because

1478
01:29:48.720 --> 01:29:52.439
it's almost nearly impossible for shiit. I know, I don't

1479
01:29:52.479 --> 01:29:55.079
know about everyone else, but when I go grocery shopping,

1480
01:29:55.560 --> 01:29:58.920
it's not cheap, and I'm like trying to stay on

1481
01:29:59.000 --> 01:30:02.279
a budget and do I can, and like it's hard.

1482
01:30:03.039 --> 01:30:04.920
I'm glad you mentioned grocery shopping. So I went a

1483
01:30:04.960 --> 01:30:10.560
Dollar General yesterday, two bags, seventy nine dollars. Oh my god,

1484
01:30:11.800 --> 01:30:15.960
seventy nine dollars. I spent seventy nine dollars on two

1485
01:30:16.239 --> 01:30:22.159
like Walmart sized bags. You know what I say at

1486
01:30:22.199 --> 01:30:24.760
the Dollar General. So imagine if I want to like shop,

1487
01:30:24.800 --> 01:30:25.279
write or.

1488
01:30:25.399 --> 01:30:29.279
Something, man like, yeah, I don't go groceries, you know what.

1489
01:30:29.319 --> 01:30:32.000
You're absolutely right, you know, like like you know, like

1490
01:30:32.119 --> 01:30:35.680
everything's going up, but you know, like the cost of

1491
01:30:35.720 --> 01:30:36.319
living went up.

1492
01:30:36.640 --> 01:30:37.720
But what we're.

1493
01:30:39.479 --> 01:30:43.520
Yeah, they won't raise the minimum wage. They won't raise wages.

1494
01:30:44.680 --> 01:30:47.520
Actually they from my understanding, they rose a minimum wage

1495
01:30:47.520 --> 01:30:48.720
over here. I don't know what.

1496
01:30:50.760 --> 01:30:56.640
And federally no, so like federal law is the one

1497
01:30:56.720 --> 01:31:00.479
that's the most important, and that is minimums is like

1498
01:31:00.600 --> 01:31:04.720
I think, still seven dollars in change, and then each

1499
01:31:04.880 --> 01:31:08.640
state is setting theirs. But not every state has that.

1500
01:31:10.319 --> 01:31:12.920
I think Jersey, New York and a few others are

1501
01:31:12.960 --> 01:31:18.119
pretty high. California probably, but but not everybody.

1502
01:31:19.520 --> 01:31:20.680
You know, like a couple of days.

1503
01:31:20.520 --> 01:31:23.800
Ago, Ye, Courtney G says her pay went down.

1504
01:31:25.039 --> 01:31:29.640
That's horrible. Yeah, wow, I think they said technically minimum

1505
01:31:29.760 --> 01:31:32.720
wage today, if it would have gone the way it

1506
01:31:32.800 --> 01:31:37.000
should with inflation, it should be twenty five dollars an

1507
01:31:37.039 --> 01:31:41.079
hour right now, right now is what minimum wag should be.

1508
01:31:42.039 --> 01:31:43.239
So think about.

1509
01:31:44.600 --> 01:31:49.319
Yeah, my dog, No, my dog, he's dreaming. My dog

1510
01:31:49.439 --> 01:31:49.880
is dreaming.

1511
01:31:50.000 --> 01:31:52.399
Oh I I heard like little whimpers.

1512
01:31:52.600 --> 01:31:54.800
Yeah, she's over there dreaming. She's bugging over there.

1513
01:31:54.880 --> 01:31:57.159
Oh my god. It's cute when they do them.

1514
01:31:57.359 --> 01:31:57.520
Yeah.

1515
01:31:57.640 --> 01:32:01.920
Yeah, she's like if she's chasing a bone or being chased.

1516
01:32:01.920 --> 01:32:03.199
I don't know who knows.

1517
01:32:05.399 --> 01:32:09.239
All right, So so real quick, I guess I'm gonna

1518
01:32:09.239 --> 01:32:12.880
answer the question now. Yes, if you had to accept

1519
01:32:13.000 --> 01:32:18.319
that hurt, but it made me better. Mm hmmm, Yeah,

1520
01:32:23.319 --> 01:32:29.279
I had I had to to really accept that not

1521
01:32:30.760 --> 01:32:41.840
everyone in your life you hear. I don't know if

1522
01:32:41.880 --> 01:32:42.640
I should wake her up.

