Sept. 7, 2024

Tolerate It Tuesday (Recorded LIVE on 9-3-24)

Tolerate It Tuesday (Recorded LIVE on 9-3-24)

Will you be able to tolerate the topics and discussions we'll be having tonight!? We'll see. Just please remember that at some point THIS MIGHT HURT!!

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Will you be able to tolerate the topics and discussions we'll be having tonight!? We'll see. Just please remember that at some point THIS MIGHT HURT!!

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Y y.

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Yo. What's good? Big Cody on here, but this might

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hear podcast coming to you live from wherever the funck

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we get live from. You know how it is, bringing

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in my co host Lady G and G and TG love.

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What's good? How's everybody doing?

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Great?

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That's good? Tuesday, it's it's it's Tuesday. Yeah, too bad,

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it's not well, it's taco Tuesday, but we ain't got

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no tacos so and it's.

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A Tuesday after holiday.

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Yeah, Tuesday after holiday. Yeah, that's that's what's ups. So

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how was how's everybody's holiday weekend?

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Uneventful?

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Stare literally nothing?

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And mine's just back to school stuff.

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Oh yeah, that's right.

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Yeah, I still have one young enough in school boy.

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Yeah that's tough. She's uh what what what? What grade?

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She's a senior. I can't handle it.

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Oh my god. The seniors tough, prom and everything.

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And yes, the last of it all.

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Yep, have any idea? Yeah, the court, the court of

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senior years is undeniably experience.

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Let's not start a show tonight about horrible co parenting.

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We could, though, yeah, we definitely could. I mean co

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parenting is is tough, man, very very tough very very tough.

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I don't know if if Dove's in the row too,

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he said he would, but we'll see what happens with him. Yeah, tough,

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it is, and it's crazy because I've I've been I mean,

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y'all know I I got I've been through it a

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bunch of times. You know what I'm saying?

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Five million?

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Uh huh?

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So you got five million kids?

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Takes your far away from that number.

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And you're the first Nick Cannon.

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No, not me. I don't have any baby.

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Mama drama, don Don corleon, Yeah Cannon, right, yeah, that's dangerous.

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So so what's this Montclair State University you're repping tonight?

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I'd be and I wasn't trying to, but I guess

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since it's back to school, that's my alma mater.

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So all right, all right, that's dope, that's dope.

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All right, lots of money wasted.

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You're you're an intelligent young woman. I don't know why

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you say that.

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I mean, yeah, but like, if I can do it

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over again, I would have just picked a completely different

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career to follow. So all right, Now, shit happens, right,

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it does, and things change. When I first went to school,

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thought I wanted to be like a teacher in a school,

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but that changed. Why a lot of it is politics.

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And definitely don't get paid with their worth.

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Right, there's that lot of hours being put in not

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enough pay. First year is very sink or swim. And

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my experience wasn't that great, Like the principal was a bitch,

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so I didn't have like the best experience. I didn't

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feel supported.

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So uh.

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Yeah, it was like half halfway through the year, I think,

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not even then, I was like, I gotta get out

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of here. I can't do this anymore. I literally was

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like in a dark league. We'd go out drinking on Tuesdays.

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I went to the same bar every Friday in Hoboken,

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became a regular. So yeah, that was teaching. I also

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started smoking weed then, so thanks thanks teaching. That's all.

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Teaching made me an alcoholic.

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Teaching made me an addict. Yeah, it's rather crazy. But

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I was also spoiled because I did have opportunities to

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work in like private schools, like special at schools, and

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there it was like all about the students. So it

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like that encouraged me and made me think I was

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like going in the right direction. But then like once

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I was working in public schools and started to work

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in public school then I was just like, oh, yeah,

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this is not this is not what it should be,

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you know, and it was it was just I was

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also just set up, I feel, because I had the

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only monolingual class because I worked for Union City District

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and they have like bilingual classes in kindergarten because you

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have a lot of Spanish kids and Indian kids like

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coming in. So their classes were kind of like set

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up to be able to teach both. Mine was set

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up to only talk in English and teach in English,

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and my aid only spoke Spanish, so that really made

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life difficult. Lunch was always a disaster, and it was like, well,

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if you can't communicate with the kids and they don't

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understand you, you're gonna have problems. But it was looked

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at as though I was the problem or the aid,

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and maybe she was.

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I don't know.

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I hated it though good people. I met good teachers

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and other people there, and props shout out to them.

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They've worked there for twenties and thirties of years, like

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getting ready to retire and shit, but wow, there's a

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lot of teachers that stuck through and there's a lot

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of teachers that left. And even when I was working

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with a tutoring company, I did a program where we

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did like English and math for like the students who

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test lower in those subjects, and we had a shootout

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drill once and I was just like, first of all,

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I didn't even know what to do because I didn't

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work for the school. I worked for a company, and

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I was not versed on all the things going on

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at school. Where the hell's go to whatever. It's not

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like somebody sat down with me. It was like these

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are the safety things, you know, they send you stuff

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to read, and I'm just like, okay. The kids told

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what I had to do, and we were in a

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room that had no windows. Oh wow, so it was weird.

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We were all like trying to like squeeze into one

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area and then like afterwards, like you're expected to like teach,

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like go back like nothing happened. And I could tell

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the kids were like feeling some kind of way. This

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was middle school, so you know, I I was like,

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what's going on? Like and then some of them just

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started telling me like, you know, this is scary. What

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if this really does happen in our school? Is it's

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really going to help us and protect us? And oh

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my god, just so many questions, so many fears, so

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many like and it's unfortunate, but like this is the

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world we live in now. Like when we went to school,

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that wasn't even a thought, Like we did fire drills,

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that was like the biggest thing. But it's just it.

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It took it took the I don't even know what

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the word is, not fun, but like it took the

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life kind of out of it because it became very

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like morbid, and it was just like, you know, how

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can I say to them, like we're protecting you at

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all costs, Like, but I don't know how true that is.

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So like, yeah, you have an officer at your school,

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and like that's what I told them, you know, like

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you have officers here, they're usually close by and in

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Jersey gun laws are a little tough, so I kind

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of like told them that. But the truth is is

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like you just never know, and can you truly be prepared.

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I mean, yeah, we've taken I have to take courses

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through my job now for shooter drills and what we

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need to do. And the worst thing you can do

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is stay still, so you got to make sure that

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people don't just like shut down, because that's what could happen.

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It's fight flight or freeze for some people. So they

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just teach you like know your exits. You know, if

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you're in a room, grab something that you can use

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as a weapon, basically like protect yourself. And like if

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the shooter is going to come into a room that

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you're in, or they get through, like and there's a

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group of you, you come up with a plan to

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try to like ambush this person or whatever. So it's

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just crazy because like, yeah, it's like, Okay, we think

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about these drills, we talk about what to do and

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stuff like that, but when the fucking moment hits or

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some shing goes down, it's like what do you really do?

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Like what is your body going to do? How are

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you really going to react? Are you prepared? Like I

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don't feel like I will freeze because I know what

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to do. So I'm just like let me, you know,

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run the hell out of here if I can, or

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hide in a safe place, locked or whatever. And the

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good thing is that there are places like at my

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job where I am at where I can like run

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quickly and lock myself into a space. But yeah, it's

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just crazy. But yes, I went from school to two shootings. Yes,

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like it freaking sucked. It's just not I don't know.

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There was fear there because of because of that too,

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like that the whole drow kind of like made me

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question wanting to go back because it was like fuck,

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like I don't want to be in that position. I

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don't want to be in that position, like just no,

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like that's scary, absolutely, you know, I think it's it's

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actually me given me and many other people in anxiety,

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Like I know you love going to the movies, but

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I can't go to the movies. Like I feel some

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kind of way about going to the movies. I feel

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some kind away about going places where there's a lot

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of people, festivals and things like that, depending where it

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is where I live about big parts of Trump Country,

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and it's makes me nervous sometimes when I see people

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and their Confederate flags and stuff like that, and I'm

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just like when will it end? And it's just it's

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like yeah, never, Yeah, it's it's just crazy, just everything,

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and and I don't like talking about guns, but like

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I just do, something has to be done, Like we

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can't just continue on how we are because it's not working.

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So yeah, yeah, I get it, I get it. It's

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a different world we live in these days.

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Yes, it is.

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It is.

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You know. I just saw this video a real that

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Hobby sent me, and it's actually it was I guess

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like one of the corner stores, Like definitely had to

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be in some kind of projects or something, right, and

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in some kind of project because there was a bulletproof

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glass in front of the guy, you know, like, come on, it.

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Could have been the hood, not the project.

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Yeah, it was definitely hood projects or whatever exactly. So

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the guy focks with them and when they ask for

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a lighter, he gives them a pink lighter. Let me

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tell you something about the insecurities of some black man.

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Holy shit, they got so upset, so mad that he

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would give them a fucking pink lighter. Like what do

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you think, I'm a butt a bitch? What the fuck

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you want me to come show you that I'm a man?

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And I'm just like, bro, it's a pink lighter. Comes

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the fuck down.

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It's not that serious.

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It's not that serious, and they are flipping their shit

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and I'm just like, this is not worth this? What what?

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No one's questioning your manhood because of the color of

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your lighter, Like how sad and pathetic are you really

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the insecurity?

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You know, it's so ridiculous.

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Like the homophobia is beyond beyond because a pink lighter.

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You want to hear something funny speaking to that shit,

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Like I was telling I was talking to Dubs about

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this yesterday. I think it was. I was like, you

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know how every time somebody says something that that sounds

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a little bit you know, gay or whatever, they say no,

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no homo or or no Diddy or whatever, it is,

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the thing is that What I said to him was,

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why does the thought of something someone says has to is?

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What is it about it that makes something in your

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head say gay? You know what I'm saying, Like like

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if he says, oh, that that that that that hot

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dog is big no Diddy, or or that's that that's

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that that's there's too much water coming out of that

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no Diddy, Like why does why does the thought have

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to be gay?

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Right?

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What is it is going on in your head that

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makes you think everything that's being said you have to

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say that too? Because you people.

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Are so self conscious about what other people think of them.

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Yeah, but but two, but sexual sexualizing everything is a

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little too much, too like like we're not talking, like

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why are you thinking in such a sexual manner when

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you're kind of not even talking about that.

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You know, well, that's the same thing with that. That's

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what she said, Like there was a period where no

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one could say anything, oh god without people, without people

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saying that's what she said. Like I got so tired

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of it. I just I was like, I'm not talking

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to nobody.

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Yeah, because every.

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Time, every time somebody says something right away, it's like, oh,

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it's no home or or no ditty or whatever the case,

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like everything.

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Justify that to people. But I don't understand.

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Yeah, Like why do I have to like sit there

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and say.

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You know what, because I'm looking at everything you're saying

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and I'm like, oh, that's so gay. Why would you

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say that?

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I like, what if it was? It's not nobody's business

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but your own.

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It's crazy, Like why the fuck? Why doesn't thought right

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away have to go to something gay or homophobic? You

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know what I mean? Like, you can't say shit these

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days is right away. You gotta be like it's.

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People's insecurity with themselves.

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It is all that is all right, and it's and

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it is homophobia because they don't know enough, Like I

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can't tell you how many I hate to say black men,

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but yes, have like are homophobic in a way, Like

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they don't realize it either. It's just like there's certain

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things and they'll say, I'm not a fan of anybody

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using the F word towards someone, and I hear that

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a lot, and that really bothers me, Like I don't

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think it's okay to say that to anyone. Like, yes,

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in in the UK they do call cigarettes fags still

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they do, but here we know the connotation, tone and

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everything that goes into that word, so that I don't.

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Like, yeah, yeah, I get it. Man, it's it's it's

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it's it's it's it's crazy. It's crazy.

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It's like accepted culture.

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Yeah, that's exactly, It's exactly it.

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And that's why it continues because if you don't say

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no home a then like oh yeah, like oh why

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is he saying that? Like why are you thinking in

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that manner? Like I I don't understand. Again, it's a

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pink lighter. Please make me understand a pink lighter, guys.

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Yeah, people take offense to a lot of different ship

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these days.

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Man, But I mean when these guys were wilin out,

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they were wilent at The one guy was like he

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had like four drinks in front of him. He's like,

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I ain't paying for you for this shit then, and

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like less and I'm just like he's like, bro, no,

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what are you doing? Like the other guy like flipped,

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like started throwing things and everything. I'm like, it is

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not that serious. Be like, I don't want a pink lighter?

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Can I have another color? Use your words? You know?

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Like I felt like kindergarten all over again, Like use

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your words? What is it that you want? Like why

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get mad? Like he's not calling you anything, he's not

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saying anything. He just knows that you're going to react.

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That's why he's doing it. But it's sad that that's

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the reaction that you're giving for a color of a lighter.

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I'd rock the pink lighter. I'd be like, yeah, and what.

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My brother, let me tell you something. I one of

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my brothers and I have four or five of them. Boys.

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Uh.

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He is so like they say that secure guys have

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no part. I'm rocking whatever. He literally will walk out

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of the house in a whole pink suit with pink shirt,

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pink hat, pink shoes, like purple. He loves that stuff.

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And he definitely is not a you know, homosexual or anything.

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But he's like, I'm secure and I love those colors.

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Pink is a nice color. But he goes crazy. I

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was gonna say he goes all out. Apparently that man

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likes wearing like his outfit down to the to the.

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Coordination, coordination.

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And yo, he wear and he would wear the mushroom outfit.

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He would. He is just, but he would. He wears

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those I don't know if you guys have seen them,

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and I've only seen them on mech sicking guys. They

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are the boots that have the toe that like curls up.

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Yes, I know what you're talking about.

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Ugly shoes, and he's actually got a paradom stupid things.

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Oh god, yeah, no, I know what you're talking about.

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Those those are very ugly, like alligator.

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I'm like, oh.

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No, I don't even think alligators want to be seen

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on them boots, Absolutely not.

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I think they are like snake or like, you know, like.

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The very associated with those shoes.

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Hilarious.

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Oh my goodness, that's that's some Yeah, that's especially if

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they're pink too.

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On top of that, Oh yeah, he man, he has

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shown up and I mean he can really dress nicely

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when he wants to. But he has shown up to

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some events and I'm just looking at him like what

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in the world. You know, the hats with the the stetsons,

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with the feathers in a oh my god.

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He's pimping like this.

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Color dream coat.

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I'm pretty sure if you're people from Jersey City, or

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have hung out on Jersey to pass through Jersey City, whatever,

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there is definitely a chance that you have seen that

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big pimp that walks around. That man. It would be

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the summer. It wouldn't matter. He was dead with everything.

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And of course you notice this person because you're just like,

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what in the it feels like it's from a movie.

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You know, You're just like, this ain't real. This is

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like from Friday or some shit. This ain't like the

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real fake. But yeah, no doubt that man, he would

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just be hanging around. I would just be like, damn,

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and color scheme had to toe always same way, whether

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it was like baby blue yellow, like just insane and

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hilarious because it's you know, you give props to that guy.

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I have mad respect for that man.

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Yes, if you can rock it all year round, he

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didn't care. He most likely still doesn't.

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Please don't do it, That's all I'm saying. I mean,

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I hope he's really not pimping.

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But that's like I sit here, like on the buses

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and things like that in Camden. Who they're older ladies

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and of course you know they're they're all dressed up,

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everything matches, but it's like, it's so I don't even

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want to call it, like they have makeup one that

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makes him look like clowns and like.

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Verry street walker ish as they used to say. I

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don't even know.

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But they're usually the older ladies.

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Literally, yeah, they're like they I'm not changing my way

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at all.

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Yeah, that's that's that's a little crazy, all that pounded

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on makeup and stuff, and I don't I don't want to.

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I don't want to get on the heathos. But a

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lot of them smell the same, like with their perfumes

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and ship.

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Yeah, I don't even know what that smell is, but

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I think it's.

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An Avon perfume. I'm telling you right now that ship

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was born from Avon. Whatever it smells like, it's an

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Avon perfume. I wouldn't doubt it.

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It's something because they all smell the same way, man,

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and some loudery, some of them.

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Musky like.

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Some of them smell like those purple candies. Yes, oh

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my goodness, I'm like, yo, that smells like candy, and

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some of them smell like Yeah. It's just weird sense

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that these Avon products tend to have.

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I don't know, it's weird.

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Yeah, all for that though, That's why I'm I'm glad

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the kids always buy me cologons and ship I always

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smell different. I got all types of colognes there that

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they get me. Every year, I get like three or

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four different ones. I gotta I gotta uh a little

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tub full of them. Ship's all different ones. So every

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day I smell a little different. I don't I don't

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like to to go crazy. And I hope when.

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I hope that savage.

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Savage Yeah sounds like a fancy way to say savage.

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Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, that sounds like a fancy way

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to say savage.

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Right.

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Yeah, But that's what I mean, that's how it's spelled.

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But Johnny Depp and whoever think it's a Saint Laurent.

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Mm hmm. Now I don't have that one. I have

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the ones I have I have. I have doch Gabana.

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Of course, I have John.

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Paul, I love that one.

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I have. I have a couple of old school ones.

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I got your car. Oh gosh, I got curved K

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one K one I have I have. I have cool water,

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cool water, Yeah, I got. I got a whole bunch

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of them. And I got Johnny Chaw. I think it's

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called Jimmy Jimmy Chow, Jimmy cho Jimmy Yeah, yeh.

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John Johnny Chow. There's so many songs about Jimmy choos as.

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And you're like.

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Johnny Johnny Chow.

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You definitely sound like your grandpa, Like that was your

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grandpa moment. You're like Johnny Chow, like Grandpa, try again.

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Oh gosh, oh try Grandpa.

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I'm gonna have to call your kids on that one.

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Wow.

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Yeah, I gotta I gotta bottle of that one too.

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I call it that one, that one, that one. Yeah,

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but oh ship, yeah, whatever it is, it's there.

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I don't know. Some men's colonnes smell like alcohol to me,

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like rubbing alcohol. It's weird.

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I don't like those by.

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One Cuba, nobody, what's going on? Oh I see now,

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so enjoy the conversation. One. I don't remember which one

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it was that I like the most, but.

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Red Polo Red is good too. Polo ones are pretty good.

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Some of them are dope. But yeah, so those are

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the ones I have. And and the thing is too,

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is that I see sometimes I try to like get

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because I have body sprays and ship like. I have

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this thing with if I feel like if I if

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I feel like if it's hot out and you know,

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I know I'm on the sweat, I gotta I gotta

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put body spray on two on top, you know, because

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I don't. I don't like to feel like I smell.

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If I feel like I smell, I showered, then I showered,

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then I shower. It's like, yo, I gotta oh wow.

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The next time I see you, i'd be like, yo,

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you better check yourself.

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You smell to be in the fucking shower, like yo.

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I can't.

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I be like big c I can hear you from

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all the way over here. I mean I could smell

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you from all the way over here.

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Yeah, yeah, man, I gotta I gotta smell good.

