April 18, 2025

WTF!! Wednesday (Recorded Live 3-19-25)

WTF!! Wednesday (Recorded Live 3-19-25)

Big Corleone, Lady G, Simon Phoenix & TG Love, answer and Discuss your e-mails and give you our raw, honest thoughts. Just remember that at some point "THIS MIGHT HURT"

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Big Corleone, Lady G, Simon Phoenix & TG Love, answer and Discuss your e-mails and give you our raw, honest thoughts. Just remember that at some point "THIS MIGHT HURT"

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Yes, Hey, exce up everybody, this big holy one, this

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might her podcast of course, coming to you live as

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always live and from I guess wherever you want us

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to be from, That's where we're from. That's where we're

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broadcasting from. Use your imagination, think what you want to think,

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and that's where we are. We're here, as always here

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to entertain you, not on need to entertain you, but

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to hopefully, you know what I'm saying, help you guys,

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gain some knowledge on some things you know, and just

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broaden your mind so to speak, you know. So with

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that being said, let me let me bring in my

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co host for the evening. I thought, I heaty.

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Geez, how are you good, evening people?

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How are you doing?

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I'm wonderful as usual, all.

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Right, that's that's what's up. I was your week for

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two weeks really, because you know, we didn't we weren't

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here last week.

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I don't know why you asked me that, because my

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answer is always going to be the same, wonderful, great, smart, Well.

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We want we want to we want to hear that.

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The fans want to hear that you had a fabulous week.

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Even when it's you know, not fabulous.

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It's fabulous, all right.

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Okay, my birthday was last week. That's why we didn't.

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We didn't. Come on. I got together with some with

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some fam and and the kids and stuff, and we

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went to Longhorn Stakhouse and I literally, I literally literally

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thought I can take out a Porterhouse steak and let

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me tell you that I couldn't. It was twenty two ounces.

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Oh wow, Yeah, I I really thought I can. I

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was like, I could take this ship out. I'm gonna

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fuck this steak up. Yeah right, it really it really

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went that way. Yeah, I had a lot left over.

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I really didn't. But I had a good time. Kids

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and some fam and shit like that. We had a

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good time. It was nice. I was pleasantly surprised at

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how nice the evening went.

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So why would you be surprised?

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Why would I be surprised? I guess, I guess because

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everyone who showed up. I was surprised. Some people I

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was surprised showed up that, you know, I was. I was.

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I was just kind of, you know, taken by it all.

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That's all. Okay, Yeah, I just.

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Went I wasn't invited, but hey, hey ain't.

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No way, Hey my bad. I didn't. I wouldn't. I

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wasn't doing I wasn't doing that set it up though.

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Yeah.

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So but but yeah, man, everything is everything is is good,

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Everything is golden. You know what I'm saying. I mean,

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I'm good. I'm getting older, but getting better?

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Are you?

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Are you getting better? Corleon?

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Yes, I am getting better. Come on, doc thor what

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you think? You think I'm not gonna be getting better.

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I'm getting better, you know that. I know. But I

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am getting better though.

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That's good.

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Yeah, I feel I feel good. You know. Everybody has

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their moments, you know what I'm saying. You go through,

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you go through some things here and there, but I

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ultimately feel like like I'm I'm I'm I'm I'm good

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right now.

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That's good.

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And I have I have great co hosts, I got

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good friends. And you know, how much how much better

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can it get? You know? I mean it could? I

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mean I think sometimes sometimes at some point things can

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get a little better. But I honestly think that right now,

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I think I think I'm I'm in a good place. Really,

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And how about you? Do you feel like you're in

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a good place?

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Yeah?

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I get I get in a better place each day

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each week, each month, you know, because the funny thing

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is age and wisdom never come at the same time, right.

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So it's funny because I was at a doctor's appointment

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this morning and uh, I was telling I was telling

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the doctor, I'm like, you know what's funny, I said,

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at this age, this is the oldest I've ever been.

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And I'm more.

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Like, even though I have the aches and pains of

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getting older and you know, the creeping in of the

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arthritis and all that kind of stuff, like I think

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I'm I'm mentally physically, emotionally, you know, I'm in one

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of the best places I've ever been.

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You know.

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That's thes so yeah, and it really is sometimes it

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really is just the state of mind. You know that

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you're in the way you see things, the way you

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see life, the way you know, like they say, life

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is really only ten percent what happens to you. It's

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ninety percent what you do about it, how you handle it.

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Absolutely so absolutely yeah, that's that's what it is, man.

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I mean, you know, you go through you go through things,

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you go you know, you experience things, and you live

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through things and sometimes when when when when when those

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experiences happen and they pass you say to yourself and

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you ask you ask you to actually act yourself. I

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just survived this, right, you know what I'm saying. I

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went through it, I got through it. I survived. Let's

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keep it going, let's keep it moving.

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Yeah, I want you to do that.

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Like sain, think about some of the worst times in

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your life, the worst seasons, the worst moment, the worst seasons.

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Yeah, they definitely that. Life is definitely about seasons too.

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Yeah.

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So if you think about the worst things that you've

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been a part of, or in the middle of, or

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gone through, Right, it wasn't until you allowed yourself to

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actually go through it instead of trying to avoid it,

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that you were able to come out on the other side.

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It was when you had no other choices you had,

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you know, like you kept trying to stay busy, you

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kept trying to ignore it, you kept trying to, you know,

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push it down, and.

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None of that was working.

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You find yourself, you know, just as deep a hole

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as you'd ever been, until you got to a point

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where it was like, I can't take this anymore. I'm

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just gonna let it happen. Once you let it happen

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and you feel what you're feeling. Then you notice, oh, wow,

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that didn't last as long as I thought it would.

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It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be.

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Not saying it was easy, but like, it just wasn't

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as bad as I thought it was.

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Going to be.

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And look at me now, like I'm way, way on.

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The other side of it, and all I can do

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is sit and say, how did I do that? But

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because of it, I'm better for it, Like I'm better prepared.

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For it, you know.

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And and the funny thing is, especially as mental health professionals,

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we tend to, you know, try to assist people to

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not feel what they're feeling, because a lot of people

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come and they're like, I don't like feeling this way.

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I don't want to feel this way. You know, this

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is horrible. Nobody understands. And the reality is nobody can

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understand because each person, even if it's the same situation,

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each person experiences it and goes through it differently. And

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the truth is you got to start telling people like

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when they say you shouldn't feel that way, or you

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need to light you know, lighten up on yourself, or

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you need to get out of your phonk.

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You know, all this stuff how about you just say

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I need to feel what.

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I'm feeling, you know, like, can you just let me

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feel what I'm feeling so that the feeling can move

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because people are so afraid afraid of judgment, afraid of

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their own self judgment. Like what does it mean if

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I can't look at somebody without tearing up? What does

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it mean that I have to take a medicine from

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my emotions? You know, and even people like me, like

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you know, I've mentioned before on the show that I'm

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a Christian, you know, like we're also some of the

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worst people. You know when we tell each other, you know,

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it's it's not of God, Like depression, anxiety, all the

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mental health struggles is not of God.

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Right, Well, clearly.

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He had something to do with it because it's here,

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you know, so he either knew it was going to

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exist or whatever. So it's like we got to start

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letting like supporting people, asking them what is it you need,

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and us who are going through it, you know, saying

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exactly what it is. Because for some people they like

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to be left alone. Other people they need physical touch,

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they need that support, someone to say it's going to

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be okay. Other people actually need advice. They need someone

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to go to so they can get an answer. But

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we have to listen to what people are saying. We

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have to listen, not to answer, but to actually hear

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and to understand, right, you know, that's like just let

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me feel it.

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Yeah. Yeah. A lot of people, well a lot of

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people don't don't realize is that. You know, sometimes when

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you know you have someone to listen and they're listening,

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some people just don't don't know how important it is

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just to have that person there listening. Sometimes they think

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to themselves like, oh, they know, they're just here because

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they feel bad or they did They're here because, you know,

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they they think that you know, I just you know,

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they just feel guilty, They feel bad, they feel like

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they should be there for some reason. But sometimes people

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don't understand that we're genuinely here because we genuinely give

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a fuck, you know what I'm saying, Like, we genuinely care.

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That's why we're here, That's why we listen, that's why

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we give feedback, that's why we do and say what

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we say and do because we genuinely give a shit,

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you know what I'm saying.

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Yeah, But sometimes the people that are going through it.

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They can appreciate that, but in the moment sometimes we

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give them things or think that we're being helpful, and

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we're really not for them. You know, it's not help

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for them. Like my ex best friend, Now.

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Why is this been an ex best friend?

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Well, I guess I'm going to try to make that

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long story short. When we first became friends, she's a

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new Eurekan. Okay, so she's very adamant about things, not

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afraid to tell you like it is. You know, we'll

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throw down at the drop of a hat. Right early, early,

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early in our friendship. When we started, I made it

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very clear to her because I am very self aware

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of myself, but introducing myself to her, introducing this friendship,

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I told her, if there ever comes a day where

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you feel that you need to stop talking to me

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or hold a grudge against me for something I said

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or did, then that is going to be you telling

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me that.

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Our friendship is over.

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Because I love and care about people so much that

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that's not the way you resolve issues. If you hold

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that If you know, like if we're friends, you know

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we're supposed to care and love each other, you're supposed

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to tell me about it. You know, tell me what's happening.

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Tell me what you see that I don't see. If

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you're mad, like I guess, going back to my hood

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around the edges. If you're woll say you're swollen, If

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you want to slap me, tell you tell me you

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want to slap me. If you're gonna want to be

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my family, then act like my family. And me and

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my brothers there were boxing matches. I mean, I'm talking

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gloves and punching bags like it was real. We'd be

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on the porch with the boxing gloves on and we

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literally would have a boxing match outside.

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Like people who love you will tell.

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You the hard things, right because they want to, but

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because they need to, because they love you and want

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you to be better. So anyway, after about fourteen and

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I'm even her daughter's godmother, right after fourteen years of friendship, and.

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And I did suck up a lot of things, you know,

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like there were.

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Plenty of times in our relationship where I felt her,

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I felt you know, just damage from her and the.

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But I accepted her for who she was.

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I accepted that she was that that person that she

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was that you know, petty, and she she would admit

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it herself that she was petty. Right, I accept her

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as that petty person, but it got to a point

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where I wasn't meeting her expectations. I think, I actually

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think the whole thing had to do with being a godparent. Right,

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So I wasn't the godparent that she thought I should

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have been. But in my eyes, in my heart, I

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was being the best godparent. I knew how to be

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the best godparent that I thought I could be, right,

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But for her, it wasn't good enough. So she started,

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I guess, feeling angry, but instead of telling me about it,

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like actually having a how can we resolve it? Conversation,

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she just kept letting her her expectations build and build

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and build, until.

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It got to a point where she actually questioned me.

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About whether I got her daughter a gift or not,

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after I had always already told her made it clear

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to her that at that very moment I wasn't financially able.

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But there in the in the daughters thirteen years of life,

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not once have I not been there for her or

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have I not shown up. And that's the thing, Like

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I tried to show up when I couldn't spend money,

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I would spend money even when I didn't have it,

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just so the girl would have something, you know, like

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I might not have been able to buy the three

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hundred dollars cake, but I didn't show up without one.

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I must be of a cake. It was three hundred dollars.

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Well it's like she saw it on Pinterest and you know,

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all this stuff.

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So it's like, but she has you know, she has

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quality tastes and I can appreciate that. But I'm a

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single parent. I don't have quality pockets.

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You know.

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Uh, that's a good way to put it.

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But I always showed up with love, and even though

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I couldn't get like the unicorn cake she asked for,

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I showed up with a unicorn cake, you know, like

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even if I had to buy all the pieces that

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went with it, or if I had to order something

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on Amazon to put on the cake. Like I even bought,

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you know, the cakes for her other kids who were

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not my god children, but that I love.

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We talked in the little Debbie unicorn cakes and were

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talking a cake you baked yourself.

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No, it's a cake got bought. But they were big cakes.

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You know, I'm just saying because you know, they got

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unicorn little Debbie cakes. I'm just making sure.

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No no, no, no, no, no, I would I would

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buy like the decorations. No, But people who know me.

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Know that I actually go above and beyond sometimes over

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I overdo it, whether it's overgiving, over selling, over loving.

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You know, I'm extra right. So she mentioned all of

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these things as thoughts in her mind, but never that

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they were such a concern that she would stop talking

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to me. So anyway, in October, somebody's laughing at me.

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In October, I actually officiated one of her children's weddings,

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and I was honored to do it.

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I was glad to do it.

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And let me tell you, when I showed up, I

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gave it all I had right, made.

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Sure works everything.

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I was crying over everything. I was, you know, bringing

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the love.

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I was bringing the love. And I did exactly what

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the daughter asked me to do. I can't control traffic,

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and the venue was like three hours away. So for

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the rehearsal dinner the night before, I left three hours

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before I should have to get there on time. But

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driving through Philadelphia traffic, uh, there was like a bad

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accident and I was forty five minutes late to the

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rehearsal dinner. Now, if there's gonna be problems, that's what

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the rehearsal dinners for.

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It's for the problem, so.

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Out.

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Yeah, but when I showed up. As soon as I

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showed up, I stood there kind of waiting to see

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because they were in the middle of the practice. So

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I just stood there to kind of wait until it

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was done so that you know, she could talk to me,

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show me what I was doing. And I apologized profusely,

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but again, I can't control if someone gets in an accident, Like,

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those are things that are out of my control. Now,

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had I left late, that would have been under my control,

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but I left extra early.

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So.

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I got there forty five minutes late.

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After I got there, they all ignored me, like they

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acted like I wasn't even there. And then after the

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thing was over, I tried to approach the bride to

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kind of say, is there anything you know special that

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you need me to do? And I mean, you would think,

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as the bride, you want to make sure everything goes

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off without a hitch, so you want to show you want.

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To show your official what they're supposed to be doing. Nope, Uh,

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they totally ignored me.

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We went to the venue for the dinner, I sat

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there and it just felt very awkward, very uncomfortable.

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But then.

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The morning of the wedding, I went down, you know,

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we all go down early for breakfast and everything. I

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even saw the bride on the elevator and I said

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good morning, and she kind of gave me, you know,

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a dry good morning, and I was like, all right.

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Then, father Mike.

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At that point, you know what I mean again, I

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was handling. That's not me, that's not Whowaiian.

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I made a.

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Promise and I always followed through.

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But then my Michael Madre at breakfast, I was like,

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good morning, you know, being sweet and everything, and she

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just came out of nowhere and was like, so are

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you going to be on time for the wedding today?

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I was like what.

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First of all, we're at the hotel.