1523
01:32:42.920 --> 01:32:44.279
No, you don't wake them.

1524
01:32:44.840 --> 01:32:50.800
No, it's sounds like she's crying.

1525
01:32:51.239 --> 01:32:54.479
I know she's treating. She's got ship going on. Let her,

1526
01:32:54.640 --> 01:32:55.079
let her do you.

1527
01:32:58.279 --> 01:33:00.000
I don't know why she would be stressed outcause she's.

1528
01:33:00.640 --> 01:33:02.800
Pay rent man, like yo, she got to pay rent too,

1529
01:33:03.000 --> 01:33:03.279
all right.

1530
01:33:03.520 --> 01:33:05.920
She could be thinking right now that you're not feeding

1531
01:33:05.960 --> 01:33:07.119
her on time. For all we know.

1532
01:33:09.800 --> 01:33:11.359
You know what she's probably dreaming about the times that

1533
01:33:11.439 --> 01:33:11.960
you go out.

1534
01:33:13.920 --> 01:33:16.000
Oh my god, he loves me, he left me, Oh

1535
01:33:16.119 --> 01:33:18.960
my god, yeah, oh my god. She watches me when

1536
01:33:19.000 --> 01:33:21.600
I get dressed. When I get out I dress, he's

1537
01:33:21.600 --> 01:33:24.279
sitting there like, bro, where are you going? Man? Like

1538
01:33:24.600 --> 01:33:27.159
you really gotta go? Like, at least I leave the

1539
01:33:27.199 --> 01:33:31.640
TV on for you. She watches Mork and Mindy La Brenon,

1540
01:33:31.680 --> 01:33:37.439
Shirley Happy Days and anyway. So hold on me, let

1541
01:33:37.439 --> 01:33:37.920
me all right.

1542
01:33:38.000 --> 01:33:39.760
So the one truth that.

1543
01:33:40.199 --> 01:33:47.159
The one truth that I've learned. I've learned that regardless

1544
01:33:47.239 --> 01:33:52.640
of how long you've known the person, regardless of how

1545
01:33:52.720 --> 01:33:59.439
long and how much time he's spent with someone, there's

1546
01:33:59.560 --> 01:34:13.119
always there's always something that will prevent that person from

1547
01:34:13.239 --> 01:34:18.800
being honest with you. I've I've been in I'm gonna

1548
01:34:18.800 --> 01:34:22.239
I'm gonna be straight up like I've been. I've been

1549
01:34:22.600 --> 01:34:30.640
in relationships, and despite how long we've been together or

1550
01:34:31.239 --> 01:34:37.880
or how much I think we get along, there's always

1551
01:34:39.399 --> 01:34:43.520
something that throws a wrench in it, that makes me

1552
01:34:43.680 --> 01:34:50.199
sit there and say, damn, you know, I have to

1553
01:34:50.279 --> 01:34:53.640
learn from this. I have to learn that not everybody

1554
01:34:54.560 --> 01:34:58.880
has my best interest at heart, you know, just knowing

1555
01:34:59.000 --> 01:35:01.960
that there are people are out there, probably in my

1556
01:35:02.079 --> 01:35:03.840
life right now. I'm not saying to you guys, I

1557
01:35:03.920 --> 01:35:06.479
know you guys love me. You know what I'm saying,

1558
01:35:11.560 --> 01:35:17.159
you know what? You know what just playing, just playing,

1559
01:35:17.239 --> 01:35:17.840
just playing.

1560
01:35:17.680 --> 01:35:24.359
Just okay, just knowing, just knowing that, oh what.

1561
01:35:24.439 --> 01:35:30.439
Did you do? Dubs? Just knowing that I've grown in

1562
01:35:30.600 --> 01:35:35.840
in the last four four years. That's gonna test to this.

1563
01:35:35.960 --> 01:35:39.359
I've learned in the last four years that it's okay.

1564
01:35:40.680 --> 01:35:43.439
People don't have to like me, you know what I'm saying.