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I get that. I'm not like that though I used

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to be big. I'm wearing stuff. I don't really ever

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wear anything. Sometimes I wear body spray. If I wear anything,

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I still have my my royale, the Spanish one, the violet,

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the royal violet, but the but not the purple one,

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the champagne looking one. Sometimes I'll dab some of that on.

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Make me feel Cuban real quick.

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Cuban like, hold hold on, like the wing makes you

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feel put a ricking goes around and says, Mommy, I

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feel put a ricket, put a brick I'm like, but

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you're not your Peruvian.

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I thought I saw I thought I saw a video

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with a dog with a wig on that since something

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like that. Yeah, I saw that. It's fucking hilarious, y'all.

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That's fucking hilarious. I don't know what that happened to, Dubs.

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I guess he fell asleep.

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Whatever.

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Yeah, So anyway, so what's so talk about? TG? I

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want I want TG talk about something that you're passionate

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about this week.

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No, no, what got you? I'm very passionate right now

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about people registering to vote. I think it's very important

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to make sure that you are registered to vote. Each

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state has certain dates and by which you need to

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do that in order to be able to vote for

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this election in November. This is not just for the

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presidential election. We are also many places voting for your Congress, Senate,

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and governors. Make sure that you know what is going

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on where you are and you're making sure that your

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voice is heard in the poll. I don't want to

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hear shit about anybody saying that their vote doesn't count,

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because it does. Every vote counts. That's how people lose

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when people don't show up to vote. And yes, I

481
00:32:24.960 --> 00:32:31.680
am totally supporting Kamala and I'm also very passionate lately

482
00:32:31.880 --> 00:32:38.000
about trying to squash the rumors or the falsehoods that

483
00:32:38.079 --> 00:32:42.519
have been spread about her and what she has done

484
00:32:42.599 --> 00:32:47.240
when she was DA in California. So I think it's

485
00:32:47.319 --> 00:32:49.960
very important for people to do their own Google searches

486
00:32:50.160 --> 00:32:53.519
and search for things and stop reading shit off of

487
00:32:53.559 --> 00:32:59.480
social media as information and fact because there's a lot

488
00:32:59.480 --> 00:33:02.559
of bullshit out there and memes are not a way

489
00:33:02.559 --> 00:33:07.839
to get your information. You should be involved watching local news,

490
00:33:08.000 --> 00:33:13.400
watching world news, you know, don't limit yourself to one channel.

491
00:33:14.279 --> 00:33:17.160
You know, I do not watch Fox News, but sometimes

492
00:33:17.160 --> 00:33:20.160
I'm forced to just because it is good to hear

493
00:33:20.200 --> 00:33:22.880
what the other side is saying for the same things.

494
00:33:23.400 --> 00:33:29.920
So just remind me that I should never ask you

495
00:33:29.960 --> 00:33:30.559
once again.

496
00:33:31.920 --> 00:33:34.839
Yeah, give me. You're gonna get whatever's on my brain

497
00:33:35.839 --> 00:33:39.079
next week. It could be food for all I know

498
00:33:39.200 --> 00:33:43.440
that I'm obsessing about. But you caught the political moment

499
00:33:43.559 --> 00:33:47.480
for me because I definite moment because I just shared.

500
00:33:47.599 --> 00:33:51.559
You know, October fifteenth is for PA. I actually have

501
00:33:51.680 --> 00:33:54.440
my mailing thing over there that I have to shove

502
00:33:54.519 --> 00:33:59.240
into the box out there. But yeah, it's important. Uh,

503
00:33:59.240 --> 00:34:02.960
this is an important an election for a lot of

504
00:34:03.000 --> 00:34:08.440
states here too. We're voting PA's voting for other people

505
00:34:08.519 --> 00:34:14.000
versus just president. So it's important to have your voice heard.

506
00:34:14.760 --> 00:34:19.559
And to the idiots that talk about third party or whatever,

507
00:34:20.199 --> 00:34:22.840
if you really want a third party, then you need

508
00:34:22.880 --> 00:34:25.719
to start getting involved in your local government and make

509
00:34:25.760 --> 00:34:29.239
sure that you are represented. And stop talking shit during

510
00:34:29.320 --> 00:34:32.880
the presidential election like all of a sudden shit's going

511
00:34:32.960 --> 00:34:35.280
to change, because it doesn't change overnight.

512
00:34:35.360 --> 00:34:36.599
What do I gotta do to get my name on

513
00:34:36.679 --> 00:34:37.119
the ballot?

514
00:34:38.679 --> 00:34:42.639
Start showing up, And if you want to run for

515
00:34:42.719 --> 00:34:46.679
something you totally can you can see what's available and open.

516
00:34:48.039 --> 00:34:52.000
There's things at the local level that people can get involved.

517
00:34:52.199 --> 00:34:58.280
You just got to start meeting people, networking all that stuff.

518
00:34:59.320 --> 00:35:02.920
You gotta schmooth oo, you know, show up to local

519
00:35:02.960 --> 00:35:08.639
events that congressman and send people in government, even in

520
00:35:08.719 --> 00:35:12.159
the local level are showing up at I learned about

521
00:35:12.199 --> 00:35:17.480
like some places do uh shredding, Like they'll shred your papers.

522
00:35:17.519 --> 00:35:20.960
There's there's events that towns do where you could shred

523
00:35:21.000 --> 00:35:24.360
your stuff everybody. And it's free because some places you

524
00:35:24.360 --> 00:35:29.239
have to pay for that. But yeah, there's a lot

525
00:35:29.280 --> 00:35:31.920
of events and stuff that they do over there, especially

526
00:35:31.960 --> 00:35:33.159
where you're at. I'm sure.

527
00:35:35.920 --> 00:35:38.239
Yeah, I've been wearing met for a long time. Maybe

528
00:35:38.280 --> 00:35:39.920
I could run for office or something.

529
00:35:41.039 --> 00:35:44.239
You gotta you can get involved, but you gotta get

530
00:35:44.280 --> 00:35:49.840
involved in and care and have, like I guess, a

531
00:35:49.920 --> 00:35:53.079
goal in mind of what it is that like, what's

532
00:35:53.119 --> 00:35:55.679
the one thing you're trying to accomplish for your people?

533
00:35:57.800 --> 00:36:08.280
Make everybody eat Puerto Rican food on Sunday. Part Rican Sunday.

534
00:36:08.320 --> 00:36:12.599
Everybody gets to be in Jersey, everybody gets to be

535
00:36:12.760 --> 00:36:17.199
part Rican. So one day, also, what I would what

536
00:36:17.239 --> 00:36:20.280
I would do what I would do is I would

537
00:36:20.280 --> 00:36:22.239
make Super Bowl Sunday and national holiday.

538
00:36:23.960 --> 00:36:24.239
Why not?

539
00:36:24.920 --> 00:36:27.280
I would give I would I would now on I

540
00:36:27.320 --> 00:36:33.920
would make Valentine's Day a holiday for women only. Men

541
00:36:34.039 --> 00:36:36.920
have to all get women. Women have to get gifts

542
00:36:37.000 --> 00:36:41.719
on Valentine's Day. So Super Bowl Sunday we get, you know,

543
00:36:41.960 --> 00:36:45.599
because it's it's in February and it comes it's around

544
00:36:45.639 --> 00:36:50.239
the same time. So subow Sunday and Valentine's Day. Now

545
00:36:50.280 --> 00:36:50.760
we split.

546
00:36:52.559 --> 00:36:55.559
So what about the people who are in same sex

547
00:36:55.639 --> 00:37:01.000
couples and or women who love football and there.

548
00:37:02.800 --> 00:37:06.239
Or man say the same ship you guys have.

549
00:37:08.320 --> 00:37:11.519
Men have a holiday. It's more March fourteenth. It's bj

550
00:37:11.719 --> 00:37:15.679
and Steak Day. Okay, it's one month after Valentine's Day.

551
00:37:15.840 --> 00:37:19.679
So if if you're getting gifts for her on Valentine,

552
00:37:19.800 --> 00:37:23.519
then you can wait till the fourteenth to get your gift.

553
00:37:24.559 --> 00:37:25.800
I didn't know anything about that.

554
00:37:26.280 --> 00:37:29.760
It's been around for a long time. I'm surprised that

555
00:37:30.079 --> 00:37:32.679
March fourteenth put it on your calendar.

556
00:37:33.519 --> 00:37:35.440
Now you know, no I know, and no one is

557
00:37:35.519 --> 00:37:36.519
half the battle right.

558
00:37:36.840 --> 00:37:42.000
Exactly by the date for that.

559
00:37:43.159 --> 00:37:46.119
Jeez, I know I'll get the steak.

560
00:37:46.159 --> 00:37:48.519
He's taking applications. Lady big c.

561
00:37:50.599 --> 00:37:51.639
I know I'll get the steak.

562
00:37:52.840 --> 00:37:55.880
You'll get the steak, get theak steak yourself.

563
00:37:55.960 --> 00:37:57.800
You'll be like, I'll make my own steak.

564
00:37:58.800 --> 00:38:00.880
Give me a couple of New York stip stakes and

565
00:38:00.920 --> 00:38:01.199
I'll be.

566
00:38:01.199 --> 00:38:04.519
All right there you go. Yeah, that's one way to

567
00:38:04.559 --> 00:38:09.760
do it for sure. As but but yeah, I mean

568
00:38:10.159 --> 00:38:13.360
if they did that, then wouldn't they have to Well,

569
00:38:13.400 --> 00:38:16.000
I guess the super Bowl is probably like the biggest,

570
00:38:17.320 --> 00:38:19.400
bigger than the World Series.

571
00:38:20.000 --> 00:38:21.519
Yeah, super Bowl is way bigger than that.

572
00:38:22.320 --> 00:38:24.079
Then I could see I could see that.

573
00:38:24.440 --> 00:38:26.360
The thing is the World Series is the best of

574
00:38:26.440 --> 00:38:27.199
seven games.

575
00:38:28.800 --> 00:38:31.119
You're right, it's not just one, just.

576
00:38:31.079 --> 00:38:34.960
One game, so everybody celebrates.

577
00:38:34.440 --> 00:38:37.320
That one do or die. That's why I like football.

578
00:38:37.960 --> 00:38:39.800
This is why I can never get down with baseball.

579
00:38:39.840 --> 00:38:43.000
It's too much. It was too much, like, come on, bro,

580
00:38:43.559 --> 00:38:45.480
this is too many games, too many games.

581
00:38:47.199 --> 00:38:49.880
Yeah, super Bowl is just one fucking game that said yeah, yeah,

582
00:38:49.920 --> 00:38:52.079
you know you're done.

583
00:38:53.039 --> 00:38:54.360
And they're usually pretty good.

584
00:38:54.920 --> 00:38:58.239
They're actually trying to add another week to the season

585
00:38:58.360 --> 00:39:01.800
so they can have the Super Bowl the day before

586
00:39:01.920 --> 00:39:04.000
President's Days when nobody has to go to work the

587
00:39:04.039 --> 00:39:04.559
next day.

588
00:39:05.079 --> 00:39:10.480
Ah double like kill two birds with the one stone.

589
00:39:09.920 --> 00:39:12.000
Super Bowl Sunday. Then everybody has a day off the

590
00:39:12.039 --> 00:39:12.599
next day.

591
00:39:12.880 --> 00:39:13.599
That would be nice.

592
00:39:13.679 --> 00:39:16.440
She can get shift faced and fucking just have the

593
00:39:16.519 --> 00:39:18.920
day off the next day, because.

594
00:39:18.639 --> 00:39:23.920
That's what we all need. Yeah, absolutely, after a whole

595
00:39:23.960 --> 00:39:28.920
month of January, because that's really what it's about January, Like,

596
00:39:28.960 --> 00:39:33.039
what are the longest months of the year. Isn't it

597
00:39:33.079 --> 00:39:37.320
crazy that we're already going to be prepping for Halloween

598
00:39:37.519 --> 00:39:39.920
and then right after Halloween has.

599
00:39:39.880 --> 00:39:43.280
Been prepping for Halloween since fucking a month ago. I know,

600
00:39:44.719 --> 00:39:46.039
I've been prepping for Halloween.

601
00:39:47.039 --> 00:39:52.000
They have everything out, like as soon as October hits,

602
00:39:52.039 --> 00:39:54.880
there's going to be stuff for Christmas. So it's like

603
00:39:55.599 --> 00:39:59.280
they don't even give us a chance. But it is

604
00:39:59.320 --> 00:40:03.719
just crazy to me, Like where in September already like

605
00:40:03.840 --> 00:40:06.079
the year is coming to.

606
00:40:06.079 --> 00:40:08.760
An end for me?

607
00:40:09.400 --> 00:40:13.559
Yes, I do enjoy I'm enjoying this cooler weather. It's

608
00:40:13.559 --> 00:40:16.840
still hot during the day, but I'll take the evening coolness.

609
00:40:16.960 --> 00:40:22.039
I'm down with that. Yeah, but I can't wait for

610
00:40:22.079 --> 00:40:30.679
the sweater weather. I don't want to. Yeah, the best.

611
00:40:30.599 --> 00:40:32.760
What the fuck is this? I know what this is?

612
00:40:34.920 --> 00:40:38.199
You have a question, what if they're gonna stopped fronting

613
00:40:38.360 --> 00:40:42.280
for once they wear high heels. This ain't their height,

614
00:40:43.840 --> 00:40:48.960
b bet else and breast implants, it ain't naturally theirs.

615
00:40:50.519 --> 00:40:54.760
What's so what if women wear heels? I mean you

616
00:40:54.800 --> 00:41:01.840
could see she's wearing heels. Du Like, try to find

617
00:41:01.880 --> 00:41:05.039
yourself someone that doesn't need all that. I don't know

618
00:41:05.079 --> 00:41:05.800
what to tell you.

619
00:41:06.800 --> 00:41:09.880
We're darned if we do, darned if we don't, because

620
00:41:10.159 --> 00:41:12.880
you know what the guys out they're talking about, they

621
00:41:12.920 --> 00:41:16.960
want all that. And then you know, other people are.

622
00:41:16.760 --> 00:41:19.920
Like, oh, somebody, actually, somebody actually has a question for

623
00:41:20.079 --> 00:41:20.800
TG love.

624
00:41:21.199 --> 00:41:22.880
Oh lord, all right.

625
00:41:22.920 --> 00:41:27.119
It's it's not that you. We don't normally talk this ship.

626
00:41:27.159 --> 00:41:28.840
But I'm just gonna let this slide for the night.

627
00:41:28.920 --> 00:41:31.159
But okay, here's the question.

628
00:41:31.800 --> 00:41:36.119
Okay, how does feel about term limits? If a person

629
00:41:36.280 --> 00:41:40.199
is doing bad, I see that can work, but totally

630
00:41:40.280 --> 00:41:44.840
allowed two terms then what? Yeah? So I totally agree

631
00:41:44.880 --> 00:41:47.800
with term limits. I think that we should have term

632
00:41:47.880 --> 00:41:53.000
limits on Congress as well as the Supreme Court. I

633
00:41:53.039 --> 00:41:56.079
don't think it makes any sense for someone to have

634
00:41:56.159 --> 00:41:59.599
a job for the rest of their life, like a

635
00:41:59.639 --> 00:42:05.000
Gary Teed position like that. I think the times change

636
00:42:05.239 --> 00:42:09.599
and with it so do people and people's minds and

637
00:42:09.840 --> 00:42:16.079
thought processes and perspectives. And I feel like we don't

638
00:42:16.440 --> 00:42:18.599
get to move forward if we keep all the old

639
00:42:18.679 --> 00:42:23.639
farts just sitting in there making decisions for people and

640
00:42:23.679 --> 00:42:26.800
they're not representing their constituents. That's why it's important to

641
00:42:26.920 --> 00:42:30.280
vote at a lower level and making sure that the

642
00:42:30.280 --> 00:42:32.719
people that are in there are voicing your concerns, and

643
00:42:32.760 --> 00:42:35.199
then when it comes time for them to be re elected,

644
00:42:35.280 --> 00:42:38.719
make sure they don't get reelected. Like that's what it

645
00:42:38.760 --> 00:42:41.760
comes down to. But the thing is, people don't want

646
00:42:41.800 --> 00:42:47.039
to pay attention, be aware. Like I feel like people

647
00:42:47.079 --> 00:42:50.519
just like to bitch, but they don't want to do

648
00:42:50.559 --> 00:42:54.880
the work. So you gotta want to. If you care,

649
00:42:55.840 --> 00:42:59.000
then you got to get involved somehow. Like if you

650
00:42:59.039 --> 00:43:01.400
have a kid in school, you should be going to

651
00:43:01.719 --> 00:43:07.079
the school meetings, like or the board meetings because they're

652
00:43:07.079 --> 00:43:12.000
making decisions about what's going on in that school, and

653
00:43:12.039 --> 00:43:16.760
that's your money, that's your tax dollars. Those people are

654
00:43:17.039 --> 00:43:21.559
making decisions and people should be at those meetings because

655
00:43:21.559 --> 00:43:22.719
they're important.

656
00:43:24.480 --> 00:43:28.719
Yeah, I think this is the first question we've ever

657
00:43:28.760 --> 00:43:31.960
gotten from from somebody off the twitch.

658
00:43:32.840 --> 00:43:33.039
Oh.

659
00:43:33.119 --> 00:43:39.760
Interesting, it is interesting, but we don't we don't normally

660
00:43:39.760 --> 00:43:41.840
talk to us ever since Tji I brought up the

661
00:43:41.880 --> 00:43:44.320
fucking question, I had opened my mother's fucking mouth and

662
00:43:45.960 --> 00:43:46.760
it was bad.

663
00:43:46.800 --> 00:43:49.559
I didn't go off in like crazy tangent. You know,

664
00:43:49.840 --> 00:43:51.760
nobody's gonna come in here and be like this crazy

665
00:43:51.840 --> 00:44:02.440
literal check. I mean they could, but uh, you shut

666
00:44:02.519 --> 00:44:05.519
your mouth. I'm sure my team is better than yours,

667
00:44:05.679 --> 00:44:12.079
that's for sure, especially if it's the Jets. But we're

668
00:44:12.079 --> 00:44:16.679
not going to get into that hurts people's feelings.

669
00:44:16.800 --> 00:44:23.119
I don't want to do that absolutely, all right, lady

670
00:44:23.159 --> 00:44:24.960
G what are you passionate about this week?

671
00:44:25.800 --> 00:44:26.440
This week?

672
00:44:30.039 --> 00:44:33.519
I honestly, I'm one of the crazy people that doesn't

673
00:44:33.519 --> 00:44:35.719
watch the news and I don't know what's going on

674
00:44:35.800 --> 00:44:41.920
in politics. Very sad. You need to care. Oh, I

675
00:44:41.920 --> 00:44:43.880
didn't say I didn't care. I just don't know what's

676
00:44:43.920 --> 00:44:44.360
going on.