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We're literally five minutes down the street from the wedding venue,

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like and the bride, and I asked the bride what

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time do you want me there?

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She said it's twelve o'clock. I was like, okay.

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The wedding didn't start till too, so I was like,

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all right, I'll go at twelve and I'll help, you know,

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set things up I get there, go see the bride

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in her little room that she's getting ready, and basically

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she was again ignoring me, like I wasn't even there.

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And when I asked, there's anything I can do, She's like, no,

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you can just go stand at the uh you know,

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the the altar outside or whatever. So literally she had

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me and my daughter standing just standing outside doing nothing

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for two hours.

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Nah man, and she's I'm sorry.

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Like I didn't know how to feel about that. And

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then at the reception, nobody spoke to me. No, like again,

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nobody acknowledged me, like I was really treated like a

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piece of garbage. So I asked, like her best friend,

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I'm like, you know, are you aware of something that

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I've done that she might be angry? Nobody didn't know nothing,

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didn't say nothing, So I left. I didn't hear from

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the lady for months.

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Yeah, it was.

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And I tried to justify it.

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I really did.

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I tried to justify the behavior or whatnot. But then

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I didn't hear from her for months, and then out

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of nowhere, she invites me to a housewarming and I'm like,

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what Actually Thanksgiving? I sat and I thought to myself,

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of all the things I'm thankful for right, And I

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was like, okay, so we have come fourteen years later,

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we have come to this place that I told her

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if we ever got here, then that was her telling

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me that she no longer wanted us to be friends. Right,

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And she hadn't spoken to me from June all the

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way to Thanksgiving and again saw me and I told

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brat her daughter's wedding and they didn't say thank you.

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I didn't get paid for it, like nothing, nothing, not.

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At all nothing. And I told you, and I put

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my foot in it that day.

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I was like giving them all the love I had

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in my heart and read off of the script that

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she gave me, you know, and I think I knocked

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it out of the park. So but I basically told

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my friend, listen, this is a choice you're making, not me.

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But you know again, I'm a woman of my word.

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I told you this was the consequence for petty, childish behavior.

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And you are fifty something years old and this is

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not the way you should be acting. If you had

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a problem with me. Number one, you should have told

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me because I had no idea. Number two, I still

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don't know what's going on. And number three, you literally

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embarrassed me and treated me like garbage in a public

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setting in front of my own child, and I took it.

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You know.

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I was like, and for me, that is.

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I'm not gonna say I unforgivable, because I can forgive anything,

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but that is just unacceptable and right, you know. And

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I thought I thought we met more than that. And

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then she even came back and was like, you know,

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I was like, and then I don't hear nothing from you,

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and then you're gonna invite me to a house, warm

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me for what so that I could buy you a gift? So,

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you know, because then I started thinking about the fourteen

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years and I was like, you know what, in fourteen

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years and we lived an hour away from each other.

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In fourteen years, you've been to my house twice. I've

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been to your house four to five times a year,

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you know, Like I'm always traveling to you, doing for you,

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doing for your kids. Yeah, pile of me and girls,

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that's exactly.

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And I just I don't. I don't function that way.

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You know.

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Life is too short. Life is too short for me anyway.

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Life is too short. If I have an issue, I'm

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gonna speak up and let you know I have an issue.

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We can make adult decisions and decide we don't want

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to be friends anymore. But I basically told her, yeah,

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they don't.

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They don't.

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And we even saw each other as family, like my

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daughter calls her THITHI, you know, which means aunt. Yeah,

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And then she started contacting my daughter behind my back,

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you know, and I was like, listen, my daughter's at

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the age now where I'm not going to stop you,

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but like that's some really elementary and and I don't

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And so I just decided I don't want to be

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a part of that. So unfortunately, that is why she

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is my ex friend. Now.

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I still love her. I still love her to death.

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And actually, uh, last month, I think it was I

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went and picked my daughter, my guy daughter, up to

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take her out, and being in their house, being in

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their presence caused me to tear up because it was

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very painful.

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It was very painful to have to say.

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Goodbye to a friendship, that a family member that I loved,

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you know. But she was making this choice and I

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needed to stand on that, you know. I needed I

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needed to stand on my promise.

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And that's what I did.

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You know.

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Let me let me real quick and bring Dubson. Hold

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on a second. Hey, you're good. I don't hear you.

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Your mic is off? Yeah, yeah, sound you sound muffled,

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like really bad? Hold so so, so lady, keep going.

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I'm sorry.

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Hey, hey, hey that the Verizon. God, can you hear me? Now?

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Yeah? All right?

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Good?

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Yeah?

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So, I mean just enjoying this air.

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It was really nice out today.

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So oh, But we had started that conversation because I

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was saying, you know, my ex best friend or whatever,

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anytime I was going through something, I couldn't call her

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because as much as I loved there, as much as

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I wanted to call her, like she was the first

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person I thought about when something was going bad, but

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I wouldn't call her because she would always end up

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making it about her.

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And about what I should do instead of allowing me.

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To go through it. Yeah.

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Very toxic, very toxic, and especially at this time of

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my life, toxic. I want that far away from me now.

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All these yo yo friendships, relationships, whatever. Nope, when I

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say goodbye, it's goodbye.

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Don't come back.

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The ship has sailed. You're not gonna be putting me

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on pause. I'm not a placeholder in case your other

483
00:30:06.839 --> 00:30:09.960
thing falls through No, I'm a good friend, I'm a

484
00:30:10.039 --> 00:30:13.759
good woman, I'm a good sister, I'm a good family member.

485
00:30:14.440 --> 00:30:17.119
If you can't deal with me correctly the first time,

486
00:30:18.680 --> 00:30:22.759
then I have to regretfully, lovingly give my.

487
00:30:22.839 --> 00:30:26.720
Distance and live my life. Because my life right now, yeah,

488
00:30:26.799 --> 00:30:29.839
this season of my life. My youngest is about to

489
00:30:29.920 --> 00:30:33.000
graduate high school and go to college.

490
00:30:33.720 --> 00:30:38.839
Right now, it's about her, and when that's done, it's

491
00:30:38.880 --> 00:30:43.559
about me living my best life. And that includes self care,

492
00:30:43.920 --> 00:30:48.839
you know, caring for myself, my relationship with my faith,

493
00:30:50.079 --> 00:30:50.519
my job.

494
00:30:51.039 --> 00:30:51.200
You know.

495
00:30:52.880 --> 00:30:56.880
Yeah, small circle. My circle is so small it doesn't exist.

496
00:30:58.279 --> 00:30:59.640
You're looking at my circle right here.

497
00:30:59.559 --> 00:31:03.559
On the screen. I appreciate that, Thank you very much.

498
00:31:03.680 --> 00:31:05.559
Let me be a part of your circus.

499
00:31:05.839 --> 00:31:07.480
This is the only people I talk to.

500
00:31:08.279 --> 00:31:09.119
I appreciate that.

501
00:31:09.960 --> 00:31:11.880
Yes, absolutely, yeah.

502
00:31:11.920 --> 00:31:15.160
But you know what, when we're younger, you know, there's

503
00:31:15.240 --> 00:31:21.640
a Spanish saying right which basically is like it's better

504
00:31:21.759 --> 00:31:25.440
to be alone than with bad company. You know, So

505
00:31:26.000 --> 00:31:29.960
if I want to be miserable and angry or whatever,

506
00:31:30.079 --> 00:31:31.400
I could do that all about myself.

507
00:31:31.519 --> 00:31:31.759
I don't.

508
00:31:31.759 --> 00:31:33.799
I don't need to have other people in my life

509
00:31:34.640 --> 00:31:37.240
to feel that way, you know. And the funny thing

510
00:31:37.400 --> 00:31:41.720
is I have created a very peaceful, loving life.

511
00:31:42.200 --> 00:31:43.960
You know, I don't have drama.

512
00:31:44.200 --> 00:31:47.359
I don't have any of that stuff. I'm not perfect,

513
00:31:47.440 --> 00:31:51.440
nobody's perfect, you know, but I try to learn something

514
00:31:51.519 --> 00:31:55.200
new about myself every day. I'm always trying to make

515
00:31:55.279 --> 00:31:57.039
myself the better version of myself.

516
00:31:58.279 --> 00:31:58.480
You know.

517
00:32:00.119 --> 00:32:03.480
I'm working on my health, on you know, being healthy,

518
00:32:03.960 --> 00:32:08.279
being a good mom again, a good employee, and just

519
00:32:08.400 --> 00:32:11.920
loving people, loving people how I want to love them,

520
00:32:12.160 --> 00:32:19.319
not you know, right, not always having to to compromise

521
00:32:19.519 --> 00:32:23.160
myself to make them happy. And truthfully, it even includes

522
00:32:24.119 --> 00:32:28.039
you know, my ex husband. You know, like, dude, you've

523
00:32:28.079 --> 00:32:30.440
had so many years where I've been the nice guy.

524
00:32:31.079 --> 00:32:35.319
I'm not the nice guy anymore. I'm not gonna be nasty.

525
00:32:35.400 --> 00:32:37.839
I'm not going to be mean, but I'm gonna play

526
00:32:37.920 --> 00:32:40.839
things the way you want to play them. You know,

527
00:32:41.240 --> 00:32:47.440
you want everything to be dry and like by the book,

528
00:32:47.680 --> 00:32:49.680
So be it. That's how we're doing it. So don't

529
00:32:49.680 --> 00:32:51.880
get mad when I go buy the book and you're

530
00:32:51.920 --> 00:32:54.279
going to be spending money on your lawyers and all

531
00:32:54.319 --> 00:33:00.559
this other kind of stuff. Hey, Midnight, we are wonderful,

532
00:33:01.960 --> 00:33:04.640
you know, So it just comes a time when you

533
00:33:05.079 --> 00:33:08.359
have to. You have to have boundaries for yourself. You

534
00:33:08.519 --> 00:33:11.920
have to say enough is even within yourself, enough is enough.

535
00:33:13.119 --> 00:33:14.839
You know, if I'm not going to take care of me,

536
00:33:15.119 --> 00:33:18.880
how can I expect anybody else to want to take

537
00:33:18.920 --> 00:33:22.599
care of me? You know, Like when I again at

538
00:33:22.680 --> 00:33:26.519
my age, now, I think this is the healthiest I've

539
00:33:26.559 --> 00:33:32.759
been emotionally, mentally, physically, you know, trying to stay active,

540
00:33:32.880 --> 00:33:38.240
trying to do things that I enjoy, you know, making

541
00:33:38.359 --> 00:33:40.680
me happy. Because the truth is, I think we have

542
00:33:40.839 --> 00:33:46.160
this mistake where we tell other people that we're happy

543
00:33:46.240 --> 00:33:48.880
when they're happy, right, And the thing is, that's a

544
00:33:48.960 --> 00:33:51.200
lot of pressure to put on somebody, to put your

545
00:33:51.400 --> 00:33:55.720
happiness in somebody else's hands. That's a lot of pressure

546
00:33:56.440 --> 00:33:59.799
because nobody should be responsible for something you need to

547
00:33:59.839 --> 00:34:03.359
do for yourself, you know, because then that means that

548
00:34:03.480 --> 00:34:05.880
your happiness is always going to depend on the other

549
00:34:05.960 --> 00:34:09.960
people's moods, right, And that's and that's not okay because

550
00:34:09.960 --> 00:34:11.719
what if you're having a bad day, or what if

551
00:34:11.800 --> 00:34:14.639
the you know, doves is having a bad day. If

552
00:34:14.800 --> 00:34:18.159
if I depended on the two of you guys to

553
00:34:18.840 --> 00:34:21.039
bring me my happiness, to make me happy?

554
00:34:22.719 --> 00:34:26.559
Yeah, because especially today, you'll be asked out today.

555
00:34:27.599 --> 00:34:30.280
Yeah, yeah, I saw your message earlier.

556
00:34:30.920 --> 00:34:32.199
Yeah yeah, you know what.

557
00:34:34.119 --> 00:34:36.880
Yeah yeah, So it's like we can't do that.

558
00:34:37.079 --> 00:34:41.480
We have to we have to make ourselves responsible and

559
00:34:41.519 --> 00:34:45.079
and accountable to ourselves to make sure that we're doing

560
00:34:45.199 --> 00:34:48.719
everything we need to do. I think I've mentioned before

561
00:34:48.960 --> 00:34:52.280
I'm at the gym five o'clock every morning, true story.

562
00:34:52.480 --> 00:34:53.480
Yeah, I see you.

563
00:34:55.239 --> 00:34:59.920
Yeah, yeah, yep, yo, Look you know what that is about.

564
00:35:00.480 --> 00:35:03.320
See, I'm at the gym five o'clock every morning. See

565
00:35:03.719 --> 00:35:05.559
that ship just woke me up, you know what I'm saying.

566
00:35:05.840 --> 00:35:07.679
And I can't wait to get my I can't wait

567
00:35:07.719 --> 00:35:10.360
to get my surgery done so I could just beat

568
00:35:10.400 --> 00:35:11.960
so I could come on here and be like, you

569
00:35:12.079 --> 00:35:14.559
know what, I doubled down with you. I'm at the

570
00:35:14.599 --> 00:35:16.400
gym at four thirty in the morning. How you like

571
00:35:16.559 --> 00:35:17.199
them apples?

572
00:35:17.400 --> 00:35:18.800
And I actually go to the gym.

573
00:35:18.840 --> 00:35:20.320
You know, right there with you dubs.

574
00:35:20.920 --> 00:35:23.239
In order to be able, in order to be able

575
00:35:23.320 --> 00:35:27.239
to do this, I've had foot surgery, I've had hand surgery.

576
00:35:28.000 --> 00:35:28.119
Uh.

577
00:35:29.599 --> 00:35:33.559
I just had endoscopy, like I'm doing.

578
00:35:33.440 --> 00:35:33.880
All of it.

579
00:35:34.079 --> 00:35:37.159
Yeah, speaking of endoscopy, I gotta get that Monday you

580
00:35:37.159 --> 00:35:39.159
know what I'm saying, like that that that that's all

581
00:35:39.199 --> 00:35:39.840
pre surgery.

582
00:35:40.800 --> 00:35:43.400
Yeah, but that's what I'm saying, Like sometimes.

583
00:35:43.119 --> 00:35:45.159
I can't wait, I can't wait for this to be over.

584
00:35:45.880 --> 00:35:48.360
Yeah, but sometimes we have to do the thing that

585
00:35:48.480 --> 00:35:50.719
we're most afraid of, you.

586
00:35:50.760 --> 00:35:54.039
Know, liked Yeah, you know what I'm afraid of calling

587
00:35:54.119 --> 00:35:54.800
moscopiece man.

