Tonight's The Night!! Need Advice!? We got you!!

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Hey, what's up everybody? What's
good? This is a big coldly on

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and this is this is my herd
podcast, and this right here, lady

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g what's good? What's good?
What's good? How are you? I'm

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wonderful. It has been a long
minute. Yeah, so how's everything been

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good? Wonderful? I'm awesome as
every day. That's good. That's good

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to hear, very good to hear. So I put out I put out,

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uh, kind can you can you
hear the like there's like a humming

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in the background. Nope, but
you don't hear nothing. You just hear

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me. That's good. That because
my ac is on. Its kind of

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hot to here. Yeah, it's
as hot as fucking yeah. So anyway

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in the middle of winter. All
right, I know it's crazy, but

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I put out an all points bulletin
on I'm on, some questions that and

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some advice. It's something I put
out the email I address and everything.

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We actually got, uh someone who
who's an avid fan of the show likes

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to show a lot and she really
appreciates what we discussed, what we talk

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about, our insights and stuff.
She wanted some advice on a very serious

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topic, and you were the first
one that came to mind when I read

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what she what she was, what
she's asking advice about, because your your

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insight and your your knowledge of stuff, you know, pretty much hit on

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point with this. So so this
we're gonna do. I'm gonna read it.

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I'm gonna read I'm gonna read it
to you, and then you're just

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gonna, you know, go for
it, go for it exactly. That's

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exactly it. And it looks like
it's just gonna be us two for now.

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But Dove is gonna show up a
little later if you done. Okay,

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But for now it's just us so
and then it'll be a real show,

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a real crazy word. So all
right, so, she says,

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I met my late husband in nineteen
ninety six. We got married in two

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thousand and three. The girl he
dated right before me was always a problem

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in our relationship. You know what
I gotta I'm gonna look old, but

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I gotta put these glasses on and
read this. Oh my goodness, Why

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is all right? That does not
make you look old? All right?

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All right? So all right,
So the girl he dated right before me

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was always a problem in our relationship. He cheated on me with her about

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two years into our relationship, and
then again in two thousand and nine until

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two twenty twenty. She ended up
getting pregnant from my husband, which resulted

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in a miscarriage. When I found
out about the affair in two thousand and

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nine, we stopped relations sex.
The reason he broke it off with her

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is because he found out he had
cancer and she didn't want to take care

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of him. At this time,
my husband and I were already separated from

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about for about two and a half
years. He calls me, tells me

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he needs help. He well,
though I'm jumping the lines here, the

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reason he broke it off with her
is because he found out he had cancer

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and she didn't want to take care
of him. At this time, my

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husband and I were already separated for
about two and a half years. He

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calls me, tells me he needs
me to help him get through his chemo

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treatments, his radiation treatments, and
his surgery. I felt bad because he

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didn't have anyone to help him,
so I went back to him and took

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care of him. He was in
good condition for about two years. Then

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in March twenty twenty three, he
was admitted to the hospital because the cancer

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progressed. Three weeks later, he
passed away. I am struggling and could

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use some advice or some opinions.
My late husband and I talked about me

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dating if he passed away, and
he said he would be okay with it,

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and he wanted me to do whatever
makes me happy. So mid July,

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I was on a dating app and
started talking to a guy that reached

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out to me. He's so perfect
that we hit it off from the first

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message. Things progressed with him and
we're still doing our thing. In the

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beginning of our relationship, I had
feelings of guilt. I felt like an

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ass, like I was doing something
wrong. I felt like I was cheating

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on my husband. I have al
right, I know the marriage was over

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when he passed. The last the
last time my late husband and I were

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intimate was April two thousand and nine. The guy and I made. The

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guy I met online makes me happy. I've never been this happy ever.

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I'm starting to fall in love with
him. Should I be feeling guilty or

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for moving on? Should I feel
like an ass? I don't know how

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to feel or what to do.
I want to be with this guy I

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met online for the rest of my
life. I want to be his ride

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or die. I want to make
the right choices so no one gets hurt.

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Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
All right, Yeah, well,

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first let me say guilt is not
a bad feeling. Just like sometimes when

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people pass away, some people are
afraid to to vocalize the fact that they

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may feel relief, right, and
then they feel bad for it. The

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thing is, as a wife,
you did what you could with the tools

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that you had. I don't think
now is a you know, like a

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reason to feel guilty because again,
even all that happened, you know she

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was still there, right, She
was there to the end. And the

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truth is you can love somebody and
help somebody and still not be together.

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And he's gone. You can't like
And I think we do feel that guilt,

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and we tend to hold ourselves off
from living or continuing to live a

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life because of past feelings. And
the truth is you have to move forward.

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It's not about moving on, so
to speak. But the feelings are

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normal and they're okay to have.
And nobody can tell you how to grieve,

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how long to grieve, what to
grieve, oh yeah, or what

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to grieve over? And so even
if you choose to move forward with this

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person, having those feelings of guilt
is okay. One because he was your

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husband and it was a commitment that
you made. But feel good knowing that

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you you did what you could and
did everything possible to help them, even

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after yeah, even after she was
hurt and betrayed, you know, she

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she took her vow for whatever reason. Seriously, right, Yeah, absolutely,

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yeah, And and uh, life
is meant to move forward, and

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it's o k to be happy with
someone else because we're we're not dead.

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The people are dead, right,
and and that's the natural order of things.

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All of us are, like,
none of us are getting out this

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life alive. But that doesn't that
doesn't mean that we have to live in

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suffering and misery. You know.
Yeah, I mean you you you go

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through you go through a marriage,
and I mean I've never been married.

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I I really can't, you know, but I've been in relational on relationships

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and you know, you go through
something and you know you in the case

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in her case, in passing and
they actually had a conversation about you know,

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yeah, you know about yeah,
and she should take what he said

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and wrong with it, I think, Yeah, and even and if he

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didn't say that, all right,
we are human beings and no one is

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meant to be alone. I mean, that doesn't mean we have to get

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married again, it doesn't mean we
got to be living with anybody, doesn't

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mean we have to be in another
relationship. But we as human beings are

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not meant to walk this world alone. So if it's companionship, if it's

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friendship, whatever it is, take
it for what it is. Follow your

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heart's desire, because what good is
it going to do to be alone because

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we feel guilty that we might be
letting someone down or you know, I

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guess cheating, you know, because
I can imagine how that might feel that

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way because they're gone, right,
but that is the natural order of things,

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and I would imagine, you know. And they said they had the

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conversation, who wants the person that
they love or that they care about,

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who wants them to be left behind
and suffering and not be happy? Yeah,

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all by themselves for what it doesn't
serve anybody, you know, And

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again, those feelings are okay to
feel that way, just don't live there,

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you know, don't live in that
negative guilt, you know, because

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truthfully, there's nothing to feel guilty
about. You were married to the man

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until he died. Till death do
his part, right, Yeah, death

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parted you, death parted you,
and now and it's very seldom people get

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to find love more than once in
their life. So I would, I'd

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say, honey, if he makes
you happy, live a happy life,

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Live a happy life. It's not
about being vindictive, it's not about cheating,

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it's not about any of that.
You know. The life ran its

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course and now it's time to move
forward and to be happy. If we

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don't do self care, how man, If we don't do self care,

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how are we going to be able
to be there for anybody else? That's

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true, That's very true, you
know, very very true. Okay,

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So I hope that was helpful to
them. Yeah, I hope so too.

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I mean, you know, it's
it's real shit, you know,

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I mean, it is so and
truthfully nobody should have anything to say about

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it. But then absolutely, you're
absolutely right, absolutely right, because nobody's

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nobody's holding her hand, you know, nobody's taking care of her, and

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she needs to take care of herself
as well. You know. Yeah,

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no, my bad guy, what
were you gonna say? A lot of

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people have a lot of things to
say when they're not part of the solution,

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they're part of the problem. Yeah, all right, I get it.

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I understand. You know, sometimes
people just don't They just feel like

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they need that. How do you
say, yeah, they need they need

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that. They also feel like,
you know, asking for advice and and

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stuff would help give them that little
push that they need to you know,

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the oof. You're exactly the oof
to go ahead and jump off that cliff.

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You know. Let me tell you
something, if we risk nothing in

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this life, we gain nothing.
Absolutely, you're absolutely right. You're absolutely

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right. Worst case scenario, it
doesn't work out, You're still alone.

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It's okay, it's okay, yep, absolutely So I have another question from

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someone else. This is from all
right this dude, all right, is

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when he says he's starting with a
relation, he's starting a relationship with a

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woman with adult children. The relationship
will eventually turn serious. When the time

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comes to meet the adult children,
I will be nervous, worried about how

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they will perceive me, worried about
worried that they won't think I'm good enough

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for their mom. What advice can
you give a man to help with the

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nervousness. What advice can you give
about eventually meeting those adult children. Hmhmm.

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Well, first of all, ultimately
the relationship is between the man and

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the woman, right, Yes,
it's very important if these adult or any

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kind of children accept you like you. So my advice is be yourself,

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be who you be, who you
are, because in a perfect world,

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of course, if the mom is
happy, the kids are going to be

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happy and and that and that is
a reality. They just want their mom,

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especially if they're grown up already.
Yeah, they just want their mom

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to be happy. But also if
you're showing who you are, if you're

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honest and you have confidence in yourself, not cockiness, but confidence like I'm

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going to do this, like here
I am, and this is what I

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want, you know, Like I
want to be a good man to this

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woman. I want to love this
woman. You know. I think that

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that's gonna speak volumes, you know, and just being transparent, open and

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honest, you know. And again, at the end of the day,

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the mom has her own life and
although the kids can have feelings about it,

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it's not about them, right,
And you're gonna be nervous. Anything

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we do that's new is gonna make
us nervous. But if you truly care

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about her, stand your ground,
fight for and this is the important part,

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fight for what you want, fight
for what you love. If it's

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worth fighting for, a fight for
it. Because that's what we've stopped doing.

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We stopped fighting for what mattered.
We started canceling each other, cancel

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culture. Yeah, so if it
really means something to you, fight for

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it. Don't allow other people's thoughts
and feelings to be the only reason you

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make a decision. They'll come around, yeah, especially they don't like you

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at first. As long as you're
doing what you're supposed to be doing and

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you're treating her with the utmost love
and respect, they will come around if

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they're not already there. Sometimes we
can love people and do it from a

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distance. Man, And yeah that
is true. Yeah, yeah, that's

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very true. And there's no doubt
about that one. But what about you.

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You're a man, So what's your
point of you? Well, I

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mean I would I would want the
kids to at least, you know,

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feel comfortable enough, you know where
to where you know they can have a

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conversation with me and not just dislike
me from afar. You know what,

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I'm saying, I kind of question, do you think for your daughters?

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Right? Mm hmm? Is there
ever going to be anybody good enough for

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them? Really? M hmm.
I mean they've expressed the fact that,

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like like you said, as long
as I'm happy and I'm good, they'll

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be happy and they'll be good,
you know, because they're they're all they're

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they're they're really good. They're really
good kids, you know what I'm saying.