677
00:44:45.559 --> 00:44:48.239
Yeah, because there's a lot of bad things going on

678
00:44:48.400 --> 00:44:52.280
right now, and I think it's just important to know

679
00:44:52.480 --> 00:45:00.400
because people think like the US is untouchable, but they

680
00:45:00.440 --> 00:45:02.440
are countries right now that could put as a button,

681
00:45:02.719 --> 00:45:08.079
and Nucleari is US. So I think it's imborriginal. What

682
00:45:08.119 --> 00:45:11.199
the fuck is going on? Sometimes, because there's wars happening

683
00:45:11.280 --> 00:45:15.280
right now, and I wouldn't doubt it if somehow we

684
00:45:15.320 --> 00:45:20.360
get involved next year. So I think it's important to

685
00:45:20.480 --> 00:45:22.679
know what's going on. A lot of bad shit is

686
00:45:22.719 --> 00:45:30.440
happening across the world. That shit here too. But that's

687
00:45:30.480 --> 00:45:35.440
why this election matters. You know. I'm all about body

688
00:45:35.519 --> 00:45:40.719
autonomy and the fact that they are trying to take

689
00:45:40.719 --> 00:45:47.559
that away from women really upsets me because it's just like,

690
00:45:48.840 --> 00:45:53.679
I don't think it's fair that men care so much

691
00:45:53.719 --> 00:45:59.280
about what goes on and vrginias and instead they should

692
00:45:59.320 --> 00:46:02.519
just all get the actomies that would fix a lot

693
00:46:02.559 --> 00:46:06.639
of things. But nobody wants to talk about that. Nope.

694
00:46:07.880 --> 00:46:09.519
Do you just want to talk about how our abortions

695
00:46:09.559 --> 00:46:13.280
are uses birth control, which is not true. And then

696
00:46:13.280 --> 00:46:16.400
when it is, the percentage is very small, So don't

697
00:46:16.400 --> 00:46:23.400
go there. Hold on, we have a bring it the

698
00:46:23.519 --> 00:46:29.440
things does isn't here? Because oh no, son of a bitch.

699
00:46:29.920 --> 00:46:31.920
Now I'm just gonna hear a lot of ship.

700
00:46:34.039 --> 00:46:39.000
Here we go.

701
00:46:38.280 --> 00:46:44.679
To sign from God. No, he's oh he's got to

702
00:46:44.719 --> 00:46:50.400
come back. Oh I'm nervous. I'm nervous. Shouldn't have said anything.

703
00:46:52.360 --> 00:46:55.000
To answer to answer your question, Uh.

704
00:46:55.840 --> 00:47:00.079
Yeah, what are you passionate about this week?

705
00:46:59.880 --> 00:47:05.960
I think this week, I'm just passionate about self care, right,

706
00:47:06.960 --> 00:47:14.079
you know, like how important it is to prioritize yourself

707
00:47:14.159 --> 00:47:19.880
before you know job and you know stuff like that,

708
00:47:19.960 --> 00:47:22.960
because the thing is, if we don't take care of us,

709
00:47:23.519 --> 00:47:25.599
the people that we take care of aren't going to

710
00:47:25.719 --> 00:47:30.159
have us. The jobs that we work at would replace

711
00:47:30.239 --> 00:47:33.800
us in a heartbeat, you know. Like I've always told

712
00:47:35.840 --> 00:47:38.519
my jobs that, you know, my children come first, my

713
00:47:38.599 --> 00:47:42.480
family comes first. And I remember one time, I guess

714
00:47:42.639 --> 00:47:47.280
been about four years now, something had happened at my

715
00:47:47.400 --> 00:47:51.079
daughter's school and I told my job, you know, I

716
00:47:51.079 --> 00:47:54.920
gotta go, and they're like, well, if you leave, you know,

717
00:47:54.960 --> 00:47:57.519
there's no guarantee that you could come back. And I

718
00:47:57.559 --> 00:48:00.519
was like, then fire me. I said, uh I could

719
00:48:00.559 --> 00:48:04.639
get another job. I can't get another kid, you know. So,

720
00:48:05.079 --> 00:48:08.840
And and I'm not putting I'm not putting no crazy

721
00:48:08.960 --> 00:48:13.840
job before you know my priorities and uh so. But

722
00:48:13.920 --> 00:48:18.760
I think as as a parent, as a woman, as

723
00:48:18.800 --> 00:48:24.320
somebody who who loves their job and lives with integrity,

724
00:48:25.360 --> 00:48:29.639
I think me personally, I think I fail to really

725
00:48:32.039 --> 00:48:36.320
do things for me, you know, take the time to

726
00:48:36.559 --> 00:48:42.639
just not worry about things. Just sit on my couch

727
00:48:42.679 --> 00:48:47.599
and crochet like a crazy mad woman. Uh, you know,

728
00:48:47.760 --> 00:48:50.519
soak my feet, you know, do do things like that,

729
00:48:50.559 --> 00:48:58.239
like make myself a priority. Yeah, because I've always been hungry. Yes, yes,

730
00:49:00.239 --> 00:49:00.599
Or have.

731
00:49:00.679 --> 00:49:03.800
The knack if you want, you know, like if you're cravy,

732
00:49:04.039 --> 00:49:08.320
sometimes having like a treat. You know, emotional eating is

733
00:49:08.599 --> 00:49:11.760
a bad thing. Sometimes, you know, you just want some

734
00:49:11.880 --> 00:49:14.800
ice cream, and girl, should you should have?

735
00:49:15.000 --> 00:49:16.480
Now what you just said that I'm about to go

736
00:49:16.559 --> 00:49:17.360
give me so much.

737
00:49:19.400 --> 00:49:21.719
If I wasn't on camera right now, I'd be eating

738
00:49:21.880 --> 00:49:26.480
ice cream all right before we get into that question,

739
00:49:28.320 --> 00:49:30.960
because she she brought up something this is why I

740
00:49:31.000 --> 00:49:33.199
need to write things down. And then I saw dubs

741
00:49:33.239 --> 00:49:35.280
and then it like threw me off completely.

742
00:49:35.440 --> 00:49:38.519
Oh yeah, what's up guys not so long ago?

743
00:49:38.920 --> 00:49:40.119
Well, thank you for joining.

744
00:49:41.800 --> 00:49:43.920
I'm like, I have to come outside, like to really

745
00:49:43.960 --> 00:49:46.679
wake up. Oh you know reason that you know what

746
00:49:46.679 --> 00:49:49.320
I'm saying that that polue the Hudson County.

747
00:49:49.079 --> 00:49:51.880
Air that's for sure.

748
00:49:52.840 --> 00:49:54.400
Hell yeah, you already know.

749
00:49:55.840 --> 00:49:59.280
I got my asking questions about all the things you

750
00:50:00.079 --> 00:50:03.840
if you found out your significant other had an only fans,

751
00:50:03.880 --> 00:50:06.280
would that be a cause to break up or would

752
00:50:06.360 --> 00:50:09.320
you see that as an opportunity for the household to

753
00:50:09.400 --> 00:50:10.199
get that bag?

754
00:50:10.960 --> 00:50:11.159
Yeah?

755
00:50:12.280 --> 00:50:14.639
Why didn't my significant other tell me that they have

756
00:50:14.719 --> 00:50:15.559
an only fans?

757
00:50:16.559 --> 00:50:17.960
Yo? Own money ain't good money?

758
00:50:19.719 --> 00:50:22.800
No, but why was that hidden? If you my boom

759
00:50:26.199 --> 00:50:28.320
that you'd be making money that way? I ain't judging.

760
00:50:28.800 --> 00:50:30.079
I just want to know how I could get it

761
00:50:30.119 --> 00:50:33.639
on the phone so we can make more money, absolutely right.

762
00:50:35.039 --> 00:50:37.440
Yeah, like yeah, yeah, you know what pressure I'll have.

763
00:50:37.719 --> 00:50:41.119
I'll have a problem with that man, because like because

764
00:50:41.159 --> 00:50:43.000
like you know what I'm saying, But mind's is minds,

765
00:50:43.000 --> 00:50:44.719
you know what I'm saying, Like what's supposed to be

766
00:50:44.920 --> 00:50:47.320
supposed to be mind? Like I don't even care, like

767
00:50:47.360 --> 00:50:50.760
you know yours? Yeah, but yo, but yo for everyone

768
00:50:50.760 --> 00:50:54.320
else to see, nah, yo, Like you know what I'm saying,

769
00:50:54.320 --> 00:50:55.719
Like me, I got a certain standards.

770
00:50:56.239 --> 00:50:59.880
We'll see the only way fans doesn't just have to

771
00:50:59.880 --> 00:51:04.239
be about that though, mm hmm. Like I've seen people

772
00:51:04.280 --> 00:51:07.880
with only fans about crazy stupid stuff, not just sex

773
00:51:07.960 --> 00:51:08.599
and all that.

774
00:51:09.159 --> 00:51:14.639
What if it's just feet, What if you're boothing has

775
00:51:14.679 --> 00:51:17.639
an only fan. It's just a damn feet if he's

776
00:51:17.679 --> 00:51:20.119
doing cute things, stands different.

777
00:51:20.440 --> 00:51:23.679
Bro, Like like like, yo, you know what, don't even

778
00:51:23.719 --> 00:51:24.920
generate that that much money?

779
00:51:25.719 --> 00:51:26.360
Are what?

780
00:51:27.159 --> 00:51:29.760
I don't think? Don't generate that much money?

781
00:51:29.840 --> 00:51:33.679
You try that as but you don't know what the

782
00:51:33.679 --> 00:51:34.960
foot fetish people.

783
00:51:36.000 --> 00:51:37.679
You're as opposed to, Like you know what I'm saying,

784
00:51:37.719 --> 00:51:39.719
like like you know, I bet you.

785
00:51:39.719 --> 00:51:43.239
I don't think probably make more money than other body parts,

786
00:51:43.280 --> 00:51:48.360
which is weird, but yeah, there's a huge foot fetish

787
00:51:48.719 --> 00:51:52.880
could out there. I've heard of people not only making

788
00:51:52.920 --> 00:51:56.519
money off of that, making money off of used underwear

789
00:51:57.119 --> 00:52:01.519
or starting in a jar. Oh okay, So don't tell

790
00:52:01.559 --> 00:52:03.760
me people can't make money off of some stupid ship,

791
00:52:03.920 --> 00:52:04.639
because they do.

792
00:52:06.480 --> 00:52:07.199
R Yeah it's real.

793
00:52:08.039 --> 00:52:08.880
It's a real time.

794
00:52:10.480 --> 00:52:10.679
Yo.

795
00:52:11.039 --> 00:52:12.280
But that you know what I'm saying. Just so you

796
00:52:12.320 --> 00:52:13.960
know what I'm saying, just farting and jarring to sell

797
00:52:13.960 --> 00:52:16.039
that ship too, then they probably make money for that.

798
00:52:16.599 --> 00:52:19.719
I mean, you gotta capture that fart. There's definitely a technique,

799
00:52:19.719 --> 00:52:29.639
I'm sure. Yeah, but yeah, I mean people like.

800
00:52:34.639 --> 00:52:36.719
Ah, man, you know what now that I came outside

801
00:52:36.760 --> 00:52:40.280
like lum fully awake, like I'm gonna love this month.

802
00:52:42.000 --> 00:52:44.400
It's not hot, not cold. I'm gonna be outside.

803
00:52:46.920 --> 00:52:49.239
Is that what you're passionate about this week? The weather.

804
00:52:52.320 --> 00:52:54.400
Dubs? What are you passionate about this week?

805
00:52:56.360 --> 00:53:01.519
Oh so there's like a written a green I'm all

806
00:53:01.559 --> 00:53:04.320
show you guys next week that I have my girl signed.

807
00:53:05.440 --> 00:53:11.039
Right that estates it's a contract basically state stacked Thursdays

808
00:53:11.039 --> 00:53:16.159
from a thirty to eleven, Saturday all day, but well

809
00:53:16.280 --> 00:53:23.760
twelve to ten Sundays all day until eleven, and Mondays

810
00:53:24.119 --> 00:53:29.079
from a thirty to eleven until February. I'll be emotionally

811
00:53:29.159 --> 00:53:34.119
unavailable for her, right right. You know she wants anything done,

812
00:53:34.280 --> 00:53:37.880
but highlight me early in the morning for it. So

813
00:53:37.880 --> 00:53:39.519
I don't want to be bothered after a certain time.

814
00:53:40.440 --> 00:53:42.199
You're not gonna have You're not gonna you know what?

815
00:53:42.480 --> 00:53:46.239
All right, you know what halftime is exceptional, but it

816
00:53:46.280 --> 00:53:47.360
depends how far I'm going.

817
00:53:48.360 --> 00:53:53.719
But it'surgency or something or your attention is all before

818
00:53:53.760 --> 00:53:58.880
you call me, yeah for real, like when you call that,

819
00:53:59.239 --> 00:54:02.599
like any medical place, and if this is a real emergency,

820
00:54:02.719 --> 00:54:05.119
please hang up and down nine one one, I'm like,

821
00:54:05.199 --> 00:54:05.880
oh my.

822
00:54:05.800 --> 00:54:11.480
God, like like you know, football seasons amongst us and

823
00:54:11.519 --> 00:54:13.400
then like my breather is at the end of the month. Yeah,

824
00:54:14.639 --> 00:54:19.119
hopefully you know another you know, sixty five around desert,

825
00:54:19.480 --> 00:54:24.800
around the sun. I mean hopefully. But other than that,

826
00:54:24.840 --> 00:54:32.440
I mean like, yeah, we're good man, all right, you know,

827
00:54:32.519 --> 00:54:35.920
but football season is definitely it because you know what,

828
00:54:36.679 --> 00:54:38.440
I want to have that feeling of like, you know,

829
00:54:38.960 --> 00:54:41.760
one of the US, like fentanyl whatever whatever. I watched

830
00:54:41.760 --> 00:54:45.320
the Jets play. I want to see some Jets ship

831
00:54:45.400 --> 00:54:50.559
this year besides the Butve fumble. You know, I want

832
00:54:50.559 --> 00:54:52.960
to be like, damn, that is the most Jets ship

833
00:54:53.039 --> 00:54:56.760
I've ever seen. I thought last year was bad. Four

834
00:54:56.880 --> 00:54:59.320
plays popped in Achilles. Nah, you know what I'm saying.

835
00:55:01.360 --> 00:55:04.320
But but like a lot of people, like you know,

836
00:55:04.719 --> 00:55:07.519
they're actually saying that, you know whatever, I mean, you know,

837
00:55:07.840 --> 00:55:11.360
predictions and ship. But I'll tell you this much, just

838
00:55:11.360 --> 00:55:13.320
do make a Super Bowl. You're gonna hear by my

839
00:55:13.440 --> 00:55:16.880
arrest because I'm gonna be I'm gonna be streaking down

840
00:55:16.920 --> 00:55:23.519
some streaking down the main strip of Hoboken naked. Imagine

841
00:55:24.440 --> 00:55:27.480
Imagine Will Farrow in that in that college movie I

842
00:55:27.480 --> 00:55:31.400
forgot the name of it, and he was streaking. Yeah,

843
00:55:31.679 --> 00:55:38.199
that would be me. Hell yeah, I'll be looking at

844
00:55:38.199 --> 00:55:40.719
my balls because it's January and it's cold. A ship

845
00:55:41.679 --> 00:55:46.639
you're my balls blue?

846
00:55:47.199 --> 00:55:47.400
Yeah?

847
00:55:47.800 --> 00:55:53.320
Like but no, seriously though, like like you know football,

848
00:55:53.400 --> 00:55:57.440
you know, like the weather is changing. I don't want

849
00:55:57.480 --> 00:56:00.840
to kick. Yeah, I'm out of the hoodie right now

850
00:56:00.840 --> 00:56:04.320
because because like it's warm out here, but it's warm,

851
00:56:04.320 --> 00:56:07.519
but it's not you see what I mean. Like it's

852
00:56:07.559 --> 00:56:13.320
like it's like you know, like like like you know

853
00:56:13.320 --> 00:56:15.199
what my like, like my lid had the ac and

854
00:56:15.239 --> 00:56:18.159
I'm like, yo, turn that ship off. Open the window.

855
00:56:18.519 --> 00:56:20.599
She's like, oh, this feels good. I'm like, yeah, I know.

856
00:56:20.880 --> 00:56:22.079
That's why I told you to open the windows. To

857
00:56:22.159 --> 00:56:24.960
leave the fan al a little bit, you know.

858
00:56:25.000 --> 00:56:25.159
Like.

859
00:56:26.880 --> 00:56:32.000
The leads. The leads are gonna change. I think that that,

860
00:56:32.119 --> 00:56:34.719
you know, a drop to Upstate New York would be

861
00:56:34.800 --> 00:56:36.800
you know, good for the day or something like that.

862
00:56:37.280 --> 00:56:40.800
Just to watch these teams like the Bear Mountain, you know,

863
00:56:40.960 --> 00:56:49.199
like nature ship my time of the year and yeah,

864
00:56:49.199 --> 00:56:53.480
I mean like halloweens next month, people, you know what

865
00:56:53.480 --> 00:56:55.639
I'm saying, But halloweens every day because people wear their

866
00:56:55.679 --> 00:56:57.320
mask on everywhere anyway.

867
00:56:57.079 --> 00:57:03.159
So I mean, how dealing with their representatives exactly.

868
00:57:03.719 --> 00:57:11.360
You know what I'm saying, Like, oh man, just respectful

869
00:57:11.400 --> 00:57:20.719
ash truck November Thanksgiving, thanks will be thanksful for just

870
00:57:20.719 --> 00:57:22.599
for the next day to go. We purchased some ship

871
00:57:22.679 --> 00:57:24.760
that I thought I was thankful for just because it's cheaper,

872
00:57:26.880 --> 00:57:31.519
you know what I mean. Like it's so true. Yeah,

873
00:57:31.519 --> 00:57:34.719
I'm thankful. I'm thankful for my sixty five minutes screen TV,

874
00:57:34.880 --> 00:57:36.760
but that eighty five minutes is on sale for four

875
00:57:36.880 --> 00:57:39.159
ninety nine. You know what I'm saying. Like everybody thinks

876
00:57:39.159 --> 00:57:40.920
they're getting a real deal when they're actually getting this

877
00:57:40.920 --> 00:57:43.559
shit on real retail price. Like they just dropped the

878
00:57:43.599 --> 00:57:45.239
store deal off. You know what I'm saying, the store

879
00:57:45.280 --> 00:57:47.199
price off. You know what I'm saying, You're getting what

880
00:57:47.239 --> 00:57:48.719
you actually paid for on Black Friday.

881
00:57:49.599 --> 00:57:52.119
Oh, they used to have really good deals, So I

882
00:57:52.159 --> 00:57:53.800
don't know if it's still the same. I haven't done

883
00:57:53.840 --> 00:57:55.360
it in so long, but I.