588
00:35:55.239 --> 00:35:58.000
You know what I'm saying, Like I'm put you to sleep?

589
00:35:58.079 --> 00:35:59.119
So why are you afraid of that?

590
00:35:59.719 --> 00:35:59.840
Yo?

591
00:36:00.079 --> 00:36:00.320
Because?

592
00:36:00.360 --> 00:36:02.800
Yo? You know what, it's the torture the twenty four

593
00:36:02.840 --> 00:36:06.320
hours beforehand you're drinking that freaking liquid and ship clearing

594
00:36:06.360 --> 00:36:10.559
yourself out. It's tortuous. And then like you know, yes

595
00:36:10.639 --> 00:36:14.679
it is y yo, yo, Yo, you know what like

596
00:36:15.519 --> 00:36:18.239
just drinking that just drinking that nasty ass liquid that

597
00:36:18.440 --> 00:36:19.960
that you got to drink a gallon of it before

598
00:36:20.000 --> 00:36:20.920
you know what I'm saying anything.

599
00:36:21.239 --> 00:36:23.039
And plus you know I'm saying, you got to drink

600
00:36:23.079 --> 00:36:23.599
a lot of it.

601
00:36:23.840 --> 00:36:27.480
But and plus you're being cleared out. You know what

602
00:36:27.480 --> 00:36:29.360
I'm saying, You're being cleared out to the point where

603
00:36:29.400 --> 00:36:31.079
like you're cramping up because like it happened to me,

604
00:36:31.280 --> 00:36:34.320
right and then like you know, like and and and

605
00:36:34.559 --> 00:36:36.320
and then and and then like you know what I'm saying,

606
00:36:36.639 --> 00:36:39.079
like that you're you're basically on the twenty four hour

607
00:36:39.159 --> 00:36:41.159
faster right, And then like you know what I'm saying,

608
00:36:41.239 --> 00:36:45.400
you smell like people cooking. That's the torture part, because

609
00:36:45.400 --> 00:36:46.840
you know what, at some point you want to eat

610
00:36:47.559 --> 00:36:49.559
and you can't even eat, you know what I'm saying,

611
00:36:49.639 --> 00:36:50.639
that's the tortuous part.

612
00:36:51.079 --> 00:36:53.000
You see what I mean. I've been there before. You

613
00:36:53.039 --> 00:36:54.679
know what I'm saying. That ship was a straight torture.

614
00:36:54.960 --> 00:36:56.559
You just have to prepare it. That's all.

615
00:36:56.599 --> 00:36:58.320
You got to get yourself in the mindset.

616
00:36:59.480 --> 00:37:03.159
And then like you know, waking up and like all

617
00:37:03.199 --> 00:37:04.599
of a sudden, you have don't want the gas and

618
00:37:04.639 --> 00:37:06.960
you're trying to like you know, like with me personally,

619
00:37:07.119 --> 00:37:08.960
think it's funny because I don't want the gas, and

620
00:37:09.079 --> 00:37:11.480
like you know, I'm like, yo, you know what, it

621
00:37:11.599 --> 00:37:13.760
sounds nasty, nough, but like it's natural, you see what

622
00:37:13.800 --> 00:37:14.039
I mean?

623
00:37:14.119 --> 00:37:19.760
Because you know, and Tanya's over here talking about bubble guts.

624
00:37:20.280 --> 00:37:24.079
Yo, that yo, empt Yo, you know what empty bubble guts?

625
00:37:24.119 --> 00:37:26.519
You know what I'm saying, because like for hours, yo,

626
00:37:26.639 --> 00:37:28.360
for hours, you know what I'm saying, Like like granted,

627
00:37:28.360 --> 00:37:30.320
I feel violated as is, you know what I'm saying,

628
00:37:30.360 --> 00:37:31.519
But I'm here, like you know what I'm saying, like

629
00:37:31.639 --> 00:37:34.360
passing gas and that shit sounds like a marching band

630
00:37:34.519 --> 00:37:34.920
coming out.

631
00:37:34.920 --> 00:37:36.679
You know, I'm saying for one of them, HBCUs.

632
00:37:36.719 --> 00:37:39.320
You know what I'm saying, Like it sounds like sounded

633
00:37:39.360 --> 00:37:42.639
like a tune was playing, you know, like like yo,

634
00:37:42.800 --> 00:37:43.719
like it was blown horn.

635
00:37:43.840 --> 00:37:43.960
Bro.

636
00:37:44.320 --> 00:37:46.159
You know what, Like Conoscar piece are the worst.

637
00:37:46.159 --> 00:37:48.360
I don't want to go through it again, but I

638
00:37:48.519 --> 00:37:51.079
have to, you know what I'm saying, because like because

639
00:37:51.119 --> 00:37:52.880
like my first one they found like a lot of polyps.

640
00:37:53.679 --> 00:37:56.599
Yeah that's and that's not good, you know, yeah, exactly.

641
00:37:57.280 --> 00:38:00.440
Again, sometimes we have to do the thing that we have.

642
00:38:00.480 --> 00:38:04.599
That we don't want to do exactly because and I

643
00:38:04.760 --> 00:38:07.480
have to admit that part of the part of this

644
00:38:07.800 --> 00:38:11.199
part of my life this season is because my own

645
00:38:11.400 --> 00:38:14.239
mother passed away when she was fifty two years old, right,

646
00:38:14.960 --> 00:38:18.280
and I was all of like twenty one, maybe like

647
00:38:18.400 --> 00:38:19.679
I was in my early.

648
00:38:21.159 --> 00:38:24.320
Times. I have that I need to eat. That's why

649
00:38:24.400 --> 00:38:26.440
you set it up for like track of dawn morning,

650
00:38:28.199 --> 00:38:30.639
you know, So I'm close. I'm close to that now.

651
00:38:30.920 --> 00:38:33.679
And my youngest is eighteen, so he's not far away

652
00:38:33.719 --> 00:38:34.519
from the twenties.

653
00:38:35.320 --> 00:38:39.239
And even though I know it's not a realistic fear,

654
00:38:39.599 --> 00:38:42.400
it is still a fear, you know, Like.

655
00:38:42.599 --> 00:38:46.679
Of course Mom was fifty two, and I probably won't

656
00:38:46.920 --> 00:38:49.599
forget it. Even if I crossed fifty two, you know,

657
00:38:49.760 --> 00:38:52.239
I still might worry about it. But it's definitely the

658
00:38:52.320 --> 00:38:54.480
time my life where my mortality is.

659
00:38:54.599 --> 00:38:58.320
Definitely you know, question backed me in the face.

660
00:38:58.480 --> 00:39:00.760
A lot of my friends are passing away way, you know,

661
00:39:00.920 --> 00:39:04.480
people that I knew, uh, and we're still fairly young.

662
00:39:04.880 --> 00:39:07.360
So if that's happening, that really gets you thinking, am

663
00:39:07.440 --> 00:39:09.559
I doing what I need to be doing.

664
00:39:11.559 --> 00:39:14.280
To at least set myself up to succeed?

665
00:39:14.440 --> 00:39:16.400
You know what?

666
00:39:16.559 --> 00:39:18.960
Like my mortality always like you know what I'm saying,

667
00:39:19.480 --> 00:39:21.559
Like I always question my mortality, you know what I'm saying,

668
00:39:21.599 --> 00:39:27.199
because you know, things happen, yeah, but but you know,

669
00:39:27.320 --> 00:39:30.519
like earlier, you know, like like like yesterday today, you know,

670
00:39:30.639 --> 00:39:33.920
like the stuff that I seen, I I really you

671
00:39:33.960 --> 00:39:36.679
know what I'm saying, Like, Yo, it got it really

672
00:39:36.679 --> 00:39:38.119
got me to the point where I was like, yo,

673
00:39:38.800 --> 00:39:40.559
you know what I'm saying, Like I would like to

674
00:39:40.599 --> 00:39:45.119
speak on it, but it kind of like crosses lines

675
00:39:45.159 --> 00:39:47.440
a little bit, you know what, because.

676
00:39:47.199 --> 00:39:50.199
You can just do you can generalize it, dubs. You

677
00:39:50.239 --> 00:39:54.079
can just say when it comes to certain things, you know.

678
00:39:54.360 --> 00:39:57.280
Yah yah yo, you know what? All right? So I

679
00:39:57.360 --> 00:39:58.679
have to let it out. You know what I'm saying,

680
00:39:58.760 --> 00:40:00.559
Like if I start crying so big.

681
00:40:00.519 --> 00:40:03.760
Man, because I'm not speaking on the political general, speaking

682
00:40:03.800 --> 00:40:06.559
as a problem it's real. Yeah, you know what I'm saying.

683
00:40:06.559 --> 00:40:08.639
I'm speaking as a dad. You know what I'm saying

684
00:40:08.679 --> 00:40:10.639
when I seen those bodies on the floor, like I

685
00:40:10.760 --> 00:40:13.639
hugged my daughter a little tighter. You know what I'm saying,

686
00:40:14.400 --> 00:40:16.360
because like at some point you know what I'm saying,

687
00:40:16.400 --> 00:40:18.960
like you got to call out you know what I'm

688
00:40:18.960 --> 00:40:20.760
saying the other You know what I'm saying, the elephant

689
00:40:20.760 --> 00:40:23.920
in the room, Like like yo, you know what what's

690
00:40:24.039 --> 00:40:28.920
going on, isn't I don't think that's justified? Like the kids, bro,

691
00:40:29.639 --> 00:40:31.599
you know what I'm saying, Like like like for instance, right,

692
00:40:31.840 --> 00:40:35.480
if Coleon had a problem with me and he saw

693
00:40:35.599 --> 00:40:40.039
me in the street, fine, that's a business to me, right,

694
00:40:40.719 --> 00:40:43.159
But if I caught colle On walking with his kids

695
00:40:43.239 --> 00:40:46.000
or grandkids, I'll let him be yeah, you know what

696
00:40:46.000 --> 00:40:48.320
I'm saying, because like, yo, you know what that's to

697
00:40:48.400 --> 00:40:49.320
me is off limits.

698
00:40:50.039 --> 00:40:51.719
But it's like the fact that.

699
00:40:51.760 --> 00:40:55.719
You know what I'm saying, people justifyd that well you

700
00:40:55.800 --> 00:41:00.199
know they're you know, yeah, you know what I'm saying,

701
00:41:00.280 --> 00:41:02.440
Like it's yo, it's you know what I'm saying, Like

702
00:41:02.679 --> 00:41:05.079
like like I yes, you know what I'm saying, Like

703
00:41:05.400 --> 00:41:08.440
I expect animals to do that. Polar bears do that,

704
00:41:08.599 --> 00:41:11.119
bears do that, lines do that. You know what I'm saying,

705
00:41:12.400 --> 00:41:14.159
Like you know what I'm saying because like that's built

706
00:41:14.199 --> 00:41:17.440
into into their system. Us you know what I'm saying.

707
00:41:17.480 --> 00:41:22.840
We have reasoning and yet you know what I'm saying, Yo, Yo,

708
00:41:23.159 --> 00:41:24.880
it messed me up to the point man, it was

709
00:41:24.960 --> 00:41:26.559
like I didn't.

710
00:41:29.000 --> 00:41:31.719
I can't think about that, think about this, dubs.

711
00:41:31.800 --> 00:41:31.880
Right.

712
00:41:32.159 --> 00:41:35.480
So we've talked about the relationship things before, and you've

713
00:41:35.559 --> 00:41:38.000
talked about like how you used to treat women, and

714
00:41:38.119 --> 00:41:40.280
it wasn't until it happened to you that it kind

715
00:41:40.320 --> 00:41:41.039
of woke you up.

716
00:41:41.159 --> 00:41:43.679
Right, So it's things like that.

717
00:41:44.039 --> 00:41:49.480
It's things like seeing videos, seeing photographs, seeing reality right

718
00:41:50.079 --> 00:41:53.480
of things that we really never saw before from that

719
00:41:53.599 --> 00:41:57.559
point of view to really wake us up and say, man,

720
00:41:58.360 --> 00:42:00.119
so we have to be the change we want to

721
00:42:00.199 --> 00:42:01.000
see you.

722
00:42:01.280 --> 00:42:03.159
You know, it's a funny thing, right.

723
00:42:03.480 --> 00:42:05.119
I used to watch Faces of Death to laugh at

724
00:42:05.159 --> 00:42:07.639
it back then, Like the ship was kind of funny,

725
00:42:07.639 --> 00:42:09.559
you know what I'm saying, Like the narrator, you know,

726
00:42:09.639 --> 00:42:11.159
like he had a very you know, like he had

727
00:42:11.199 --> 00:42:14.840
a very sick sense of humor, you know, And I

728
00:42:14.920 --> 00:42:18.239
found that kind of funny because back then because like

729
00:42:18.360 --> 00:42:20.079
I did not care, Like I had no care in

730
00:42:20.119 --> 00:42:20.559
the world for that.

731
00:42:21.239 --> 00:42:24.199
But but like I don't know, you know what I'm.

732
00:42:24.039 --> 00:42:26.119
Saying, like stars staying home?

733
00:42:26.960 --> 00:42:28.679
Yeah, you know, like like like like yo, you know what,

734
00:42:28.800 --> 00:42:31.559
I can't I can't imagine being a father who has

735
00:42:31.559 --> 00:42:33.519
to bury their child so damn early you know what

736
00:42:33.559 --> 00:42:36.400
I'm saying, and use us with them yesterday, Yeah, you know,

737
00:42:36.559 --> 00:42:44.280
like especially under those circumstances, man, like you know, and like, yo,

738
00:42:44.360 --> 00:42:46.519
you know what. And it's like the messed up part

739
00:42:46.519 --> 00:42:48.800
about it is that if we speak on them, if

740
00:42:48.840 --> 00:42:51.880
we speak out on that, all of a sudden, you

741
00:42:51.920 --> 00:42:56.239
know what I'm saying, your captain the label and you

742
00:42:56.360 --> 00:42:57.599
really can't you know what I'm saying, You have to

743
00:42:57.679 --> 00:43:01.000
be careful around certain things. But however, if it was

744
00:43:01.119 --> 00:43:04.840
done by a different group, yeah, it'll be it'll be.

745
00:43:04.920 --> 00:43:05.480
You know what I'm saying.

746
00:43:06.119 --> 00:43:08.039
Yeah, we can speak out on that not a problem,

747
00:43:08.079 --> 00:43:11.239
We can speak out against that injustice. But yeah, like

748
00:43:11.519 --> 00:43:13.960
you know that's why I like, you know what I'm saying,

749
00:43:14.039 --> 00:43:16.360
Like I'm trying to tiptoe you know what I'm saying.