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And they they respect me and my
judgment. They they they they would

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accept the fact that I'm happy and
you know, along with my happiness comes

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you know, great things, you
know what I'm saying. So yeah,

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they would, they would accept anyone
I put in front of them that that

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would make me happy. Yeah.
And the truth is, kids parents,

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we are never if it's not the
original, we're never going to feel that

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anybody's good enough for them. But
we can't be respectful and you know and

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say, as long as they're happy, you know what am I going to

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do? Right? That's true?
It is true because you know, especially

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especially like like he's looking daughters,
you know, they they want their they

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want their dad, you know the
guy that you know, the man that

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that raised them and then taught them
what love was and then showed them what

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and what what what it was and
what it really is to be. And

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what we're gonna hope is that the
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not what it shouldn't be. Right, because we have a lot a lot

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of guys and I mean women,
because moms are the son's first love and

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father's are the daughters first love.
But we have a lot of mothers and

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fathers that are not showing their children
what love should really look like, you

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know, like when we have fathers
who are yelling and screaming at their daughters

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because I don't know, the grades
aren't good, or they're not trying hard

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enough, or they're crying too much. Just stop and think, right,

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if another man or a boy said
the things to your daughter that you say

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to her, how would you feel
about that because you said the bar So

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if you spend time belittling her,
yelling at her, screaming at her,

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spanking her, ignoring her, you're
the man she loves. You're her first

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love. She's gonna say so,
if Daddy's showing this to me, this

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must be the way. And that's
what they're gonna accept, not expect,

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but that's what they're gonna accept their
whole entire life. So if you don't

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have time for your kids right now, woman or man, if you don't

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have time for your children, if
you're always putting them in the back burner,

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guess what when they finally get a
partner, that's what they're going to

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accept. So you need to ask
yourself, would I be happy if someone

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else treated them that way? And
you know what, a lot of people

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use the excuse, but I'm the
parent exactly. You're the parent. You're

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the one. You're the one that
sets the bar that does not give you

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the right to treat them wrong just
because you are their parents and you're not

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teaching them any better lessons by showing
them that's what to expect. Yeah,

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absolutely, your you're on point tonight. I'll tell you that this is my

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wheelhouse. Bromh. Yeah, somebody
calling you. No, it's not,

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it's it's dubs. He's he's of
course, he's running late. Okay,

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He's like, is he supposed to
be picking somebody up from work and dropping

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them off? So he's like,
he's like, no, you're not,

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I'm running late. Well I'm not
going to say nothing. You know,

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whatever it is, what it is. Yeah, but but yeah, you're

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you're honor tonight. I'll tell you
that. So you don't you don't watch

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you don't watch football nothing right in
person? I do. I don't really

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watch it on TV. You don't
give two ships about this Hotel Swift Kansas

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City Chiefs thing, right, Nope, because I don't. I don't either,

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And it's it's it's a travesty.
I'll tell you that right now.

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We'll tell me about it. Then
she she's dating Taylor Swift. Oh yeah,

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she's dating the Kelsey brother. Yeah. And it's like whenever Kansas City

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plays, it's more about what Taylor
Swift is doing in the box and what's

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going on in the goddamn game.
Oh day, and she's not the Jinks,

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but they're going to the super Bowl. Okay. So it's saying that

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she's generated like three hundred and something
million dollars for the team in the NFL

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just being in the box. Yeah, yeah, just being there. You

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know, people are just, yeah, you put a new song that comes

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out because of me, Yeah,
the new breakup song. I know,

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that's exactly what's going to happen.
He's going to be her next breakup song.

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But anyway, so I I was
watching TMZ not so long ago and

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they had I'm trying to I'm trying
to remember it was. It was the

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Kurt Cobain's autopsy report, right,
oh gosh, yeah, a long time

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a long time ago, and they
were saying that there was some some issues

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with it or something and that they
got they got the report and it doesn't

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it doesn't say he killed himself.
Oh it's it's really be crazy like because

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they didn't very inconsistent and I don't
know. It's don't let my daughter hear

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you say that she was so broken
up when he died. Yes, she

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I couldn't believe it. You think
you think she was married to the man.

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She was only like twelve years old. Wow. Yeah, yeah,

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it's it's and the same. The
thing that that's crazy too is that there's

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there's I was thinking the other day, I was saying to myself, you

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know, all these all these you
know, band leaders and then singers and

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like like Chester Bennington, he was
he had such a great voice, he

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was such a great talent, and
you know, they they just there was

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a video of him the day before
he killed himself, and he like,

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he's like they say, you just
never know, you don't and let me

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mental health and things like that.
It's the silent disability, you know.

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And like we say, like there's
like memes and all things on a daily

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basis, we should always treat people
with kindness because there are people out there

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fighting battles that we know nothing about, absolutely, you know. And and

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you know, there's the schools that
think suicide is the easy way, you

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know, they just took the easy
way out, and then other ones that

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are like, no, it's difficult, you know, Like I have mad

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respects of people who have the balls
or the nerve to actually go through with

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it, you know. And everybody's
different, everybody's and and you know what,

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we all live in glass houses,
and we really shouldn't be throwing stones

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at things and people that we know
nothing about, because just because someone makes

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that choice doesn't mean it was the
easy one to make, doesn't mean they

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didn't spend hours and days and months
toiling over the consequences of that, you

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know. And then there are those
who feel like it's selfish, you know,

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and a lot yeah, it's selfish. It's so selfish. It's so

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selfish because the people, Yeah,
because the people they leave behind. But

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the truth is, you have no
idea what kind of demons people are dealing

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with, right And you know,
unfortunately some people are stronger than others,

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and some people just don't want to
keep suffering, you know. And we

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really in this world we need to
learn to respect. We don't have to

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like it, but we have to
respect other people's thoughts and feelings, because,

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believe it or not, that's what
makes this world so interesting, the

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fact that other people are so different
from us. If everybody, if everybody

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was the same, how boring would
that should be. I mean, come

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on, look at our show.
We've got five different personalities. I don't

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compete. I don't compete. I'm
here. I'm always here as long as

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you see that picture. I am
here, I'm listening, I'm active,

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I'm waiting, But I'm not gonna
yell over dubs. I'm not gonna fight

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with highest tolerance. And most of
the time TG and me are on the

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same page. She just speaks up
a lot better than I do, you

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know, but we are all very
different. And then you just you just

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kind of are the glue that holds
us all together. You know why you

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have to put your glasses on it, fire your paperwork all the time.

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Yeah, yeah, that's that.
Yeah, Because let me tell you something.

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What ended up, what ended up
happening was so all right, real

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talk time. So I was I
was ill for a little while. I

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my sugar was so high that and
my A one C is is it forget

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it, it's it's off. It's
off the chart right now. But I'm

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getting I'm getting better by so anyway, my sugar was so high right that

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it was actually over three fifty to
between three fifty and four hundred for eight

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weeks. So my A one C
jumped up to twelve. So they put

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me in what they call a stroke
zone. Anything over I think eight,

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that's that's what they're consider That's what
they continue to be in the strokes on

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some ship. Right, So they
put me on, they put me on

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some stuff, and little by little
has been coming down. That's why I

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was feeling sick, because I was
like, sugar was so high for so

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long that when it started to come
down, my body wasn't used to low

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sugar levels. So I was feeling
really sick, really sick. So finally

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it's at a level. It's it's
come down a lot, and right now

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it's it's under it's under two hundred
and it's starting to work its way to

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the normal range. Okay, So
I've been feeling a lot better. So

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it ended up happening. Was my
vision changed on me? My glasses no

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longer work? Mm hmm. So
I can see I used, it was

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reversed, I can I had problems
with distance I had I was okay up

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close. Now I can see in
distance and I can't see so good up

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close. Mm hmmm. So it's
it's switched. It a complete So but

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I'm getting I'm getting back into the
normal range. I'm watching what I'm doing.

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I'm maintaining everything, and I'm not
your mama. But who's fault not

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it's all my fault. I know
it's all my fault. Okay, is

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there something? Are you going to
do something to change it? I have

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been, I have been okay,
you know, I'm meeting a lot better,

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I'm walking a lot more. I
want to. I want to introduce

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you to somebody. Hold on a
second where where don't be shy? Come

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over here? No no, no, no, You're not going to do

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this. Come on, gets him
lay there and not say nothing? Am

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I fishing you all the coon?
Doggie? Comma, comma, are you

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gonna walk? She up and walked
out the room. She walked. You

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can't hold a woman. She walked
out the room. She looked at me

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and she said, and she walked
out the room, like, leave me

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the fuck alone. When did you
get yourself a new girlfriend? About a

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week ago? Oh wow, yeah, she's name her name's Ivy. She's

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seven. Yeah. She she was
actually one of the family dogs that I

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just brought over. Are you gonna
be able to keep her? Yeah?

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Yeah, yeah, I got it. Everything's cool, everything's come he come

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on, all right, here we
go. Mum, mum might wow what

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kind of dog is yor key?
Oh? Nice? Your camera? See

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that she's right there. Go look
at the camera. Look at the camera.

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Hello a mascot. Now all right, you can go now none of

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that. You can go park out
there. Yeah, she didn't like being

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on the camera, I guess,
she said, why are you playing me

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out for yo? N Yeah,
so yeah, we made my picture and

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everything's cool. So but yeah,
this this the this whole, this whole,

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you know, just this whole mental
health thing with with everybody with the

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I mean I think, I think
when when you look at it as a

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as a as a musician, or
or whether it be an athlete, a

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musician or whatever. You know,
you you work so hard and if you

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just listen to a lot of Lincoln
Parks music, it's not it's not uplifting

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music some of it. You know
what I'm saying, like it's yes,

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Well look at Robin Williams. Yeah, exactly, that's another one. He's

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one of the funniest. He was
one of the funniest men in the world,

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but he was also one of the
saddest who suffered so much. And

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the idea and the idea of having
a disease that was going to cause him

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to lose his faculties was something he
couldn't deal with, right, you know,

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And who are we and who are
we to say that it was wrong

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or that it was right, because
we're not the ones that had to live

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with it. You know, absolutely, It's it's crazy. I was no,

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no, we just have a tendency
to go around thinking that everybody needs

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to act and think the way we
do, and that everything that we know

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is common sense for everybody else,
and that's not the truth. Everybody was

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not raised the same was not raised
by the same people in the same area

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with the same experiences. You know, we need to get our heads out

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of our butts and thinking that what's
common sense to us is common sense to

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everybody else. Yeah, absolutely,
you know. I don't. I don't.

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I really don't think that people who
feel alone should really. I they

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say only people who feel alone should
try, And I mean I think people

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who feel alone should should should try
and reach out, you know what I'm

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saying, because sometimes when when when
when you when you reach out, sometimes

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there's a hand there, sometimes there
isn't. But people need to to start

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checking on on on each other,
you know what I'm saying. People just

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need to start really caring about the
people in their circle because they they you

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don't know who's going through what yep, you know. And the thing that

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that's said is that when you do
find out, you have the people that

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are supportive, and then you also
have the people who are like, bro,

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it's fucking life, get over Yeah. Yeah, And that's and that

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and that's what sucks, you know, That's why people don't come out and

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say things like I'm depressed or I
feel I help, yeah, or I

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need help, or whatever the case
may be. It's just that they don't

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want to be judged, and we
just move around judging each other. And

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that's harsh. Being judged when you're
dealing with something like that is harsh and

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something that is out of your control. And a lot of people who don't

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struggle with it don't really understand that
it's not always a choice, you know,

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like depression, anxiety, these are
chemically you know, these are chemical

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issues that cannot always be controlled by
the person. They have coping mechanisms,

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they have medication that can assist,
right, but it's something that is inside

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of them, and most times genetics, So it's not like they chose it.

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Yeah, we just we need to
be more compassionate towards one another just

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in general. You know, we've
lost that, We've lost compassion, we've

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lost transparency, we've lost trust,
we've lost vulnerability. Like we're just again,

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we're just the world of hurt people, hurting people. Yeah, I

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keep going I keep going back to
conversation that we had with Highest Tolerance about

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you know, expectations for our kids. You know, you know, him

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and I were talking about the fact
that as a Latino woman, are not

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only graduated high school. I went
to college and then went on to get

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my master's degree. So it's like, well, then that should be the

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expectation from my children. Well,
that would be the hope for my kids,

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But they are not me, right, They did not grow up in

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the life that I grew grew up
in for a majority of their lives.

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They didn't grow up in single parent
home, you know, like they didn't

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go to well my older daughter did, but my youngest one, she didn't

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go to an inner city school,
you know, an urban school, so

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like, her experiences are very different. And I've done the best that I

409
00:40:22.400 --> 00:40:30.840
could with what I had as a
single parent to educate her on the realities

410
00:40:30.880 --> 00:40:37.719
of life without her necessarily having to
experience them. But I also can't expect

411
00:40:37.800 --> 00:40:45.559
her to I would hope she would
perform better than me. But if all

412
00:40:45.599 --> 00:40:49.199
I'm doing, if all I'm doing
is putting pressure and stress on her,

413
00:40:49.960 --> 00:40:53.159
that's how I You know, we
get to the young people going to college

414
00:40:53.280 --> 00:41:00.360
and falling apart because they don't know
how to cope because of all the pressure

415
00:41:00.880 --> 00:41:06.400
that has been put on them placed
on them by parents. And teachers,

416
00:41:06.559 --> 00:41:09.760
and oh, you know, you
should be this, you should be that

417
00:41:12.039 --> 00:41:15.360
they're gonna be who they're gonna be. How about if we just support them,

418
00:41:16.320 --> 00:41:21.199
motivate them, and have them pick
up the pieces where they fall,

419
00:41:22.360 --> 00:41:25.400
right absolutely, because let them be
them, Let them be who they want

420
00:41:25.440 --> 00:41:29.960
to be, Let them be who
they they they feel they they want to

421
00:41:30.000 --> 00:41:30.719
be, and it should be you
know what I'm saying. I mean,

422
00:41:30.719 --> 00:41:37.760
you shouldn't really do I worry,
worry, you're gonna worry. Loves art.