884
00:57:55.679 --> 00:57:59.119
Never got involved with fucking Oh I totally did. That's why.

885
00:57:59.239 --> 00:58:00.559
That's why it' said Monday.

886
00:58:01.519 --> 00:58:04.840
But yeah, Cyber Monday that I had to get up

887
00:58:04.840 --> 00:58:08.760
at four o'clock in the morning go get oh man, no, no.

888
00:58:08.519 --> 00:58:11.599
No, man, man, Look, you know what you know what,

889
00:58:11.840 --> 00:58:13.360
let me tell you something, man, I got like I

890
00:58:13.440 --> 00:58:17.000
did Black Friday one time, and that was the first

891
00:58:17.000 --> 00:58:18.760
of the last time because I was like, yo, you

892
00:58:18.760 --> 00:58:22.480
know what, Like like I got there, we got to

893
00:58:22.559 --> 00:58:24.480
store my I was on my ex. We got there

894
00:58:24.480 --> 00:58:30.199
like around three thirty in the morning, and we must

895
00:58:30.199 --> 00:58:32.280
have been like the seventy fifth person on line. Like

896
00:58:32.320 --> 00:58:35.280
people literally camped out. So I was like, yo, you

897
00:58:35.320 --> 00:58:35.719
know what.

898
00:58:35.599 --> 00:58:37.440
Like I got too serious after a while.

899
00:58:38.079 --> 00:58:41.599
Yeah, you know what I'm saying. It's like, Yo, the irony.

900
00:58:45.519 --> 00:58:46.000
That a bi.

901
00:58:46.679 --> 00:58:51.000
Yeah yeah, yeah, I'm right off the y. I'm literally

902
00:58:51.119 --> 00:58:53.440
right next to Kennedy. You know what I'm saying, Like

903
00:58:53.679 --> 00:58:58.679
right there, you know what I'm saying, Like that's when

904
00:58:58.679 --> 00:59:01.280
I realized, like, yo, you know what, thanksgiving us a

905
00:59:01.320 --> 00:59:03.239
bust of that holiday because you know what, just a

906
00:59:03.239 --> 00:59:05.920
couple of hours ago, thanks for some ship. Now we're overheard.

907
00:59:05.960 --> 00:59:06.559
You know what I'm saying.

908
00:59:06.760 --> 00:59:09.199
You know Black Friday is the bullshit holiday.

909
00:59:09.840 --> 00:59:12.719
Yeah, but you know what though, But but you know what, though,

910
00:59:12.800 --> 00:59:15.719
like like Black Friday, you know what I'm saying, Like

911
00:59:15.760 --> 00:59:18.079
actually kept you know what I'm saying, companies, you know

912
00:59:18.119 --> 00:59:20.039
what I'm saying in the black. What I'm saying, there

913
00:59:20.119 --> 00:59:21.920
was in the red that day, they made it to

914
00:59:21.960 --> 00:59:24.039
the black. You know what I'm saying, see it, they're

915
00:59:24.039 --> 00:59:28.760
fucking yeah because we stupid understand what's going on. I'm

916
00:59:28.760 --> 00:59:30.480
about to go sit in my car. Man fucking back

917
00:59:30.559 --> 00:59:31.079
is killing me.

918
00:59:32.760 --> 00:59:36.639
But yeah, I agree, I I get that. It's like

919
00:59:36.679 --> 00:59:38.320
when they try to get rid of ship that they

920
00:59:38.360 --> 00:59:44.039
need to before the new year. Yeah big See what

921
00:59:44.320 --> 00:59:52.800
is your thing that you were passionate about? What you said?

922
00:59:53.400 --> 00:59:58.000
Yeah? So all right, so it's this gonnas gonna start

923
00:59:58.039 --> 01:00:01.239
off some ship, some new some new topic or whatever.

924
01:00:01.320 --> 01:00:03.480
But wait, hold on, hold on, hold on, and then

925
01:00:03.599 --> 01:00:10.960
Christmas and then Christmas. Right. You know what though, like

926
01:00:10.960 --> 01:00:14.559
like you know, like like I love and I have

927
01:00:14.599 --> 01:00:17.920
a love hate. You know what I'm saying, relationship with Christmas.

928
01:00:18.440 --> 01:00:27.159
It's because it's like buying presents for people, right, Like

929
01:00:27.199 --> 01:00:31.119
I don't care about presence, like personally, you know what

930
01:00:31.119 --> 01:00:32.760
I'm saying. I don't want no one to give me ship.

931
01:00:34.320 --> 01:00:35.679
You know what I'm saying. If you're going to do it,

932
01:00:36.079 --> 01:00:37.559
do it, do it from the bottom of your heart.

933
01:00:37.880 --> 01:00:40.760
See that's the that's the that's that's the problem. You

934
01:00:40.800 --> 01:00:41.880
know that's what that's the problem.

935
01:00:41.880 --> 01:00:42.039
Though.

936
01:00:42.119 --> 01:00:45.119
It was like everybody expect presents.

937
01:00:44.719 --> 01:00:46.840
That's right, right about saying.

938
01:00:49.000 --> 01:00:52.119
Every no, no, I'm serious stuff like everybody expects presence, right,

939
01:00:52.719 --> 01:00:55.199
but like but like, yo, you know what though, like

940
01:00:55.280 --> 01:00:56.760
the whole thing is like you know, like you're missing

941
01:00:56.800 --> 01:00:58.679
the point, you know what I'm saying, Like, like, well,

942
01:00:58.719 --> 01:01:02.079
not you, but you know the majority of people missed

943
01:01:02.079 --> 01:01:03.239
at the point. They just you know what I'm saying,

944
01:01:03.239 --> 01:01:05.159
They just bond presents because they feel like they need to.

945
01:01:05.199 --> 01:01:07.559
It's like an obligation, you know what I'm saying, Like

946
01:01:07.920 --> 01:01:09.000
when I do you know what I'm saying, why I

947
01:01:09.039 --> 01:01:10.880
do something? I do something from the heart, you know

948
01:01:10.880 --> 01:01:14.760
what I'm saying, Like I don't want no no oh

949
01:01:15.239 --> 01:01:16.960
yeah you did this for me and not gota do

950
01:01:17.119 --> 01:01:19.039
no No, I don't want that ship, you know what

951
01:01:19.039 --> 01:01:19.559
I'm saying, Like.

952
01:01:21.199 --> 01:01:27.360
You'll never be that about that, never give things with

953
01:01:27.760 --> 01:01:33.159
expectation to receive something that doesn't. That's right, good to

954
01:01:33.199 --> 01:01:34.000
do in life.

955
01:01:34.360 --> 01:01:37.320
But but you know what, that's what Christmas turned out

956
01:01:37.320 --> 01:01:37.519
to be.

957
01:01:39.039 --> 01:01:42.760
Christmas is just the consumer holiday and it's and I've

958
01:01:42.840 --> 01:01:47.199
noticed that, like, but it's not like that for everybody though, no,

959
01:01:47.320 --> 01:01:50.079
but it's still like I've seen a lot of parents

960
01:01:50.119 --> 01:01:54.679
go super crazy buying a good jillion gifts for their kids.

961
01:01:54.800 --> 01:01:57.920
Their trees are like you could hardly see the tree

962
01:01:57.960 --> 01:02:01.480
because there's so many presents, and it's kind of gotten

963
01:02:01.519 --> 01:02:06.880
just a little crazy because I remember Christmas for me,

964
01:02:07.840 --> 01:02:10.679
you know, we would ask for a few things. Mama

965
01:02:10.719 --> 01:02:13.239
didn't have no money. We couldn't bring a whole list

966
01:02:13.280 --> 01:02:15.920
to her or anything, and if we did, I knew

967
01:02:15.920 --> 01:02:19.480
I wasn't getting everything on that list. But you know,

968
01:02:20.079 --> 01:02:23.559
it was the element of surprise. I guess to see

969
01:02:23.599 --> 01:02:27.159
what I got, What did Santa bring me? Until I

970
01:02:27.159 --> 01:02:30.000
found out he wasn't real? But then you.

971
01:02:30.079 --> 01:02:32.719
Just fucked it up for half the viewers right now.

972
01:02:32.960 --> 01:02:35.039
I mean, I swear to God, if you're an adult

973
01:02:35.079 --> 01:02:39.079
over eighteen watching this and still believing in Santa, you

974
01:02:39.159 --> 01:02:40.920
need to go to Finland because that's where he is.

975
01:02:41.000 --> 01:02:46.320
That's what I learned recently. So it was a beautiful time,

976
01:02:46.440 --> 01:02:50.559
like Christmas is like the only time that I feel

977
01:02:50.639 --> 01:02:56.239
like just universally people are nice. And you know it's

978
01:02:56.280 --> 01:02:59.079
sad though, because it should always be like that, but

979
01:02:59.360 --> 01:03:02.519
it's own during that time where people were like saying

980
01:03:02.559 --> 01:03:07.599
happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, you know, like everyone is nice.

981
01:03:08.280 --> 01:03:10.679
Then after that it's like, go fuck yourself. That's what

982
01:03:10.800 --> 01:03:13.760
I feel like. I feel like that's what it turns too.

983
01:03:14.239 --> 01:03:17.719
Yeah, you want to do what you know, you know,

984
01:03:17.760 --> 01:03:24.480
what will make Christmas so much nice up here? Snow Yeah, yeah,

985
01:03:24.519 --> 01:03:25.079
I wanted.

986
01:03:24.920 --> 01:03:27.280
To snow here too. I still have not experienced real

987
01:03:27.360 --> 01:03:31.320
Pa snow, like it has no not where I've been,

988
01:03:31.440 --> 01:03:35.679
Like it snowed a little bit, but like they've been saying, like, oh,

989
01:03:35.679 --> 01:03:39.079
we're supposed to get all of the snow I've I've heard.

990
01:03:39.199 --> 01:03:41.480
The first time I ever heard of snow squalls was

991
01:03:41.519 --> 01:03:45.679
here and thankfully I was not driving during that. But

992
01:03:46.960 --> 01:03:52.039
I did drive during a horrible thunderstorm where I literally

993
01:03:52.079 --> 01:03:54.639
couldn't see anything in front of me while I was driving.

994
01:03:54.679 --> 01:03:59.719
So that was fun. You know, I went really slow

995
01:03:59.800 --> 01:04:04.599
and has on. I am a sieve driver, you.

996
01:04:04.559 --> 01:04:06.639
Know what, though, like like you know what, like I'll

997
01:04:06.679 --> 01:04:10.280
appreciate if it snows, you know, like that that right

998
01:04:10.320 --> 01:04:13.679
there with like you know, well like probably bring out

999
01:04:13.679 --> 01:04:15.920
the kid to me with Christmas or whatever, you know,

1000
01:04:17.840 --> 01:04:22.159
like you know, like yeah, you know like or like

1001
01:04:22.199 --> 01:04:26.760
you know what, like and speaking of snow, I hope

1002
01:04:26.760 --> 01:04:30.199
you know what I'm saying, Like I hope, I hope

1003
01:04:30.239 --> 01:04:32.159
like mother Nature does not like you know, the size

1004
01:04:32.159 --> 01:04:35.239
of like throw a bunch of like you know, winter

1005
01:04:35.320 --> 01:04:38.920
cocaine on us this summer, I mean this winter, you know,

1006
01:04:39.039 --> 01:04:41.800
because right now because like look, you know what, I

1007
01:04:41.840 --> 01:04:44.239
can't shovel ship. I ain't gonna suck in my back,

1008
01:04:44.880 --> 01:04:45.920
give me a take a phone by me.

1009
01:04:46.480 --> 01:04:49.639
Those kids don't go around shoveling ship anymore.

1010
01:04:49.760 --> 01:04:52.519
For these kids are fucking lazy man like like you

1011
01:04:52.559 --> 01:04:56.440
know what, you know what, you know what these kids,

1012
01:04:56.480 --> 01:04:58.239
you know what I'm saying, Like they rather stay in

1013
01:04:58.320 --> 01:05:01.559
doors and play GT online or something like that, Red

1014
01:05:01.559 --> 01:05:04.480
the Redemption or like Madden Online and stuff, you know,

1015
01:05:04.559 --> 01:05:07.000
like like you know what, like they don't they don't

1016
01:05:07.039 --> 01:05:08.880
have that drive like you know, like like we did,

1017
01:05:09.039 --> 01:05:11.280
like like you know, like we like we would like

1018
01:05:11.320 --> 01:05:13.480
we would literally go around. But then again, I mean.

1019
01:05:13.480 --> 01:05:15.639
I have a car port. I'm not worried about it.

1020
01:05:17.280 --> 01:05:20.480
But then again, you know what though, like like you

1021
01:05:20.480 --> 01:05:22.880
know what, like when they used to like we used

1022
01:05:22.920 --> 01:05:25.880
to get storms, like you know, we got blizzards, you know,

1023
01:05:26.039 --> 01:05:29.960
like it's like ninety three ninety six.

1024
01:05:30.639 --> 01:05:33.280
Ninety six. I remember the storm in ninety Oh.

1025
01:05:33.360 --> 01:05:36.199
Man, I remember ninety six, man, like like you know what,

1026
01:05:36.239 --> 01:05:38.519
Like I like, like I came up here because I

1027
01:05:38.559 --> 01:05:39.880
came up here with my brother because we had to

1028
01:05:39.880 --> 01:05:42.880
go to court, Like like I flew from Miami. We

1029
01:05:42.920 --> 01:05:45.400
have to we have to go to court because the

1030
01:05:45.519 --> 01:05:47.960
legal guardianship ship, like it kind of got messed up

1031
01:05:47.960 --> 01:05:49.480
a little bit. I don't know what happened, so like

1032
01:05:49.800 --> 01:05:52.079
we have to fly up here, you know, through the

1033
01:05:52.159 --> 01:05:56.840
court of person or whatever, right, and like you know,

1034
01:05:56.840 --> 01:06:02.199
like we stood over my mom's house and we're supposed

1035
01:06:02.239 --> 01:06:06.880
to leave the day that it snowed, so we end

1036
01:06:07.000 --> 01:06:12.960
up staying like three extra days after the snowstorm. And

1037
01:06:13.039 --> 01:06:16.079
I remember like like they had the bulldozers on Washington

1038
01:06:16.079 --> 01:06:20.480
Street and they were literally like you know, like you know,

1039
01:06:20.559 --> 01:06:23.159
like putting the snow into the dump truck and dumping

1040
01:06:23.159 --> 01:06:26.480
in the river. That's before you know, the EPA found

1041
01:06:26.480 --> 01:06:29.000
out that that shit was like you know, contaminating whatever

1042
01:06:29.039 --> 01:06:32.199
because of the salt. But yeah, I remember that storm.

1043
01:06:32.239 --> 01:06:33.360
That was like the first time I ever said I

1044
01:06:33.360 --> 01:06:36.800
ever heard the path shut down. Pat trains shut down.

1045
01:06:37.199 --> 01:06:39.239
The pat trains shut down like like you know what,

1046
01:06:39.320 --> 01:06:41.079
Like that was like my first like you know, like

1047
01:06:41.920 --> 01:06:44.360
real glimpse to what a state of emergency really was,

1048
01:06:44.880 --> 01:06:52.920
because because what you call it p GTA speaking of

1049
01:06:52.960 --> 01:06:56.800
Grand theft Aul who I'm just playing like you know,

1050
01:06:56.880 --> 01:07:00.519
like that was like my first glimpse to like a

1051
01:07:00.519 --> 01:07:04.880
state of emergency. Man, you have people like with their

1052
01:07:04.960 --> 01:07:07.360
ski like skiing down you know, skiing up and down

1053
01:07:07.360 --> 01:07:12.519
the main strip, right you have people skiing what to

1054
01:07:12.599 --> 01:07:15.960
call it, like people out there with their ski suits

1055
01:07:16.039 --> 01:07:18.639
or whatever. Like Yo, it was Yo, what a time

1056
01:07:18.679 --> 01:07:21.079
to be alive. But like holy shit. The next day

1057
01:07:21.119 --> 01:07:23.440
after like like you know, I was like, yo, you

1058
01:07:23.480 --> 01:07:25.079
know what, I'm gonna go outside to make some money.

1059
01:07:25.480 --> 01:07:29.639
So me and Jay the following day, like you know,

1060
01:07:29.719 --> 01:07:31.039
like He's like, yo, I thought you would leave it.

1061
01:07:31.079 --> 01:07:32.760
I was like, nah, man, I can't. You know what

1062
01:07:32.800 --> 01:07:35.199
I'm saying. The flights are canceled. So me and him,

1063
01:07:35.320 --> 01:07:36.760
you know I'm saying, we went around shovel the snow

1064
01:07:36.880 --> 01:07:38.519
like and we did it for like three hours and

1065
01:07:38.519 --> 01:07:41.840
we made like then like one hundred dollars. It was

1066
01:07:41.880 --> 01:07:44.199
like twenty dollars that we were charging. And we and

1067
01:07:44.239 --> 01:07:49.679
we got it done quick so we had drive. You

1068
01:07:49.719 --> 01:07:52.000
know what I'm saying. It's just that now like these kids, man,

1069
01:07:52.119 --> 01:07:54.000
like the whole world is online.

1070
01:07:54.679 --> 01:07:56.400
So it's like, yeah, let's see it.

1071
01:07:58.880 --> 01:08:06.400
Yeah it is. Everything is is your phone and you know,

1072
01:08:07.280 --> 01:08:09.320
put in your face and your phone, your iPad.

1073
01:08:09.440 --> 01:08:13.400
And you know they're not They're not gonna do real

1074
01:08:13.440 --> 01:08:20.239
good when apocalypse comes. Not gonna know how to cook,

1075
01:08:20.279 --> 01:08:22.159
how to grow, nothing, how to sew.

1076
01:08:24.359 --> 01:08:25.800
I could do all that ship.

1077
01:08:25.640 --> 01:08:27.680
They're not even gonna get to the walking day because

1078
01:08:27.680 --> 01:08:28.720
they're just gonna be dead.

1079
01:08:29.279 --> 01:08:35.319
Yep, that's crazy. But yeah, big see what you're saying.

1080
01:08:38.800 --> 01:08:40.479
Hold, I think for a second.

1081
01:08:40.960 --> 01:08:42.680
Passionate about this week.

1082
01:08:43.640 --> 01:08:46.119
So I was I've been thinking, right, I got a

1083
01:08:46.119 --> 01:08:51.680
couple of thinking about football. But I was scrolling through

1084
01:08:51.720 --> 01:08:56.760
the internet, the vast world of the internet, and I

1085
01:08:56.840 --> 01:09:00.000
came across a couple of things and go off together

1086
01:09:00.279 --> 01:09:02.600
because it has to do with what I'm passionate about, right,

1087
01:09:04.439 --> 01:09:08.920
all right, So it has to do with with with love.