1565
01:35:43.479 --> 01:35:46.279
People don't have to be down with me. You know,

1566
01:35:46.399 --> 01:35:50.680
I've I've learned that although the episode about loneliness kind

1567
01:35:50.720 --> 01:35:56.359
of got me, but although being alone sucks at times,

1568
01:35:57.560 --> 01:36:01.640
there are times when you know, I can sit here

1569
01:36:01.800 --> 01:36:06.000
and say I'm at peace. You know, I've built I've

1570
01:36:06.039 --> 01:36:10.159
built myself up, you know, although I do have some

1571
01:36:10.399 --> 01:36:14.199
things I'm dealing with, and I'll get to those things eventually,

1572
01:36:14.720 --> 01:36:17.520
you know, and deal with them. But what's made what's

1573
01:36:17.600 --> 01:36:22.600
made me better, is that I'm at peace with certain things.

1574
01:36:22.800 --> 01:36:28.159
I'm at peace with with who I am now when

1575
01:36:28.239 --> 01:36:30.640
I wasn't at some point at that point, you know

1576
01:36:30.640 --> 01:36:33.239
what I'm saying, Like, I can honestly sit here and

1577
01:36:33.359 --> 01:36:40.159
say that I'm prepared for what for what is to come.

1578
01:36:41.359 --> 01:36:43.840
You know what I'm saying. I'm ready, I'm better, I'm

1579
01:36:44.439 --> 01:36:47.520
I have I have some things in the work, some

1580
01:36:47.640 --> 01:36:54.039
things going on, and stuff that will prepare me even

1581
01:36:54.119 --> 01:36:58.640
more for what the world has to throw at me.

1582
01:36:59.399 --> 01:36:59.560
You know.

1583
01:36:59.680 --> 01:37:02.199
And if if I fail, what what what does Loas do?

1584
01:37:02.239 --> 01:37:04.640
Whenever the fuck he fails? He stands the fuck up,

1585
01:37:04.920 --> 01:37:08.119
brushes his shoulder off and fail the funk forward. I

1586
01:37:08.239 --> 01:37:10.800
take what I've learned from that failure, apply it, and

1587
01:37:10.960 --> 01:37:13.039
keep moving forward. You know what I'm saying, There's no

1588
01:37:13.119 --> 01:37:16.159
holding me back this time. I know what I gotta do.

1589
01:37:16.359 --> 01:37:18.239
I know what I gotta do. I just I just

1590
01:37:18.319 --> 01:37:21.319
got to open my mouth more and speak it into existence,

1591
01:37:21.399 --> 01:37:25.520
you know what I'm saying. And sometimes it takes some

1592
01:37:25.720 --> 01:37:28.760
time for me, but I'll get that part of my

1593
01:37:28.880 --> 01:37:31.319
life too, you know what I mean. It's not the

1594
01:37:31.439 --> 01:37:34.920
coke people, it's not the coke line, but.

1595
01:37:35.039 --> 01:37:36.520
You're right, it's absolutely the coke.

1596
01:37:38.560 --> 01:37:41.840
You know, he's actually doing lines right in front of us.

1597
01:37:42.119 --> 01:37:42.359
Yeah.

1598
01:37:45.159 --> 01:37:48.560
The figure he's like the tissue is actually.

1599
01:37:52.760 --> 01:37:54.079
He's us ship.

1600
01:37:58.079 --> 01:38:01.680
So you know, I know, I know, I know that

1601
01:38:01.800 --> 01:38:03.960
I'm I'm better today than I was then.

1602
01:38:04.640 --> 01:38:05.840
Awesome, you know, and.

1603
01:38:07.640 --> 01:38:11.199
I'm just I'm just glad that I have this, this

1604
01:38:11.399 --> 01:38:14.319
this this podcast helps me a shipload a shipload, you

1605
01:38:14.359 --> 01:38:16.319
know what I'm saying, because I use it. I use

1606
01:38:16.359 --> 01:38:18.159
it as an outlet so I'm able to speak my

1607
01:38:18.279 --> 01:38:21.880
mind out without speaking my mind. You know what I mean.