423
00:41:38.159 --> 00:41:44.880
She loves art. Now that could
go one of two ways. She

424
00:41:45.000 --> 00:41:49.599
could be very successful or she could
be a starving artist. Do I want

425
00:41:49.639 --> 00:41:53.480
her to be a starving artist?
No way, Jose. However, if

426
00:41:53.559 --> 00:41:58.280
that's what makes her passionate, who
am I to say? No? She

427
00:41:58.400 --> 00:42:01.519
could be the next Pablo. So
for all I know, I can't tell

428
00:42:01.559 --> 00:42:09.119
there. You know, look at
me, I had high aspirations. Only

429
00:42:09.239 --> 00:42:13.599
one of seven that went to school, went to college, graduated high school.

430
00:42:14.280 --> 00:42:21.440
And what am I doing now?
Definitely not any great millionaire doing any

431
00:42:21.559 --> 00:42:29.519
big wonderful things. But well you're
on a podcast I am with sponsors.

432
00:42:30.000 --> 00:42:34.199
Oh yeah, we're going to talk
about that. Just thank you for reminding

433
00:42:34.280 --> 00:42:37.199
me, yes, sir, Yeah, we'll talk about that in a minute.

434
00:42:37.239 --> 00:42:42.159
But yeah, you know you yeah, you're absolutely right. You're absolutely

435
00:42:42.280 --> 00:42:47.639
right. Life is what we make
of it. It's only ninety percent what

436
00:42:47.800 --> 00:42:51.639
we do about it. And I'm
only ten percent what happens. But it's

437
00:42:51.719 --> 00:42:58.039
ninety percent what we do and how
we handle it. Absolutely So yeah,

438
00:42:58.480 --> 00:43:06.719
really quick, I want I want
to mention something. So my one of

439
00:43:06.760 --> 00:43:10.000
my daughters hits me up. It's
a sad story, but I gotta,

440
00:43:10.039 --> 00:43:15.679
I gotta bring it up because it's
bothering me. So she had a friend,

441
00:43:15.840 --> 00:43:20.679
she has a friend named Andre.
Okay, really good kid. I

442
00:43:20.800 --> 00:43:28.760
mean, this kid was. This
kid is so respectful. He always just

443
00:43:28.920 --> 00:43:34.400
so such a respectful kid. He
goes, he goes, his his father

444
00:43:34.559 --> 00:43:43.400
passes away years ago, right,
he starts, you know, I guess

445
00:43:43.519 --> 00:43:46.800
drinking or something or whatever and heading
down we're on paths, right, you

446
00:43:46.880 --> 00:43:52.760
know. He yeah, but he
still remains that respectful kid, you know

447
00:43:52.840 --> 00:44:00.880
what I mean. Then his his
mom ends up getting cancer. She beats

448
00:44:00.920 --> 00:44:08.760
it a few times. Mhm.
This kid ends up dead on the side

449
00:44:08.800 --> 00:44:13.960
of the road because of a hit
and run over the weekend. Oh no,

450
00:44:15.199 --> 00:44:22.960
they yeah, they he was.
He was in Virginia and a car

451
00:44:22.119 --> 00:44:30.599
hit him and just left him there. And I'm here and now there she's

452
00:44:30.679 --> 00:44:36.199
telling me this, and I'm like, I don't understand. I What bothers

453
00:44:36.320 --> 00:44:44.400
me is that the kid just turned
twenty seven years old, had a whole

454
00:44:44.440 --> 00:44:47.960
life ahead of him. He was
starting to, you know, get better

455
00:44:49.039 --> 00:44:52.199
and and and do better things and
do great things and stuff. And you

456
00:44:52.280 --> 00:45:00.039
know, now his mom, who
who was a cancer survivor, and and

457
00:45:00.159 --> 00:45:06.519
once again, if I read it
correctly, it came back, has to

458
00:45:06.599 --> 00:45:14.159
bury her son. Yeah. The
saddest, saddest ship. Man. I'm

459
00:45:14.280 --> 00:45:17.199
like, she and my daughter's destroyed. I mean they were They've been friends

460
00:45:17.199 --> 00:45:23.159
since third grade. Yeah. Well, they say there's no no worse pain

461
00:45:23.280 --> 00:45:30.760
than burying a child. Mm hmmm. I even when you lose your parents,

462
00:45:30.880 --> 00:45:35.760
like that's expected, that's that's part
of the process. But to lose

463
00:45:35.800 --> 00:45:44.280
a child before you go that,
it's an unspeakable loss. Yeah. And

464
00:45:44.559 --> 00:45:45.760
and let me let me ask a
question. I got a question for you.

465
00:45:46.599 --> 00:45:58.000
So my someone once told me that
when you have both parents, whether

466
00:45:58.079 --> 00:46:00.199
or not they live with you and
raised you or whatever, her, but

467
00:46:00.480 --> 00:46:04.760
you have both parents and you know
that they exist and you know they're in

468
00:46:04.840 --> 00:46:09.239
your life, one or the other
or whatever. How do you feel?

469
00:46:12.199 --> 00:46:15.920
How would you feel if you lost
both parents? Now? This person told

470
00:46:15.960 --> 00:46:24.239
me that in her experience that she
felt kind of like an orphan once once

471
00:46:24.320 --> 00:46:29.000
her her both her parents were gone, because now that she doesn't have them,

472
00:46:30.320 --> 00:46:34.719
so she felt like she was like
an orphan, like she didn't have

473
00:46:34.840 --> 00:46:38.000
her parents anymore. Like how would
how would you? How would you?

474
00:46:43.960 --> 00:46:50.679
I don't know what are you doing? Dishes? I'm just washing? Sorry,

475
00:46:52.280 --> 00:46:55.440
So how would you? How would
you? What do you think of

476
00:46:55.519 --> 00:46:59.320
that? Like? How would you
look at it? And how would you?

477
00:47:00.719 --> 00:47:05.519
You know, feel well? I
mean I think I would concur I

478
00:47:05.599 --> 00:47:12.920
mean, although my father didn't pass
away, I never had him, So

479
00:47:13.039 --> 00:47:19.280
when my mother passed away, I
did. I felt like I didn't belong

480
00:47:19.360 --> 00:47:23.320
to anyone. I had no guidance. And I was only like twenty years

481
00:47:23.320 --> 00:47:29.840
old when I lost my parent,
so I was still a kid. I

482
00:47:29.960 --> 00:47:35.480
was a baby, and so I
had to learn how to pay a rent

483
00:47:35.719 --> 00:47:40.039
and a car payment, and I
wasn't ready and I didn't have any supporting,

484
00:47:40.599 --> 00:47:45.400
you know, no supports, you
know, no other parents, no,

485
00:47:45.119 --> 00:47:50.039
So you grow up pretty fast and
you do feel like an orphan because

486
00:47:50.079 --> 00:47:55.159
you have nobody. You have nobody
to run to, you have nobody to

487
00:47:55.239 --> 00:48:00.920
ask questions to, You have no
guidance, you have the people who love

488
00:48:00.960 --> 00:48:07.199
you unconditionally no longer exist right now. It's you against the world. So

489
00:48:07.320 --> 00:48:12.719
I could definitely see I could definitely
see how that would make somebody feel like

490
00:48:12.800 --> 00:48:19.440
an orphan because they have nowhere to
belong. You get it, Yeah,

491
00:48:20.039 --> 00:48:22.480
doves, just show it up.
Let me get them on. Hold on

492
00:48:22.519 --> 00:48:29.039
one second and the party begins.
You yeah, yeah, yeah, what

493
00:48:30.039 --> 00:48:34.000
I can't hear you. I'm out
here in these streets, man, give

494
00:48:34.000 --> 00:48:37.840
me the weather. It's cold as
the motherfucker outside with mister honey, baby

495
00:48:37.840 --> 00:48:42.519
slis mister honey, we can't.
We can hardly hear you as muffled.

496
00:48:44.800 --> 00:48:47.760
Can you hear me now? Yes, I said, I'm out here in

497
00:48:47.800 --> 00:48:52.320
the streets giving you the weather report. It's cold as a motherfucker outside,

498
00:48:52.360 --> 00:48:57.119
bro Swiss, mister honey, keep
the bones warm, remember that. Get

499
00:48:57.159 --> 00:48:59.519
the marshmallow. Let's set up with
the Swiss smith's Porter Hennessey in it.

500
00:49:00.039 --> 00:49:07.440
You'll be good goodness. So what
Simon Phoenix m d R Yeah, bird

501
00:49:07.440 --> 00:49:12.639
of that kill m what's supposed to
be empty, K but I fucked up.

502
00:49:13.719 --> 00:49:20.119
Yeah, we'll be out here for
a minute because oh shit, Oh

503
00:49:20.960 --> 00:49:25.719
whoops, my bad, wrong car? Just hopped in the wrong car?

504
00:49:30.599 --> 00:49:35.400
What what? What is that?
Swiss miss? I chose to be in

505
00:49:35.440 --> 00:49:39.360
my car because it's quiet. Mm
hmm, you see what I mean?

506
00:49:40.000 --> 00:49:43.880
Yeah? All right, So this
is what we're talking about. We're talking

507
00:49:43.920 --> 00:49:49.760
about at this point right now,
we're talking about losing you know what,

508
00:49:50.000 --> 00:49:52.960
what what would how would you feel
if you lost both parents? Would you

509
00:49:52.000 --> 00:49:59.320
feel like an orphan? That?
Yeah? That that that's typical. He's

510
00:49:59.760 --> 00:50:12.199
gonna gotta love it. Yeah,
let's see. Well, I guess you

511
00:50:12.280 --> 00:50:17.639
got all right there he goes what
happened? What happened? Was I hit

512
00:50:17.679 --> 00:50:21.760
the wrong button? Man? All
right? So this is what we're talking

513
00:50:21.840 --> 00:50:27.440
about, losing both parents and feeling
like an orphan? How would you How

514
00:50:27.480 --> 00:50:34.119
would you feel? You know,
if you had lost both your parents?

515
00:50:34.239 --> 00:50:37.400
How would you go about life?
And how would you feel? Well?

516
00:50:37.840 --> 00:50:43.559
Seeing seeing that I have like two
older ones and one and one that still

517
00:50:43.599 --> 00:50:45.480
a baby, I'll just think about
them. But yo, you know what,

518
00:50:46.880 --> 00:50:50.280
I didn't want to talk about that. You know what I'm saying,

519
00:50:50.440 --> 00:50:55.920
I'm trying to draw my parents now, right, you know, like unfortunately,

520
00:50:57.280 --> 00:50:59.639
unfortunately, there's gonna be a day
we'll have to cross that bridge.

521
00:51:01.280 --> 00:51:04.880
And talking about it gets me emotional
because like you know what I mean,

522
00:51:05.039 --> 00:51:09.599
Like I know, I know it
hurt a lot, you know, like

523
00:51:13.760 --> 00:51:15.559
nah, I don't want to talk
about it no more. You know what

524
00:51:15.559 --> 00:51:19.440
I'm saying, you know what I
mean like that like that, I get

525
00:51:19.519 --> 00:51:22.840
it, trying to hold on.
Yeah, I get it. But you

526
00:51:22.880 --> 00:51:25.880
know, but but but but but
what the funny thing is. But the

527
00:51:25.920 --> 00:51:30.199
funny thing is is like I treat
my kids like I treat my my parents

528
00:51:30.239 --> 00:51:32.559
like they're my kids now, Like
they must call me when they leave,

529
00:51:32.559 --> 00:51:37.440
they must call me when they get
back, you know, like I got

530
00:51:37.519 --> 00:51:39.599
to yell at them sometimes, you
know, I let my parents know,

531
00:51:39.719 --> 00:51:43.039
like yo, y'all think you're grown. Huh. That's what it is.