1088
01:09:09.560 --> 01:09:14.640
So love. Love is to me personally, and I don't

1089
01:09:14.640 --> 01:09:17.680
know how you guys feel about it, but to me,

1090
01:09:18.840 --> 01:09:20.680
just because you have sex with somebody doesn't mean you

1091
01:09:20.720 --> 01:09:24.880
love them. We know this just because you're dating somebody

1092
01:09:25.039 --> 01:09:29.600
doesn't mean you love them. Talking to somebody twenty four

1093
01:09:29.600 --> 01:09:32.880
hours a day, seven days a week does not mean

1094
01:09:32.920 --> 01:09:37.960
you love them. All right, staying awake all day, all night,

1095
01:09:39.359 --> 01:09:41.600
whatever did you do with this person doesn't mean you

1096
01:09:41.640 --> 01:09:42.560
love them.

1097
01:09:42.560 --> 01:09:44.560
Why you're crazy?

1098
01:09:45.239 --> 01:09:47.000
All right? Because you're here now we get.

1099
01:09:47.119 --> 01:09:49.560
I'm not saying I'm not staying up for nobody if I.

1100
01:09:49.479 --> 01:09:52.079
Don't love them, yo.

1101
01:09:52.199 --> 01:09:55.520
But you know what I'm saying. But behold up, hold up,

1102
01:09:55.600 --> 01:10:01.800
hold up to me. Like I had to write this

1103
01:10:01.840 --> 01:10:03.920
stuff down because I was you know, I was taking

1104
01:10:04.079 --> 01:10:05.720
a lot about it. Yeah, because I'm old and I

1105
01:10:05.720 --> 01:10:07.600
would have forgotten about it if I didn't write it down.

1106
01:10:08.720 --> 01:10:09.079
And I.

1107
01:10:10.600 --> 01:10:14.319
Just got I just got a whole bunch of new

1108
01:10:14.359 --> 01:10:17.119
pens from Amazon, so I was writing with them and ship.

1109
01:10:16.880 --> 01:10:21.920
So they're.

1110
01:10:22.159 --> 01:10:23.000
Black pens.

1111
01:10:24.239 --> 01:10:25.680
I mean what type of ink?

1112
01:10:26.800 --> 01:10:27.399
Black ink?

1113
01:10:28.239 --> 01:10:31.560
No ship.

1114
01:10:34.319 --> 01:10:34.880
Medium.

1115
01:10:34.720 --> 01:10:39.760
I'm fine details, yo, yo, you know what I mean.

1116
01:10:39.800 --> 01:10:42.000
I'm not gonna lie like like you know what like

1117
01:10:42.000 --> 01:10:44.520
like like with me, like I always got to write

1118
01:10:44.560 --> 01:10:51.199
with Joel pens. I'm sorry, this is good choice, good choice.

1119
01:10:52.640 --> 01:10:54.600
You know what, if you got one of those like

1120
01:10:54.640 --> 01:10:57.600
big pens, would have like party foul loser.

1121
01:10:58.359 --> 01:11:07.039
It's a jo it's a joke, all right, Yeah yeah,

1122
01:11:07.119 --> 01:11:12.239
so grow man ship exactly. So for me, for me,

1123
01:11:13.199 --> 01:11:20.600
it's love is kind of like someone can look at

1124
01:11:20.640 --> 01:11:26.760
you and accept your tough side, your rough side, and

1125
01:11:26.840 --> 01:11:32.159
still accept you for who you are. Right. It's someone

1126
01:11:32.840 --> 01:11:35.279
who does things for you when you can't, Like if

1127
01:11:35.319 --> 01:11:38.039
you can't do certain types of things, and this person

1128
01:11:38.119 --> 01:11:40.039
is there to do these things with you or for you.

1129
01:11:40.880 --> 01:11:44.359
That's that's that's a show of love. Someone who can

1130
01:11:44.439 --> 01:11:46.279
hold you and calm you down when you're in one

1131
01:11:46.319 --> 01:11:51.199
of your moments. You know what I'm saying, love is

1132
01:11:51.279 --> 01:11:55.960
love is someone who expresses all the good things in you,

1133
01:11:56.079 --> 01:11:59.159
even though you think all those things are bad. So

1134
01:11:59.239 --> 01:12:07.239
someone who who can actually come into your life and

1135
01:12:08.600 --> 01:12:11.840
accept you for who you are and show you that

1136
01:12:11.960 --> 01:12:15.479
there are good things within you. Because some people they

1137
01:12:15.520 --> 01:12:18.239
feel like damn, you know what I'm saying, who's gonna

1138
01:12:18.239 --> 01:12:20.600
love motherfucker like me? You know what I'm saying, Like,

1139
01:12:20.680 --> 01:12:25.680
who's gonna come into my life and show me that

1140
01:12:25.800 --> 01:12:28.000
they could deal with my bullshit? Because let me tell

1141
01:12:28.000 --> 01:12:31.079
you something, some of my some of my some some

1142
01:12:31.119 --> 01:12:34.159
of my bullshit is some serious ship. You know what

1143
01:12:34.199 --> 01:12:35.920
I'm saying, And for it to come into my life,

1144
01:12:35.960 --> 01:12:38.399
to be a part of my life means you gotta

1145
01:12:38.680 --> 01:12:46.520
you gotta hand. Yeah, yeah, you know what I'm saying.

1146
01:12:46.600 --> 01:12:49.880
Like it's it's it's just hard. You know, someone and

1147
01:12:50.119 --> 01:12:53.600
someone someone who makes sure you're okay from time to

1148
01:12:53.640 --> 01:12:55.279
time hit you up. Hey, you don't even know how

1149
01:12:55.319 --> 01:12:57.159
you're doing, how you've been, you know, everything good with

1150
01:12:57.239 --> 01:13:01.119
you and ship, you know what I'm saying. And someone

1151
01:13:01.159 --> 01:13:05.359
who just doesn't take you for granted. Somebody who appreciates

1152
01:13:05.399 --> 01:13:08.600
who you are, someone who appreciates the kind of person

1153
01:13:08.640 --> 01:13:13.479
you are. You know, because you know I've I've come.

1154
01:13:14.039 --> 01:13:15.920
I've come a long way. You know what I mean?

1155
01:13:16.119 --> 01:13:18.079
Anybody who know me, No, I come a long way.

1156
01:13:18.600 --> 01:13:20.800
I come from I come from some ship, you know

1157
01:13:20.800 --> 01:13:25.119
what I'm saying. And and I think anybody who who

1158
01:13:25.199 --> 01:13:32.960
decides to ultimately deal with me, you know, I come.

1159
01:13:33.039 --> 01:13:34.560
I come with a lot of ship. You know what

1160
01:13:34.600 --> 01:13:38.279
I'm saying, Like I come. I know we all do,

1161
01:13:38.520 --> 01:13:40.760
But what I'm saying, I come. I come. I come

1162
01:13:40.800 --> 01:13:44.000
with a lot of ship. And you know, I think

1163
01:13:44.119 --> 01:13:50.159
if you know you're gonna what was that another bike?

1164
01:13:50.760 --> 01:13:50.800
No?

1165
01:13:50.960 --> 01:13:54.439
That was me. Fargn no, my bad earlier.

1166
01:13:55.239 --> 01:13:57.640
Into a jar. He's fartened into a jar. He's got

1167
01:13:57.640 --> 01:13:58.239
to tell.

1168
01:13:59.640 --> 01:14:01.520
Only and that money.

1169
01:14:02.800 --> 01:14:04.960
I've beturn it from only fast only parts.

1170
01:14:07.520 --> 01:14:11.800
So I mean, you know, sometimes when when when I

1171
01:14:11.840 --> 01:14:15.479
look back and ship, like, I think about, you know,

1172
01:14:15.640 --> 01:14:19.800
some of the ship that that I've done, some of

1173
01:14:19.840 --> 01:14:22.039
the ship I've been through and ship, I think to myself,

1174
01:14:22.079 --> 01:14:25.920
I'm like, I'm not dead for a reason, you know

1175
01:14:25.920 --> 01:14:30.880
what I'm saying. Like, there were times when I thought

1176
01:14:30.960 --> 01:14:36.239
this was it, you know, and I'm not. I'm here, bro,

1177
01:14:36.319 --> 01:14:39.520
and I'm I'm telling you, man, I'm not. I'm not.

1178
01:14:39.600 --> 01:14:44.560
I'm not really a big religious dude. But you know,

1179
01:14:44.920 --> 01:14:48.960
I've done some ship. I've been in the middle of

1180
01:14:49.039 --> 01:14:53.079
some ship. You know what I'm saying. And I'm like, Yo,

1181
01:14:53.199 --> 01:14:56.479
what the fuck? Man, I'm like, YO, call on you.

1182
01:14:56.479 --> 01:14:59.199
You You here for a reason, man, somebody they're keeping

1183
01:14:59.239 --> 01:15:00.000
you here for something.

1184
01:15:00.920 --> 01:15:01.199
I don't know.

1185
01:15:01.239 --> 01:15:04.439
If it's to run for office eventually, you know what

1186
01:15:04.479 --> 01:15:08.279
I'm saying, or to fucking do this, or to help

1187
01:15:08.359 --> 01:15:10.880
someone or do whatever it is. But I'm here for

1188
01:15:10.920 --> 01:15:13.680
a reason, you know what I'm saying. And I know

1189
01:15:13.960 --> 01:15:16.640
and I'm gonna be honest with you, man. Sometimes sometimes

1190
01:15:16.680 --> 01:15:20.479
I sit back and I'm like, yo, you remember the

1191
01:15:20.600 --> 01:15:24.880
day this happened, and that happened, and this happened and

1192
01:15:24.960 --> 01:15:27.880
that happened. Like, I'm gonna tell you a story. This

1193
01:15:27.960 --> 01:15:30.840
is story time, real quick. It's gonna freaky motherfuckers out.

1194
01:15:31.520 --> 01:15:32.319
Huh what was that?

1195
01:15:33.159 --> 01:15:33.680
My lord?

1196
01:15:34.239 --> 01:15:41.079
Oh my lord, Oh my gosh. This is story time.

1197
01:15:41.159 --> 01:15:43.119
This is gonna probably fuck some people's heads up when

1198
01:15:43.159 --> 01:15:47.279
I say this. All right, So I was at when

1199
01:15:47.359 --> 01:15:48.680
I was at. I was at a point in my

1200
01:15:48.720 --> 01:15:51.920
life when I was real low. Everybody's had them low

1201
01:15:51.960 --> 01:15:57.239
points and shit right. I was living with my grandmother

1202
01:15:57.800 --> 01:16:02.239
at the time, and I washed Inton Street. I had

1203
01:16:03.279 --> 01:16:06.760
I'll never forget this and Dub's doveson can tell you this.

1204
01:16:07.239 --> 01:16:14.439
I had a green Nissan Pathfinder. Yeah. Yeah. And one

1205
01:16:14.520 --> 01:16:20.359
day I was sitting down and I was saying to myself,

1206
01:16:22.680 --> 01:16:25.960
I don't and this is this is this is the

1207
01:16:26.279 --> 01:16:33.039
unmedicated me, you know what I mean. And I was

1208
01:16:33.079 --> 01:16:34.800
sitting there and I was like, I don't. I don't

1209
01:16:34.840 --> 01:16:37.239
want to do this no more. Like I'm like, I

1210
01:16:37.279 --> 01:16:39.920
don't I want to be here? Like what the fuck

1211
01:16:39.960 --> 01:16:42.239
am I what am I doing here? Like, what's my purpose?

1212
01:16:42.359 --> 01:16:46.159
I felt like I had no purpose. So what I

1213
01:16:46.199 --> 01:16:53.720
did was I I went to CVS, which was right

1214
01:16:53.720 --> 01:17:03.920
across the street, and I bought a bottle of no Doze,

1215
01:17:04.159 --> 01:17:07.399
not no dose, no no no night. All it was night.

1216
01:17:07.439 --> 01:17:09.800
All it was colled. No dose is to stay awake.

1217
01:17:09.920 --> 01:17:13.600
Night all is to go to sleep. So that bottle

1218
01:17:13.680 --> 01:17:15.800
had like twenty some pills. And then, man, let me

1219
01:17:15.840 --> 01:17:19.479
tell you, somebody drank the whole fucking bottle. I drank

1220
01:17:19.479 --> 01:17:22.159
the whole fucking bottle, and I jumped in the car

1221
01:17:22.680 --> 01:17:27.600
and I went for a ride. Okay, my intention was

1222
01:17:27.640 --> 01:17:32.039
not to make it that night. Okay, would you believe

1223
01:17:33.680 --> 01:17:38.359
now if that night did not kill me? All right?

1224
01:17:38.720 --> 01:17:44.199
I got all. I remember. It was in the middle

1225
01:17:44.199 --> 01:17:48.159
of winter. The temperature must have been like ten to

1226
01:17:48.239 --> 01:17:51.880
fifteen below with the wind shill. I was like, I've

1227
01:17:51.920 --> 01:17:56.960
had it with everything, right. I think I found out

1228
01:17:57.439 --> 01:18:00.000
at that time my lady was fucking around or something

1229
01:18:00.560 --> 01:18:04.880
and my job. I lost my job, and I was like, Yo,

1230
01:18:05.039 --> 01:18:07.479
what the fuck and this and that all this other shit.

1231
01:18:07.960 --> 01:18:10.920
I don't want to fucking deal with it. And so

1232
01:18:12.159 --> 01:18:18.159
I went and I did that, went for a ride.

1233
01:18:18.760 --> 01:18:24.399
I get home. I and all I remember was parking

1234
01:18:24.439 --> 01:18:31.119
the car, right, and then I wake up in the hospital.

1235
01:18:33.039 --> 01:18:38.319
I remember nothing between parking the car and I wake

1236
01:18:38.399 --> 01:18:44.000
up in the hospital. Right. So I'm hearing things and

1237
01:18:44.039 --> 01:18:46.479
I'm seeing shit because I guess they had they had

1238
01:18:46.520 --> 01:18:51.960
to pump my stomach. So the nurse comes in and

1239
01:18:52.000 --> 01:18:54.239
she was like, oh my god, you're awake. She was like,

1240
01:18:54.319 --> 01:18:56.840
it was touch and go. I was like, what do

1241
01:18:56.920 --> 01:18:59.880
you What the fuck are you talking about. She was like,

1242
01:19:00.079 --> 01:19:02.760
you have no idea what happened? I was like, no,

1243
01:19:04.439 --> 01:19:08.359
She said, you walked in here in a T shirt,

1244
01:19:10.119 --> 01:19:13.119
walked up to the nurse and said, I just took

1245
01:19:13.439 --> 01:19:19.800
twenty sound pills. I wanted to die and fell out

1246
01:19:19.840 --> 01:19:22.359
on the floor. They thrush me in, pumped my stomach,

1247
01:19:22.399 --> 01:19:26.960
and they they, you know, pretty much did what they

1248
01:19:27.000 --> 01:19:35.560
had to do to keep me alive. Right. So, I

1249
01:19:35.600 --> 01:19:39.079
my aunt was an RN in an emergency room at

1250
01:19:39.119 --> 01:19:41.000
the time. She comes in to talk to me and she'said,

1251
01:19:41.039 --> 01:19:43.760
but what happened? And I was like, I don't even know, man,

1252
01:19:43.800 --> 01:19:49.640
I was so I they told me they were going

1253
01:19:49.720 --> 01:19:51.520
to keep me and they were gonna lock they were

1254
01:19:51.520 --> 01:19:56.039
going to put me in the psych ward observation. Yeah,

1255
01:19:56.199 --> 01:19:59.399
make sure you know. I was good. But I started

1256
01:19:59.399 --> 01:20:01.960
to feel better, like my senses started coming back and

1257
01:20:01.960 --> 01:20:09.520
ship after all this shit that went on. And I

1258
01:20:09.600 --> 01:20:11.520
said to the nurse, I was like, because they had

1259
01:20:11.520 --> 01:20:13.359
me on a IV. I said, look, I need something

1260
01:20:13.399 --> 01:20:15.439
to drink, something to eat or whatever. They were like, oh,

1261
01:20:15.479 --> 01:20:19.680
you know, the the vending machines are right outside the door,

1262
01:20:19.760 --> 01:20:22.279
so go ahead and get something or whatever and come back.

1263
01:20:23.479 --> 01:20:26.000
So when I went to the vending machine, I've so

1264
01:20:26.199 --> 01:20:28.960
freaked the fuck out about what they had told me,

1265
01:20:29.000 --> 01:20:32.159
what had happened, and what I remembered. I took the

1266
01:20:32.159 --> 01:20:35.119
fucking I snatched the IV out of my hand and

1267
01:20:35.159 --> 01:20:41.279
I ran home. So I run the fuck home. I

1268
01:20:41.319 --> 01:20:44.720
got blood squirting from my fucking fist because of the IV.

1269
01:20:45.920 --> 01:20:48.800
I get home and I wrapped my hand, my hand,

1270
01:20:48.920 --> 01:20:53.800
my fist, I banged it up, and my grandmother was like,

1271
01:20:54.000 --> 01:20:56.359
you know what happened where you've been? And I was like,

1272
01:20:57.079 --> 01:21:00.600
I was like, nah, you know, I'm right, everything's cool.

1273
01:21:00.720 --> 01:21:05.079
So my mother comes upstairs and she says, listen, what

1274
01:21:05.199 --> 01:21:07.680
the fuck happened to you last night? I said, what

1275
01:21:07.680 --> 01:21:10.159
do you mean? She said, the cops came to the

1276
01:21:10.159 --> 01:21:14.039
house and said they found the car door open with

1277
01:21:14.119 --> 01:21:18.119
the keys on the floor to the car and nobody

1278
01:21:18.319 --> 01:21:21.520
in sight. And they were one, they know, what's your car?

1279
01:21:21.560 --> 01:21:23.560
They were wondering where the fuck you are? What the

1280
01:21:23.600 --> 01:21:27.640
fuck happened? I was like, I don't know. I just

1281
01:21:28.359 --> 01:21:31.359
I don't know. I must have fallen asleep halfway or whatever.

1282
01:21:31.399 --> 01:21:33.680
I don't know what the fuck. And she was like,

1283
01:21:33.680 --> 01:21:36.039
all right, just get some rest. You look a little tired.

1284
01:21:37.359 --> 01:21:41.760
Cops come to the house and it was it was

1285
01:21:41.840 --> 01:21:45.239
it was Sammy the cop and it was George, and

1286
01:21:45.279 --> 01:21:47.600
they were like, listen, man, we just got a call

1287
01:21:47.720 --> 01:21:51.479
from from the hospital saying that you left and you

1288
01:21:51.520 --> 01:21:53.640
needed to stay there. So either you're gonna come back

1289
01:21:53.680 --> 01:21:55.359
with us willingly or we're gonna have to take you

1290
01:21:55.439 --> 01:21:58.479
by force, but you have to go to the hospital.