1608
01:38:22.760 --> 01:38:24.920
I learned. I learned from you guys, I learned from

1609
01:38:24.920 --> 01:38:26.720
the fans of the show. I learned from everything, and

1610
01:38:27.439 --> 01:38:30.119
I soak it all up, and you know, I I

1611
01:38:30.279 --> 01:38:33.680
do what I gotta do, you know. And you know,

1612
01:38:34.439 --> 01:38:40.439
if tonight, if tonight's episode may anybody feel uncomfortable, good,

1613
01:38:40.840 --> 01:38:44.960
I'm glad because you know what, growth don't come wrapped

1614
01:38:45.000 --> 01:38:45.560
and comfort.

1615
01:38:46.159 --> 01:38:48.039
Mm hmm, you know, so.

1616
01:38:49.880 --> 01:38:53.840
Bone, what are you doing? You got them looking for you?

1617
01:38:54.000 --> 01:38:56.359
Playing grand theft thought, oh bro running from the count.

1618
01:38:58.000 --> 01:39:00.479
Nah man, I have to stand up man after show.

1619
01:39:00.920 --> 01:39:02.640
Oh don't all right?

1620
01:39:02.720 --> 01:39:11.319
So all right, I'm trying to get away from your lord.

1621
01:39:11.399 --> 01:39:11.960
That's what it is.

1622
01:39:14.159 --> 01:39:18.000
You know, somebody, somebody's getting robbed.

1623
01:39:17.800 --> 01:39:22.319
Somewhere now now like not not even one like it

1624
01:39:22.399 --> 01:39:23.479
smelled like something's burning.

1625
01:39:23.840 --> 01:39:28.720
Obviously that's not nice. But anyway, like I said, if

1626
01:39:28.720 --> 01:39:30.960
tonight made anybody feel uncomfortable.

1627
01:39:30.439 --> 01:39:34.720
Good comfort that you know, we here the old your

1628
01:39:34.760 --> 01:39:35.640
hand God, damn it.

1629
01:39:35.760 --> 01:39:40.279
Yeah, we're not here to to sugarcoat ship. And I

1630
01:39:40.399 --> 01:39:44.000
want to I want to thank everybody that came into

1631
01:39:44.079 --> 01:39:47.119
the chat room. I want to thank everybody for for

1632
01:39:47.279 --> 01:39:50.840
joining us tonight. I want to thank my my, my, my, my,

1633
01:39:51.039 --> 01:39:53.439
my dope co host Simon Phoenix. Stuff is a dawn.

1634
01:39:53.800 --> 01:39:57.520
I want to thank They're beautiful, t g love the

1635
01:39:57.640 --> 01:40:02.039
outstanding beautiful. I don't thought that, lady gee. And I

1636
01:40:02.159 --> 01:40:06.079
want to thank myself for being myself, you know what

1637
01:40:06.119 --> 01:40:06.560
I'm saying.

1638
01:40:06.640 --> 01:40:09.960
And and and well hold on and shout out to

1639
01:40:10.000 --> 01:40:11.880
that Peru being broad that you were sniffing all night

1640
01:40:11.920 --> 01:40:15.199
because it got you like onesome philosophical ship shout out,

1641
01:40:15.439 --> 01:40:16.680
shout out to.

1642
01:40:16.680 --> 01:40:23.159
Your drug dealing. I see pop, I see you, I

1643
01:40:23.239 --> 01:40:24.680
see you because look at that.

1644
01:40:26.000 --> 01:40:29.800
Don't don't. Don't nobody go anywhere staying until I after.

1645
01:40:30.119 --> 01:40:33.960
Just don't go nowhere. And I want, like I said,

1646
01:40:34.000 --> 01:40:36.720
I want to thank everybody, thanks for coming in. Thanks

1647
01:40:36.760 --> 01:40:41.039
to all of you guys. I appreciate you. And next

1648
01:40:41.119 --> 01:40:48.359
episode will be the twenty eighth. I'll post it. Everything

1649
01:40:48.399 --> 01:40:51.039
will be cool, we'll you know, we'll get to it.

1650
01:40:53.119 --> 01:40:56.840
That stuff is down, that's steady G, that's TG love.

1651
01:40:58.399 --> 01:41:02.479
I'm big cloths to down, didn't they? And I always

1652
01:41:02.520 --> 01:41:09.039
remember that at some point, it's good night, everybody. Night