750
00:43:16.400 --> 00:43:18.880
I'm trying to tiptoe around it because.

751
00:43:20.079 --> 00:43:22.559
Because like it's you know what I'm saying, just the

752
00:43:22.760 --> 00:43:26.519
you know, bro, you know what I'm saying, like like yo,

753
00:43:26.599 --> 00:43:30.119
you know what, like the morning parents and like the

754
00:43:30.239 --> 00:43:30.880
morning kids.

755
00:43:31.360 --> 00:43:36.079
You know what I'm saying, Like they don't they don't

756
00:43:36.119 --> 00:43:36.559
deserve that.

757
00:43:36.719 --> 00:43:39.000
Man, it's hard to lose parents.

758
00:43:39.280 --> 00:43:43.920
But like that, but like that though yeah, but but

759
00:43:44.320 --> 00:43:46.159
but but yo, you know what, Yes, you know what

760
00:43:46.199 --> 00:43:50.239
I'm saying, Like like see like with death, right mhm,

761
00:43:50.480 --> 00:43:53.679
when when someone is sick, when a loved one is sick.

762
00:43:53.760 --> 00:43:56.239
You know what I'm saying, You're expecting it when it

763
00:43:56.360 --> 00:43:57.599
happens like a car accident.

764
00:43:58.679 --> 00:43:59.199
You know what I'm saying.

765
00:44:00.119 --> 00:44:01.559
Yeah, you know what I'm saying, Like it's it's like

766
00:44:01.639 --> 00:44:02.760
a shock, you know what I'm saying, it's like a

767
00:44:02.800 --> 00:44:04.840
shock and all, Like you know, like like anything sudden

768
00:44:04.880 --> 00:44:05.599
is a shock and all.

769
00:44:06.559 --> 00:44:07.800
But when.

770
00:44:09.880 --> 00:44:11.480
That's certain, but what but.

771
00:44:11.599 --> 00:44:14.639
But but when it's that circumstance when you're just hearing

772
00:44:14.719 --> 00:44:16.679
explosions and all of a sudden, something comes to your

773
00:44:17.079 --> 00:44:18.920
living room and you see nothing and you wake up

774
00:44:18.960 --> 00:44:22.079
and your whole family's flat out, you know what I'm saying,

775
00:44:22.159 --> 00:44:25.320
Like out of nowhere, it's like that that to me

776
00:44:25.440 --> 00:44:27.159
is probably kind of different. You know what I'm saying,

777
00:44:27.239 --> 00:44:30.239
like thank and and and yo, you know what, thank

778
00:44:30.320 --> 00:44:33.719
God I live here now, you know what I'm saying,

779
00:44:33.760 --> 00:44:35.280
because like the way.

780
00:44:35.159 --> 00:44:38.599
The world we're going in that way even getting that way, yo.

781
00:44:38.559 --> 00:44:39.199
You know what the yo?

782
00:44:39.280 --> 00:44:41.159
You know what the way you know what I'm saying. Yo,

783
00:44:41.760 --> 00:44:44.679
it's almost as if like us, you know what I'm saying,

784
00:44:44.880 --> 00:44:47.280
Like we're going one way, but the world's going.

785
00:44:47.199 --> 00:44:48.639
To other m hm.

786
00:44:49.400 --> 00:44:51.880
You know what I'm saying, Like it's totally different directions.

787
00:44:52.800 --> 00:44:58.280
And you know, as of right now, I thank god

788
00:44:58.360 --> 00:45:00.920
that you know, like I live the so called safe

789
00:45:00.960 --> 00:45:03.840
haven when in all reality, you know what I'm saying,

790
00:45:03.920 --> 00:45:06.559
like it's probably not that you know what I'm saying,

791
00:45:06.599 --> 00:45:09.800
but as of right now, that's what it is. And

792
00:45:12.360 --> 00:45:17.320
my prayers go out to the you know what I'm saying, hmm.

793
00:45:18.000 --> 00:45:19.599
Yeah, yeah, you know what.

794
00:45:20.679 --> 00:45:24.280
Tell you know what, man like those images man like, like, yo,

795
00:45:24.320 --> 00:45:27.280
you know what it's It's worse than me seeing someone

796
00:45:27.320 --> 00:45:28.119
get hit by a train.

797
00:45:28.760 --> 00:45:34.760
And I've seen it before, you know, like, h.

798
00:45:37.039 --> 00:45:40.760
So, yeah, I understand and and and you know and

799
00:45:41.000 --> 00:45:42.719
and and bro, you know what, and this is the

800
00:45:42.760 --> 00:45:45.360
reason why I question my mortality now. You know what

801
00:45:45.360 --> 00:45:47.519
I'm saying, This is the reason why, like you know, like,

802
00:45:47.920 --> 00:45:51.559
I have a stronger strive to live because you know

803
00:45:51.599 --> 00:45:52.920
what I'm saying, I have a baby. You know what

804
00:45:52.920 --> 00:45:54.639
I'm saying, I need to protect her. You know what

805
00:45:54.639 --> 00:45:56.199
I'm saying. I gotta protect my kids. You know what

806
00:45:56.199 --> 00:45:59.159
I'm saying. If it's gonna get that ugly, you know, like,

807
00:45:59.199 --> 00:46:01.400
I gotta protect my kids, man, because yo, you know what,

808
00:46:02.320 --> 00:46:05.320
you know, I put it on God and everything to

809
00:46:05.400 --> 00:46:07.440
give me. You know, I'm saying this sounds blasphemous, but yo,

810
00:46:07.519 --> 00:46:13.480
you know what, I'd rather die on my feet deliver

811
00:46:13.599 --> 00:46:20.360
my knees, you know, like, and yo, you.

812
00:46:20.400 --> 00:46:22.960
Know what, man like, that's yo, that's just not even right, bro,

813
00:46:24.079 --> 00:46:26.159
you know, like I can't you know what I'm saying.

814
00:46:26.239 --> 00:46:28.119
The only reason why, like it affected me because you

815
00:46:28.159 --> 00:46:31.360
know what I'm saying, Like it's bodies on the ground

816
00:46:31.400 --> 00:46:31.880
that I've seen.

817
00:46:31.960 --> 00:46:34.360
It's the size of my daughter. Bro, It's probably the

818
00:46:34.400 --> 00:46:35.239
same age.

819
00:46:39.039 --> 00:46:40.599
At some point, man, you know what I'm saying, Like,

820
00:46:41.440 --> 00:46:43.920
like you know, and I ain't even speaking on political things, man,

821
00:46:43.920 --> 00:46:46.320
It's on a moral thing, bro, speaking as a human.

822
00:46:47.320 --> 00:46:51.280
No politics, but like yo, you know what. But but

823
00:46:51.400 --> 00:46:54.079
like yo, you know what they're gonna do. You know

824
00:46:54.119 --> 00:46:55.880
what they're gonna be like, Oh, you're sympathizer and this

825
00:46:56.000 --> 00:46:57.719
that and the third you know what I'm saying, Oh yeah,

826
00:46:57.840 --> 00:47:00.360
you know what I mean. So so that means they're okay.

827
00:47:00.400 --> 00:47:01.760
You know what I'm saying. So that means you're okay

828
00:47:01.880 --> 00:47:03.280
you know what I'm saying with the China side and

829
00:47:03.639 --> 00:47:06.000
Fanta side and all that ethnic cleans and stuff, you're

830
00:47:06.000 --> 00:47:09.840
okay with that behind I'm not okay with that. I'll

831
00:47:09.880 --> 00:47:13.960
never I never will be you know, Like kids, yo,

832
00:47:15.000 --> 00:47:16.239
you know what I'm saying, And I don't want to

833
00:47:16.280 --> 00:47:19.320
hear that excuse Well, they're hiding behind the kids, bro.

834
00:47:19.679 --> 00:47:24.280
But you're killing them, So you wipe out thirty people

835
00:47:24.320 --> 00:47:25.119
just to get to one.

836
00:47:26.679 --> 00:47:27.599
More than one killer?

837
00:47:28.199 --> 00:47:29.880
Yeah exactly, you know what I'm saying. But I'm just

838
00:47:29.880 --> 00:47:31.960
saying though, like you wipe out thirty people just to

839
00:47:32.000 --> 00:47:35.559
get to one. No, thirty innocent lives just to get

840
00:47:35.559 --> 00:47:35.880
to one.

841
00:47:36.360 --> 00:47:41.599
That's warfare, Yo, it is yo. You know what. Yeah,

842
00:47:42.360 --> 00:47:43.960
it's fucked up, That's what it is.

843
00:47:44.679 --> 00:47:45.679
Yo, Yo, you know what is it?

844
00:47:45.760 --> 00:47:50.800
But what I don't like is the the like highlighting

845
00:47:51.360 --> 00:47:54.880
of one specific area when worst things are going around

846
00:47:54.960 --> 00:47:57.320
in Africa right now, when worst things you're going on

847
00:47:57.519 --> 00:48:00.840
in the Seadan, when worst things are going on around

848
00:48:01.000 --> 00:48:05.159
the world, and everyone wants to make this about only

849
00:48:05.280 --> 00:48:09.679
two countries. When we got a president who's siding with

850
00:48:09.800 --> 00:48:15.920
the dictator against another fucking country that was uh ambushed

851
00:48:16.920 --> 00:48:19.280
and try to be take from another country and we're

852
00:48:19.440 --> 00:48:24.119
siding with the dictator. Do you even understand where we

853
00:48:24.239 --> 00:48:24.880
are right now?

854
00:48:25.079 --> 00:48:29.639
Like it's insane, you know, and I just want people.

855
00:48:29.519 --> 00:48:30.159
To wake up.

856
00:48:30.639 --> 00:48:32.440
But but but like yo, you know what though it

857
00:48:32.519 --> 00:48:34.639
is like it's like yo, you know what, though, like

858
00:48:35.079 --> 00:48:37.719
I'm speaking on a personal thing, like like I don't

859
00:48:37.719 --> 00:48:39.000
want to make it like a political thing.

860
00:48:39.039 --> 00:48:41.840
But regardless of what it's gonna sound like anyways, you

861
00:48:41.920 --> 00:48:43.159
know is that.

862
00:48:44.039 --> 00:48:48.360
But not in politics aside, dubbs, this is about human life.

863
00:48:49.000 --> 00:48:55.239
People don't human life. It's a consideration, yo.

864
00:48:55.280 --> 00:48:55.960
You know what yo?

865
00:48:56.239 --> 00:48:56.360
Yo?

866
00:48:56.440 --> 00:48:57.599
You know fucked up about it too.

867
00:48:57.760 --> 00:48:58.920
You know what I'm saying is that we can be

868
00:48:59.000 --> 00:49:01.800
speaking on this human life stuff right and they'll make

869
00:49:01.840 --> 00:49:03.880
it about politics. You know what I'm saying, because like

870
00:49:03.960 --> 00:49:06.880
that's how that's how like ingrained this whole society is.

871
00:49:06.960 --> 00:49:08.599
Right now, everything's about politics.

872
00:49:08.760 --> 00:49:15.559
Like a lot of politics are like enveloped within these things.

873
00:49:15.719 --> 00:49:20.159
You can't it's like you can't just ignore certain things.

874
00:49:20.280 --> 00:49:22.679
And that's the part about it, because yo, you know

875
00:49:22.760 --> 00:49:24.760
what certain things aren't about politics?

876
00:49:24.840 --> 00:49:25.559
You see what I'm saying?

877
00:49:26.119 --> 00:49:29.199
Like how like like yo, you know what power is

878
00:49:29.280 --> 00:49:32.719
about politics? But yo, you know what compassion yo? But

879
00:49:32.880 --> 00:49:35.360
compassion is not you know what I'm saying, but.

880
00:49:35.480 --> 00:49:40.639
People, but the people in power don't have compassion. So

881
00:49:41.039 --> 00:49:44.880
how do you expect that to change? Like you're we

882
00:49:45.000 --> 00:49:47.239
get mad at the wrong people. You should be getting

883
00:49:47.239 --> 00:49:51.039
mad at the people that are in charge of things everywhere.

884
00:49:51.079 --> 00:49:51.159
Yo.

885
00:49:51.280 --> 00:49:52.599
You know what, yo? You know what I know?

886
00:49:52.760 --> 00:49:52.880
Yo?

887
00:49:53.559 --> 00:49:55.559
I know where, I know where my anger is directed at,

888
00:49:55.599 --> 00:49:57.719
but I'm not going to say it on this platform.

889
00:49:57.559 --> 00:49:59.159
Because, Yo, you know what, out of respect you know

890
00:49:59.159 --> 00:49:59.760
what I'm saying.

891
00:49:59.639 --> 00:50:03.079
Like, out of respect for what we have a first

892
00:50:03.119 --> 00:50:06.880
amendment that is being used against us now when we

893
00:50:07.039 --> 00:50:10.480
talk about things that people don't want to hear about.

894
00:50:11.440 --> 00:50:15.599
I'm sorry, it's bullshit, like this is not America.

895
00:50:16.000 --> 00:50:17.599
That's not fucking America.

896
00:50:18.360 --> 00:50:18.480
Yo.

897
00:50:18.599 --> 00:50:20.880
Everything you say and I agree with you one hundred yo,

898
00:50:21.000 --> 00:50:24.079
believe me one beyond it. Know what I'm saying.

899
00:50:25.239 --> 00:50:25.760
I'm sorry.

900
00:50:25.920 --> 00:50:28.760
It's hard to sit here and pretend like I just

901
00:50:28.880 --> 00:50:32.239
can't anymore. I can't pretend that everything is okay. I

902
00:50:32.320 --> 00:50:35.320
can't pretend that I don't have crazy levels of anxiety

903
00:50:35.400 --> 00:50:37.880
on a daily basis, which is probably making my health

904
00:50:38.039 --> 00:50:38.599
a problem.

905
00:50:38.719 --> 00:50:39.000
Right now.

906
00:50:39.880 --> 00:50:44.960
I can't like focus and function because I'm so afraid

907
00:50:45.280 --> 00:50:46.679
of what might happen to.

908
00:50:46.840 --> 00:50:49.440
Us because of who we're fucking with.

909
00:50:50.920 --> 00:50:54.760
I want people to realize that nuclear bombs exist and

910
00:50:54.920 --> 00:50:58.440
countries have them, and if we fuck with the wrong

911
00:50:58.559 --> 00:51:01.880
people and say the wrong fucking things, they can send

912
00:51:01.960 --> 00:51:06.679
something right to us. We are not immune from things

913
00:51:06.840 --> 00:51:10.039
and the realities of the world. We can be the

914
00:51:10.159 --> 00:51:12.920
next fucking Palestine. Just don't be fucking.