1291
01:21:59.880 --> 01:22:01.439
So I was like, all right, I go to the hospital.

1292
01:22:01.479 --> 01:22:05.840
I spend some time in the unit, and that whole

1293
01:22:05.880 --> 01:22:09.760
time I was thinking to myself, I was like, what

1294
01:22:09.800 --> 01:22:14.279
the fuck was I thinking? I could have not only

1295
01:22:14.479 --> 01:22:18.640
end in my life, I could have ended somebody else's, right,

1296
01:22:19.600 --> 01:22:25.000
you know what I mean? And I just it was

1297
01:22:25.039 --> 01:22:26.760
it was just one of those moments in my life

1298
01:22:26.800 --> 01:22:33.319
that that helped. That helped me realize that, Yo, I'm

1299
01:22:33.800 --> 01:22:36.479
I'm here for a reason, man, it's I'm here to

1300
01:22:36.640 --> 01:22:42.920
do something for somebody or or too something, you know

1301
01:22:42.960 --> 01:22:45.640
what I'm saying. I thought I started thinking more about

1302
01:22:45.680 --> 01:22:48.119
my kids, I started thinking more about a lot of shit,

1303
01:22:49.399 --> 01:22:53.760
you know. And I mean, I've been down a couple

1304
01:22:53.760 --> 01:22:57.840
of times after that, but it's never gotten to that point,

1305
01:22:58.000 --> 01:23:02.520
you know what I'm saying, Because not that you don't

1306
01:23:02.920 --> 01:23:09.720
you don't. You don't grow if you don't experience you

1307
01:23:09.760 --> 01:23:12.760
know what I'm saying, Like, if you don't experience certain

1308
01:23:12.800 --> 01:23:16.439
things in your life, you know, you don't grow. And

1309
01:23:16.520 --> 01:23:22.680
I grew from that situation, like I learned that that no,

1310
01:23:22.680 --> 01:23:24.880
no matter what the fuck, man, if you're here for

1311
01:23:24.920 --> 01:23:27.039
a reason, man, you're gonna stay here till your purpose

1312
01:23:27.159 --> 01:23:30.159
is fulfilled. You know what I'm saying. And that that's

1313
01:23:30.159 --> 01:23:31.159
how I feel about that.

1314
01:23:31.159 --> 01:23:31.319
Man.

1315
01:23:31.359 --> 01:23:34.600
That's that's that's just that was just a little storytime.

1316
01:23:34.680 --> 01:23:38.479
I just had to say something about that because I've

1317
01:23:38.640 --> 01:23:43.279
I've been like, I've been thinking a lot about my

1318
01:23:43.279 --> 01:23:45.880
my mortality and ship. I used to go. I used

1319
01:23:45.880 --> 01:23:47.800
to when I was when when everybody's a kid when

1320
01:23:47.840 --> 01:23:50.239
you're young and you're growing up and you think you're

1321
01:23:50.279 --> 01:23:55.640
invincible and ship what I'm saying. And and the older,

1322
01:23:55.680 --> 01:23:59.359
the older I get the moment realized that you know,

1323
01:23:59.520 --> 01:24:04.479
it's you're living on borrow time, man. You know, and

1324
01:24:04.520 --> 01:24:08.640
if and if your time isn't your time, it's not

1325
01:24:08.720 --> 01:24:12.520
your time. It'll happen when when it happens. And it

1326
01:24:12.600 --> 01:24:14.520
wasn't meant for me to go at those times. And

1327
01:24:16.000 --> 01:24:22.880
you know, I I've been. I've been, damn man. I've

1328
01:24:22.920 --> 01:24:29.720
been in and out of places when I was a

1329
01:24:29.800 --> 01:24:35.479
kid too. Like there was this place called fair Oaks

1330
01:24:36.279 --> 01:24:38.359
that's in Summit. I don't know if it's there anymore.

1331
01:24:38.359 --> 01:24:40.920
It might be under a different name, but it was

1332
01:24:41.039 --> 01:24:44.720
called fair Oaks. It was in Summit, New Jersey. And

1333
01:24:47.600 --> 01:24:51.640
they did they did some ill ship to me there

1334
01:24:51.640 --> 01:24:57.039
in the hospital, bro. Like I used to get ect treatments.

1335
01:24:57.079 --> 01:25:00.439
You know what that ship is. That's not a shot treatments,

1336
01:25:00.760 --> 01:25:03.239
that's not I got twelve of those treatments when I

1337
01:25:03.279 --> 01:25:07.119
was in at the hospital, bro, And and they all

1338
01:25:07.119 --> 01:25:09.000
I would wake up was a fucking headache and some

1339
01:25:09.159 --> 01:25:12.039
memory loss. They said that that was supposed to be

1340
01:25:12.159 --> 01:25:15.199
like the best way to shock the depression out of

1341
01:25:15.239 --> 01:25:17.319
somebody or some shit, to shock it out of you.

1342
01:25:18.119 --> 01:25:20.600
But that shit's in humane, bro, they should not have

1343
01:25:20.640 --> 01:25:24.439
been doing that shit. But I I experienced a lot

1344
01:25:24.439 --> 01:25:27.600
of that ship, and I'm just glad that I'm here

1345
01:25:27.640 --> 01:25:30.479
with y'all. I'm here now with my kids, and I

1346
01:25:30.520 --> 01:25:33.199
got my grandkids, and I got you know what I'm saying,

1347
01:25:33.199 --> 01:25:35.039
I got, I got it, I got an okay life

1348
01:25:35.079 --> 01:25:38.720
like I'm not. I'm not, you know, I'm grateful, you

1349
01:25:38.760 --> 01:25:45.840
know what I mean. And you know if I think,

1350
01:25:45.880 --> 01:25:48.079
and I also think that's one of the reasons why

1351
01:25:48.079 --> 01:25:52.319
I like I like to I don't have any any

1352
01:25:52.439 --> 01:25:59.840
kind of like issue or or any kind of like like.

1353
01:25:59.880 --> 01:26:02.960
There's no I have no no like, I have no

1354
01:26:03.000 --> 01:26:05.359
stigma like I don't. I'm not afraid to talk about

1355
01:26:05.359 --> 01:26:08.359
my ship, you know what I'm saying, because if whatever

1356
01:26:08.399 --> 01:26:11.439
I talk about can open up somebody else's eyes or

1357
01:26:11.439 --> 01:26:14.520
help somebody, you know what I mean, then then so

1358
01:26:14.680 --> 01:26:18.479
be it. But I just I just feel like, you know,

1359
01:26:20.159 --> 01:26:22.960
I can teach somebody to help somebody with some and

1360
01:26:23.039 --> 01:26:25.319
even even with fantasy football, if anybody wants to learn

1361
01:26:25.359 --> 01:26:27.960
how to play fantasy football and ship. You know what

1362
01:26:28.000 --> 01:26:30.359
I'm saying, I'm really good at that ship too. You know,

1363
01:26:30.399 --> 01:26:32.319
I got a couple of championships. Look, I got a

1364
01:26:32.399 --> 01:26:34.760
championship ring right here, you know what.

1365
01:26:35.760 --> 01:26:36.079
You know what?

1366
01:26:36.279 --> 01:26:40.800
Like but but not hold up real quick, but all reallessness.

1367
01:26:41.319 --> 01:26:44.880
You know, if if anybody wants to hit up anybody

1368
01:26:44.880 --> 01:26:48.359
from the show, the email addresses are coming across the bottom.

1369
01:26:48.680 --> 01:26:51.800
If you want to speak to a specific you know, host,

1370
01:26:51.840 --> 01:26:54.159
co host, whatever it is. You know what I'm saying.

1371
01:26:54.439 --> 01:26:56.920
Email addresses are on the bottom. They'll be glad to

1372
01:26:56.960 --> 01:26:59.520
get back to you and holler at you about whatever

1373
01:26:59.520 --> 01:27:00.560
it is you want talk about.

1374
01:27:01.000 --> 01:27:07.439
Any you know what, real quick, thanks, real quick, real quick. Right,

1375
01:27:09.079 --> 01:27:13.119
you've been around for the times where like you've been

1376
01:27:13.159 --> 01:27:14.960
around for the times where like I was like by

1377
01:27:15.000 --> 01:27:17.680
my self destructive shit. And that's and that was the

1378
01:27:17.720 --> 01:27:20.760
span of twenty years, you know what I'm saying, Like,

1379
01:27:21.159 --> 01:27:26.039
for instance, the Wildwood incident, were overdosed mm hmm. I

1380
01:27:26.039 --> 01:27:28.600
woke up yo, I woke up wild Wood. I woke

1381
01:27:28.720 --> 01:27:31.640
up one morning drinking a hundred proof liquor at five

1382
01:27:31.680 --> 01:27:33.920
in the morning, and then like I had like two

1383
01:27:33.920 --> 01:27:38.079
ecstasy pills right, I popped one, drank more liquor before

1384
01:27:38.119 --> 01:27:40.479
they even got up. I was already drunk on the

1385
01:27:40.479 --> 01:27:44.520
boardwalk and highest shit. And the last thing I remembered

1386
01:27:44.800 --> 01:27:47.000
was popping another pill on the boardwalk because I forgot

1387
01:27:47.000 --> 01:27:49.359
to pop the first pill right, and the second was

1388
01:27:49.399 --> 01:27:51.840
a lot stronger. I was starting with some girl from

1389
01:27:51.880 --> 01:27:54.119
Philly and she was sitting on my lap and we're

1390
01:27:54.119 --> 01:27:56.279
playing the drinking game. Then all of a sudden, shit

1391
01:27:56.399 --> 01:28:00.159
hit and then like I remember, just stumbling to the

1392
01:28:02.199 --> 01:28:05.359
to the bathroom. I was trying to like throw up.

1393
01:28:06.199 --> 01:28:07.920
Couldn't prove up, but.

1394
01:28:07.880 --> 01:28:09.640
I could have, but I couldn't throw up with nothing.

1395
01:28:10.520 --> 01:28:11.960
But like, yo, you know what, Yeah, you know what

1396
01:28:11.960 --> 01:28:13.479
I'm saying. It was all fun and jokes at the time,

1397
01:28:13.479 --> 01:28:15.279
but like, yo, I was dying, you know what I'm saying,

1398
01:28:15.319 --> 01:28:18.000
Like like I literally passed out, and you know what

1399
01:28:18.039 --> 01:28:20.560
I'm about to say. I don't know if it's drugs

1400
01:28:20.640 --> 01:28:24.359
or nothing, but I saw these I saw these dudes,

1401
01:28:24.399 --> 01:28:27.119
like I saw Colee on and Jay kick you know

1402
01:28:27.119 --> 01:28:29.039
what I'm saying, kick the door and move my body.

1403
01:28:29.119 --> 01:28:32.000
And I'm floating and I'm watching this ship and they're

1404
01:28:32.039 --> 01:28:33.520
slapping the ship out of me. They're like, Yo, this

1405
01:28:33.560 --> 01:28:36.319
nigga's not breathing. You know what I'm saying, Like, Yo,

1406
01:28:36.359 --> 01:28:38.920
he's not breathing. He's not breathing, and like they just

1407
01:28:38.920 --> 01:28:43.399
threw me into the bathtub and threw water on me, right,

1408
01:28:44.159 --> 01:28:47.000
like threw water on my face and whatever. Yeah, and

1409
01:28:47.039 --> 01:28:49.720
like that's the last thing that's I've seen it. But

1410
01:28:49.760 --> 01:28:52.159
that's the last thing I remember, you know what I'm saying.

1411
01:28:52.159 --> 01:28:54.159
But I was like like, like I said, I don't

1412
01:28:54.159 --> 01:28:56.359
know if it was the drugs, but I was like

1413
01:28:56.479 --> 01:29:01.680
floating over and seeing this ship happen. Then all of

1414
01:29:01.720 --> 01:29:03.359
a sudden, like my face is all whin. I'm like, yo,

1415
01:29:03.479 --> 01:29:05.960
what's going on? And I couldn't even get up, Like

1416
01:29:05.960 --> 01:29:07.760
I had to crawl to the bed and I slept

1417
01:29:08.199 --> 01:29:08.520
for like.

1418
01:29:09.159 --> 01:29:12.439
Probably one told him we would have to call his mom.

1419
01:29:12.920 --> 01:29:15.680
He soaped up a little bit before he went yeah

1420
01:29:16.199 --> 01:29:19.159
yeah you know, like yeah, you were like call your

1421
01:29:19.159 --> 01:29:20.239
mom and she was he was.

1422
01:29:20.199 --> 01:29:23.039
Like, h bro, like that first off, you know what

1423
01:29:23.039 --> 01:29:25.600
I'm saying, what like like I remember that part. I

1424
01:29:25.640 --> 01:29:27.920
was like yo, like I was struggling to like stay alive,

1425
01:29:28.000 --> 01:29:32.000
Like I was scared, Like see that that's not like

1426
01:29:32.079 --> 01:29:33.640
you know what, I was like fucked up, but I

1427
01:29:33.680 --> 01:29:37.239
was scared, you know what I'm saying, like like like

1428
01:29:37.279 --> 01:29:38.720
you know what, Like I try to like move my

1429
01:29:38.760 --> 01:29:40.760
hand a little bit, try to try to fill a post,

1430
01:29:40.760 --> 01:29:42.600
and every time I didn't feel nothing, I was like, yo, fuck,

1431
01:29:42.640 --> 01:29:45.479
I'm dying, bro. Like I was like literally scared, bro,

1432
01:29:45.560 --> 01:29:49.079
like like you know, like it's a joke now, you know,

1433
01:29:49.199 --> 01:29:54.800
But that's one, you know what I'm saying. The times,

1434
01:29:54.840 --> 01:29:57.560
like you know, I would drink like a gallon of

1435
01:29:57.560 --> 01:29:59.720
Tito's in front of this dude. You'll try to take

1436
01:29:59.720 --> 01:30:04.239
my key. I'm like, nah, I'll wing it and drive home.

1437
01:30:04.279 --> 01:30:07.800
I don't remember how I got home, right. There was

1438
01:30:07.840 --> 01:30:09.640
one time I was like all the way up in

1439
01:30:09.680 --> 01:30:12.760
the lake a pack on, drunk as hell, drunk and

1440
01:30:12.760 --> 01:30:16.800
coked up, driving home at three in the morning, almost

1441
01:30:16.840 --> 01:30:18.560
hitting in there. And that's the last thing I remembered,

1442
01:30:19.279 --> 01:30:21.279
like like you know what, Like I was on eighty

1443
01:30:22.279 --> 01:30:23.800
going down, you know what I'm saying. The last thing

1444
01:30:23.840 --> 01:30:27.800
I remember was like passing Morristown and I don't remember

1445
01:30:27.880 --> 01:30:31.960
nothing after that. I woke up in my car at

1446
01:30:31.960 --> 01:30:36.319
seven in the morning, right behind City Hall, right my

1447
01:30:36.399 --> 01:30:40.199
car was winning and it's winter time. You know, like

1448
01:30:40.800 --> 01:30:42.079
I put my you know what I'm saying, I put

1449
01:30:42.079 --> 01:30:43.279
my life out. You know what I'm saying that risk

1450
01:30:43.279 --> 01:30:46.079
because I did not care. I just didn't care, Like

1451
01:30:47.159 --> 01:30:52.000
you know, I had no care about nothing, you know,

1452
01:30:52.159 --> 01:30:56.319
like nothing didn't matter to me. Life itself didn't matter

1453
01:30:56.359 --> 01:31:02.680
to me, you know. And like the day I got

1454
01:31:02.680 --> 01:31:07.479
my D why like once again, liquor and drug like

1455
01:31:07.800 --> 01:31:11.560
see see, liquor will always be my demon, you know

1456
01:31:11.600 --> 01:31:16.760
what I'm saying, because like it opens me to other things.

1457
01:31:17.399 --> 01:31:22.239
So it's liquor. Like I was at my barber's house

1458
01:31:22.560 --> 01:31:24.960
getting a haircut. I woke up. I had a dream

1459
01:31:25.000 --> 01:31:29.479
about my brother who recently passed away. And I remember

1460
01:31:29.479 --> 01:31:32.000
the dream so vividly because like it was me and

1461
01:31:32.119 --> 01:31:34.680
him talking. I was telling him I missed him, and

1462
01:31:35.640 --> 01:31:37.239
we're talking like you know, we gave each other a

1463
01:31:37.319 --> 01:31:40.239
hug whatever. I'm like, bro, man, like I'm so happy

1464
01:31:40.239 --> 01:31:42.239
to see you, and this that and the third. So

1465
01:31:42.279 --> 01:31:44.199
then like you know, like we're talking to the dream

1466
01:31:44.199 --> 01:31:45.880
and he was like, hey, I gotta go. So I

1467
01:31:45.920 --> 01:31:47.159
was like, yeah, I walk with you. He was like,

1468
01:31:47.239 --> 01:31:50.640
now you can't come. And like when he walked away.

1469
01:31:50.680 --> 01:31:52.239
I was like trying to walk, but I couldn't. I

1470
01:31:52.279 --> 01:31:55.399
was trying to follow him, but then like I felt

1471
01:31:55.399 --> 01:31:57.800
like I was I was like stuck, still trying to walk,

1472
01:31:58.119 --> 01:31:59.960
like my feet was moving, but I was like stationed

1473
01:32:00.039 --> 01:32:04.319
every like like on a I'm one of those like

1474
01:32:04.359 --> 01:32:07.720
walking things in the gym, the stationary. Yeah, my bag

1475
01:32:07.800 --> 01:32:11.920
came and pronounced I'm a little tired, and I like

1476
01:32:12.439 --> 01:32:16.479
when I woke up, I woke up crying. So that

1477
01:32:16.560 --> 01:32:19.439
set the tone for that day. I went and got

1478
01:32:19.439 --> 01:32:21.920
a gallon of titos, was drinking what my you know

1479
01:32:21.960 --> 01:32:24.600
what I'm saying. I was drinking the titos or whatever, and

1480
01:32:24.640 --> 01:32:28.359
my father's cut in my hair. Right. Yeah, more people

1481
01:32:28.399 --> 01:32:31.560
come the one I knew that, you know, they had

1482
01:32:31.600 --> 01:32:35.159
like a little powder, so I copped it from him

1483
01:32:35.199 --> 01:32:38.760
without you know, knowing knowing. Went to the bathroom, you know,

1484
01:32:39.199 --> 01:32:40.720
doing bumps, and I was like, you know what I'm

1485
01:32:40.760 --> 01:32:42.760
gonna I'm gonna do a whole lot. I'm gonna rail

1486
01:32:42.800 --> 01:32:47.520
this whole bag, you know, Like I felt like Scarface

1487
01:32:47.560 --> 01:32:51.199
for a minute. I'm like, okay, I reloaded. It's like

1488
01:32:51.239 --> 01:32:54.760
you know, like once like you know, like certain drugs

1489
01:32:54.800 --> 01:33:01.119
getting into you like liquor tastes like water. So then

1490
01:33:01.159 --> 01:33:02.560
I went to go get Then I went to go

1491
01:33:02.640 --> 01:33:06.159
get another bottle, and then like somebody else came down

1492
01:33:06.239 --> 01:33:08.000
and I knew they had pills, so I capt three

1493
01:33:08.039 --> 01:33:12.239
pills from them purpose sizes. I popped when I was drinking,

1494
01:33:12.279 --> 01:33:13.479
Like you know what. That day, I just had a

1495
01:33:13.520 --> 01:33:17.720
death wish, you know. But at the same time, I

1496
01:33:17.760 --> 01:33:21.800
just didn't want to feel nothing, you know, like I

1497
01:33:21.840 --> 01:33:27.800
wasn't trying to feel nothing. So my brother was telling me.