532
00:51:45.000 --> 00:51:45.800
And the thing is, you know
what I'm saying, like like my parents

533
00:51:45.840 --> 00:51:47.719
are you know I'm saying my parents
at this age, you don't like I

534
00:51:47.880 --> 00:51:52.320
joke with them there, playful,
yeah, you know, so let them

535
00:51:52.360 --> 00:51:55.000
know, like hey, you know
what I'm saying like like you know,

536
00:51:55.400 --> 00:51:59.559
like I would like you know,
quote unquote extore them bring my daughter over

537
00:52:00.000 --> 00:52:02.000
the ass of twenty dollars. I
know I'm not gonna get it, but

538
00:52:02.079 --> 00:52:07.639
hey, I tried, and I
don't even And I'm like, hey,

539
00:52:07.760 --> 00:52:12.360
the baby needs twenty dollars. Why
do baby needs twenty dollars? The baby

540
00:52:12.400 --> 00:52:16.239
needs twenty dollars for gas? You
don't like she don't drive. I'm like,

541
00:52:16.440 --> 00:52:19.599
you want her to cook? Keep
coming down here, You're gonna give

542
00:52:19.639 --> 00:52:22.960
me that twenty dollars, you know, Like like I just joke around with

543
00:52:23.000 --> 00:52:27.639
them though, you know what I
mean, Like, but the thought of

544
00:52:27.719 --> 00:52:30.880
losing them, man, Like,
yeah, I don't I don't want to

545
00:52:30.880 --> 00:52:34.639
talk about that because you know what
I'm saying, Like I have like a

546
00:52:34.679 --> 00:52:38.960
real tight relationship with my mom and
my dad. Yeah I get it.

547
00:52:39.320 --> 00:52:45.119
But see that's kind of like what
I was talking about Corneon is how because

548
00:52:45.159 --> 00:52:52.239
something's uncomfortable, we avoid it so
then when it actually happens, then we

549
00:52:52.400 --> 00:52:57.440
have we were robbed of the opportunity, didn't know how to cope with it,

550
00:53:00.039 --> 00:53:02.840
you know what, Like like it's
like like it's like this right like

551
00:53:06.039 --> 00:53:08.320
when my oldest brother passed away,
like I knew, you know, like

552
00:53:09.639 --> 00:53:13.119
like you know, like there was
certain things about twenty eighteen where like in

553
00:53:13.199 --> 00:53:15.880
my mind, I'm like, you
know, like like first he had a

554
00:53:15.960 --> 00:53:17.920
minor heart attack. I was like, oh, he ain't making the past

555
00:53:19.000 --> 00:53:21.880
this year. You know what I'm
saying, Like right, I just like

556
00:53:21.960 --> 00:53:28.519
you know, like like Sam slowly
declining and like like you know what I'm

557
00:53:28.519 --> 00:53:31.679
saying, like I've seen it coming, so but you still can't prepare for

558
00:53:31.760 --> 00:53:38.000
you see, that is something you
cannot prepare forever. You know what I'm

559
00:53:38.039 --> 00:53:43.960
saying. You can never prepare for
that, you know? So? And

560
00:53:44.079 --> 00:53:45.119
mind you this is my brother and
like you know what I'm saying, like

561
00:53:45.119 --> 00:53:49.280
I'm missing to this day. You
know, I got my parents left,

562
00:53:49.320 --> 00:53:52.880
Like I don't even want to think
about that, you know because like I

563
00:53:53.039 --> 00:53:55.000
know for a fact that you know
what I'm saying, Like it's gonna hit

564
00:53:55.039 --> 00:54:00.480
me so hard that you know what
I'm saying, Like I may you know

565
00:54:00.519 --> 00:54:01.559
what I'm saying, I may never
you know, Like like yo, you

566
00:54:01.639 --> 00:54:05.679
know what pain? Your pain is? Funny, you know what I'm saying.

567
00:54:06.559 --> 00:54:08.519
There's pain that you know what I'm
saying. There's physical pain, and

568
00:54:08.559 --> 00:54:15.559
then there's pain that alters how you
think and how you feel and losing something

569
00:54:15.719 --> 00:54:19.119
close like that. That's the pain
that you know, that alters your life,

570
00:54:19.360 --> 00:54:22.440
alters your yo. You know what
I'm saying, your emotions, you

571
00:54:22.519 --> 00:54:27.159
know. So that's the reason why
I'm like not wanting to talk about that

572
00:54:27.760 --> 00:54:30.440
because I'm trying to enjoy I'm trying
to you know what I'm saying, Like

573
00:54:30.480 --> 00:54:32.639
my parents at the twilight of their
lives, and I'm trying to make you

574
00:54:32.679 --> 00:54:36.840
know what I'm saying, I'm trying
to enjoy them. Yeah, you know,

575
00:54:37.000 --> 00:54:40.519
make them laugh, say some dumb
ship gets back. You know Mom

576
00:54:40.639 --> 00:54:46.519
Duke's you know, she's like four
eleven, she'd be swinging or whatever.

577
00:54:46.840 --> 00:54:50.800
I'm like, ah, you're slow
now, huh. You know, like

578
00:54:51.400 --> 00:54:53.519
like like every time my mom got
to watch for the hook though. Now

579
00:54:53.679 --> 00:54:55.920
yo, even that you know what
I'm saying, I'll be Matrix dodging it.

580
00:54:55.960 --> 00:54:59.519
You feel like Keanu Reeves. But
then you know what I'm saying with

581
00:54:59.599 --> 00:55:00.480
my back end when I do that, yo, you know what I'm saying,

582
00:55:00.519 --> 00:55:02.599
my back be cracking this stuff and
I'll be fall on the ground like

583
00:55:02.719 --> 00:55:12.360
I can't even do that no more. M m no. But yeah,

584
00:55:12.440 --> 00:55:15.679
man, pain, Yeah, because
at the end of the day, you

585
00:55:15.760 --> 00:55:20.960
know, like like like you know, like like everybody hops on that soul

586
00:55:21.039 --> 00:55:23.039
train for real. You know what
I'm saying, that's everyone's destiny punching that

587
00:55:23.119 --> 00:55:28.360
ticket and hop on that soul train. You know that's you know what I'm

588
00:55:28.360 --> 00:55:35.280
saying. That's yeah, I want
to you know what I'm saying. I'm

589
00:55:35.320 --> 00:55:39.679
trying to enjoy what. You know
what I'm saying, what's left? You

590
00:55:39.719 --> 00:55:49.119
know the nails Rob talking to lady
Geez. Can you hear everything I'm doing.

591
00:55:50.480 --> 00:55:57.280
What she's doing, She's filing her
nails. Wow, next thing you

592
00:55:57.360 --> 00:56:02.119
know, she'll be filing her taxes
too. I did that already. Oh

593
00:56:02.280 --> 00:56:09.599
man, I owe the government.
You know what the ironies that, you

594
00:56:09.639 --> 00:56:15.039
know what I'm saying, America became
a country because Britain, because Britain was

595
00:56:15.079 --> 00:56:20.719
taxing him over team. And yet
you know what I'm saying here, we

596
00:56:20.800 --> 00:56:27.079
are getting taxed. There's there's the
lay between your video and the audio,

597
00:56:27.519 --> 00:56:38.920
just just saying oh no, you'll
be alright, yeah, Oh but I

598
00:56:39.039 --> 00:56:45.599
was gonna beat the ship out the
cat bro what uh the cat? I

599
00:56:45.679 --> 00:56:50.400
have a cat right, I'm gonnay, you know what, I'm gonna beat

600
00:56:50.440 --> 00:56:55.880
the holy hell out this cat,
Bro like really always messing with the dog.

601
00:56:57.000 --> 00:56:59.119
Man like like pump the dog out
of his food and ship like it

602
00:56:59.199 --> 00:57:01.639
was jail. I'm here looking at
the dog. You know. See the

603
00:57:01.679 --> 00:57:05.119
dog came crying to me. I'm
like, what happened? Then I'm here

604
00:57:05.159 --> 00:57:07.280
looking at the cat eating the food. I'm like, are you kidding me?

605
00:57:07.719 --> 00:57:12.440
You're a dog? So when I
walked over, the cat ran and

606
00:57:12.480 --> 00:57:15.159
stuff right, and then like two
hours later, the cat would you know,

607
00:57:15.239 --> 00:57:19.480
seeing snuff back and finished her food. Bro. I Meanwhile, the

608
00:57:19.519 --> 00:57:24.119
cat was chilling. I got a
rubber band, right, and I slink

609
00:57:24.199 --> 00:57:30.199
shot him and then like the cat
just looked at me and then I and

610
00:57:30.280 --> 00:57:32.440
then yell, bro, and you
know what. I took whatever it was

611
00:57:32.480 --> 00:57:36.840
in my hand and I beamed out
the cat. Bro caught it right in

612
00:57:36.920 --> 00:57:39.480
his ass. The cat ran.
Now I was a hidant. I'm like,

613
00:57:39.519 --> 00:57:46.960
I ain't done with you yet.
M hm, man call it.

614
00:57:47.079 --> 00:57:51.039
You know what I'm saying. The
cat keys mussing around about drop him off

615
00:57:51.079 --> 00:58:00.239
at the Chinese store. Spare rib
takes. Oh no, damn you.

616
00:58:02.519 --> 00:58:06.840
I would have mind. I would
have mind some wings with with French fries.

617
00:58:12.960 --> 00:58:21.199
Oh man, unreal. So it's
so it's San fran versus Taylor Swift.

618
00:58:22.119 --> 00:58:25.920
Oh god, yeah, we talked
about that a little bit before.

619
00:58:28.199 --> 00:58:42.159
Nah man, you know what bro
h see yeah, nah bro nah.

620
00:58:46.119 --> 00:58:49.559
Because there's so much there's so much
things I'm going to say that you know

621
00:58:49.559 --> 00:58:52.239
what I'm saying that could probably get
me canceled, But I don't care because

622
00:58:52.239 --> 00:58:55.199
the Internet's not a real place.
You cancel me all you want, right,

623
00:58:57.679 --> 00:59:02.800
but you ready? You ready for
this? Bro? Like? First

624
00:59:02.880 --> 00:59:06.280
off, you know what I'm saying. The difference Yoe. You know what

625
00:59:06.760 --> 00:59:07.719
you want to know? What's the
difference between her and MEGANE. Stallion?

626
00:59:08.320 --> 00:59:13.519
Nothing, They're both holes. The
difference is megaanine of hip hop. You

627
00:59:13.519 --> 00:59:16.480
know what I'm saying, Megazine the
hip hop you know Johnny and you know

628
00:59:16.480 --> 00:59:20.519
what I'm saying. And Taylor Swift
is a good girl next door, you

629
00:59:20.599 --> 00:59:22.599
know, like ESPNB. You know
what I'm saying, Beat and all these

630
00:59:22.639 --> 00:59:25.119
like outlets we report on. You
know what I'm saying. Taylor Swift like

631
00:59:25.159 --> 00:59:29.360
she's catching balls, Like listen,
she ain't catching balls on the field,

632
00:59:29.360 --> 00:59:35.079
She's catching balls off the field.
You know what I'm saying. Like like

633
00:59:35.199 --> 00:59:36.920
you know, like her stats,
you know what I'm saying. I mean

634
00:59:37.559 --> 00:59:39.639
every every every hit song she ever
made was about you know what I'm saying.

635
00:59:39.679 --> 00:59:45.559
One of her access what is that
fourteen fifteen, twenty eleven teen?

636
00:59:45.960 --> 00:59:58.320
Who cares? Is comfy eleven teen? Yeah, he's definitely. He's definitely

637
00:59:58.320 --> 01:00:00.519
gonna be the next breakup track,
man, I'm telling you, mm hmm.