915
00:51:12.800 --> 00:51:17.519
Stupid, like yo, yo, you know what, Yo, everything you're saying.

916
00:51:17.599 --> 00:51:19.480
You know I'm saying. Coleon knows that. You know what

917
00:51:19.480 --> 00:51:24.360
I'm saying. I've said, I've said it before. I mean,

918
00:51:24.880 --> 00:51:26.800
I don't know where did he go? Yeah?

919
00:51:26.800 --> 00:51:30.079
Where do you go? You know what?

920
00:51:30.679 --> 00:51:32.400
He has to come back because I feel like this

921
00:51:32.519 --> 00:51:34.000
doesn't run without himself.

922
00:51:34.719 --> 00:51:35.079
Yeah, I know.

923
00:51:38.400 --> 00:51:42.000
I'm just very frustrated. It's just very frustrated with things.

924
00:51:43.960 --> 00:51:47.920
Oh Jesus, we might both be gone soon. I don't

925
00:51:48.000 --> 00:51:48.880
know what's happening.

926
00:51:50.840 --> 00:51:52.480
I broke it. I broke everything.

927
00:51:53.960 --> 00:51:54.519
Oh I'm back.

928
00:51:54.880 --> 00:51:58.079
Yeah, I came in and broke it. Yep.

929
00:51:59.400 --> 00:52:01.440
Yeah yo Yo.

930
00:52:01.519 --> 00:52:03.280
You know what, Like I don't want to like you

931
00:52:03.320 --> 00:52:05.519
know what I'm saying, like, but like I can't hold

932
00:52:05.559 --> 00:52:07.679
it in man Like I really can't.

933
00:52:07.719 --> 00:52:10.960
Man Like it's horrible and it's atrocious that they that

934
00:52:11.079 --> 00:52:13.039
people are doing, you.

935
00:52:13.079 --> 00:52:16.039
Know, like like like a Sudan You know what I'm saying,

936
00:52:16.039 --> 00:52:18.039
both go around, like I'm saying from what I heard

937
00:52:18.079 --> 00:52:19.159
beheaded like Christians.

938
00:52:20.960 --> 00:52:24.639
I mean, it's all under the word of God.

939
00:52:25.119 --> 00:52:28.920
It's always a religion that's being used, but it's really

940
00:52:29.280 --> 00:52:32.920
just a height like it's it's Jahada ship. It's like

941
00:52:33.039 --> 00:52:36.920
beyond what the real religion is. It makes Muslims look

942
00:52:37.039 --> 00:52:41.920
really bad when they're not bad people. Their religion isn't bad.

943
00:52:42.119 --> 00:52:46.800
Karan isn't bad either. It's you have extremists on both sides,

944
00:52:46.920 --> 00:52:51.559
Christians and Muslims that take shit way too far. And

945
00:52:51.719 --> 00:52:54.480
you know what I'm saying, like interpret the books the

946
00:52:54.599 --> 00:52:57.599
way they want, you.

947
00:52:57.639 --> 00:52:59.719
Know, like like like yo, you know what man, Like

948
00:53:00.199 --> 00:53:05.039
it's just yeah, I couldn't hold that ship in today,

949
00:53:05.119 --> 00:53:09.679
man Like I really couldn't, like you know, like yo,

950
00:53:09.760 --> 00:53:12.239
you know what, like like that's why I said. You

951
00:53:12.320 --> 00:53:14.920
know before it made me question my mortality as to

952
00:53:15.119 --> 00:53:19.800
like you know like it may like it made me

953
00:53:19.840 --> 00:53:23.199
appreciate where I'm at right now, you see what I mean. Yeah,

954
00:53:23.239 --> 00:53:24.599
but it made me but it made me hug my

955
00:53:24.679 --> 00:53:25.639
daughter a lot tighter.

956
00:53:26.280 --> 00:53:26.679
Mm hmm.

957
00:53:27.360 --> 00:53:30.800
You know what I'm saying like and yo, like like yo,

958
00:53:30.880 --> 00:53:33.039
I've seen it yesterday. Man, I was crying for two days.

959
00:53:34.320 --> 00:53:37.239
I was even crying today, you know what I'm saying,

960
00:53:37.280 --> 00:53:42.159
because like I don't like I really don't know why why.

961
00:53:42.159 --> 00:53:43.679
Like you know what I'm saying seeing that affected me

962
00:53:43.760 --> 00:53:47.000
like that, you know, like maybe that was the story

963
00:53:47.039 --> 00:53:48.320
that I really broke the camels back, you know what

964
00:53:48.360 --> 00:53:51.000
I'm saying because of all the of all like of

965
00:53:51.079 --> 00:53:53.039
all the other pressures I'm going through right now, such

966
00:53:53.079 --> 00:53:57.039
as you know, like dealing with lawyers and operations and stuff,

967
00:53:57.320 --> 00:53:58.159
and what's cool the owner.

968
00:53:58.840 --> 00:54:01.280
I was just gonna ask anybody has reached out to

969
00:54:01.400 --> 00:54:03.039
him to see what happened to him?

970
00:54:03.800 --> 00:54:05.639
Yeah, you know what, hold on, man, let me text him,

971
00:54:07.559 --> 00:54:08.280
because I'm like.

972
00:54:08.639 --> 00:54:16.280
What happened here? I think we know there is Oh

973
00:54:16.599 --> 00:54:19.519
my god, what happened? Bro? You can't disappear like that?

974
00:54:19.639 --> 00:54:20.360
That scares me.

975
00:54:20.880 --> 00:54:23.039
No, I was, I was. I was in the room.

976
00:54:23.079 --> 00:54:25.360
I just had to step away for a second.

977
00:54:25.719 --> 00:54:26.599
Did you have to poop?

978
00:54:27.159 --> 00:54:27.880
No, I didn't have to.

979
00:54:28.760 --> 00:54:29.000
I'm not.

980
00:54:29.559 --> 00:54:31.679
I'm not. I'm not drinking a gallon of that ship.

981
00:54:33.039 --> 00:54:35.159
I'm not getting anoscopy or anything.

982
00:54:35.280 --> 00:54:35.639
So no.

983
00:54:37.239 --> 00:54:44.519
Participating in the thought. So so yo, yo, you know what.

984
00:54:44.840 --> 00:54:48.119
I just had to get that out of my system. Whatever.

985
00:54:49.679 --> 00:54:53.000
Yeah, yeah, so I got it. I got a couple

986
00:54:53.039 --> 00:54:58.679
of emails, email Tom, Yeah, just like is going on

987
00:54:58.800 --> 00:55:02.599
because my old man eyes can't see the paper already.

988
00:55:02.039 --> 00:55:03.159
An hour into the show.

989
00:55:03.800 --> 00:55:09.400
Yeah, all right, So I'm gonna read this and then

990
00:55:09.440 --> 00:55:13.159
I'm gonna let y'all speak it out. All right, This

991
00:55:13.320 --> 00:55:14.800
is kind of long, so that's why I have to

992
00:55:14.840 --> 00:55:16.760
turn the light on to see. So bear with me.

993
00:55:18.719 --> 00:55:23.239
This is how you Yeah, he got the homicide light on.

994
00:55:23.960 --> 00:55:24.519
That's what it is.

995
00:55:27.559 --> 00:55:29.119
Where we are in the fifteen.

996
00:55:31.679 --> 00:55:35.639
You know you up right here. You don't suck up right,

997
00:55:37.519 --> 00:55:37.800
all right?

998
00:55:37.880 --> 00:55:42.159
So check it, I says, Hey, this might HERD podcast.

999
00:55:43.119 --> 00:55:45.920
Recently I have had I was having a conversation with

1000
00:55:46.000 --> 00:55:50.440
a cousin that made me realize something odd. I am

1001
00:55:50.559 --> 00:55:54.000
hoping you guys can help me process this and if

1002
00:55:54.519 --> 00:55:59.639
and if I am maybe overreacting in my concerns. When

1003
00:55:59.679 --> 00:56:02.079
I would I was two or three years old, my

1004
00:56:02.280 --> 00:56:07.239
mom being seventeen or eighteen, she started dating this guy.

1005
00:56:08.800 --> 00:56:12.239
He was a neighbor, family friend, about three years older

1006
00:56:12.320 --> 00:56:17.320
than her. They only dated about six months and Mom

1007
00:56:18.039 --> 00:56:21.280
called it quits. I was told by a few that

1008
00:56:21.400 --> 00:56:26.079
he was extremely destroyed about their breakup. As I continued

1009
00:56:26.119 --> 00:56:30.159
to grow up, I remember seeing him around, which I

1010
00:56:30.320 --> 00:56:35.480
recall feeling uncomfortable because he would comment that I was

1011
00:56:35.559 --> 00:56:40.039
his daughter. And asked for a hug, but the amount

1012
00:56:40.119 --> 00:56:45.880
of times did not seem significant. When I hit high school,

1013
00:56:46.679 --> 00:56:51.079
I got a social media account. I quickly received friend requests.

1014
00:56:52.280 --> 00:56:56.440
He soon started to request I call him. I would

1015
00:56:56.559 --> 00:57:00.360
keep seeing how he he kept saying how he missed

1016
00:57:00.440 --> 00:57:04.880
me and saw me as his daughter. After many messages,

1017
00:57:05.480 --> 00:57:10.679
I felt obligated to make the call. Once on the phone,

1018
00:57:11.199 --> 00:57:15.239
he was super excited and quickly made me uncomfortable. He

1019
00:57:15.400 --> 00:57:17.760
again told me how much he loved and missed me,

1020
00:57:19.599 --> 00:57:22.800
how he wished to see me, and how he always

1021
00:57:22.880 --> 00:57:27.159
saw me as his daughter. Mind you, he only dated

1022
00:57:27.199 --> 00:57:30.840
my mom for six months when I was two. After

1023
00:57:30.920 --> 00:57:34.119
the call, I proceeded to ignore him and go forward.

1024
00:57:35.800 --> 00:57:38.280
I can need to ignore him going forward. I did

1025
00:57:38.360 --> 00:57:43.559
block him from my Space and my previous Facebook after

1026
00:57:43.679 --> 00:57:48.360
yearly messages requesting to call him. Instead of blocking him

1027
00:57:49.360 --> 00:57:54.159
on my newer accounts, I just ignored him. Some examples

1028
00:57:54.239 --> 00:57:59.800
of messages. You shall always be my daughter, the daughter

1029
00:57:59.800 --> 00:58:02.559
I never had. You stole my heart the day I

1030
00:58:02.719 --> 00:58:05.480
first met you, Happy birthday. That was in June of

1031
00:58:05.599 --> 00:58:08.840
twenty twenty. I love you with all my heart, even

1032
00:58:08.920 --> 00:58:11.719
though I haven't seen you for so many years. I

1033
00:58:11.880 --> 00:58:14.760
still hold you dear to my heart, but don't tell

1034
00:58:14.920 --> 00:58:18.639
anyone that was in May of twenty twenty three, I

1035
00:58:18.800 --> 00:58:23.800
just gave a couple I did ask mom my mom

1036
00:58:23.920 --> 00:58:27.280
a couple of years back, if she has reached out,

1037
00:58:27.320 --> 00:58:30.239
if he had reached out to her, which she reported me.

1038
00:58:30.880 --> 00:58:33.559
Reported to me that he tried back a few times,

1039
00:58:34.199 --> 00:58:38.559
but nothing of significance. He recently reached out to me

1040
00:58:38.679 --> 00:58:42.800
again last month after my mom passed. All he all

1041
00:58:42.880 --> 00:58:45.679
he did say was can you call me? I want

1042
00:58:45.719 --> 00:58:50.440
to see you. But I think because I ignored him

1043
00:58:50.679 --> 00:58:55.800
all these years, it did not click that it was creepy.

1044
00:58:57.039 --> 00:59:00.920
But I am over But at my old we're exaggerating

1045
00:59:01.440 --> 00:59:05.239
if I say that the messages are borderline obsessive and concerning.

1046
00:59:07.079 --> 00:59:09.400
If I block him again? Should I block him again?

1047
00:59:10.679 --> 00:59:13.800
When blocking him again cause a negative reaction from him?

1048
00:59:14.440 --> 00:59:17.119
Is this a safe situation? Hold on?

1049
00:59:17.159 --> 00:59:17.559
I mean.

1050
00:59:19.079 --> 00:59:23.760
With the page, Yeah, it's pretty long. Am I unsure?

1051
00:59:25.079 --> 00:59:25.199
Oh?

1052
00:59:25.400 --> 00:59:28.119
Am? I unsure how the death of my mom impacted him.

1053
00:59:28.719 --> 00:59:32.559
But I have children now and finally clocked that this

1054
00:59:32.800 --> 00:59:35.480
is not normal behavior. And at the end of the day,

1055
00:59:35.920 --> 00:59:38.639
I can't help. But wonder was he obsessed with my

1056
00:59:38.800 --> 00:59:42.159
mom or me. Thank you for reading and I look

1057
00:59:42.239 --> 00:59:46.079
forward to your opinions. What do you guys think of that.

1058
00:59:49.840 --> 00:59:59.840
I'd be calling sbu right, I think and trust your

1059
01:00:00.960 --> 01:00:04.960
it was it felt creepy, it felt weird. You blocked

1060
01:00:05.039 --> 01:00:08.440
him for a reason. Don't like let this person back in.

1061
01:00:08.760 --> 01:00:11.119
There's no reason for it. That's just weird.

1062
01:00:12.679 --> 01:00:15.280
See, this is the reason why like I got left

1063
01:00:15.320 --> 01:00:19.400
my female counterparts because they take the word out of

1064
01:00:19.440 --> 01:00:21.440
my mom. You know what I'm saying. For the most part,

1065
01:00:22.039 --> 01:00:25.320
that's just like, that's just like weird behavior. Man, you

1066
01:00:25.360 --> 01:00:28.559
know what I'm saying, like like yo, unless unless you

1067
01:00:28.599 --> 01:00:30.559
know what I'm saying, like you took an active role

1068
01:00:30.679 --> 01:00:34.280
in raising her throughout her childhood. You know what I'm saying,

1069
01:00:34.800 --> 01:00:37.519
unless and like you feel like you know what I'm

1070
01:00:37.559 --> 01:00:41.719
saying and you adopted that role as being like her.