1498
01:33:27.840 --> 01:33:30.119
He's like, Yo, you're a grown man, but I think

1499
01:33:30.159 --> 01:33:32.520
you should stay here. I remember the conversation. He's like, Yo,

1500
01:33:32.600 --> 01:33:34.840
just keep yi. I'm gonna take your keys. I'm like, nah, bro,

1501
01:33:34.960 --> 01:33:36.399
you know what I'm saying. And I got pissed off

1502
01:33:36.439 --> 01:33:38.479
at him, like I'm like, nigga, give my fucking keys, bro,

1503
01:33:39.560 --> 01:33:41.560
you know what I'm saying. He was like a bro, Yo,

1504
01:33:42.840 --> 01:33:44.800
He's like, you're sober, right. I'm like, yeah, man, I'm sober.

1505
01:33:44.800 --> 01:33:46.399
I haven't. I haven't drank nothing, you know what I'm saying.

1506
01:33:46.399 --> 01:33:50.800
Since nine o'clock it was midnight. I thought I was sober.

1507
01:33:50.880 --> 01:33:52.800
When I got into the car and I started driving,

1508
01:33:53.760 --> 01:33:56.880
That's when everything came back up. That's when everything like,

1509
01:34:00.800 --> 01:34:02.920
that's when everything, like all the liquor that I was drinking,

1510
01:34:03.319 --> 01:34:07.279
it showed itself. The car, fuck, I said, well, I'm

1511
01:34:07.319 --> 01:34:12.479
halfway here, so I'm driving, and I don't remember anything else.

1512
01:34:13.119 --> 01:34:16.159
I do remember getting to the Wholeboken though. Don't ask

1513
01:34:16.159 --> 01:34:17.880
me how I got there, because I can't tell you that.

1514
01:34:19.199 --> 01:34:23.760
My guardian Angel was working overtime that day. Right, I

1515
01:34:23.800 --> 01:34:29.960
parked the car, and I'm like, yes, I made it right.

1516
01:34:30.399 --> 01:34:32.359
And I parked the car pretty good too. I was like,

1517
01:34:32.560 --> 01:34:33.920
you know what I'm saying, open the door. I said, Yo,

1518
01:34:34.199 --> 01:34:37.000
not bad for a drunk ey ha ha, you know,

1519
01:34:37.079 --> 01:34:42.399
making a little joke. I turned the car off, and

1520
01:34:42.439 --> 01:34:44.279
I'm here trying to move, but I'm like, yo, I'm

1521
01:34:44.319 --> 01:34:48.920
just too fucking tired, and I just passed out. I

1522
01:34:48.960 --> 01:34:50.920
wake up like three and a half hours later, like

1523
01:34:50.960 --> 01:34:55.479
it's three thirty to like like eight to ten cops

1524
01:34:55.520 --> 01:35:00.079
around my car, and I'm like, what the fuck, Like

1525
01:35:00.079 --> 01:35:02.239
they were talking all this Gibberius shit and whatever, right,

1526
01:35:02.840 --> 01:35:05.000
and I really couldn't understand what the fuck they were saying.

1527
01:35:05.960 --> 01:35:09.319
So they give me a sobriety tests. I remember passing

1528
01:35:09.319 --> 01:35:12.079
the sobriety test. I passed that part because the police

1529
01:35:12.079 --> 01:35:15.359
reports I passed it, but I failed to breathalyze it

1530
01:35:16.279 --> 01:35:19.880
big time, so they took me in this stuff right,

1531
01:35:21.239 --> 01:35:24.520
And that was the first time I was ever embarrassed

1532
01:35:24.560 --> 01:35:27.800
about gannon arrested. And I've been arrested plenty of times,

1533
01:35:28.600 --> 01:35:30.640
but this was like the first time I was ever embarrassed,

1534
01:35:31.479 --> 01:35:35.239
like a shamed, Like I'm saying to myself, like, you know,

1535
01:35:35.319 --> 01:35:36.960
like that's what's like in the cop card, Like it

1536
01:35:37.039 --> 01:35:41.119
hit me. I'm like, what the fuck are you doing?

1537
01:35:41.960 --> 01:35:44.720
You know what I'm saying, Like, what is well? Yo?

1538
01:35:44.760 --> 01:35:45.800
What is your mouth functioned?

1539
01:35:45.800 --> 01:35:45.960
Now?

1540
01:35:46.000 --> 01:35:49.319
Bro? You know like you can't yo. You know what

1541
01:35:49.399 --> 01:35:52.880
they're like like, you know, like you out here putting

1542
01:35:53.439 --> 01:35:55.640
other people's lives at risk, out here putting your life

1543
01:35:55.640 --> 01:35:59.039
at risk, you know, like and then like you know,

1544
01:35:59.079 --> 01:36:01.279
like when I was handcuffed, I'm here thinking about the ship.

1545
01:36:01.640 --> 01:36:03.399
I'm like, Yo, what HAPs if I if I would

1546
01:36:03.439 --> 01:36:07.239
have collide a head on with a family and a

1547
01:36:07.279 --> 01:36:09.079
baby and you wiped out. You know what I'm saying,

1548
01:36:09.119 --> 01:36:12.439
you wept that you kill that baby. He's like, because

1549
01:36:12.479 --> 01:36:16.000
not ten times, you know the person who's drunk, they

1550
01:36:16.039 --> 01:36:19.399
survived an accident. Then this got free at that too,

1551
01:36:20.000 --> 01:36:23.199
free of in injury. I'm like, yo, I'm like, yo,

1552
01:36:23.199 --> 01:36:25.720
can you live with that? Can you do seventeen years?

1553
01:36:26.479 --> 01:36:27.920
You know what I'm saying? With blood on your hands

1554
01:36:28.039 --> 01:36:30.279
in a cell? Don't damn will you that you did

1555
01:36:30.279 --> 01:36:33.720
something like that? You know, Like I'm here thinking of

1556
01:36:33.800 --> 01:36:36.800
everything and everything. I'm like, Yo, something's got changed, bro,

1557
01:36:37.720 --> 01:36:41.279
you know, like I gotta get my shit together, you know,

1558
01:36:41.399 --> 01:36:43.880
like really I really got to get my shit together.

1559
01:36:44.239 --> 01:36:51.600
And but you know, so like I'm here checking, like

1560
01:36:51.600 --> 01:36:53.439
you know what I'm saying, like, you know, putting my

1561
01:36:53.479 --> 01:36:55.560
hands in like my side pockets because I had swept.

1562
01:36:55.560 --> 01:36:59.840
I was wearing sweatpants that they slide pockets, like cargo sweatpants, right,

1563
01:37:00.600 --> 01:37:05.000
and these cops in the fristbe right because I still

1564
01:37:05.000 --> 01:37:08.840
had two more pills. I was like, oh shit. I

1565
01:37:08.880 --> 01:37:10.800
was like, yo, you know what this puts me? This

1566
01:37:10.840 --> 01:37:12.600
puts me in a jam because like why does every

1567
01:37:12.600 --> 01:37:16.560
frisk me again? See what I mean? They frisk me

1568
01:37:16.600 --> 01:37:18.760
again because they could do that and they find that shit,

1569
01:37:18.760 --> 01:37:26.479
that's an extra charge. So so I was like, so's

1570
01:37:26.520 --> 01:37:28.199
the cop that we know that we used to go

1571
01:37:28.239 --> 01:37:29.920
to the bar with. And I ain't gonna mention his name.

1572
01:37:30.479 --> 01:37:32.960
He was working that night. He sees me. He's like, Yo,

1573
01:37:33.000 --> 01:37:34.800
what the fuck? Bro? Like I just read to report.

1574
01:37:34.840 --> 01:37:36.920
I'm like, I'm a little fucked up in the game

1575
01:37:37.000 --> 01:37:40.199
right now, Bro, you know what I'm saying. Like, he's like, damn, Bro.

1576
01:37:40.199 --> 01:37:42.039
I was like, Yo, I gotta use the bathroom. I

1577
01:37:42.079 --> 01:37:44.279
gotta go use the bathroom, like I was a guy back.

1578
01:37:44.279 --> 01:37:46.199
You know what I'm saying. I use the bathroom. He's like, yo,

1579
01:37:46.239 --> 01:37:48.520
I gotta watch it. I'm like, I don't care. So

1580
01:37:48.560 --> 01:37:52.920
I just got to pee. So I go pee right

1581
01:37:53.520 --> 01:37:55.479
and like and like, you know, like I had the

1582
01:37:55.479 --> 01:37:57.720
pills in my hands. I said, oh, you might gonna

1583
01:37:57.720 --> 01:38:00.560
wash my face a little bit. Suck stay up. He's

1584
01:38:00.560 --> 01:38:02.640
like yeah, yeah, yeah, So like I may wash my

1585
01:38:02.640 --> 01:38:04.680
face and me And while washing my face, I threw

1586
01:38:04.720 --> 01:38:07.199
the two pills in my mouth, right, and then I

1587
01:38:07.319 --> 01:38:09.800
threw like extra water, like little like drops of waters

1588
01:38:09.800 --> 01:38:15.680
at least. So I swallowed the ship pause and I

1589
01:38:15.720 --> 01:38:25.239
swallowed it pause right. Thirty minutes later, right, I got

1590
01:38:25.560 --> 01:38:28.159
so fucked up on these two pills. But I was like,

1591
01:38:28.159 --> 01:38:30.479
oh shit. I'm like, oh man, you know what, at

1592
01:38:30.520 --> 01:38:34.640
least I'm relaxed, you know, like, like I had no

1593
01:38:34.680 --> 01:38:38.399
other choice though, because I'm not trying to get hit

1594
01:38:38.439 --> 01:38:40.880
with the drug charge, you know. So I was like,

1595
01:38:40.880 --> 01:38:43.399
I gotta sacrifice something. You could have.

1596
01:38:43.399 --> 01:38:45.760
Flushed them or something instead of I.

1597
01:38:45.760 --> 01:38:46.479
Paid for them.

1598
01:38:46.640 --> 01:38:49.279
I paid for them. It was my last hurrah. You

1599
01:38:49.279 --> 01:38:52.520
know what I'm saying. That was not the time, yo.

1600
01:38:52.560 --> 01:38:55.439
You know what you fucked up? Yo? I paid for it.

1601
01:38:55.439 --> 01:38:58.119
It was my last hurrah, So like you know what

1602
01:38:58.159 --> 01:38:59.399
I'm saying. And I knew it was gonna be my

1603
01:38:59.439 --> 01:39:00.479
last hurrah, you know what I mean.

1604
01:39:00.600 --> 01:39:02.439
So it's like damn.

1605
01:39:03.199 --> 01:39:05.359
Like you know, like my parents came at like five

1606
01:39:05.439 --> 01:39:07.439
thirty in the morning to pick me up. They just

1607
01:39:07.479 --> 01:39:10.520
looked at me, right, and I couldn't even That was

1608
01:39:10.560 --> 01:39:12.159
the first time I couldn't even look at my parents.

1609
01:39:12.159 --> 01:39:17.560
So yo, I could, Yo, I could not look at

1610
01:39:17.560 --> 01:39:19.439
my parents. So you know what I'm saying, Like I

1611
01:39:19.520 --> 01:39:24.000
just had my head down right, and they were like

1612
01:39:24.079 --> 01:39:26.279
you want to talk about what happens? No, Like I

1613
01:39:26.319 --> 01:39:29.479
was just like so depressed, Like I went to my room, right,

1614
01:39:30.560 --> 01:39:31.720
you know what I'm saying. I went to my room

1615
01:39:31.720 --> 01:39:33.239
because like I was staying with them at the time.

1616
01:39:35.159 --> 01:39:39.399
I laid down and I just started like just like staring.

1617
01:39:39.399 --> 01:39:42.359
You know what I'm saying. I'm like, yo, Like like yo,

1618
01:39:42.399 --> 01:39:44.479
you know what, before I start getting more depressed, I

1619
01:39:44.479 --> 01:39:48.640
got to figure out what it is, you know. And

1620
01:39:48.640 --> 01:39:50.079
and I knew that, you know what I'm saying, Like

1621
01:39:50.359 --> 01:39:51.600
I was going through some you know what I'm saying

1622
01:39:51.960 --> 01:39:55.039
through some ship. But like that that ship with my brother,

1623
01:39:55.079 --> 01:39:57.920
I knew that it was unfinished, you know what I'm saying,

1624
01:39:58.720 --> 01:40:01.239
Like I wasn't finished morning m hm.

1625
01:40:02.239 --> 01:40:02.840
So it was like.

1626
01:40:05.159 --> 01:40:06.319
That's what it was, you know what I'm saying. Like

1627
01:40:06.359 --> 01:40:10.680
I was just holding back and like it just came out,

1628
01:40:10.840 --> 01:40:15.479
and you know, I was like yo, after that, man,

1629
01:40:15.520 --> 01:40:19.239
I'm like, I'm like, bro, something's got to give. Man,

1630
01:40:19.319 --> 01:40:23.359
Like like you know, like either either you know, like

1631
01:40:25.039 --> 01:40:30.319
either something changed or I might not even be here

1632
01:40:30.479 --> 01:40:38.920
the next week, you know, like and and yo, but

1633
01:40:39.000 --> 01:40:41.680
like like yo, you know what, Like like Corleone has

1634
01:40:41.680 --> 01:40:43.720
been you know what I'm saying, he's been present because

1635
01:40:43.720 --> 01:40:46.479
he even tried to snatch my keys before, right like funny,

1636
01:40:46.520 --> 01:40:48.640
like the funniest incident. I left his house drunk as hell.

1637
01:40:49.399 --> 01:40:51.760
I end up turning back around going up the wrong

1638
01:40:51.800 --> 01:40:55.439
street because I got lost. I'm like, yo, I don't

1639
01:40:55.439 --> 01:40:59.119
know where I'm at. Yoh, the cops here. I remember.

1640
01:40:59.319 --> 01:41:02.199
I remember that, Like I did not know, like like

1641
01:41:02.239 --> 01:41:04.239
I left this house, like I knew where to go

1642
01:41:04.680 --> 01:41:07.640
to cast the highway and stuff. But for some reason,

1643
01:41:07.680 --> 01:41:10.479
like my my whole like equal liver room was shot.

1644
01:41:10.560 --> 01:41:12.520
Like I got confused to where I was going. I

1645
01:41:12.520 --> 01:41:14.800
was like, oh shit, I don't know where I'm at,

1646
01:41:15.039 --> 01:41:18.560
you know. So like I ended up like driving back

1647
01:41:18.600 --> 01:41:21.079
to his house and just spending the night over there

1648
01:41:21.079 --> 01:41:24.159
because like I couldn't go nowhere, you know. But like

1649
01:41:25.720 --> 01:41:28.920
I understand the whole thing about being self destructive man,

1650
01:41:29.000 --> 01:41:31.640
because like if there was one, if there was one

1651
01:41:31.640 --> 01:41:34.680
person was self destructive, it was me, Like I self

1652
01:41:34.720 --> 01:41:39.239
destructing anything. I couldn't have nothing good, you know, whether

1653
01:41:39.279 --> 01:41:42.439
it be relationships, whether it be a standard relationship with

1654
01:41:42.479 --> 01:41:45.039
my parents, I couldn't have nothing good. I always have

1655
01:41:45.119 --> 01:41:49.680
to fuck it up somehow, you know, Like like you know,

1656
01:41:49.720 --> 01:41:52.920
what if something was too easy, I'm like, nah, let

1657
01:41:52.920 --> 01:41:55.520
me put my touch on it, because I'm used to it.

1658
01:41:56.319 --> 01:41:58.920
Because you know what I'm used to that organized chaos.

1659
01:41:59.039 --> 01:42:01.000
You know what I'm saying. I'm used to organized confusion

1660
01:42:01.000 --> 01:42:03.479
and organized chaos. Like that was the world I lived in,

1661
01:42:04.439 --> 01:42:06.840
you know, Like if something was going too good in

1662
01:42:06.840 --> 01:42:10.640
the relationship, I just wanted to spice things up because

1663
01:42:10.680 --> 01:42:15.159
I'm used to it. You know. It was like it

1664
01:42:15.239 --> 01:42:16.600
was like, you know what, like I didn't know that

1665
01:42:16.680 --> 01:42:18.760
I was like being a massive manipulator on some shit,

1666
01:42:20.439 --> 01:42:25.000
you know, but you know that's what happened. Like I

1667
01:42:25.039 --> 01:42:31.239
was manipulating a lot of things, and that's what they

1668
01:42:31.840 --> 01:42:33.760
caused me to be, like very and I was narcissistic

1669
01:42:33.800 --> 01:42:36.199
about it. So that's what got me that that's what

1670
01:42:36.279 --> 01:42:39.279
caused me to be very self destructive with it. And

1671
01:42:39.359 --> 01:42:41.479
you know, thank God, like I know, you know, like

1672
01:42:41.479 --> 01:42:43.800
being supposed to you know, touch on religion whatever, but

1673
01:42:44.359 --> 01:42:47.000
you know, I have my little beliefs here and God

1674
01:42:47.000 --> 01:42:50.399
has kept me alive for a reason, you know, Like

1675
01:42:50.439 --> 01:42:52.319
I'm always going to be an alcoholic, I'm always going

1676
01:42:52.399 --> 01:42:54.479
to be an addict. I'm always gonna be an opiate

1677
01:42:54.720 --> 01:42:58.079
opio and addict, an opiate addict, you know, I'm always

1678
01:42:58.119 --> 01:43:03.000
gonna be that, you know, Like, and I accept that

1679
01:43:03.079 --> 01:43:06.520
for what it is. That's the reason why, like you know,

1680
01:43:08.960 --> 01:43:11.800
you know, like like I'm like, I'm thankful I have

1681
01:43:11.960 --> 01:43:13.880
enough strength to be around people that drink because I

1682
01:43:13.880 --> 01:43:17.319
don't drink. You know, I could be around people that drink.

1683
01:43:17.840 --> 01:43:19.439
I could go in the barn just all the water

1684
01:43:19.479 --> 01:43:21.279
and pine up with just some cranberry juice and orange

1685
01:43:21.319 --> 01:43:24.960
juice all egg you know, like I could do that.