638
01:00:02.840 --> 01:00:08.480
And then her fan base is just
look like gravity. Oh yeah,

639
01:00:08.519 --> 01:00:12.639
you well, don't even know what
they call them these days, but Swifties,

640
01:00:14.760 --> 01:00:21.599
what a corny ass name. Cheetoak's
girls. Yeah, they're be like

641
01:00:21.719 --> 01:00:24.440
she's so beautiful. Man, That
bitch looked like she walked out of a

642
01:00:24.920 --> 01:00:30.400
straight out of a concentration camp.
She's so skinny as ship. Her next

643
01:00:30.400 --> 01:00:45.440
album should be called Straight out of
Auschwitz. Oh my god, Oh shit,

644
01:00:49.400 --> 01:00:58.519
he Saidwitz, straight out of Lastwitz. Crazy motherfucking name Taylor? Oh

645
01:00:58.719 --> 01:01:07.079
my god, what are we gonna
do with him? Nothing? What can

646
01:01:07.199 --> 01:01:16.039
you do? See? You could
see? You know what, there's no

647
01:01:16.159 --> 01:01:21.760
hair on my tongue, you know, like my doctor clear me epile,

648
01:01:22.079 --> 01:01:28.119
so I can't bite my tongue,
so like so you know, yeah,

649
01:01:28.199 --> 01:01:30.280
there was hair on my tongue.
I'll be pissed off. I tell the

650
01:01:30.320 --> 01:01:35.159
girl to shave. Besides that,
you know what I'm saying, like like,

651
01:01:35.239 --> 01:01:38.039
you know, like I'm not I'm
not like like I don't. I

652
01:01:38.119 --> 01:01:40.320
don't play Georgia the Jungle. You
know what I'm saying, I land on

653
01:01:40.440 --> 01:01:50.480
the Fresh Landed Strip. Hey,
I like baby dolphins. What what was

654
01:01:50.519 --> 01:02:02.920
that I said? I like baby
dolphins? Hey, oh my god?

655
01:02:04.280 --> 01:02:06.280
Yeah? Man, So like,
yo, you know what, Lamar Jackson

656
01:02:06.360 --> 01:02:10.119
had one job. He blew it, I'm saying, And now I have

657
01:02:10.199 --> 01:02:13.639
to have to form my allegies with
the forty nine. You know what I'm

658
01:02:13.679 --> 01:02:17.679
saying, faithful Bang Bang niner gang. Yeah, man, Yo, you

659
01:02:17.760 --> 01:02:21.079
know what, I got a nine
of Jersey too, and a nine and

660
01:02:21.119 --> 01:02:22.159
a half. So I mean,
I'm a Jeff fan, but I got

661
01:02:22.199 --> 01:02:24.199
a captain in Jersey, So I'm
gonna wear that well to you know what

662
01:02:24.199 --> 01:02:35.480
I'm saying that day? Yeah,
oh my god, Dolphins, Dolphins,

663
01:02:37.719 --> 01:02:49.920
oh shit, oh oh. And
the hip Hop News speaking of Mega Stagion,

664
01:02:50.639 --> 01:02:53.840
Bro, she took Nicki Minaj's head
off. Yo, Yo, I

665
01:02:53.960 --> 01:02:58.440
heard, I heard. I heard
that Taylor Swift isn't even gonna be at

666
01:02:58.480 --> 01:03:00.639
the super Bowl. She's got a
concert in the other country. No,

667
01:03:00.880 --> 01:03:02.719
they said that you know what I'm
saying, that she's gonna try to like

668
01:03:04.199 --> 01:03:06.440
like, you know what I'm saying, fly first class, bro. You

669
01:03:06.519 --> 01:03:08.880
know what, I'm praying for a
flight to lay so she don't make it.

670
01:03:09.599 --> 01:03:13.199
You seem to know a lot about
what Taylor Swift is doing. Bro,

671
01:03:13.639 --> 01:03:16.320
bro nigga, because that's all there
is online. Bro. I have

672
01:03:16.480 --> 01:03:21.159
no life, Yo, I'm gonna
stay at home dad. So when the

673
01:03:21.199 --> 01:03:22.960
baby sleeping, either I'm sleeping or
like you know what I'm saying, like

674
01:03:23.480 --> 01:03:34.760
reading up on shit, man,
oh and shout out to my lady.

675
01:03:34.760 --> 01:03:38.440
It's a birthday today. It's the
thirtieth right, Yeah, yeah, it's

676
01:03:38.480 --> 01:03:49.559
a birthday today. Happy birthday.
That's why I left the house. Now,

677
01:03:49.639 --> 01:04:01.039
hold on, hold on, hold
on, h h what are we

678
01:04:01.159 --> 01:04:10.440
holding on for? I don't know. I think he through thumbs. I'm

679
01:04:10.480 --> 01:04:18.920
still here. I'm here there.
I might beware. Yeah, but like

680
01:04:19.960 --> 01:04:24.159
like yeah, so Meg decided the
actually made a song that I was like,

681
01:04:24.280 --> 01:04:30.119
oh shit, I'm like, yo, she she really you know what

682
01:04:30.159 --> 01:04:32.480
I'm saying, she really took the
gloves off. And then like you know,

683
01:04:32.880 --> 01:04:38.800
like like yo, Nicki Minaj fans
are the worst like I've been reading

684
01:04:38.840 --> 01:04:44.559
this ship right and I'm like,
yo, so you people like you know

685
01:04:44.599 --> 01:04:47.599
what I'm saying, Like fans in
general, like Drake fan, Drake stands,

686
01:04:48.199 --> 01:04:54.039
NICKI stands, like the Stanley stands, like like all these people like

687
01:04:54.199 --> 01:04:58.880
really really like pour their heart and
soul on the internet, like really docks

688
01:04:58.920 --> 01:05:02.400
and people like like you know what
I'm saying, looking their name up and

689
01:05:02.440 --> 01:05:06.400
everything too. Man I hope,
man, I hope one of these people

690
01:05:06.519 --> 01:05:10.679
come docks me. I got something
for them, you know what I'm saying.

691
01:05:10.719 --> 01:05:15.119
I'll be outside when they get there
too, you know like Nicki Minaj

692
01:05:15.199 --> 01:05:16.880
fans, what are you gonna do? Attack me with your dildo? Get

693
01:05:16.960 --> 01:05:24.360
out of here? See like see
like that that that you know what I'm

694
01:05:24.360 --> 01:05:29.159
saying. There's a difference between being
a fan of of certain things and being

695
01:05:29.199 --> 01:05:33.320
a stand you know what I'm saying, Like you know what I'm saying,

696
01:05:33.400 --> 01:05:36.599
like like like yo, you know
what, like the way they yo do

697
01:05:38.079 --> 01:05:40.719
and this is like the new generation, like the way they act about you

698
01:05:40.760 --> 01:05:44.719
know what I'm saying. Certain celebrities
like they'll die for them. Yeah,

699
01:05:45.039 --> 01:05:49.280
they're literally like bro, you know
what you know, Like I have one

700
01:05:49.320 --> 01:05:51.960
person threatened like, tell you know
what, wait until I find you know

701
01:05:51.960 --> 01:05:55.280
what I'm saying, when wait ntil
I put out your address, nigga,

702
01:05:55.400 --> 01:05:57.760
go ahead, put out my address. Bro, what are you gonna do

703
01:05:58.800 --> 01:06:01.719
nothing? You know what I'm saying, Like, what are you gonna do?

704
01:06:01.840 --> 01:06:09.760
Nothing? Nothing? Nothing? You
know? Like if I find out

705
01:06:09.760 --> 01:06:12.199
where you live, I go to
your house and I see your mother,

706
01:06:12.239 --> 01:06:15.000
I'm gonna be doing a lot of
nothing too, nothing down her throat.

707
01:06:15.119 --> 01:06:24.719
So don't play with me, son, Oh my god. Yeah, this

708
01:06:24.880 --> 01:06:31.119
generation is all fucked up, bro, Like they really are, Like they're

709
01:06:31.119 --> 01:06:34.960
probably you know what I'm saying,
Like they they literally yo, you know

710
01:06:35.039 --> 01:06:41.119
what I was really I was really
literally reading like the whole thread of like

711
01:06:42.639 --> 01:06:46.000
how they want to help that they
that you know what I'm say, They're

712
01:06:46.000 --> 01:06:49.599
gonna keep playing Nicki Minaja stir until
she reaches number one. You know what

713
01:06:49.599 --> 01:06:53.639
I'm saying? All the barbs to
come together? Are you kidding me?

714
01:06:54.119 --> 01:06:57.159
All the what? All the barbs
we need you to come together. So

715
01:06:57.800 --> 01:06:59.960
it was something like that, I'm
like, Yo, that that is sad

716
01:07:00.360 --> 01:07:03.840
and girl. There's like one hundred
comments right after that saying yeah, you

717
01:07:03.880 --> 01:07:10.639
know what I'm saying we need to
help our queen. Huh. You know,

718
01:07:10.800 --> 01:07:15.840
like like yo, you know what, Like Nicki Minaj is surrounded by

719
01:07:15.920 --> 01:07:18.360
rapists, bro, you know what
I'm saying. Like her brother's in jail

720
01:07:18.440 --> 01:07:21.000
for you know what I'm saying for
twenty five twenty five, like the Life

721
01:07:21.360 --> 01:07:28.320
for rape. She married a rapist, right and then her alter egos Roman

722
01:07:28.360 --> 01:07:33.519
Polanski a rapist. Boom, Yeah
that's true. I heard that. So

723
01:07:34.119 --> 01:07:36.679
so it was like so it was
like, yo, you know what,

724
01:07:39.079 --> 01:07:44.119
knowing that this public knowledge and you
want to be for somebody and sneak to

725
01:07:44.239 --> 01:07:46.960
somebody when that shit get is thrown
at you, you can't be mad.

726
01:07:47.760 --> 01:07:54.679
It's public knowledge, you know,
it's rap battles, you know. And

727
01:07:54.800 --> 01:07:58.320
people online see that's the thing,
you know what I'm saying. People online

728
01:07:58.360 --> 01:08:00.639
they're like, oh, this person
took too far. No, there is

729
01:08:00.760 --> 01:08:05.440
no too far, you know,
there never is no too far. This

730
01:08:05.599 --> 01:08:11.039
is hip hop. There is no
too far. Ship. I remember when

731
01:08:11.119 --> 01:08:13.519
jay Z released Super Ugly talking about
he was you know what I'm saying,

732
01:08:13.559 --> 01:08:15.119
he left condoms on the baby seat. You know what I'm saying, the

733
01:08:15.159 --> 01:08:20.680
baby seed, the Nazis on babies
mom's car. There is no too far.

734
01:08:21.359 --> 01:08:28.000
Mm hmm. That's crazy, you
know like that. But see that's

735
01:08:28.039 --> 01:08:30.960
the thing though, right like like
like you know what, like these fans

736
01:08:31.079 --> 01:08:34.960
like you know, these fans like
they get all offended like oh no,

737
01:08:35.560 --> 01:08:39.720
oh no, see that's gossip and
this that yo, it's a disk record.

738
01:08:40.319 --> 01:08:44.199
You know what I'm saying, You're
supposed to gossip. Ice Crebe wrote

739
01:08:44.239 --> 01:08:50.720
no vassiline you know. Cannabis wrote
you know what I'm saying, second round,

740
01:08:50.760 --> 01:08:55.720
knockout J wrote now mom was gonna, Mom said knock you out.

741
01:08:56.880 --> 01:09:02.560
You know, these are disc records
and a coffee yo, yo, exactly,

742
01:09:02.800 --> 01:09:05.199
these are disrecords. You know what
I'm saying. Fifty cent roll back

743
01:09:05.239 --> 01:09:08.960
down in a slew of other ship. You know what I'm saying that Jo

744
01:09:09.119 --> 01:09:13.920
rule, These are disrecords. They're
supposed to be disrespectful, you know,

745
01:09:14.119 --> 01:09:19.479
like like this new generation man like, they're very they're very tenderfoot, they're

746
01:09:19.520 --> 01:09:29.319
very soft, very very soft.
Mhmm. And got the nerve to talk

747
01:09:29.319 --> 01:09:33.640
about Generation X, bro. We
were the latch key kids, man,

748
01:09:33.760 --> 01:09:36.560
like, you know what, we
were outside you know what I'm saying,

749
01:09:36.760 --> 01:09:40.319
yo, matter of fact, we
were the last generation to be outside.