1071
01:00:41.800 --> 01:00:43.360
You know what I'm saying, like her male Like you

1072
01:00:43.400 --> 01:00:46.400
know what I'm saying, like the father figure, unless it

1073
01:00:46.480 --> 01:00:49.760
is that you know what I'm saying, then yeah, you

1074
01:00:49.800 --> 01:00:51.480
know what I'm saying. What I'm saying, like yo, you

1075
01:00:51.519 --> 01:00:52.920
know what I'm saying, like unless you got that you

1076
01:00:52.960 --> 01:00:55.639
know what I'm saying that that rapport of like you know, father,

1077
01:00:56.280 --> 01:00:58.760
you know what I'm saying, step stepfather, step daughter. You

1078
01:00:58.760 --> 01:01:00.119
know what I'm saying, relationship where like you know what

1079
01:01:00.119 --> 01:01:02.000
I'm saying, you love her like your own. That's one thing.

1080
01:01:02.679 --> 01:01:05.239
Like hell, you know what, man like you're you in

1081
01:01:05.320 --> 01:01:07.039
and out? You know what I'm saying. You know what

1082
01:01:07.039 --> 01:01:08.800
I'm saying out the life that you know what I'm saying,

1083
01:01:09.440 --> 01:01:10.000
two years old.

1084
01:01:10.199 --> 01:01:12.000
It's not it's not that, Yeah, it's not that the

1085
01:01:12.119 --> 01:01:14.039
dude was even in and out. It's that he was

1086
01:01:14.119 --> 01:01:18.199
in a relationship with her mother six months exactly, and

1087
01:01:18.519 --> 01:01:21.199
and and and and that was out the he was

1088
01:01:21.239 --> 01:01:21.840
out the picture.

1089
01:01:22.320 --> 01:01:24.000
That's not even you know what I'm saying, long enough

1090
01:01:24.000 --> 01:01:25.400
to even have that. You know what I'm saying, that

1091
01:01:25.519 --> 01:01:27.000
type of relationship. You know what I'm saying.

1092
01:01:29.280 --> 01:01:32.119
You know, like people really and my.

1093
01:01:32.320 --> 01:01:36.960
Kids at least six months into our relationship. So if

1094
01:01:36.960 --> 01:01:40.360
they were only daily for six months, he shouldn't have even.

1095
01:01:40.280 --> 01:01:41.000
Ever met her.

1096
01:01:42.639 --> 01:01:44.239
Yeah, but you know what, they were next door neighbors.

1097
01:01:44.519 --> 01:01:50.679
So yeah, it's between seeing someone and actually being a

1098
01:01:50.840 --> 01:01:52.840
part of their life type of thing because you were

1099
01:01:52.920 --> 01:01:54.960
dating their mom, right.

1100
01:01:57.719 --> 01:01:59.199
Yeah, Like I've got neighbors here.

1101
01:01:59.400 --> 01:02:02.800
If I ever happened to date one of my neighbors,

1102
01:02:04.519 --> 01:02:07.239
it would be more than even though my daughter knows them.

1103
01:02:07.679 --> 01:02:11.280
They would not be invited into my house as somebody

1104
01:02:11.360 --> 01:02:15.039
I'm seeing or introduced to her or told that we're

1105
01:02:15.159 --> 01:02:18.480
seeing each other for a while, unless I.

1106
01:02:18.599 --> 01:02:21.360
Know that it's for real, for real, right.

1107
01:02:21.960 --> 01:02:24.159
And the thing, the thing that also that also got

1108
01:02:24.280 --> 01:02:29.519
that made me wonder too, is that the dude, not consistently,

1109
01:02:29.639 --> 01:02:33.119
but every so often would be like, yeah, I want

1110
01:02:33.159 --> 01:02:34.719
to see you or I miss you like the daughter

1111
01:02:34.760 --> 01:02:37.679
I never had, Like what's the obsession there?

1112
01:02:37.760 --> 01:02:41.840
You know what I'm saying, unless you yo, unless, unless

1113
01:02:41.920 --> 01:02:43.920
you unless she looks like the mother or something like that.

1114
01:02:46.880 --> 01:02:49.679
That's even creepier, bro, Yeah, exactly. You know what I'm saying,

1115
01:02:50.000 --> 01:02:53.320
Like like like yo, you know what I mean. I mean, yo,

1116
01:02:53.400 --> 01:02:55.199
you know what you gotta like? You know what I'm saying,

1117
01:02:55.239 --> 01:02:57.239
Like really think about it, you know, I mean, like, like, yo,

1118
01:02:57.280 --> 01:02:59.719
you know what after six months the mother leaves that ship.

1119
01:03:00.360 --> 01:03:01.960
You know what I'm saying. It partly because he was obsessed,

1120
01:03:02.880 --> 01:03:05.239
what I'm saying, and now like you know, oh, she

1121
01:03:05.400 --> 01:03:09.159
looks just like her. You know what I'm saying, like, Yo,

1122
01:03:09.320 --> 01:03:11.800
you know what man like that? That's something?

1123
01:03:15.039 --> 01:03:20.880
Yeah, man in the phone call, right, Yo, you know what,

1124
01:03:21.239 --> 01:03:23.159
it's just you know what I'm saying. It's just weird

1125
01:03:23.199 --> 01:03:23.800
ass behavior.

1126
01:03:23.880 --> 01:03:24.039
Man.

1127
01:03:26.079 --> 01:03:29.119
You look the daughter I never had, bro Like, it

1128
01:03:29.199 --> 01:03:30.679
wasn't even an after part of her life.

1129
01:03:37.960 --> 01:03:39.519
Oh the fuck?

1130
01:03:40.840 --> 01:03:41.559
What come on?

1131
01:03:44.480 --> 01:03:48.159
It's fantastic Man. Oh ship, that's the name I haven't

1132
01:03:48.199 --> 01:03:58.480
seen in a long time. Yeah, that's the name I

1133
01:03:58.599 --> 01:04:02.920
haven't seen the law long time. Fantastic Man was my

1134
01:04:03.079 --> 01:04:05.679
YouTube name back when I was a Redskins video maker.

1135
01:04:06.480 --> 01:04:09.159
Yeah, that's it's hell. I'm not gonna lie.

1136
01:04:09.239 --> 01:04:11.000
It sounds like one of them, you know what I'm saying.

1137
01:04:11.519 --> 01:04:13.960
The nineteen eighties. You know what I'm saying. Porn figures

1138
01:04:17.519 --> 01:04:18.679
you bust through a room.

1139
01:04:20.199 --> 01:04:25.199
Man, Literally, that's literally what he sounds like.

1140
01:04:25.800 --> 01:04:28.199
You say with the with the porn stash too. Yeah

1141
01:04:30.760 --> 01:04:33.440
in that wow, crazy ass music in the background.

1142
01:04:36.840 --> 01:04:38.159
Sounds like Ryan Jeremy.

1143
01:04:39.199 --> 01:04:42.000
Yo, for real, what's up, Bets?

1144
01:04:42.440 --> 01:04:46.199
How are you? Bro? I'm clear, I clearly remember you

1145
01:04:46.320 --> 01:04:47.320
be like, what's good?

1146
01:04:52.760 --> 01:04:53.159
Snappy?

1147
01:04:54.360 --> 01:04:57.679
Yeah, he's a he's a he's a Mets. He's a

1148
01:04:57.760 --> 01:04:59.920
big time Mets fan video maker.

1149
01:05:00.039 --> 01:05:00.199
Yeah.

1150
01:05:00.960 --> 01:05:03.079
Great, content, great content. I don't know. I don't know

1151
01:05:03.119 --> 01:05:05.880
what he's doing now with himself. I guess he's but

1152
01:05:06.000 --> 01:05:09.000
I know that he was at the time a giant

1153
01:05:09.159 --> 01:05:13.639
Giant fan, right and a Mets fan and great content.

1154
01:05:13.719 --> 01:05:16.000
This guy is good all subject.

1155
01:05:16.000 --> 01:05:17.239
You know what I'm saying, Like when it comes to

1156
01:05:17.320 --> 01:05:19.760
like local sports around here, it's like, if you're a

1157
01:05:19.840 --> 01:05:22.079
Yankee fan, they expected to be a Giants fan. If

1158
01:05:22.079 --> 01:05:23.960
you're a Mets fan, they expected to be a Jets fan.

1159
01:05:24.679 --> 01:05:26.880
It makes no sense, you know what I'm saying. It's like, yo,

1160
01:05:26.960 --> 01:05:29.280
you know what him and I will be odd of

1161
01:05:29.360 --> 01:05:31.239
these You know what I'm saying, Because I'm I'm a

1162
01:05:31.320 --> 01:05:33.760
Yankee fan, but I'm a Jets fan, you see what

1163
01:05:33.800 --> 01:05:36.800
I mean. And he's a Giant fan and a Mets

1164
01:05:36.880 --> 01:05:39.559
fan like like kill You know what around here is like, Oh,

1165
01:05:39.800 --> 01:05:42.000
that's an oddity. You know what I'm saying, as if

1166
01:05:42.039 --> 01:05:44.920
like there's like an unwritten rule around here where you know,

1167
01:05:45.280 --> 01:05:46.679
you got to be a Jets and a Mets fan

1168
01:05:46.800 --> 01:05:47.480
and all that stuff.

1169
01:05:47.800 --> 01:05:48.320
You know what I'm saying.

1170
01:05:48.559 --> 01:05:51.360
But that'shes off chop though, So we're all in agreement

1171
01:05:51.480 --> 01:05:55.039
that this this dude that's weird that this dude's got

1172
01:05:55.079 --> 01:06:00.559
some issues and he needs to really some help.

1173
01:06:02.079 --> 01:06:05.079
It's like Michael Jordan, get some therapy.

1174
01:06:05.960 --> 01:06:11.239
Yeah, all right, so then let's move on to this one.

1175
01:06:11.559 --> 01:06:16.840
I think TG is gonna like this one. We shall see, Yeah,

1176
01:06:16.880 --> 01:06:23.000
we shall see. All right? Back with the light? All right?

1177
01:06:23.079 --> 01:06:23.519
Where were you?

1178
01:06:23.880 --> 01:06:30.599
July eighteenth? Check this shit out? My boyfriend has had

1179
01:06:30.719 --> 01:06:33.920
sex with my sister in law and brother. What should

1180
01:06:33.920 --> 01:06:34.119
I do?

1181
01:06:34.559 --> 01:06:38.920
I hate him, believe them?

1182
01:06:40.000 --> 01:06:46.199
All right, so holds up. I started dating my current

1183
01:06:46.280 --> 01:06:49.199
boyfriend about two and a half oh two and a

1184
01:06:49.239 --> 01:06:53.159
half months ago. What He had been divorced about three

1185
01:06:53.239 --> 01:06:55.599
years before we met, and I told him I was

1186
01:06:55.639 --> 01:07:01.880
looking to settle down early during dating. He understood and

1187
01:07:02.239 --> 01:07:07.079
was on the same mindset as I. I allowed myself

1188
01:07:07.159 --> 01:07:10.960
to fall form. He seemed like the man of my dreams.

1189
01:07:11.679 --> 01:07:15.360
He has a good job, nice family, has his own home,

1190
01:07:15.559 --> 01:07:18.880
and wants children like me. We both decided we should

1191
01:07:18.920 --> 01:07:22.719
introduce each other to our families. I met his mother

1192
01:07:24.280 --> 01:07:27.920
and father and they are great people. Then I was

1193
01:07:28.280 --> 01:07:31.239
then it was his turn to meet my family. My

1194
01:07:31.440 --> 01:07:37.039
parents live about three hours away. It was about three

1195
01:07:37.119 --> 01:07:40.199
hours away. I love my place as old man shit,

1196
01:07:40.800 --> 01:07:41.480
but frequently.

1197
01:07:42.039 --> 01:07:42.199
Oh.

1198
01:07:43.239 --> 01:07:45.280
My parents are about three hours away, but my brother

1199
01:07:45.440 --> 01:07:48.960
and sister in law and two nieces live about three

1200
01:07:49.039 --> 01:07:52.559
miles away in the same town that I live. I

1201
01:07:52.679 --> 01:07:56.239
babysit my nieces frequently, and I'm close to my brother

1202
01:07:56.840 --> 01:08:01.760
and his family. We decided they could meet him first.

1203
01:08:02.559 --> 01:08:04.920
My brother and sister in law had been married about

1204
01:08:04.920 --> 01:08:09.559
eight years and at this point together probably about ten years.

1205
01:08:11.280 --> 01:08:14.079
When we both went to their home. My sister in

1206
01:08:14.199 --> 01:08:18.600
law was noticeably acting weird, but my brother seemed okay

1207
01:08:19.520 --> 01:08:23.199
and got along well with my boyfriend. They even went

1208
01:08:23.319 --> 01:08:26.760
off to play pool after dinner. While I helped my

1209
01:08:26.880 --> 01:08:30.600
nieces and sister in law clean up, my sister in

1210
01:08:30.720 --> 01:08:32.840
law took me to the side and told me something

1211
01:08:33.319 --> 01:08:38.560
that made my world come crashing down. They had a

1212
01:08:38.720 --> 01:08:45.920
threesome with my boyfriend. I was instantly sick to my stomach.

1213
01:08:46.800 --> 01:08:49.079
I knew two years ago they were having a rough

1214
01:08:49.159 --> 01:08:52.560
time in their marriage and my brother considered opening up

1215
01:08:52.600 --> 01:08:55.960
their relationship, but I hadn't heard anything about it after that,

1216
01:08:56.800 --> 01:09:00.600
and wasn't my time, and I'm not the type the pride.

1217
01:09:02.000 --> 01:09:04.800
I tried playing it cool the rest of the time

1218
01:09:04.880 --> 01:09:06.600
we were in the in the in their presence of

1219
01:09:06.720 --> 01:09:10.680
my brother and his family the best to the best

1220
01:09:10.720 --> 01:09:15.079
of my ability. Once he left, I asked him if

1221
01:09:15.119 --> 01:09:17.800
he had anything that he wanted to tell me. He

1222
01:09:17.920 --> 01:09:21.399
said no. I told him I wasn't feeling well and

1223
01:09:21.520 --> 01:09:24.640
needed to go home for the next week. I avoided

1224
01:09:24.720 --> 01:09:28.439
him until he stopped by my house and asked me

1225
01:09:28.560 --> 01:09:31.479
to talk. He decided to come clean and said that

1226
01:09:31.560 --> 01:09:35.000
he had met them through a local swingers club. He

1227
01:09:35.159 --> 01:09:40.000
also he also told me that he participated in several

1228
01:09:40.199 --> 01:09:48.159
orgies after his hold on, hold on, hold on several

1229
01:09:48.319 --> 01:09:53.079
orgies after his ex ended their marriage. He explained that

1230
01:09:53.279 --> 01:09:58.439
his ex was prudish and jealous and sex was rare,

1231
01:09:58.960 --> 01:10:01.680
so he went a little while once after the marriage ended.