1686
01:43:25.760 --> 01:43:29.279
You know, like I have not want to taste no

1687
01:43:29.439 --> 01:43:32.640
liquor since done. And I'm going through a lot of

1688
01:43:32.640 --> 01:43:36.800
shit right now and this mind you this liquor at

1689
01:43:36.800 --> 01:43:39.800
my house right now, I haven't touched no liquor, no nothing.

1690
01:43:39.800 --> 01:43:42.760
I don't even want to smeile. I don't even drink

1691
01:43:42.800 --> 01:43:47.279
wine the minute, you know, because like my thing is

1692
01:43:47.279 --> 01:43:49.399
that the minute, the minute I get it taste for

1693
01:43:49.439 --> 01:43:52.239
liquor is the minute. You know, it's like a vampire

1694
01:43:52.239 --> 01:43:56.520
with blood, you know, like the men. You know what

1695
01:43:56.520 --> 01:43:58.319
I'm saying, Like the minute you get that taste, that

1696
01:43:58.359 --> 01:44:00.479
first taste of blood's gonna want it all. I found

1697
01:44:00.479 --> 01:44:02.520
that that's gonna be me all over again.

1698
01:44:03.960 --> 01:44:05.960
Yeah, you want to stay away from that ship, bro,

1699
01:44:06.479 --> 01:44:14.800
You gotta. Yeah, what about any anybody else with something

1700
01:44:14.840 --> 01:44:17.319
they've done that was self destructive that they want to

1701
01:44:17.600 --> 01:44:19.039
story time and be good with that.

1702
01:44:22.520 --> 01:44:24.640
TG is gonna be like I once went the Target

1703
01:44:24.800 --> 01:44:26.960
and called the Walmart. That's so constructive.

1704
01:44:30.479 --> 01:44:32.279
Some Karen like ship on my end.

1705
01:44:32.520 --> 01:44:39.000
No, t was getting exported by it, but teachers getting

1706
01:44:39.000 --> 01:44:41.479
exported about the security guard. She was like, I'm handy,

1707
01:44:41.600 --> 01:44:42.439
you ruffians.

1708
01:44:42.880 --> 01:44:52.960
I'm a crowd baby. Oh my god. No. I mean,

1709
01:44:53.039 --> 01:45:00.119
I feel like we all self sabotage. It's sort of

1710
01:45:00.760 --> 01:45:03.439
it's a destructive behavior that we have when we have

1711
01:45:03.479 --> 01:45:07.039
been let down, when we do put expectations on people

1712
01:45:07.359 --> 01:45:12.720
and they don't meet those expectations. It's sort of like

1713
01:45:12.840 --> 01:45:16.399
you just set yourself up every time, and that's what

1714
01:45:16.520 --> 01:45:22.079
it is. And the person might might be a good person,

1715
01:45:22.279 --> 01:45:25.359
they might be trustworthy and they didn't do anything, but

1716
01:45:25.439 --> 01:45:30.439
you're feeling like they're hiding something, Like you can't trust

1717
01:45:30.560 --> 01:45:36.000
people because your view is jaded on people because you've

1718
01:45:36.079 --> 01:45:41.119
given trust and it's been broken. So I think that's

1719
01:45:41.680 --> 01:45:45.840
a common thing for people to self sabotage. I mean

1720
01:45:45.920 --> 01:45:52.479
women especially talk very badly to themselves. A lot of

1721
01:45:52.520 --> 01:45:56.119
women do that, Like we say things and I don't know,

1722
01:45:56.239 --> 01:45:59.600
I can't speak for men, so but many women I

1723
01:45:59.640 --> 01:46:02.439
know have spoken very badly to themselves in ways that

1724
01:46:02.520 --> 01:46:06.479
you would never say that to someone you love. And

1725
01:46:06.520 --> 01:46:11.119
that's that's that self criticizing component in our brain that's

1726
01:46:11.199 --> 01:46:16.880
constantly like you're not good enough, or you know you

1727
01:46:16.880 --> 01:46:19.800
you did mess up. This is what you do? Uh?

1728
01:46:21.239 --> 01:46:24.279
You know, like there is a word you said, I

1729
01:46:24.319 --> 01:46:28.439
don't know who's gonna deal with me? And when you

1730
01:46:28.520 --> 01:46:31.520
said that, I was like, wow, why would you say that?

1731
01:46:32.000 --> 01:46:37.239
Why why deal with you? You're not someone who like

1732
01:46:37.760 --> 01:46:40.880
someone needs to deal with. You're someone that someone needs

1733
01:46:40.920 --> 01:46:46.319
to love and support. So it's not dealing with you,

1734
01:46:47.279 --> 01:46:54.159
it's accepting you is what you want, you know. So

1735
01:46:54.560 --> 01:46:59.600
we all have our insecurities, we all have our little

1736
01:47:00.880 --> 01:47:06.199
you know parts that been hurt are experiences that have

1737
01:47:07.720 --> 01:47:13.640
jaded us or have put us in a position to

1738
01:47:13.840 --> 01:47:16.720
not trust people easily. But I don't think that's a

1739
01:47:16.720 --> 01:47:19.159
bad thing, the whole not trusting people easily, because you

1740
01:47:19.239 --> 01:47:19.840
just never know.

1741
01:47:19.920 --> 01:47:25.239
There are a lot of assholes out there that there are, absolutely.

1742
01:47:25.000 --> 01:47:27.039
And there are a lot of people who are manipulative

1743
01:47:27.159 --> 01:47:32.159
and will try to use you, you know. But one

1744
01:47:32.159 --> 01:47:34.319
thing I've learned is that you really got to listen

1745
01:47:34.319 --> 01:47:37.800
to your gut because your gut really does tell you

1746
01:47:37.840 --> 01:47:41.640
when something is off, and you need to listen to

1747
01:47:41.680 --> 01:47:42.399
that ship.

1748
01:47:42.840 --> 01:47:44.960
Exactly like you tackles at three am.

1749
01:47:45.159 --> 01:47:49.920
Who doesn't definitely not white Castle white after drinking and

1750
01:47:49.960 --> 01:47:52.279
then going to white Castle. That was a smart idea,

1751
01:47:52.319 --> 01:47:52.760
like your ass.

1752
01:47:55.079 --> 01:48:00.319
No no, no, I got to the top that Checkers.

1753
01:48:00.920 --> 01:48:01.279
I don't.

1754
01:48:01.600 --> 01:48:04.600
We didn't really have to where was Checkers.

1755
01:48:04.199 --> 01:48:05.960
Right down communit, Paul. We used to go over there

1756
01:48:06.000 --> 01:48:07.960
like like like you know what, like we need to

1757
01:48:07.960 --> 01:48:10.239
be over there at all? What's the name that spot?

1758
01:48:10.319 --> 01:48:10.960
Man?

1759
01:48:11.760 --> 01:48:17.399
Yo? Caven point right drinking gain just drinking smoked out right,

1760
01:48:18.319 --> 01:48:19.720
and then like you know, we would roll over the

1761
01:48:19.800 --> 01:48:20.279
Checkers or.

1762
01:48:20.239 --> 01:48:23.680
Whatever Checkers on community bro.

1763
01:48:23.720 --> 01:48:27.039
My god, yo, you know what in order like math,

1764
01:48:27.119 --> 01:48:27.840
food and stuff?

1765
01:48:27.920 --> 01:48:30.319
Right, Chicken sandwiches were a dollar back then?

1766
01:48:30.720 --> 01:48:34.960
Oh my lord, the check yoa yo, the checker burgers,

1767
01:48:35.359 --> 01:48:35.960
you know what I'm saying.

1768
01:48:36.279 --> 01:48:39.640
And the chicken sandwiches are valiant though, oh man yo,

1769
01:48:40.039 --> 01:48:46.520
and the checker the checker fries and three chicken sandwiches

1770
01:48:46.520 --> 01:48:49.199
and the order of fries you good, yo, my.

1771
01:48:49.159 --> 01:48:53.680
God, it's like twelve dollars for a fucking big.

1772
01:48:53.560 --> 01:48:57.680
Mac or whatever yo, yo for that. You know what

1773
01:48:57.720 --> 01:48:59.439
I'm saying, Yo, You know what, if I want to

1774
01:48:59.439 --> 01:49:00.960
spend twelve, you know what I'm saying, I just go

1775
01:49:01.039 --> 01:49:03.000
to the fake right.

1776
01:49:03.119 --> 01:49:08.359
Like nowadays it's like, well, I could go to McDonald's.

1777
01:49:08.359 --> 01:49:12.359
It's been almost fifteen dollars for something, or for that,

1778
01:49:12.439 --> 01:49:14.600
I could get a whole fucking pizza I could get.

1779
01:49:14.800 --> 01:49:17.000
You know, there's other things you can get. Now you

1780
01:49:17.039 --> 01:49:19.640
can like make a choice. Before it was a no brainer.

1781
01:49:19.680 --> 01:49:22.920
It's like I'll do a file, a biggie bag whatever,

1782
01:49:23.159 --> 01:49:25.279
you know, Like it was like I got five bucks.

1783
01:49:26.279 --> 01:49:28.720
I remember. We always used to go to McDonald's and

1784
01:49:28.760 --> 01:49:33.279
get the two cheeseburgers. It was two ninety nine, two cheeseburgers, fries,

1785
01:49:33.279 --> 01:49:33.960
and a drink.

1786
01:49:34.399 --> 01:49:35.640
Three plus tax.

1787
01:49:36.039 --> 01:49:40.119
That's right, that's what the tax three seventeen yep. And

1788
01:49:40.359 --> 01:49:43.439
you know, make sure you have three seventeen for that ship.

1789
01:49:45.520 --> 01:49:49.159
Do you remember when they had the chicken fi heat

1790
01:49:49.199 --> 01:49:49.439
of the.

1791
01:49:49.439 --> 01:49:54.039
McDonald's Oh my god, oh man, I don't even know.

1792
01:49:54.279 --> 01:49:57.840
I remember. I even remember when they had salads. Didn't

1793
01:49:57.840 --> 01:50:01.279
they have like didn't they have like shaker salads or

1794
01:50:01.279 --> 01:50:03.600
something like that too or something.

1795
01:50:05.199 --> 01:50:05.600
They did?

1796
01:50:06.800 --> 01:50:08.880
They? Yeah, they used to have like a bunch of

1797
01:50:08.920 --> 01:50:14.560
different ship ribs, the big crib. Oh god yeah.

1798
01:50:15.960 --> 01:50:21.560
Yo yo yeah McDonald's right, and like it was some

1799
01:50:21.640 --> 01:50:23.680
Mexican dude I was getting that was getting my order

1800
01:50:23.720 --> 01:50:26.119
messed up. And I remember you were staying. He was

1801
01:50:26.159 --> 01:50:28.439
standing like right behind me and ship. I'm like, bro,

1802
01:50:28.520 --> 01:50:30.640
you're acting like a big asshole right now. You're sucking

1803
01:50:30.720 --> 01:50:38.560
up our order. Bro, get it right, big asshole. People laughing,

1804
01:50:38.640 --> 01:50:42.800
They're like, Yo, this call big asshole and I'm just playing.

1805
01:50:42.279 --> 01:50:45.520
I'm come on, it's a poppy man number one, Yo.

1806
01:50:46.159 --> 01:50:49.720
It ain't that hard, bro, number one.

1807
01:50:49.840 --> 01:50:52.880
I know you always wanted like knowing your number that

1808
01:50:52.920 --> 01:50:56.079
you were ordering, knew how much it was gonna be.

1809
01:50:58.680 --> 01:51:00.239
Or like sometimes you just one of them. But y

1810
01:51:00.359 --> 01:51:03.159
let me get a whopper yo, fam you McDonald's bro.

1811
01:51:03.520 --> 01:51:10.359
Oh yeah, my bad, sorry big back, Like yeah, you

1812
01:51:10.359 --> 01:51:11.840
know what I'm saying. They all right, my bad. Don't

1813
01:51:11.880 --> 01:51:13.199
let me get a big bag with Jesus.

1814
01:51:13.359 --> 01:51:15.560
So, so we're gonna go. We're gonna go around the

1815
01:51:15.600 --> 01:51:17.399
room real quick for the last time of the night,

1816
01:51:18.640 --> 01:51:20.359
Lady g your final thought for this.

1817
01:51:20.319 --> 01:51:31.359
Evening, final thought, hmm. Everybody is going through something. It's

1818
01:51:31.399 --> 01:51:34.920
not what happens, but what we do about it that matters.

1819
01:51:36.840 --> 01:51:41.800
I was short and sweet, Yes, true and true lady

1820
01:51:41.840 --> 01:51:42.560
g fashion.

1821
01:51:43.279 --> 01:51:44.039
Mm hmmm.

1822
01:51:47.279 --> 01:51:49.359
Dogs, what about you? Bro? What's your final thought for

1823
01:51:49.399 --> 01:51:50.079
the evening? Bro?

1824
01:51:52.600 --> 01:51:55.279
I was wondering, does that part in the draw really work?

1825
01:51:58.359 --> 01:52:02.119
M canna make money? How to generate income?

1826
01:52:02.359 --> 01:52:02.479
Well?

1827
01:52:02.520 --> 01:52:05.119
I don't know. I mean people fart on the covers

1828
01:52:05.159 --> 01:52:06.319
and put it over their head.

1829
01:52:06.720 --> 01:52:07.439
I mean it.

1830
01:52:07.319 --> 01:52:11.199
Lasts that long, right, go, you know what, you know

1831
01:52:11.279 --> 01:52:12.720
what I think I'm gonna do that to my girl

1832
01:52:12.800 --> 01:52:14.279
today just because you know, come on.

1833
01:52:14.439 --> 01:52:18.199
Don't you dare? Don't you dare? She doesn't deserve that,

1834
01:52:18.199 --> 01:52:19.000
that's wrong.

1835
01:52:20.800 --> 01:52:27.439
But I'm gonna do it anyways, because I'm a chirkhole.

1836
01:52:28.560 --> 01:52:28.880
Hello.

1837
01:52:29.319 --> 01:52:32.199
I mean you know, like no, not not not not

1838
01:52:32.760 --> 01:52:34.279
you know what and all honestly, you know what I'm saying.

1839
01:52:34.359 --> 01:52:36.520
My final thought is like, before you go love somebody

1840
01:52:36.520 --> 01:52:40.920
man like love, love yourself like even your flaws, love

1841
01:52:40.960 --> 01:52:43.359
your love your flaws too as well, because you know

1842
01:52:43.399 --> 01:52:47.640
what your flaws may be. This may be the thing

1843
01:52:47.760 --> 01:52:50.159
that that other person you're looking for, that other person

1844
01:52:50.279 --> 01:52:54.760
looking at love was about you. So whatever the flaws

1845
01:52:54.960 --> 01:52:59.159
was not a flaw to them right, absolutely, so just

1846
01:52:59.199 --> 01:53:02.279
like so it's like just love yourself, man, Like you

1847
01:53:02.279 --> 01:53:04.000
know what I'm saying a lot. You know what, even

1848
01:53:04.000 --> 01:53:05.439
if you know, even if you have to look in

1849
01:53:05.520 --> 01:53:08.000
the mirror, you know what I'm saying in the bathroom

1850
01:53:08.039 --> 01:53:11.880
mirroring and lot to yourself, keep lying until this sounds true.

1851
01:53:12.039 --> 01:53:14.199
And once it sounds true, then you start to believe it.

1852
01:53:14.239 --> 01:53:15.439
And then like you know what I'm saying, Once you

1853
01:53:15.439 --> 01:53:20.439
start to believe it, then it's the truth. Mm hm words, yeah,

1854
01:53:20.479 --> 01:53:22.159
you know what I'm saying. Like sometimes you know, sometimes

1855
01:53:22.159 --> 01:53:24.680
you have to like lot to yourself, you know what

1856
01:53:24.680 --> 01:53:28.800
I'm saying in a positive way, so everything could gel together,

1857
01:53:28.880 --> 01:53:33.000
you know, Like, so just keep you know what I'm saying,

1858
01:53:33.000 --> 01:53:35.560
Just keep saying this, Just keep telling you what I'm saying.

1859
01:53:35.600 --> 01:53:37.279
Just keep looking at that person in the mirror, because

1860
01:53:37.279 --> 01:53:40.359
that's the only competition. Nobody out here is your competition.

1861
01:53:40.399 --> 01:53:42.920
But the person is seeing the murror every morning, the

1862
01:53:42.960 --> 01:53:44.239
person is seeing the murder every night.

1863
01:53:45.680 --> 01:53:51.479
Absolutely TG love your final thought of the evening, M.

1864
01:53:52.960 --> 01:53:54.439
I have to go to the bathroom and I've been

1865
01:53:54.439 --> 01:54:01.239
holding it for quite some time. That's my thoughts. And

1866
01:54:01.279 --> 01:54:02.960
I'm like, oh my God, when are we get to

1867
01:54:02.960 --> 01:54:03.399
shut up?

1868
01:54:03.439 --> 01:54:03.479
No?

1869
01:54:04.279 --> 01:54:06.760
Uh, I just go back to what I said earlier.

1870
01:54:08.000 --> 01:54:12.239
If you're gonna talk shit and not like things, then vote.

1871
01:54:13.399 --> 01:54:16.840
Sorry, all right. My final thought for the evening is

1872
01:54:16.880 --> 01:54:20.079
actually a shout out. I'm going to give a shout

1873
01:54:20.079 --> 01:54:26.840
out to my dudes at Fort Bricks Productions. They're doing

1874
01:54:26.840 --> 01:54:31.600
big things over there, Fort Bricks Studios. All right, you

1875
01:54:32.359 --> 01:54:35.600
can check them out on TikTok. You know what I'm saying.

1876
01:54:35.800 --> 01:54:38.279
Right now. They got a bunch of hot shits flowing

1877
01:54:38.319 --> 01:54:41.000
over there. They're on a bunch of platforms. Go check

1878
01:54:41.079 --> 01:54:44.680
them out. For Bricks Productions, Fort Bricks Studios. They're doing

1879
01:54:44.720 --> 01:54:49.479
big things. Check them out. And as far as I'm concerned,

1880
01:54:49.640 --> 01:54:55.279
that is it for the evening. Good Night everybody, and

1881
01:54:55.560 --> 01:54:58.600
always remember that at some point.

1882
01:54:58.840 --> 01:55:00.279
This might hurt.

1883
01:55:01.560 --> 01:55:09.159
Good night people by, and my bad for being a

1884
01:55:09.159 --> 01:55:13.920
little late. Why is the time is still going on?

1885
01:55:15.319 --> 01:55:16.800
H yo?

1886
01:55:16.880 --> 01:55:17.359
What yo?

1887
01:55:18.600 --> 01:55:19.600
What? What's up the time?

1888
01:55:19.720 --> 01:55:20.600
What are we still alive?