750
01:09:41.800 --> 01:09:45.640
Yeah, you know like like,
yo, you know what, we ate

751
01:09:45.720 --> 01:09:47.960
pizza, but we didn't know what
gluten was. I just you know what

752
01:09:47.960 --> 01:09:51.680
I'm saying. I found out about
gluten five years ago. But after the

753
01:09:51.720 --> 01:09:54.960
pizza real was like, yeah,
I need a pizza that's gluten free.

754
01:09:55.000 --> 01:09:59.960
I was like what you know what
I'm saying gluten? What what's gluten?

755
01:10:00.279 --> 01:10:11.000
I'm allergic to gluten. I'm allergic
to gluten. Bro, Like you know

756
01:10:11.000 --> 01:10:15.560
what I'm saying, Like like,
yo, you know what you know,

757
01:10:15.920 --> 01:10:18.840
I grew up at a time when
like but like my parents, you know

758
01:10:18.840 --> 01:10:23.039
what I'm saying, they disciplined me. Now, they that type of discipline

759
01:10:23.039 --> 01:10:30.800
they considered child abuse and attempted murder. Yeah, you know what I'm saying,

760
01:10:30.880 --> 01:10:34.880
Like like, bro, you know
what I'm saying. Like there was

761
01:10:34.960 --> 01:10:38.319
times like you know what I'm saying, Like for instance, in the park

762
01:10:38.640 --> 01:10:44.279
when we had that metal ass let
slide and ship no trees summer in the

763
01:10:44.359 --> 01:10:47.760
summer, Holy shit, I'm gonna
go to the park. You know what

764
01:10:47.800 --> 01:10:50.960
I'm saying. Slide on that slide, bro, Yo, you're going down

765
01:10:51.039 --> 01:10:54.640
that slide, You're coming up a
second degree burns. Bro. And we

766
01:10:54.720 --> 01:10:59.000
did it again just because we were
ignorant. We played tackle football on the

767
01:10:59.079 --> 01:11:02.239
concrete because the city that you know
what I'm saying, Mike corleon't lived that.

768
01:11:02.520 --> 01:11:05.600
They don't want to build fields like
they do now for they got fuck

769
01:11:05.600 --> 01:11:10.640
the soccer fields everywhere. That's true, you know, they got you know

770
01:11:10.680 --> 01:11:12.840
what I'm saying, like like,
yo, you know what we have to

771
01:11:12.960 --> 01:11:15.119
like we have to like break you
know what I'm saying, like sneaking to

772
01:11:15.199 --> 01:11:19.680
this college right and play football there
to the to the Stevens cops came and

773
01:11:19.800 --> 01:11:23.279
kicked us out, and then we'll
come back and finish off the game,

774
01:11:25.439 --> 01:11:28.239
you know because like oh yo,
I remember one cop was like, oh,

775
01:11:28.279 --> 01:11:29.800
why you're gonna play somewhere else?
It is like, well, because

776
01:11:29.800 --> 01:11:31.960
the city don't build places for us
to go play. Now they have all

777
01:11:32.039 --> 01:11:38.119
that ship Yeah exactly, Like bro, you know what we're playing. We

778
01:11:38.239 --> 01:11:44.439
were playing Manhood and Bandos and then
Bandos in the row houses, you know

779
01:11:44.439 --> 01:11:46.279
what I'm saying, where crackheads were
on the second floor smoking crack. We're

780
01:11:46.279 --> 01:11:53.960
playing manhund They ain't bother us,
We ain't bothered them absolutely, and these

781
01:11:54.039 --> 01:11:56.119
kids, you know what I'm saying, like like, yo, you know

782
01:11:56.199 --> 01:12:00.079
what yeah, I'm gonna go play
football. Oh yeah, we're gonna huh

783
01:12:00.319 --> 01:12:03.199
some guys online. Man, that's
not playing football, bro. I mean

784
01:12:03.479 --> 01:12:12.479
it is, but it's not yo
to you know, like talking about you

785
01:12:12.520 --> 01:12:15.800
know, you know what I'm saying, like, oh, generation acts,

786
01:12:15.840 --> 01:12:18.319
bro, we would hurt your feelings
and hurt your face at the same time.

787
01:12:19.680 --> 01:12:21.800
You know, we didn't do this. You know what I'm saying,

788
01:12:21.840 --> 01:12:26.680
this troller shit online. We did
that shit in your face, so you

789
01:12:26.720 --> 01:12:30.680
knew where it was coming from.
Like we threw rocks. We never you

790
01:12:30.720 --> 01:12:32.840
know what I'm saying. We threw
rocks were there to hide our hands,

791
01:12:34.560 --> 01:12:36.680
you know, not like you know
what I'm saying this generation where like you

792
01:12:36.720 --> 01:12:40.159
could go make a fake page thro
rocks to hide your hand and shit.

793
01:12:40.520 --> 01:12:45.479
No, you know, like we
was up close and personal, you know

794
01:12:45.520 --> 01:12:47.199
what I'm saying. And to be
honest, and you know what, there

795
01:12:47.199 --> 01:12:50.520
would never be a generation like ours
because yell, you know what, we

796
01:12:50.560 --> 01:12:56.399
were the last one that's up close
and personal. Now you know how we

797
01:12:56.600 --> 01:13:03.680
talk and all that stuff is considered
bullying. Yeah, it's not for me,

798
01:13:03.760 --> 01:13:06.479
it's not. That's just you know
what I'm saying that that's just a

799
01:13:06.560 --> 01:13:09.279
general way. You know what I'm
saying to me, saying, Yo,

800
01:13:09.319 --> 01:13:17.239
what up? You know, like
it's whatever. What I'm trying to say

801
01:13:17.319 --> 01:13:23.960
is that yo, you know what, like things, Yo, certain things

802
01:13:24.039 --> 01:13:28.439
change for the good and then certain
things change for the bad. Right,

803
01:13:29.399 --> 01:13:35.119
like this generation man, like that's
supposed to make you know, be leading

804
01:13:35.159 --> 01:13:40.760
the world in a couple of years. Right. What's good about them is

805
01:13:40.800 --> 01:13:45.079
that they know how to deal with
their feelings. What's bad about them is

806
01:13:45.119 --> 01:13:50.279
that they want to cancel every many
they have too many? Yeah, you

807
01:13:50.319 --> 01:13:54.760
know what I'm saying, like you
want to cancel every and everything. Oh,

808
01:13:56.039 --> 01:13:58.960
we're gonna cancel him because I didn't
like what You're too sensitive, shut

809
01:13:59.000 --> 01:14:06.520
the fuck up and opinions and opinion
mm hmm. Period. See that's the

810
01:14:06.600 --> 01:14:16.079
problem, and that's my right for
the day. Yeah, you know what,

811
01:14:16.119 --> 01:14:19.439
I'm serious though, but but but
but no, but I'm that serious.

812
01:14:19.479 --> 01:14:25.159
It's like it's like, you know, like like the generations like I

813
01:14:25.279 --> 01:14:27.720
had, Like like, you know
what, my you know what I'm saying,

814
01:14:27.760 --> 01:14:29.279
my baby girl, I'm just gonna
tell her, yo, you know

815
01:14:29.319 --> 01:14:31.640
what, say say what you feel
if you got in trouble for it,

816
01:14:32.359 --> 01:14:39.520
Oh wow, to speak your mind
all the time. Always don't sugar coat

817
01:14:39.520 --> 01:14:43.640
shit. You don't. And if
someone was like, yo, you hurt

818
01:14:43.680 --> 01:14:46.039
my feelings, Yeah, put a
condum on your heart and fuck your feelings.

819
01:14:47.560 --> 01:14:57.479
M hm. You know like like
like you know what, like I

820
01:14:57.560 --> 01:15:00.239
can't yo, I really can't stand
where people be like yo, yo,

821
01:15:00.479 --> 01:15:08.079
w you taking things too far?
Am I? I'm just I'm just reciprocating

822
01:15:08.119 --> 01:15:11.479
what was throwing at me. Yeah, but you're crossing a line. There

823
01:15:11.640 --> 01:15:16.039
is no line once you cross me. Once you throw certain things my way,

824
01:15:16.600 --> 01:15:19.640
and I'll react and the themes and
it's like being too far. No,

825
01:15:19.760 --> 01:15:25.399
it's not being too far. I'm
just getting started, you know,

826
01:15:25.560 --> 01:15:32.720
Like I'm just getting started. I'll
decide what I went too far? Yeah,

827
01:15:32.840 --> 01:15:41.920
it's yeah. I was born raised
in the eighties rock ye. See

828
01:15:42.399 --> 01:15:46.600
see our generation is that yoyo.
We are that generation where if you fucked

829
01:15:46.640 --> 01:15:51.399
around, you really found out.
Man, I be today and i'll be

830
01:15:51.439 --> 01:15:57.640
tomorrow, but you're gonna find out
a person on site, you know,

831
01:15:58.399 --> 01:16:00.239
whether whether it was a B or
West, a beat on site, or

832
01:16:00.359 --> 01:16:03.800
a terminate on site, you found
out. Now, if it was a

833
01:16:03.880 --> 01:16:15.840
termination on site, if you found
out, then you're no longer hear mm

834
01:16:15.920 --> 01:16:24.000
hmm, yeah, I know what
happened to the highest tolerance of yo yo

835
01:16:24.359 --> 01:16:34.560
the name highest he reached that peak
today he zoned out. Mh But yeah,

836
01:16:34.600 --> 01:16:38.600
bro, like like that's like that's
what it is, man, Like

837
01:16:42.960 --> 01:16:50.279
yeah, yeah, I know,
yah yeah. So I mean like,

838
01:16:50.880 --> 01:17:00.439
like, yo, another thing,
right, like like my son's mother's pressure

839
01:17:00.479 --> 01:17:02.920
on my son to finish college.
Right, but I already knew from the

840
01:17:03.079 --> 01:17:08.600
jump that that, you know what
I'm saying, Like he didn't want to

841
01:17:08.640 --> 01:17:15.199
do all that, right, you
know, so like so you took the

842
01:17:15.279 --> 01:17:20.680
semester off all of a sudden.
You know, it's directly like, oh,

843
01:17:21.000 --> 01:17:27.199
you're in a motorcycle club at this
time of third excuse me, you

844
01:17:27.279 --> 01:17:29.840
know, and blah blah blah.
You know what I'm saying, like trying

845
01:17:29.920 --> 01:17:31.800
like trying to make him feel bad
and like you know what, and then

846
01:17:31.920 --> 01:17:35.479
like you know, here's the best
part. Whenever he wants to my house,

847
01:17:36.159 --> 01:17:43.319
Oh you're with your awesome parent.
My nigga, I haven't been with

848
01:17:43.399 --> 01:17:45.760
you in twenty something years, right, so you know what I'm saying,

849
01:17:45.800 --> 01:17:48.560
Like it's like why am I always
catching strays for? Right? You know,

850
01:17:49.079 --> 01:17:54.000
I'm situation and yeah, I'm henna
catch a strays. That's crazy,

851
01:17:54.920 --> 01:17:57.199
Like, yo, you know what. And I told my son's mother,

852
01:17:57.279 --> 01:17:59.439
I'm like, yo, you're gonna
lose him as a son until you start

853
01:17:59.439 --> 01:18:00.600
respecting him at as a man.
Yo, he's twenty one years old.

854
01:18:01.079 --> 01:18:04.880
Let him make his own decisions.
He fails, he fails, who cares?