1232
01:10:03.039 --> 01:10:07.800
He has apologized profusely for lying and says that he

1233
01:10:07.920 --> 01:10:11.399
didn't want to lose me. I still feel that this

1234
01:10:11.520 --> 01:10:16.319
situation is so surreal. I honestly thought he would be

1235
01:10:16.960 --> 01:10:20.439
I honestly thought we had a connection. We've been intimate

1236
01:10:20.880 --> 01:10:23.920
and had and have great chemistry. But I don't think

1237
01:10:24.039 --> 01:10:27.439
this is something I can get over. It's not the

1238
01:10:27.560 --> 01:10:31.600
part that he was involved in these activities, but more

1239
01:10:31.720 --> 01:10:35.880
so that he lied, and the reality is that he's

1240
01:10:35.960 --> 01:10:38.680
been sexually involved with two people so close to me.

1241
01:10:39.439 --> 01:10:41.640
I told him I needed time to think about it.

1242
01:10:43.600 --> 01:10:46.479
What should I do moving forward? Is this something that

1243
01:10:46.720 --> 01:10:55.760
the relationship can overcome? My boyfriend, I keep thinking about

1244
01:10:55.800 --> 01:10:59.039
the idea of my boyfriend and my brother and sister

1245
01:10:59.119 --> 01:11:03.840
in law having sex with each other. This is an

1246
01:11:03.960 --> 01:11:06.239
If this is a new relationship, I'm wondering if it's

1247
01:11:06.319 --> 01:11:07.279
worth even saving.

1248
01:11:08.760 --> 01:11:11.600
If you can't get over something that he did in

1249
01:11:11.720 --> 01:11:17.039
his past when he was exploring and having fun, then yeah,

1250
01:11:17.079 --> 01:11:20.760
because it hits too close to home. It's literally your

1251
01:11:20.840 --> 01:11:25.000
brother and his wife, Like that is a small fucking world.

1252
01:11:25.159 --> 01:11:30.520
Of all the people she meets, she meets the motherfucker.

1253
01:11:31.000 --> 01:11:33.119
That had the THREESO.

1254
01:11:34.439 --> 01:11:38.359
With her brother and what come on? You can't make

1255
01:11:38.439 --> 01:11:40.000
this shut up? This is crazy?

1256
01:11:40.880 --> 01:11:44.520
Oh shit, just just just think about this four minute.

1257
01:11:44.560 --> 01:11:48.319
Think about this for a minute. You had they had

1258
01:11:48.520 --> 01:11:52.880
sex with a dude that sex with your brother and

1259
01:11:53.199 --> 01:11:53.920
sister in law.

1260
01:11:54.920 --> 01:11:57.840
Yo, hold on, well, you know if they had sex

1261
01:11:58.319 --> 01:11:59.840
three times ago, can be.

1262
01:12:01.319 --> 01:12:04.199
Her Just the fact just the fact that the three

1263
01:12:04.239 --> 01:12:06.960
of them we're involved.

1264
01:12:06.560 --> 01:12:09.840
In something like that. Yeah, regardless, I mean, like, like, yo,

1265
01:12:09.920 --> 01:12:10.239
you know what.

1266
01:12:14.760 --> 01:12:19.840
It's kind of funny. It's like said brow like like, yo,

1267
01:12:19.920 --> 01:12:23.119
you know, out of your town. I don't know what.

1268
01:12:25.119 --> 01:12:27.000
Oh hold on, hold on, check this out. Check this

1269
01:12:27.079 --> 01:12:29.800
out real quick, hold on this one.

1270
01:12:30.840 --> 01:12:33.199
I can't read that all right.

1271
01:12:33.600 --> 01:12:35.960
Said it's really strange. To be honest, it makes me

1272
01:12:36.079 --> 01:12:39.439
wonder if he suffers from delusions and if he attached

1273
01:12:39.520 --> 01:12:43.720
himself to the idea of being a dad for this girl.

1274
01:12:44.000 --> 01:12:47.439
Oh okay, I see it now now this is all yeah,

1275
01:12:47.600 --> 01:12:48.760
like yeah, we're over that.

1276
01:12:48.880 --> 01:12:52.920
But yeah, oh yeah, hell yeah. But but but yo,

1277
01:12:53.000 --> 01:12:56.319
you know what though, like I mean, think about it, man, like,

1278
01:12:59.000 --> 01:13:00.359
oh yeah, you know what I'm saying, Yo.

1279
01:13:00.439 --> 01:13:04.600
Your brother's a freak. Your brothers a freak. You know

1280
01:13:04.680 --> 01:13:06.079
what you found?

1281
01:13:06.439 --> 01:13:12.239
Yeah, talking to the system, Like yeah, you know, like

1282
01:13:12.319 --> 01:13:14.199
he put my wife out pretty good.

1283
01:13:14.840 --> 01:13:18.359
You know what I'm saying. I was there, read that,

1284
01:13:19.720 --> 01:13:22.840
I was watching. I watched, I watched, yo, Like.

1285
01:13:25.680 --> 01:13:30.000
That's just that's crazy, that is crazy.

1286
01:13:31.479 --> 01:13:32.760
Yeah, that's that.

1287
01:13:33.800 --> 01:13:35.640
I even gave him a reach around for his troubles.

1288
01:13:41.399 --> 01:13:43.760
So pep, peep it, beep it, pep. I'm gonna read.

1289
01:13:43.800 --> 01:13:45.399
I'm gonna read one more email and then.

1290
01:13:47.199 --> 01:13:51.079
But basically we decided that she is really up to

1291
01:13:51.119 --> 01:13:52.199
her she can't get over it.

1292
01:13:52.560 --> 01:13:54.720
I wouldn't. I went and put myself in.

1293
01:13:56.359 --> 01:13:58.920
This show, like like, nah, man, you know what I'm saying.

1294
01:13:59.159 --> 01:14:02.399
But that's up to her though, right like if she honestly,

1295
01:14:02.399 --> 01:14:05.239
if you can't get over it, which I can understand,

1296
01:14:06.159 --> 01:14:06.319
you know.

1297
01:14:06.279 --> 01:14:09.560
What I'm saying. I wouldn't, you know, because like, yo,

1298
01:14:09.600 --> 01:14:11.920
you know what I imagine? You know what I'm saying,

1299
01:14:12.000 --> 01:14:15.920
Thanksgiving dinners. You know what I'm saying, I'll pass you

1300
01:14:16.000 --> 01:14:23.239
board than a leg. Oh my god, like like what

1301
01:14:23.319 --> 01:14:24.399
do you doing? Stuff in the Turkey?

1302
01:14:25.079 --> 01:14:27.920
Just like you're not just what but that that's definitely

1303
01:14:28.000 --> 01:14:30.880
going to come up in one of their life arguments

1304
01:14:31.039 --> 01:14:32.239
me like something.

1305
01:14:32.560 --> 01:14:34.239
It's just yeah, it's.

1306
01:14:34.159 --> 01:14:36.800
Definitely going to come up when they have an argument

1307
01:14:37.000 --> 01:14:38.760
or a disagreement or.

1308
01:14:39.319 --> 01:14:41.720
You know, imagine an argument something.

1309
01:14:42.439 --> 01:14:45.520
What if she starts thinking that, you know, he's now

1310
01:14:45.600 --> 01:14:48.079
looking at the sister in law a different way because

1311
01:14:48.199 --> 01:14:50.840
she they had that intimacy.

1312
01:14:51.239 --> 01:14:53.239
So that's a lot of trust issues.

1313
01:14:53.720 --> 01:14:54.880
But what are the chances?

1314
01:14:55.760 --> 01:14:58.600
I know, that's just crazy and a girl. I'm so

1315
01:14:58.800 --> 01:14:59.359
sorry with you.

1316
01:15:01.239 --> 01:15:03.079
Yeah, you know what I'm saying looking at the brother

1317
01:15:03.199 --> 01:15:06.159
like you know what I'm saying your family, you guys

1318
01:15:06.199 --> 01:15:07.159
broke out nice asses.

1319
01:15:07.680 --> 01:15:08.319
I'm saying.

1320
01:15:10.239 --> 01:15:11.760
You both cut nice asses.

1321
01:15:12.720 --> 01:15:15.920
Yeah I knew I seen that ass somewhere before the

1322
01:15:16.039 --> 01:15:20.479
phenomenal last even yo, yo, yo, you know what he

1323
01:15:20.600 --> 01:15:22.880
must have walked in he was like, oh, like you

1324
01:15:22.960 --> 01:15:26.079
guys have different with clothes on, you know, like, oh

1325
01:15:26.319 --> 01:15:27.680
damn like.

1326
01:15:27.760 --> 01:15:28.239
Bro like that.

1327
01:15:28.960 --> 01:15:31.680
Maybe he didn't recognize them at first because they didn't

1328
01:15:31.680 --> 01:15:35.560
have to exactly, like, wait a minute, maybe I know

1329
01:15:35.680 --> 01:15:37.840
these people. And then brother's like, yeah, let's go play

1330
01:15:37.880 --> 01:15:39.079
pools so I can remind you.

1331
01:15:42.239 --> 01:15:44.600
Let's go hold some wing sticks and hit some balls.

1332
01:15:45.840 --> 01:15:46.399
Down to her.

1333
01:15:46.720 --> 01:15:57.319
Yeah yeah, all right, yeah that is so yo. But

1334
01:15:57.439 --> 01:15:59.239
but yo, you don't what the what are the chances though?

1335
01:15:59.239 --> 01:16:00.159
You know what I'm saying, Like, like.

1336
01:16:01.680 --> 01:16:05.880
She said, they lived three miles away, and she ended

1337
01:16:05.960 --> 01:16:07.520
up with a dude that slept with the both of them,

1338
01:16:07.560 --> 01:16:10.920
whether they had sex with the with them, that's crazy,

1339
01:16:11.680 --> 01:16:14.680
that's crazy. All right, here's the last here's the last one.

1340
01:16:14.880 --> 01:16:18.359
Here's the last one. I feel depressed every time we

1341
01:16:18.479 --> 01:16:29.079
have sex, yo, yo. All right, hold the hold up.

1342
01:16:31.479 --> 01:16:32.640
The man laugh.

1343
01:16:34.239 --> 01:16:39.159
Ship all right. Me and my boyfriend have been together

1344
01:16:39.239 --> 01:16:44.640
almost two years. We're both in I don't know what

1345
01:16:44.760 --> 01:16:49.520
this means you and I we're both in the University

1346
01:16:49.600 --> 01:16:53.800
of Probably we're both in university, living together, and for

1347
01:16:53.880 --> 01:16:58.479
the most part, having things. Things have been great. When

1348
01:16:58.520 --> 01:17:01.520
we met. We were both very gins and have had

1349
01:17:01.640 --> 01:17:06.880
zero experience, or he's had zero experience with girls. Lately,

1350
01:17:06.960 --> 01:17:10.760
though our sex sight has our sex life has been

1351
01:17:10.880 --> 01:17:15.920
really getting me down. We barely have sex, maybe once

1352
01:17:15.960 --> 01:17:19.359
a week, sometimes every three weeks, and when we do,

1353
01:17:20.119 --> 01:17:23.600
he just lies there and puts in no effort. If

1354
01:17:23.680 --> 01:17:26.640
I try to be intimate, he rejects me. After sex.

1355
01:17:26.720 --> 01:17:30.000
He either goes straight to sleep or hops on his computer,

1356
01:17:31.239 --> 01:17:35.000
and it makes me feel so unwanted and unattractive. I

1357
01:17:35.159 --> 01:17:38.039
brought it up to him multiple times, but when he

1358
01:17:38.159 --> 01:17:43.680
blames or then he blames it on stress or says

1359
01:17:43.800 --> 01:17:49.800
he's not on I don't know what the fuck this says.

1360
01:17:49.840 --> 01:17:53.359
It says he blames it on stress, and he's not cut,

1361
01:17:54.319 --> 01:17:58.880
not on a cut, and his testosterone is low. I

1362
01:17:59.079 --> 01:18:02.520
just don't know what to do anymore. Has anyone else

1363
01:18:02.600 --> 01:18:06.159
been through this? My boyfriend he's been. He puts barely

1364
01:18:06.159 --> 01:18:09.600
puts effort into sex. He jects my advances and makes

1365
01:18:09.640 --> 01:18:14.439
you feel unwanted. He blames stress and low testosterone, but

1366
01:18:14.840 --> 01:18:21.039
I feeling really good. Oh yeah, I don't know. I

1367
01:18:21.079 --> 01:18:22.640
don't know what. I don't know what the fuck is right.

1368
01:18:22.680 --> 01:18:24.159
He's nineteen, she's twenty one.

1369
01:18:24.600 --> 01:18:30.720
Oh Jesus, no test bro, that's bullshit, bullshit. He needs

1370
01:18:30.800 --> 01:18:32.479
to figure his shit out, and she needs to go

1371
01:18:33.359 --> 01:18:34.399
get some dick everywhere.

1372
01:18:35.359 --> 01:18:38.000
Yo, you know what? You need to check that browser? See.

1373
01:18:38.079 --> 01:18:41.880
You know what I'm saying, what he's really watching? I'm serious?

1374
01:18:42.600 --> 01:18:46.279
Hen like like like, yo, you know what I mean?

1375
01:18:47.920 --> 01:18:51.119
Well, maybe she should start putting things in his browsers

1376
01:18:51.159 --> 01:18:52.399
so he can learn something.

1377
01:18:52.640 --> 01:18:57.279
Jesus, Wow, he wants stale fish or you know what?

1378
01:18:57.760 --> 01:19:01.399
You know what I'm saying, yo? Or Yo?

1379
01:19:01.439 --> 01:19:03.159
You know what if everybody's seen you know what I'm saying,

1380
01:19:03.199 --> 01:19:05.760
Like like, I don't know, give him acavey shirt. You

1381
01:19:05.800 --> 01:19:08.720
might like that ship have to reach the back of

1382
01:19:08.800 --> 01:19:10.279
his teeth. He might, you know what I'm saying, He

1383
01:19:10.319 --> 01:19:10.920
may be into that.

1384
01:19:11.960 --> 01:19:12.880
I don't know. You know what I'm saying.

1385
01:19:13.079 --> 01:19:16.159
They just sound very young and maybe just shouldn't be

1386
01:19:16.199 --> 01:19:17.479
of that kind of relationship.

1387
01:19:17.960 --> 01:19:18.720
No, they shouldn't.

1388
01:19:19.560 --> 01:19:22.319
You know what I'm saying like maybe he has some

1389
01:19:22.399 --> 01:19:23.239
other ship going on.

1390
01:19:24.840 --> 01:19:26.760
It's definitely not low testosterone.