855
01:18:06.199 --> 01:18:15.000
Let him fail? Let him fall, you know. And that's the

856
01:18:15.039 --> 01:18:16.760
reason why, you know what I'm
saying, my son messes with me a

857
01:18:16.840 --> 01:18:19.640
lot more than he messes with his
own mom. You know, Like that's

858
01:18:19.640 --> 01:18:24.880
the reason why he coplads me more
than anything, because like it's not that

859
01:18:24.960 --> 01:18:28.680
I don't care what he does.
Is that I understand, you know,

860
01:18:28.880 --> 01:18:32.800
Like as as he grew older,
it's like it's like yo, you know

861
01:18:32.880 --> 01:18:38.920
what, Like you're supposed to grow
with your child, you know what I'm

862
01:18:38.920 --> 01:18:44.840
saying. That's the whole thing.
You know, Like like my son's like

863
01:18:44.920 --> 01:18:49.159
my son's mother man, like she
does like very narcissistic shit to try to

864
01:18:49.159 --> 01:18:55.760
play victim after that, you know, and they're like my son was like

865
01:18:56.600 --> 01:18:58.439
like one day, like you know, like he was renting. He was

866
01:18:58.479 --> 01:19:02.000
like he's like you know what,
I see what you know you know,

867
01:19:02.119 --> 01:19:04.199
like I see why. You know
what I'm saying, you could never be

868
01:19:04.319 --> 01:19:12.880
with my mom? Right, I'm
like hmm, I'm like remember when you

869
01:19:12.960 --> 01:19:15.920
know, like you're probably ten years
old, dad, how come your mama

870
01:19:15.000 --> 01:19:18.720
not together? I'm like, we're
going to you know, we're going to

871
01:19:18.800 --> 01:19:21.439
cross this bridge and talk about this
when I them when you're a little older.

872
01:19:24.000 --> 01:19:25.960
So then you know, he was
like, yeah, I think you

873
01:19:26.039 --> 01:19:29.479
see why Now he's like, oh
yeah, he's like, you'll kill her.

874
01:19:29.840 --> 01:19:34.279
I'm like, I know, trust
me, I know. So then

875
01:19:34.319 --> 01:19:43.079
what then? Then? How what
was that? I couldn't hear you?

876
01:19:43.119 --> 01:19:46.119
What was that? I said?
So, then, guys together in the

877
01:19:46.199 --> 01:19:56.760
beginning to have you, she must
have not always been. It's called hennessy

878
01:19:57.279 --> 01:20:05.319
right on being in Lake tux Lazy. That's just ship because the next did

879
01:20:05.399 --> 01:20:12.920
you say late text lazy? Yeah, oh my goodness, you know he

880
01:20:13.039 --> 01:20:24.560
said, and late text Leslie and
late Leslie Oh my god, no ed

881
01:20:24.760 --> 01:20:33.439
that edit that society Like it's like, you know what, like we were

882
01:20:33.520 --> 01:20:39.079
cool peoples and stuff, but like
then I got to know the real herd

883
01:20:41.159 --> 01:20:45.880
mm hmmm. And by that time
it was too late, you know,

884
01:20:45.039 --> 01:20:54.880
like like we were like friends with
benefits. Oh my goodness. See that's

885
01:20:54.920 --> 01:21:00.279
what happened. People are in such
a hurry, dick and uh they they

886
01:21:00.439 --> 01:21:03.319
just don't even take time to get
to know somebody before they start dipping and

887
01:21:03.439 --> 01:21:06.319
diving. No, but yo,
you know I knew her for years before.

888
01:21:06.399 --> 01:21:09.760
You know what I'm saying, the
baby, I just didn't know the

889
01:21:09.840 --> 01:21:13.439
real her. You know what I'm
saying. How do you? Because Yo?

890
01:21:13.479 --> 01:21:15.159
You know what? Because Yo,
you know what it's it's real simple,

891
01:21:15.239 --> 01:21:17.600
because you know what, all this
time, you know what I'm saying.

892
01:21:17.760 --> 01:21:19.960
I was like, you know what
I'm saying, rock with her representative.

893
01:21:20.319 --> 01:21:24.399
Like we'll go out the clubs and
bars and all that stuff. Everything

894
01:21:24.439 --> 01:21:27.319
will be cool. You know what
I'm saying, be rock with a representative,

895
01:21:27.920 --> 01:21:39.079
because everybody has a representative, everybody, So you know her representative.

896
01:21:39.119 --> 01:21:42.159
You know what I'm saying. I'm
here thinking like, yo, you know

897
01:21:42.239 --> 01:21:46.199
what saying that bad and the less
thing, you know it arguments at the

898
01:21:46.359 --> 01:21:48.760
arguments, that toxic shit, you
know what I'm saying. And I'm like,

899
01:21:48.840 --> 01:21:54.920
oh, no, like remember that
car accident. Yeah, I wasn't

900
01:21:54.920 --> 01:21:58.079
even I wasn't even with her.
We got we got to a car accident

901
01:21:58.119 --> 01:22:00.680
I end up breaking my hand,
right, and we were we were like

902
01:22:00.760 --> 01:22:02.680
with two girls and stuff. She's
gonna you know what I'm saying, Like

903
01:22:04.239 --> 01:22:11.479
she heard that I was in a
car accident. She caused the hospital and

904
01:22:11.600 --> 01:22:13.880
she found out that there was like
other two girls that we were hanging out

905
01:22:13.920 --> 01:22:16.159
with, and she's talking about oh
you know yeah, I'm his wife.

906
01:22:17.039 --> 01:22:20.399
I'm like, my what right,
that's right? The nurse said, your

907
01:22:20.479 --> 01:22:26.680
wife was on the phone. I'm
like what you know, Like you know

908
01:22:26.680 --> 01:22:29.520
what I'm saying. Mind ya,
I wasn't weather, you know, like

909
01:22:30.199 --> 01:22:31.000
the guy was like, y,
I ain't dealing with you no more.

910
01:22:33.359 --> 01:22:35.399
All that, you know what I'm
saying, All that toxic ship. You

911
01:22:35.399 --> 01:22:39.159
know what I'm saying. Like some
people just like you know, love to

912
01:22:39.239 --> 01:22:45.600
be like tnt they love the drama. I don't like drama. Mm hmmm.

913
01:22:47.760 --> 01:22:55.159
So I mean it just toxic and
like you know what, and like

914
01:22:57.119 --> 01:23:02.520
and she's the type to like hold
a grudge side like forever, you know,

915
01:23:02.680 --> 01:23:06.279
like because if you if you still
call me the cool parent, you

916
01:23:06.319 --> 01:23:10.359
know what I'm saying, Like tell
our son is twenty one years old,

917
01:23:10.560 --> 01:23:14.079
and like, oh you're gonna go
to the cool parent? Are you kidding

918
01:23:14.119 --> 01:23:17.000
me, Like like is this what
this is is still a competition, Like

919
01:23:17.119 --> 01:23:28.159
I'm not even competing with you.
I never was right that to me,

920
01:23:28.359 --> 01:23:30.840
Like like you know what, there's
really you know what I'm saying, Like

921
01:23:30.359 --> 01:23:33.399
there's really something wrong. I can't
fix it for them. I won't fix

922
01:23:33.439 --> 01:23:39.720
it for them. It's really like
and it's it's really like a self esteem

923
01:23:39.760 --> 01:23:44.279
issue that they got to work with, you know, like you feared you

924
01:23:44.479 --> 01:23:47.239
feared me, you know, being
a cool parent so much that you put

925
01:23:47.279 --> 01:23:50.479
it in my son's head that I
have the cool parent. I don't believe

926
01:23:50.520 --> 01:23:59.640
you said late text lazy. That's
that's I don't believe that ship he said,

927
01:24:00.119 --> 01:24:04.760
see it late text lazy. Oh
my goodness, yeah I said it.

928
01:24:13.720 --> 01:24:20.600
People. Oh my god, what
was that? I said? Y'all

929
01:24:20.680 --> 01:24:30.520
know a lot of them late text
me. Oh yeah, oh man,

930
01:24:32.720 --> 01:24:38.479
I got a little one for me. Yeah, I got a little one.

931
01:24:39.600 --> 01:24:46.960
I got a little one. She's
teething, setting up. She says

932
01:24:47.039 --> 01:24:50.439
that that. I'm like, oh, every time my mom leaves, I'm

933
01:24:50.439 --> 01:24:54.560
like, yeah, it's part of
time. Let's rock out. I'll change

934
01:24:54.560 --> 01:24:58.720
a diaper, make a laugh,
throwing a play gym, watch a bounce

935
01:24:58.760 --> 01:25:03.279
up and down, going crazy and
stuff. Then I go feed him.

936
01:25:05.000 --> 01:25:09.880
She finally, Yo, she ate
the eggs last week. That's not real

937
01:25:10.000 --> 01:25:15.319
cool. She had the itis.
I'm like, my first baby's nigga writis

938
01:25:15.960 --> 01:25:19.680
how she knows how she knows,
like she knows, like you know,

939
01:25:19.840 --> 01:25:25.920
like like like the difference between that
food drunk and that milk drunk. Oh

940
01:25:27.960 --> 01:25:30.880
but but you know like like today
I try to give up broccoli. She

941
01:25:30.079 --> 01:25:32.359
ate it. But yo, she
shipped that ship out, you know,

942
01:25:32.479 --> 01:25:35.880
like like you know what, There's
been a couple of times where I have

943
01:25:35.960 --> 01:25:42.399
to like throw the baby away.
You know. It was like, yo,

944
01:25:42.439 --> 01:25:44.199
you know where you're close, Knight, even worth saving? You know

945
01:25:44.680 --> 01:25:47.680
you know what I'm saying, Like
it's not worth It's not worth a headache.

946
01:25:49.079 --> 01:25:54.319
Into the bathtub, you go,
I'll be waterboarding my daughter. Like

947
01:25:54.399 --> 01:25:56.680
she'd be sitting in that little thing, you know, like I'd be throwing

948
01:25:56.720 --> 01:25:58.640
like you know, you know,
corn, a cup of water, like

949
01:25:58.640 --> 01:26:00.159
you know, throwing the donner.
And then like sometimes I just got the

950
01:26:00.279 --> 01:26:04.239
idea, like you know, like
I'm like I'm the CI agent, pour

951
01:26:04.319 --> 01:26:06.319
the water in and throw in her
face a little bit. She's like,

952
01:26:08.279 --> 01:26:15.159
who is the diamonds, Like,
give me the diamonds. You're like,

953
01:26:15.239 --> 01:26:16.079
what that that? It's like,
I don't want to hear that. Give

954
01:26:16.119 --> 01:26:26.920
me the diamonds, Like stop watering
the baby. It's funny as well though,

955
01:26:26.960 --> 01:26:30.720
bro, Like but yeah, yeah, you know what they're like.

956
01:26:32.800 --> 01:26:39.600
That's the reason why you know,
Like, I'm gonna tell my daughter the

957
01:26:39.720 --> 01:26:43.520
first off, you know what my
biggest fear is to you know what I'm

958
01:26:43.520 --> 01:26:45.720
saying. That is, like,
there's so many fears nowadays, right,

959
01:26:47.720 --> 01:26:50.920
one of them is to like for
her to get bullied. That's the reason

960
01:26:50.960 --> 01:26:58.039
I'm putting on a MMBA class early, because like, these little girls don't

961
01:26:58.039 --> 01:27:00.000
be playing fair. Like I live
right of the Cours Street from my high

962
01:27:00.079 --> 01:27:04.239
school, and there was a fight
that broke out like like probably like a

963
01:27:04.279 --> 01:27:10.399
week and a half ago, and
the small girl was getting know what I'm

964
01:27:10.399 --> 01:27:13.319
saying, It was getting ran down
on by like a bunch of like juniors

965
01:27:13.359 --> 01:27:15.399
and seniors. Man, you know
what I'm saying, And like, yo,

966
01:27:15.520 --> 01:27:16.720
you know what, they mopped the
floor, Herry, bro. I

967
01:27:16.760 --> 01:27:24.960
felt bad, but I wasn't gonna
get into that shit because cops are already

968
01:27:25.039 --> 01:27:30.079
running down one another block. So
but I felt bad because like that girl

969
01:27:30.199 --> 01:27:32.119
was crying. He's like, I
don't know what I did to do?

970
01:27:33.000 --> 01:27:35.319
Not bro, you want to go
and defend yourself and like, yo,

971
01:27:35.359 --> 01:27:41.079
you know what, I felt bad, But like you gotta defend yourself.

972
01:27:41.079 --> 01:27:43.560
You know what I'm saying, Like, if you get you know what I'm

973
01:27:43.600 --> 01:27:45.880
gonna take to my daughter, Like, Yo, if you ever get jumped,

974
01:27:45.720 --> 01:27:49.079
okay, catch him in school,
one by one. You catch them

975
01:27:49.119 --> 01:27:53.000
in the hallway, you beat the
ass, catch them outside, beat the

976
01:27:53.079 --> 01:27:57.840
ass on sight. Even though violence
begets violence, but sometimes violence is the

977
01:27:57.920 --> 01:28:01.600
key to success. I mean,
isn't this how this country was built on

978
01:28:02.239 --> 01:28:18.800
violence? It's the American way?
Saber truth, Yeah, Saba true nah,

979
01:28:18.840 --> 01:28:21.640
but like really like I'm like,
I'm gonna tell my daughter to yo,

980
01:28:21.720 --> 01:28:26.439
defend yourself at all costs. However, if she's being a bully,

981
01:28:28.720 --> 01:28:41.319
ah, there's gonna be proms h
h yeah, the being bean Bean,

982
01:28:41.399 --> 01:28:45.760
you don't want to be the bully? Nah, I don't know you don't

983
01:28:45.800 --> 01:28:50.399
because then because yeah, first off, there's always someone bigger than you and

984
01:28:50.479 --> 01:28:59.800
better than you, you know,
like always hmm. And then not being

985
01:29:01.960 --> 01:29:06.399
Yeah, I'm in my spaceship right
now. It may not being in your

986
01:29:06.439 --> 01:29:15.920
class or in your school, but
you're gonna come across that person. Yeah,

987
01:29:16.640 --> 01:29:19.319
m hmm. I know, I
know you. I know you just

988
01:29:19.359 --> 01:29:23.800
got in the car and not so
long ago, but we've been on an

989
01:29:23.840 --> 01:29:26.000
hour and a half. So yeah, I see that. Yeah. I

990
01:29:26.079 --> 01:29:28.079
was actually listening to you guys on
YouTube. I'm like, yeah, they

991
01:29:28.159 --> 01:29:33.479
need me. The fuck is that
supposed to be? You guys need a

992
01:29:33.560 --> 01:29:45.920
villains, keep it a buck And
I'm the villain Lady G yo, Yo,

993
01:29:45.039 --> 01:29:47.479
lady G somewhere you know what I'm
saying, doing the toenails and ship.

994
01:29:49.079 --> 01:29:56.600
She's just like, ah, that's
fuck no, not now. But

995
01:29:56.720 --> 01:30:00.720
like I heard you guys, and
I was like, right, introspective.

996
01:30:00.720 --> 01:30:09.000
I shot joined the fun up with
that introspectiveness in a minute. Yeah all

997
01:30:09.079 --> 01:30:12.680
right, So what you're gonna do
is what happened? You know what I

998
01:30:12.840 --> 01:30:15.680
was I was TG was on That's
what I could be like. Yo,

999
01:30:18.159 --> 01:30:26.039
Yeah, she's she's got uh some
kind of procedures she's got to do in

1000
01:30:26.119 --> 01:30:30.000
the morning, so she had to
go to bed early. Yoh, good

1001
01:30:30.039 --> 01:30:34.840
luck to her. Yeah, medical
procedure. Yeah, good luck speaking you

1002
01:30:34.920 --> 01:30:39.159
know, speaking of like procedures.
Man, Like I gotta call my doctor's

1003
01:30:39.199 --> 01:30:44.479
PAM. But like, yo,
we're doing this or what Oh they're gonna

1004
01:30:44.520 --> 01:30:48.239
finally clean out your booty hole.
I already did that last year, yo,

1005
01:30:49.000 --> 01:30:53.600
Yo, my first callscul be right. They gave me some bullship to

1006
01:30:53.760 --> 01:30:59.239
drink. Oh oh. And then
like what made it worse is like it

1007
01:30:59.359 --> 01:31:00.880
was in the summer to and this
is that time I was at my parents'

1008
01:31:00.920 --> 01:31:06.239
house and there's a bar and grill
across the street and that small steak throughout

1009
01:31:06.279 --> 01:31:12.159
the whole freaking time, mm hmm. And then and then like you know

1010
01:31:12.920 --> 01:31:14.960
Hispanic parents. You know what I'm
saying, in the summertime, they like

1011
01:31:15.000 --> 01:31:18.520
to make soaper. I don't know
why that makes no sense. I'm cold,

1012
01:31:18.680 --> 01:31:23.039
yo, seventy eight degrees. What
do you mean you're cold? I'm

1013
01:31:23.319 --> 01:31:27.079
making some sup all year, nah, bro chill. You know what I'm

1014
01:31:27.079 --> 01:31:30.800
saying? So seasonal? No,
it's not. You know what you're the

1015
01:31:30.920 --> 01:31:32.800
type to make, you know what
I'm saying, to make white rice and

1016
01:31:32.840 --> 01:31:39.279
black beans with benini when it doesn't
go together, all those that goes together,

1017
01:31:44.880 --> 01:31:48.640
oh ship. You know what yo? You know what it's like this

1018
01:31:48.840 --> 01:31:54.159
right when when you know what I'm
saying. People say, I mean,

1019
01:31:54.239 --> 01:31:58.399
ou't gonna do this. I'm like, all right, where's the BENI rightly?

1020
01:31:59.720 --> 01:32:01.199
What mean? They go together?
You know what I'm saying. They

1021
01:32:01.279 --> 01:32:05.560
compliment each other to the point where
it's like you can't you simply can't be

1022
01:32:05.720 --> 01:32:10.359
like I want, I want.
You know what I'm saying, White Rice,

1023
01:32:10.560 --> 01:32:15.039
I be trying that. No,
it doesn't do no, No,

1024
01:32:16.560 --> 01:32:21.159
like Frad Chicken and French wise they
go together, do that, of course

1025
01:32:21.199 --> 01:32:28.800
they do. Broad Chicken and Rice
goes together too. Brad Chicken goes together

1026
01:32:28.800 --> 01:32:34.960
with anything. But BENI has to
be with that, yo, Like there's

1027
01:32:35.039 --> 01:32:45.039
no argument about that. You know
what. It's the best duo since Ebony

1028
01:32:45.119 --> 01:32:51.880
and Ivory, you know, like, it's the best due since Pee Diddy

1029
01:32:51.920 --> 01:32:55.840
and you know what I'm saying,
and it's sexual soult charges it's the best

1030
01:32:55.920 --> 01:33:00.640
duo. Oh my god. You
know they go together, they compliment each

1031
01:33:00.640 --> 01:33:10.800
other. What sodas Morro and Ben. Don't be disrespectful, right, No,

1032
01:33:11.000 --> 01:33:14.319
I'm not being disrespectful. No,
you know what I'm saying. You

1033
01:33:14.399 --> 01:33:21.319
can replace that with the with theo
stonness and then we could talk. Yeah,

1034
01:33:21.319 --> 01:33:26.119
I'm getting hungry, mm hmm.
Not at this time of night,

1035
01:33:26.159 --> 01:33:28.560
you're not no, no, no, no, no no right now,

1036
01:33:29.640 --> 01:33:33.159
Well, well, well you know
what I mean, Like like aren't you

1037
01:33:33.199 --> 01:33:38.880
from South Jersey? Right, and
y'all got the cheese stage. We got

1038
01:33:38.960 --> 01:33:45.560
chop cheese up here, chop cheese. You ever heard of chopped cheese?

1039
01:33:47.039 --> 01:33:53.199
I checked it out right, So
chop cheese is basically like your fried you

1040
01:33:53.199 --> 01:33:59.039
know what I'm saying, Like like
you stuf fried ground beef m cheese on

1041
01:33:59.119 --> 01:34:00.520
top to the melt like you know
what I'm saying, Like you put it

1042
01:34:00.560 --> 01:34:04.920
on a grittel stuff brownbie, add
the cheese until it actually melt, liquifies

1043
01:34:04.920 --> 01:34:08.039
a melt. Then you put it
on a hogie. You know what I'm

1044
01:34:08.039 --> 01:34:11.039
saying, Like, well, like
lettuce, tomatoes onions, and you know

1045
01:34:11.039 --> 01:34:16.279
what I'm saying, may on both
sides. It's banging. Yeah, chop

1046
01:34:16.439 --> 01:34:19.600
cheese. It's it's not a cheese
steak. It's just different. It's just

1047
01:34:19.880 --> 01:34:25.119
made different. It's it's good though. What's really good? Yo yo yo?

1048
01:34:25.239 --> 01:34:27.439
You know what it's like, It's
it's regional for us, you know

1049
01:34:27.479 --> 01:34:29.560
what I mean, Like, like
you know what I'm saying, Like you

1050
01:34:29.600 --> 01:34:33.560
guys got Philly cheese steaks. Oh, man, Yo, we gotta go

1051
01:34:33.600 --> 01:34:41.000
to Tony Lukes me whenever you're ready. Man, I would like to be

1052
01:34:41.079 --> 01:34:45.239
ready. But but if I take
the baby. You know what I'm saying,

1053
01:34:45.279 --> 01:34:50.279
Like, there's gonna be a problem. Why is that you think're gonna

1054
01:34:50.279 --> 01:34:54.079
pull over at the Trump had to
change her diaper? You know what I'm

1055
01:34:54.119 --> 01:34:58.199
saying. You know what I mean, like hare crop like the next exit

1056
01:34:58.279 --> 01:35:03.880
and ship change her diaper. That's
why you got grandfather. Yo? You

1057
01:35:03.960 --> 01:35:08.800
know what I should? Yo?
You know what, like like my parents,

1058
01:35:08.840 --> 01:35:11.279
you know what I'm saying, Like
every time like like see what my

1059
01:35:11.319 --> 01:35:13.840
parents every time, like my daughter
leaves, they get emotional, like and

1060
01:35:13.960 --> 01:35:19.000
my mom starts crying. I'm like
that ship bothers me? Why does it

1061
01:35:19.079 --> 01:35:23.279
bother you? Because I don't want
my mom to cry? Because Yo,

1062
01:35:23.600 --> 01:35:26.520
you know what, I can talk, but yo, you know what when

1063
01:35:26.560 --> 01:35:28.840
it comes to my mom, I'm
very sensitive. Yeah, you know what

1064
01:35:28.840 --> 01:35:30.880
I'm saying, Like I'm like,
mom, or we'll be back. I'm

1065
01:35:30.920 --> 01:35:32.600
like, my better stop me before
you make me cry, or stop the

1066
01:35:32.640 --> 01:35:36.239
ship. And I have to tell
her that stop your ship. You're gonna

1067
01:35:36.239 --> 01:35:41.039
make me cry, damn it.
Stop it's her gratitude for seeing her.

1068
01:35:43.199 --> 01:35:47.600
Yeah, I know, m you
know, but like, yeah, you

1069
01:35:47.640 --> 01:35:51.279
know what I should go. I
should leave, I should leave the baby

1070
01:35:51.319 --> 01:35:57.600
with my parents one day that we
go down to Philly early. Well you

1071
01:35:57.640 --> 01:36:03.560
guys sweet, oh yeah, no
doubt. You know we're you know,

1072
01:36:03.680 --> 01:36:08.960
we're running buck down of South Jersey. Run. Yeah, you definitely would

1073
01:36:09.079 --> 01:36:13.119
run a month. I'll probably get
shot at in Trenton, but hey,

1074
01:36:13.319 --> 01:36:21.279
there's nothing doing. It's Trenton,
all right, all right? Well you

1075
01:36:21.359 --> 01:36:27.000
know, yeah, you know what
power that the people stay black, white,

1076
01:36:27.079 --> 01:36:36.119
orient through whatever. WHOA We're gonna
cut right now. That's lady G.

1077
01:36:36.960 --> 01:36:42.720
That's Dubbs don a k A Simon
Phoenix M d K. That's too

1078
01:36:45.239 --> 01:36:49.600
I know, I know, I
believe me, I know. Call on.

1079
01:36:50.359 --> 01:36:55.000
This has been another episode of this
My Herd podcast. And always keep

1080
01:36:55.000 --> 01:37:01.399
in mind that at some point always
hurts. Who were our people? Lady

1081
01:37:01.479 --> 01:37:05.199
yet m hmm