1391
01:19:27.119 --> 01:19:32.439
I mean, if he does, he should be seen from that. Yeah, depression.

1392
01:19:32.680 --> 01:19:34.800
You know what yo, yo yo, you know what? You

1393
01:19:34.880 --> 01:19:36.760
know what? You know what I'm saying, Like like all right,

1394
01:19:36.760 --> 01:19:38.319
you know what I'm saying, The only excuse I can't

1395
01:19:38.319 --> 01:19:40.039
even give this man is lis You know what I'm saying.

1396
01:19:40.760 --> 01:19:41.680
If he's really.

1397
01:19:41.560 --> 01:19:44.560
Deep into a school in his grades and he's falling off,

1398
01:19:44.600 --> 01:19:45.600
you know what I'm saying, And like you know what

1399
01:19:45.600 --> 01:19:48.960
I'm saying, he's putting out of stress to himself. You

1400
01:19:49.000 --> 01:19:51.000
know what i mean, like trying to get the right

1401
01:19:51.079 --> 01:19:52.880
grades and all that extra ship. You know what I'm saying,

1402
01:19:52.920 --> 01:19:56.560
Like that could probably and the key word is probably,

1403
01:19:57.119 --> 01:19:58.520
you know what I'm saying, lead to that part. You

1404
01:19:58.520 --> 01:20:01.640
know what I'm saying, Like I'm like I'm trying, like

1405
01:20:01.920 --> 01:20:03.760
like that's probably the only past I can you know

1406
01:20:03.760 --> 01:20:05.560
what I'm saying, I can even think of giving this man,

1407
01:20:05.880 --> 01:20:08.520
You see what I mean because like at nineteen, you

1408
01:20:08.560 --> 01:20:10.600
know what I'm saying, like like, yo, you know what

1409
01:20:10.680 --> 01:20:12.920
we would energizing bunnies, bro, Like you know what I'm saying,

1410
01:20:12.960 --> 01:20:15.520
Like we ain't stop till blood came out.

1411
01:20:16.039 --> 01:20:16.359
M M.

1412
01:20:17.439 --> 01:20:17.880
You know what I mean?

1413
01:20:18.000 --> 01:20:20.560
Like who you fucking bro?

1414
01:20:21.079 --> 01:20:24.079
You know what I'm saying, Like yo, Like like like bro,

1415
01:20:24.199 --> 01:20:27.079
you know what so yeah, you know what I'm saying.

1416
01:20:27.119 --> 01:20:30.159
That does, But like, yo, you know what it got

1417
01:20:30.239 --> 01:20:31.600
to the port, you know what I'm saying, Like where

1418
01:20:31.600 --> 01:20:34.239
there was probably once sperm cell left talking about crying

1419
01:20:34.319 --> 01:20:36.279
or whatever. It's like, Yo, I'm lowly in here. You

1420
01:20:36.359 --> 01:20:38.920
know what I'm saying, Like right, you know what I'm

1421
01:20:38.920 --> 01:20:40.720
saying like that, like at nineteen. You know what I'm

1422
01:20:40.720 --> 01:20:44.680
saying at nineteen. What I'm saying like like jack rabbits, Bro,

1423
01:20:45.479 --> 01:20:49.199
you know what I mean, Like like you're saying.

1424
01:20:49.079 --> 01:20:52.760
You're your hormones are usually pretty.

1425
01:20:53.039 --> 01:20:56.399
Up there jumping, yo, jumping. You know what I'm saying,

1426
01:20:56.479 --> 01:21:00.279
Like jumping everywhere everywhere. You know what I'm saying everywhere where.

1427
01:21:00.960 --> 01:21:04.359
But it's like, don't like like I said, you know what,

1428
01:21:04.800 --> 01:21:06.760
if he's like really stressed out about his grades and

1429
01:21:06.800 --> 01:21:08.039
you know what I'm saying, how it's going to affect

1430
01:21:08.039 --> 01:21:09.800
his future and all that stuff, you know what I'm saying,

1431
01:21:09.880 --> 01:21:12.119
Like then that's probably the only past. You know what

1432
01:21:12.119 --> 01:21:15.439
I'm saying that it could be probable at that you

1433
01:21:15.479 --> 01:21:18.680
know what I mean? Yeah, you know, you know because

1434
01:21:18.680 --> 01:21:20.640
like because like yo, you know what yo. You know,

1435
01:21:20.720 --> 01:21:22.319
there's a lot of kids out here today, like the

1436
01:21:22.399 --> 01:21:24.720
actually give a fuck about school, you know what I'm saying,

1437
01:21:24.840 --> 01:21:26.880
like that point o g PA.

1438
01:21:27.039 --> 01:21:29.479
They'll do anything and everything like.

1439
01:21:29.640 --> 01:21:32.159
Drinking, you know what I'm saying, like red bull and

1440
01:21:32.159 --> 01:21:34.199
all that stuff, like all these energy pills standing up

1441
01:21:34.239 --> 01:21:36.279
on like trying to like, you know, get that perfect.

1442
01:21:35.960 --> 01:21:36.520
Grade or whatever.

1443
01:21:37.079 --> 01:21:40.359
They need to focus on their studies exactly and don't

1444
01:21:40.359 --> 01:21:44.279
worry about having like that be single.

1445
01:21:44.279 --> 01:21:47.079
If that's college Yeah for real, you know what I'm saying.

1446
01:21:47.399 --> 01:21:50.000
You learn what you like and don't take your boyfriend

1447
01:21:50.039 --> 01:21:54.640
to meet them.

1448
01:21:55.199 --> 01:22:00.119
He might have had a threesome, bro, bro that you know,

1449
01:22:00.199 --> 01:22:04.640
not to be something was crazy though, man, Like yeah, that's.

1450
01:22:04.399 --> 01:22:06.640
Like you know what, what what what is the percentage

1451
01:22:06.680 --> 01:22:11.600
of like you know what I'm saying, Yeah, like what

1452
01:22:11.840 --> 01:22:13.600
but like what is like what is the percentage what

1453
01:22:13.600 --> 01:22:14.880
I'm saying that whole world?

1454
01:22:15.039 --> 01:22:15.760
Are you kidding me?

1455
01:22:16.039 --> 01:22:18.000
Like, if you live in an area and you see

1456
01:22:18.039 --> 01:22:19.760
people in the area, chances.

1457
01:22:19.520 --> 01:22:20.680
Are you might run into them.

1458
01:22:21.239 --> 01:22:25.479
True, but you know what though, Like what yo, what

1459
01:22:25.560 --> 01:22:28.159
will make that story more amazing is like let's just

1460
01:22:28.239 --> 01:22:31.560
say you know, they lived like in a heavily populated

1461
01:22:31.600 --> 01:22:35.800
metro area like the New York metro area right.

1462
01:22:37.359 --> 01:22:39.399
Where. You know what I'm saying, Like you'd be surprised.

1463
01:22:40.159 --> 01:22:41.720
Yeah, you know what I'm saying, Like you know what

1464
01:22:41.760 --> 01:22:44.399
I'm saying, Like like the why and why I see

1465
01:22:44.439 --> 01:22:46.600
metro area alans like what like probably thirty one million

1466
01:22:46.680 --> 01:22:51.399
people and the spans like three states, right yeah, So

1467
01:22:51.560 --> 01:22:54.600
like I'm like, if it was if it was a

1468
01:22:54.680 --> 01:22:56.079
story like that, you know what I'm saying, where like

1469
01:22:59.840 --> 01:23:01.479
so brother, you know what I'm saying, the brother and

1470
01:23:01.560 --> 01:23:03.840
sister law on that part. You know what I'm saying,

1471
01:23:03.880 --> 01:23:06.079
Like what like that would be like amazing. I'm like,

1472
01:23:06.119 --> 01:23:08.159
holy ship, you know what I'm saying, Like that would

1473
01:23:08.159 --> 01:23:09.720
be for the proof of how small the world is,

1474
01:23:09.840 --> 01:23:13.680
regardless of how many people around. Yeah you know, like

1475
01:23:14.720 --> 01:23:18.159
but but yo, but but yo, either which way, you

1476
01:23:18.239 --> 01:23:20.760
know what I'm saying, Like that's just crazy. You know

1477
01:23:20.800 --> 01:23:25.720
what I'm saying, Hey, Hey, I know you guys.

1478
01:23:26.119 --> 01:23:29.359
Yeah, I don't not even know you from somewhere.

1479
01:23:30.800 --> 01:23:33.720
And not and not yo and yo yo what and

1480
01:23:34.239 --> 01:23:37.199
and now and now and now the sister and now

1481
01:23:37.239 --> 01:23:39.520
the sisters realizing that Yo, you know what, you know

1482
01:23:39.520 --> 01:23:41.880
what I'm saying, me kissing this man, I probably you

1483
01:23:41.920 --> 01:23:42.399
know what I'm saying.

1484
01:23:43.119 --> 01:23:46.079
You know what I'm saying, Like like you think like that,

1485
01:23:47.560 --> 01:23:51.600
You probably think like that, YO, think.

1486
01:23:51.439 --> 01:23:54.560
About that because you got to think about every other

1487
01:23:54.840 --> 01:23:57.159
person he's ever kiss, touched, whatever.

1488
01:23:57.319 --> 01:24:02.079
If we're going to do that, definitely this even.

1489
01:24:04.479 --> 01:24:06.359
Exactly so like, YO, you know what, this is your

1490
01:24:06.439 --> 01:24:08.000
family you're talking about. You know what I'm saying that

1491
01:24:08.279 --> 01:24:10.560
that's out there, you know what I mean. So it's

1492
01:24:10.640 --> 01:24:13.079
like so it's like, Yo, you know we've had a threesome.

1493
01:24:13.119 --> 01:24:14.880
You know what I'm saying. It's like that I'm talking

1494
01:24:14.920 --> 01:24:18.560
about it like it's probably like Yo, so this nigga

1495
01:24:18.600 --> 01:24:20.600
probably my brother or like vice versa.

1496
01:24:21.680 --> 01:24:25.840
Oh g I I got I got to show you.

1497
01:24:25.920 --> 01:24:29.920
I'll be right back. I don't don't don't go crazy,

1498
01:24:30.239 --> 01:24:34.279
just talk about this stuff. I'll be right back.

1499
01:24:35.720 --> 01:24:38.159
You're supposed to give us a topic and then.

1500
01:24:40.720 --> 01:24:43.680
Talk about it. Oh, well, I guess we'll make one up.

1501
01:24:44.520 --> 01:24:45.600
Oh talk about.

1502
01:24:47.199 --> 01:24:51.359
Talk about the fact that this is crazy, that people

1503
01:24:51.399 --> 01:24:55.319
will be having crazy sexual experiences. I'd be asking more

1504
01:24:55.399 --> 01:24:58.760
about the swingers club thing and stuff myself.

1505
01:24:59.039 --> 01:25:03.760
But BRO like like, yo, you know what that was quick?

1506
01:25:04.439 --> 01:25:06.079
Yeah? All right, so check it out.

1507
01:25:06.119 --> 01:25:06.359
I was.

1508
01:25:06.760 --> 01:25:08.800
I went. It was quicker than in college kids.

1509
01:25:13.800 --> 01:25:15.359
I wouldn't be depressed.

1510
01:25:18.239 --> 01:25:21.079
Doves actually got something. I went to the to the

1511
01:25:21.119 --> 01:25:24.840
good will today mm hmm, and I found something to

1512
01:25:24.960 --> 01:25:30.279
give your mom's she's gonna she's cool. And then I

1513
01:25:30.520 --> 01:25:35.199
got this. I know that that TZ is a green

1514
01:25:35.279 --> 01:25:35.760
Bay fan?

1515
01:25:36.520 --> 01:25:37.039
Did you know that?

1516
01:25:37.159 --> 01:25:41.560
Did everybody know that green Bay fan? So I found

1517
01:25:41.840 --> 01:25:46.239
I folded up real quick. So I found this this cup.

1518
01:25:47.359 --> 01:25:52.279
Oh very nice.

1519
01:25:52.319 --> 01:25:56.239
It's uh, I guess it's a mug cup whatever you

1520
01:25:56.319 --> 01:25:56.600
put it.

1521
01:25:57.640 --> 01:25:59.760
But what did she have to think about all the

1522
01:26:00.000 --> 01:26:01.319
people that that mug touched.

1523
01:26:06.359 --> 01:26:06.800
I don't think.

1524
01:26:06.840 --> 01:26:07.720
I don't think. I don't think.

1525
01:26:09.159 --> 01:26:09.600
Let me tell you.

1526
01:26:09.720 --> 01:26:11.640
So if we did that for everything, I don't think

1527
01:26:11.640 --> 01:26:12.800
we'd eat anywhere anymore.

1528
01:26:14.079 --> 01:26:18.359
Not real And yeah, so I saw it and I

1529
01:26:18.479 --> 01:26:21.119
was like, oh, T would like this, So I snatched

1530
01:26:21.119 --> 01:26:26.439
it up. I'm gonna send me, send me your your address.

1531
01:26:29.479 --> 01:26:34.119
So with that being said, we're gonna end it right here.

1532
01:26:34.880 --> 01:26:37.800
Sure. I like ending with gifts.

1533
01:26:40.760 --> 01:26:42.119
That's what the Brothers sister said.

1534
01:26:47.680 --> 01:26:52.439
So I'm big. That's the ad G t G loves.

1535
01:26:53.399 --> 01:26:58.560
I don't know how to say that. She's the professor

1536
01:26:58.640 --> 01:27:02.760
of the whole ship that Simon Phoenix Dove the don

1537
01:27:03.319 --> 01:27:05.720
I'm big, Holy you on. This has been another episode

1538
01:27:05.720 --> 01:27:07.960
of This Might Her podcast. Thanks for everybody for watching

1539
01:27:08.079 --> 01:27:10.239
and joining us and going to the chat rooms and

1540
01:27:10.319 --> 01:27:13.520
bullshitting with us. Thanks for the emails. Well, we'll be

1541
01:27:13.680 --> 01:27:17.520
back next week with some more shenanigans. And always keep

1542
01:27:17.560 --> 01:27:22.640
in mind that at some point, with some fucking enthusiasms,

1543
01:27:22.640 --> 01:27:26.119
people Jesus Christ like this might hurt, just might hurt.

1544
01:27:29.159 --> 01:27:29.840
This is gonna hurt.

1545
01:27:33.560 --> 01:27:35.079
I'm like, dad, do I have to bite down on

1546
01:27:35.119 --> 01:27:35.880
the pillow right now?

1547
01:27:35.960 --> 01:27:36.880
This is not crazy?

1548
01:27:39.960 --> 01:27:40.800
Good Night everybody,